Act Three. Scene Eight.
Esti wasn’t sure how long Rafe held her. He didn’t
ask her to talk, he just sat with his arms around her, gently
rocking her. He wrapped a blanket around them both and leaned
against the wall, pulling her close to him. They listened to the
furious wind and the distant pounding of the sea while he stroked
her hair.
Eventually his hand dropped to his side, and Esti
knew he had fallen into an unsettled sleep. For a long time she sat
without moving, without thinking, without feeling. She was
threadbare and wrung-out, like a tired old washcloth. Other than
the storm, she hadn’t heard any sounds from upstairs, but she knew
Alan must be in the living room, silent and alone. With a sigh, she
looked at the clock.
Four in the morning. Aurora would be frantic.
Rafe was right about one thing: Alan had a hold on
her. It wasn’t the promise he had forced from her to save Rafe’s
life. No matter that she honestly loved Rafe, Alan had trapped her
the first time he spoke. She remembered the exact timbre of his
unexpected words. The thought of it still brought goose bumps to
her arms.
Even now—even after being brought here against her
will—Esti trusted Alan not to hurt her. He wouldn’t force her to
stay, not if she insisted on leaving. For all the pain she’d felt
since she met him, she couldn’t point to a single instance of
deliberate malice against her. Although no one else would
ever understand, Esti couldn’t even blame him for kidnapping her.
It was the only possibility she’d left him, if he wanted to talk to
her again.
From the very beginning, their relationship had
been doomed to a series of terrible misunderstandings. As
devastating as the finest Shakespeare tragedy, she thought
humorlessly. But Alan’s lonely suffering had been much worse than
her own, and she felt her heart twist. He wouldn’t make her stay,
but if she broke her promise, she might destroy him for good.
She rubbed her temples, trying to suppress an urge
to go upstairs and talk to him. As she caught sight of the second
blanket on the floor, however, the urge grew stronger. She could
picture him brooding on the couch, cold and alone, unwilling to
come back down and see her in Rafe’s arms.
She wondered if she could possibly sneak up the
stairs just long enough to give him a blanket, without waking Rafe.
Leaning forward, she slowly moved away. Rafe stirred restlessly,
but he didn’t open his eyes. She finally turned and touched her
lips to his forehead. Wrapping the blanket around him again, she
grabbed the second blanket from the floor and stood up. Her heart
pounded almost as loud as the wind against the shutters
upstairs.
By the time she reached the top of the stairs, she
was poised to flee back to the safe bedroom. The living room
vibrated with the storm’s fury, and she couldn’t see Alan anywhere.
A flickering hurricane lamp lit the room with dim light, reflecting
against a pool of water covering the floor. Deeper puddles formed
in a few places, reaching back almost to the stairs. The smell of
wet stone and damp earth filled the room, and as Esti watched, a
noisy gust of wind rattled the big porch doors, threatening to tear
the house apart. Rain flooded in through all the cracks, although
the doors held tight.
Holding her breath, Esti cautiously made her way
around the puddles and glanced up at the kitchen. The bookcases
still braced the broken window opening, filling the small kitchen
with their bulk. When she turned, she noticed that Alan had wrapped
her cardboard box in a tarp to protect it from water.
And she finally saw him. Her pent-up breath burst
out in an explosion of relief. Alan lay on the couch, leaning
against the armrest with his eyes closed. Clutching the blanket
against her chest, she crept closer to study his face. The
flickering light of the hurricane lamp smoothed his scaly skin,
showing off a strong jaw and proud bearing, even in sleep. If it
weren’t for the curse of his ancestors, she realized, he might have
been attractive.
As she watched, his mouth curved in a wistful
smile. His eyes flickered open, then widened as he saw her in front
of him.
“I dreamed of waking up to you,” he said, “and here
you are.”
The wonder in his voice broke through the fury of
the storm like a ray of sunlight. His eyes remained guarded,
however, as he glanced toward the bedroom stairs.
Esti shoved the blanket at him, embarrassed. “I
didn’t want you to be cold.”
“Thank you.” His wonder grew even stronger. “For
the blanket, and for the thought. And thank you for . . .” He
trailed off, searching her face.
Esti couldn’t help blushing.
