Fifteen
1818
Meeks Street, London
THEY WAITED BY HER BED, DRINKING TEA, THEN coffee
as it got later. For a few hours, Hawker thought she’d escaped the
poison. After sunset, he knew she hadn’t.
It came over her like cold mist lying down on a
hill. The restless, nervous, pained movements stopped. She lay on
the bed in a limp, unnatural stillness. Her breathing changed.
Caught. Ratcheted. Became shallow gasps. She was dying, and there
was nothing he could do.
A shudder. Then another shudder ran through her. A
strangled sound in her throat.
He put his hand on her chest. This isn’t
happening. I won’t let this happen.
He heard Luke’s footsteps in the hall. At
last.
Luke dropped his medical bag by the door. Strode to
the foot of the bed. He stripped the blankets off her in a single
motion.
“She can’t breathe,” Doyle said. “It’s getting
worse.”
“Tremor? Jerking in her muscles? Stiffness in her
neck? Her back?”
“Not that.” Doyle pulled the cover the rest of the
way off.
Luke felt the muscles of her calf. Hooked her ankle
up and flexed her foot back and forth. Ran his finger along the
bottom of her foot. “Not responsive. Paralysis.”
Her lips had gone blue. Panicked, half-conscious,
she convulsed, trying to suck air in. She gurgled ugly, shallow
pants.
Slowly, painfully, horribly, she was suffocating
before his eyes. And she couldn’t move.
“Help her, damn it.”
“There’s nothing I can do,” Luke snapped. “Her
muscles aren’t working. Not even any reflexes. The diaphragm
can’t—”
She needed air. He’d give her air. He opened her
mouth with his fingers and blew air inside her, hard.
It puffed back out. He blew in again.
Luke said, “Do that.” He leaned over to look in her
face. “Do that again.”
The air was getting inside her. She was less
desperate.
“There’s a Frenchman.” Luke ran his hands over
Justine’s ribs, feeling them expand with the air. “Frenchman. Can’t
remember his name. Wrote a monograph. Lay her down.” He put the
heels of his hands below her breasts and pressed down all his
weight. Air whistled out of her. “Blow in again.”
She was trying to breathe. Hawker did it for
her.
“This Frenchman talked about doing this for
drowning men.” Luke pushed down. Her breath whooshed out. The bed
sagged. “I didn’t think it would work.”
The air had to get out of her, before he could put
more in. They needed a hard surface. “The bed’s too soft. Get her
down on the floor.”
She flopped on the rug like a rag doll. He knelt at
her head.
“She’s bleeding under the bandage,” Doyle said.
“Bleeding bad.”
“Then stop it,” he snapped. He gave her air.
“More. More,” Luke said. “Enough.” He waited a
beat. Shoved downward on her chest. “Good. Again. Let me know when
you start to feel light-headed.”
Another breath into her. “Damned if I’ll let you
die.” He knelt beside her and breathed for her.
They took turns keeping her alive. Past midnight,
she started taking in air on her own. When she got reliable at it,
they lifted her back to the bed and set chairs around it. They just
sat there, staring at each other, exhausted and relieved.
At three in the morning, the fever began.

SHE felt so hot. Her arm ached, sharply. Pain
radiated through her body, into her chest. Pain had been in the
dreams with her.
She was on her back, naked and damp. Her skin
crawled with heat. Itchy with the heat. The light coming in the
window said it was dawn. Still raining.
Someone had followed her in the rain and stabbed
her. She had never been careless. Her attacker must be very, very
good.
“It was one man. I didn’t see his face. Just a
glimpse.” Her throat was dry. She made almost no sound.
“Water.”
“Don’t move. I’ll help you drink.”
“. . . Papers.”
“Safe. Downstairs. We’re drying them out. Drink
this.” She ached hollowly, as if a bell of pain clanged in her
chest. He put an arm behind her and let her drink. Then she was
flat again, looking up at the ceiling. He looped her hair around
his hand and laid it to the side on the pillow, out of the
way.
There was no square foot in the hallways of her
body that did not hurt. The covers were hot. Stifling. It was too
much trouble to move. Easier to just be too hot. She closed her
eyes.
She was safe. Hawker would not let anything happen
to her.