Eighteen
JUSTINE DID NOT LINGER NEAR THE HOUSE OF WILLIAM
Doyle. He knew she came here from time to time to see her sister.
So far, he had not tried to stop it. She did not fool herself into
thinking she would come so close to his stronghold unless he
allowed.
Just lately she had not endeared herself to the
British. There had been an incident in Italy. The English really
should not involve themselves in the wars of Italy.
The route of her retreat involved much crawling
through mud. She followed the small stream and the cover of bushes.
In the day and a half she had waited for Séverine, she had spotted
several men patrolling. There were two now, one in the garden and
one on a hillock in the woods, who made only the smallest pretense
of working. And . . . Yes. She pulled back a stand of gray-green
weed. The grim young groom who accompanied her sister everywhere
leaned at the wall of the stable, polishing the metal of a bit, his
attention on the patch of bushes where he had left Séverine.
Her sister was well cared for. She was held within
that mansion as in careful cupped hands. She was given the pretty
riding habit and the sleek, playful pony. Given the tutor—he had
been a great scholar in France before he was broken and tossed
aside by the Revolution. That was another soul Marguerite gave
refuge to. Alert, dangerous veterans of the war, some missing an
eye or an arm, patrolled the perimeter. Three monster dogs coursed
the grounds after dark. If there were any peace and safety in the
world, William Doyle folded it around his wife and the children in
his house.
She came to the green swath of lawn where the river
widened. When Séverine arrived at the house there would be less
scrutiny in this direction.
Rain fell around her, soft and intricate, the tap
of it becoming indistinguishable from the splash of the stream. It
was not possible to tell where gray sky ended and gray rain began.
After so many months in Italy, England seemed very wet.
She stood with her back to a tree, letting emotions
run over her and around her as if she were a rock in a river with
the water going past. There was a hardness at the core of her life,
like a rock. A spy of her sort is very alone. She never felt so
alone as when she had been with her sister for a short time and
they must part again.
It was weak of her to keep coming back this way,
just to talk to her sister. It would be kinder to make a clean
break while Séverine still loved her. Before she understood what
her sister had been. Before Séverine asked questions and Marguerite
must tell her about the brothel in Paris.
The drizzle thickened. Mist rose and all was
hidden. Another minute or two and she could—
Cold metal bit at her throat.
A knife point. Fingers gripped her hair, pulling
her head back to expose her neck. The instant closed around her in
terror.
A man stood behind her, with death in his hand. She
did not flinch. It is not wise to flinch when someone holds a knife
to your throat. A sensible woman does not move at all. Hold still.
Breathe. She wavered in place the smallest amount with the pounding
of her heart.
A voice said, “Owl?”
No one else called her that anymore.
“’Awker.”
It was his body, immovable behind her. His breath
on the back of her neck. She should have recognized it
somehow.
The moment throbbed with danger. Hawker would not
kill her. She was sure of that. Almost sure. But he might well drag
her off to prison. One does not lightly invade England. One does
not capriciously approach the household of important British
agents, however much it is the home of one’s sister.
The knife no longer pricked at her throat. Roughly
he turned her around to face him. “What are you doing sneaking
around?”
“What do you think I am doing? Bird-watching? I
come to Séverine.” Calmly. She spoke calmly. No mean feat. It was a
hard, dark, unforgiving face that confronted her, devoid of humor.
And there was the knife.
She had seen him six months ago, in Verona. Their
eyes met across the Piazza dei Signoria. They were both pretending
to be Italian. France held the city, but matters were complicated
by the Austrian army marching about the countryside trying to take
it back, and the Veronese hated all foreigners equally, which was
not unreasonable of them. She and Hawker had both deemed it prudent
to turn in the opposite direction and walk away.
He had grown since she last stood this close to
him. He was not tall. He would never be tall. But he was now taller
than her.
She said, “I must see her, you know. I do not come
here often.”
Hawker put his knife away in an inner jacket
pocket, a single ingenious disappearance. He gazed upon her,
looking dangerous. Looking familiar and being very much a stranger.
“You shouldn’t be here at all. Now what do I do?”
“You will let me go, of course. I am not spying
upon all these fields of cows. I have no work in England at this
time. Do you think agents do not take holidays?”
It had begun to rain harder, which was the favored
choice of English weather. Hawker was bareheaded and water dripped
down his forehead, pulling his hair into thin black lines, sharp as
the knives he was so menacing with. He was becoming very wet. This
would not sweeten his temper.