He sat up and took the blanket from her. “I
apologize for frightening you yesterday. I truly wasn’t planning
to—to steal all of you, when I took over the role of Romeo. I can’t
deny I enjoyed being onstage, though, even if only for a moment.
It’s something I’ve always wanted to do.”
She thought about the terrible way it had ended. “I
didn’t mean to knock off your mask in front of everyone.”
“It wasn’t your fault. I shouldn’t have hurt Greg.
I shouldn’t have destroyed the theater sets. Things got out of
hand.”
“Don’t they always?” Esti tried to smile.
Alan wearily shook his head. “I’m so sorry. At
least I had a chance to perform with you for a moment.”
“I ruined it.”
“No. You did nothing wrong.” Alan stared at her,
his eyes sad, then glanced at the bedroom stairs once more. “You
have made my life better than I ever thought possible. I know the
reverse is not true.”
Before she could ask about her promise to him, he
looked back at her. “Shall I compare thee to a summer’s day?” His
eyes softened as he put aside his despair to give her the only gift
he could. “Thou art more lovely and more temperate.”
Esti sank down on the other end of the couch,
unable to tear herself away. This was the hold he had on her, then:
his ability to weave Shakespeare’s magic into her soul. It was
something she couldn’t explain to anyone, not even Rafe or Aurora.
No one would understand the exquisite beauty Alan invoked to life,
except maybe—Esti felt her throat grow tight—maybe her dad had
understood. She closed her eyes, and the storm outside disappeared
as Alan brought her under the spell of the most perfect sonnet ever
written.
“But thy eternal summer shall not fade, nor lose
possession of that fair thou owest,” he finished. “Nor shall Death
brag thou wander’st in his shade, when in eternal lines to time
thou growest. So long as men can breathe or eyes can see; so long
lives this and this gives life to thee.”
She reached across the couch to take his
hand.
“Esti.” His gloved fingers tightened on hers. “It’s
almost sunrise. I think the hurricane is finally moving
away.”
She woke Rafe just as the sun was coming up. For a
moment, he stared at her in confusion.
“What’s going on?” he finally said.
“The hurricane’s gone.”
“Where’s Somand?”
“Alan is outside, checking the damage.”
“Quick.” Rafe scrambled to his feet. “We gotta
leave before he comes back.”
“We can’t get out of the sea cave without his help.
The water is dangerous.” Esti put her hands on his shoulders.
“Listen.”
The pounding of the storm-churned sea deep within
the heart of Manchineel Cay seemed especially loud in the absence
of the storm.
Rafe’s expression tightened. “We’ll find another
way off the island. Once we make it to water, I can help you swim.
The sea will be rough for hours, but it’s not that far to Manchicay
Beach.”
“There is no other way off. The cay is as
treacherous as the sea, believe me. And Alan’s already been
outside. He said manchineel is everywhere this morning, tossed
around by the storm. The caves are the only way we can go, and I
don’t think either of us knows the path well enough to get there
without him.”
“Bull.” Rafe clenched his fists. “He’s trying to
scare you. I’m getting you out of here.”
“He promised to lead the way as soon as he comes
back. It won’t be long.”
“And you believe him?”
“He’s never lied to me.” She suddenly frowned,
listening hard. Through the deep pounding beneath them, she heard
something new, a sharper, chopping sound.
“Helicopter,” Rafe whooped, leaping for the stairs.
“They’re looking for us.”
“No!” Esti raced after him, dragging him to a stop
on the top step. “We can’t let them see us.”
He stared at her in disbelief. “What?”
“His house is secret.” She desperately hoped it was
still camouflaged from above, after the storm damage.
“What is wrong with you?” Rafe exploded. “They’re
trying to rescue you.” He pulled away from her and headed
across the living room. Alan had already opened the big porch
doors, a tangled mass of fallen trees and vines obscuring the
irregular porch outside.
“Rafe, stop.” Esti grabbed his arm.
“Are you saying you don’t want to be
rescued?”
“I’m saying I can’t ruin the rest of Alan’s
life.”
“He kidnapped you!”
“He won’t keep me here against my will.”
“I don’t know what he’s doing to your head, but
he’s fooled—”
“He won’t hurt me, Rafe. Please don’t force me to
do something I know is wrong.”