He said, “The trouble dealing with you, Owl, is
that there’s no way to tell whether you’re lying.”
“What use would I be to my country if any passing
British Service agent could tell I was lying? I will admit it puts
me at a disadvantage when I happen to be telling the truth.”
“Fortunately, that doesn’t happen often.” He looked
around as if the dripping woods and the little running stream would
give him advice. “This is awkward. I should probably take your
weapons off you.”
“A cautious man would do that, certainly.”
“But I don’t think you’ll stab me a couple hundred
feet away from Sévie. It’s surprisingly difficult to get rid of a
body in Oxfordshire.”
“As you will know by experience, no doubt.”
He would not harm her. The possibility of that had
passed. He also would not drag her into William Doyle’s house in
disgrace and indignity. “Neither of us will do anything to hurt
Séverine. It is the most perfect of truces, is it not?”
He only growled at her, less pleased with this
stalemate than she was.
She said, “Why are you here, anyway? It is very
strange of you to be wandering in the damp shrubberies of
Oxfordshire. Me, I would be inside in front of one of your English
fires on a day like this.”
He wiped his face with the sleeve of his jacket.
“Right you are. I don’t know why I’m standing in the rain anyhow.”
He turned his back on her and stalked off into the drizzle.
She had forgotten, in three years, how much he was
master of such simple, brute subtlety. A shrug, a turning away, and
he discovered whether she meant to attack him. Or he invited her to
escape so he need not be bothered with deciding what to do with
her. She would not, however, shoot him or try to run away. She
possessed her own subtlety. She followed him and caught up and
walked alongside. “Where are we going?”
He gestured ahead, along the path. “I have a place
up that way.”
Of such unpromising material, great plans are
born.
She had thought of him, often and often, in the
three years since they parted in Paris. He was a person one
remembered vividly. Sometimes, confronting some particularly
egregious stupidity of this long war, she imagined telling him
about it. She could almost hear a caustic, cynical reply spoken
over her shoulder.
She had collected every small scrap of rumor about
him, all across Europe. She still carried his excellent knife. And
here he was. They met upon a neutral ground. Fate served him up to
her on a lordly platter.
Perhaps . . . A great perhaps grew in her
mind.
He was no longer the grubby boy she had known in
those desperate times in Paris. He was expensively and well
dressed. Not as a young country gentleman or a town beau, which
were modes altogether different. He wore the loose soft collar and
casual neckcloth of the liberal artistic set. He might have been a
student or painter walking about on holiday, strolling through the
countryside with friends, going from inn to inn, carrying luncheon
and a sketchbook in that leather bag over his shoulder.
He glanced at her from time to time as they walked.
He said abruptly, “You grew breasts.”
“Thank you. Do you know, there are many things one
may notice without commenting upon.”
“When did you get to be a woman, Owl?”
“I was a woman when you first met me.”
He shook his head, perfectly serious, as if he’d
given the matter consideration. “You were a kid. A scrawny
one.”
“Tu es galant. I am immeasurably
flattered.”
They spoke French, having fallen into it naturally,
without thinking. He sounded utterly Parisian now, with the bare
soup-çon of the Gascon tongue underneath. If she did not know
better, she would have thought he came from the south of France
when he was a child. This suited him, with his Gascon looks and the
arrogant assurance of the Gascon male. His voice was deeper than it
had been.
“We might speak English,” she said. “I have never
heard you do that.”
But she had. She remembered suddenly. Three years
ago, in Paris, when she was following him secretly, she had
overheard him hiss a dozen harsh words in an English she barely
understood, it was so much the language of the London poor.
“They don’t want me speaking English.” Humor sliced
across his face. “I don’t do it right.”
She would like to hear him speak English, “not
right.” It would make him seem even more himself. “I will cajole
you. I have lured many men into disobedience.”
“I’ll be one more of your dupes.” He said it in
English. “I fall into lots of bad habits.”
Ah . . . but he no longer spoke the Cockney of
London. His English had become overprecise, slow, careful of every
syllable, as if it were not his native language. It was a pleasure
to see him a little ill at ease. He had entirely too much
self-assurance.
She, on the other hand, was very proud of her
English. She had almost no accent. “You have not explained why you
make the squashings about in the wood of the house of Doyle. Why
are you haunting the bushes?”
“Somebody’s got to keep an eye out for French spies
in the underbrush. And what do you know, I found one.”
“I am the delightful happenstance, am I not?”
“Too bloody right.”