“This is all his own fault,” Rafe snapped, turning
to the door. “That’s what it’s about.”
“No, it’s about compassion.” Determination gave her
sudden strength, and she pulled Rafe from the doorway. As the
helicopter chopped loudly above, her heart caught in her throat.
“If you go outside now, you’ll hurt him more than you can imagine.
Think what the jandam will do when they see him, under the
circumstances. They’ll destroy him.”
The shadow of the helicopter passed overhead, and
she instinctively ducked, holding her breath as it went by.
“Please, please trust me.”
Although Rafe’s eyebrows drew together, he didn’t
move. “I know I’ll regret this,” he finally said, “but you can call
the shots. I think I understand why you always protect him, but I
don’t trust him at all. He gets one chance to prove himself.”
Weak with relief, Esti wrapped her arms around him.
She felt his fingers twine fiercely through her hair.
“You sure don’t make it easy, babe.”
Alan returned a couple of minutes later, gasping
for breath. He studied them from the front doorway, his mottled
face expressionless. Rafe kept his arms around Esti, and she didn’t
try to pull away.
“Get your shoes on,” Alan finally said, turning to
wait for them on the path.
Esti didn’t look back as she followed Alan away
from the house. The morning sun had already burned through the high
cirrus clouds, oblivious to the destruction wrought just hours
before. Thick humidity weighed down the air, nearly as heavy as the
water dripping from the trees. She could practically smell the
coming decay from the dead animals and vegetation Rafe said always
followed a hurricane.
The trip to the cave no longer meant a smooth trail
through the forest. Torrents of rain had slicked the dirt into a
slippery soup of mud and red clay; broken trees and branches
crisscrossed in front of them. Esti followed numbly, climbing over
fallen trees and catching herself when her feet slid out from under
her. Although Alan frequently pointed at manchineel or ketch-n-keep
to avoid, he didn’t speak.
The chop of the helicopter approached again before
they had gone very far. Alan spun around with a tight expression,
but Esti had already grabbed Rafe’s hand, dragging him under the
cover of a bay rum tree that still had a few leaves left after the
storm. Alan quickly joined them, his blue eyes uneasy as he met
Rafe’s grim stare. The helicopter roared past, police markings
stark against its side. After a moment Alan started forward
again.
By the time they reached the end of the trail, Esti
was drenched with sweat and red mud, grateful for the cool darkness
of the cave. The pounding sea vibrated through the rocks. Alan
surprised her by picking up a powerful flashlight just inside the
cave opening, and she studied the tunnel as they descended into the
cay. Irregular walls followed an oddly smooth arc over her head,
occasionally dipping low enough that Rafe had to duck.
“Flattened lava tube,” he muttered, antagonism
warring with his natural curiosity. As Alan led them into another
branching cave, Rafe pointed to a disabled wind generator spanning
the breezy space.
They came upon the sea with a suddenness that
startled Esti. She should have known by the drum of water inside
the cavern, but the tunnel had seemed much longer in the dark.
Several shafts of sunlight pierced the large space from above, and
Alan placed his flashlight on a rocky ledge.
A shiver of apprehension swept through Esti as she
watched the water level rise nearly to the boat at their feet,
beating fiercely into the rocks and niches of smaller adjacent
caves. Then the sea dropped away, gradually exposing a narrow,
sunlit sliver in the rocks in front of them. That tiny
opening was the only way out of the cay?
“Come on,” Rafe said as the water began rising
again. He pointed to the scuba gear he’d stowed inside the little
rowboat. “You’re wearing the vest, babe. It’ll help you float while
we swim home.”
Esti looked at him, beautiful and full of energy,
impatient and eager to get out of this eerie place and move on with
life. Beside him, Alan studied her impassively, his blue eyes
resigned to his lonely fate. He’d known all along that she would
break her promise, and he wasn’t going to challenge her.
As the catapult grabbed her one last time, she knew
it wasn’t merely about compassion; it was about friendship and
honor and betrayal. No matter what she did now, the choice was
wrong. Romeo’s dagger had found its sheath in the hearts of
everyone she loved.
She stepped forward and wrapped her arms around
Rafe, pulling his head down to hers for a last, fierce kiss. Then
she pushed him away.
“You go ahead, Rafe. I’m staying here.”