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SHE’D HAD TO SNEAK INTO THE HOUSE LAST NIGHT,
TERRIFIED HER mother would catch her wearing the bustier, short
skirt, and fishnet stockings, and ask her what the hell she’d been
up to.
Bree kept remembering what she’d said to Luke in
the car. That she didn’t know how to get away from her mom. The
bizarre thought had come to her in the comfort of his arms, when
her defenses were down and her mind had drifted into a bad place.
It was funny how they could have that hot interlude in the club,
followed by the things he did to her in the backseat, and she still
let herself get distracted with bad thoughts.
What she should have concentrated on was that
he’d had the opportunity to give her away and he didn’t. He’d
played his part so perfectly. He’d been so good at it, she’d
believed completely that he would follow through on his threats.
Yet if he had, it would have ruined it all.
She didn’t have time to think about it all now.
She had to face the day. She had to tell Erin about her father. She
couldn’t keep pretending forever.
“Bye, Mom,” she called before she headed to
work.
Her mother poked her head out of the kitchen
door. “I’ll see you tonight, sweetheart. Is Luke coming over
again?”
There was something irritating about her
mother’s overly hopeful smile and bright eyes. As if she were
pinning all her hopes on Luke. Maybe Bree did need a keeper, but
not in the way her mother meant. She had financial security. It was
emotional security she was lacking. She’d had it for five seconds
after Luke pulled out of her last night. Then poof, it was gone.
She just couldn’t seem to hold on to a man or security.
“Mom, we can’t be dependent on him.”
Her mother merely flapped her hand and went back
to the breakfast dishes. It was as if she didn’t see the
correlation between dependency and the relationship she’d had with
Bree’s father. If you were dependent, you couldn’t get away when
you wanted to. Her mother should know
that.
Okay, work. From her mom’s house, the drive
wasn’t far. She girded her loins, so to speak, as she entered the
front door. Rachel waved enthusiastically from her closet-size
office. Across the roundhouse, Erin was at her desk. Engrossed in
something on her computer monitor, she traced her finger across the
screen. Santana, Steve’s favorite band, drifted in from the
manufacturing area. Steve, their quality control manager, looked
like a former Hell’s Angel, with all the requisite tattoos, and his
music reflected it. Bree hurried to her own office, dumped the
umbrella by the filing cabinet, then hung her coat on the rack. It
wasn’t raining, but the sky was dark and foreboding.
Please don’t make me do
this.
When would that pitiful voice inside her
die?
Okay, just breathe. But all sorts of terrors
coursed through her, making her skin shrivel and her knees buckle.
She sat down heavily in her chair.
She was afraid Erin would think her lacking in
emotion. What if Erin asked about a funeral and, God forbid, wanted
to attend? How was she supposed to say they weren’t even having
one? She wouldn’t be able to act normal, and Erin would start
asking questions. Of course she’d want to know why Bree had come to
work the day after her father died without breathing a word of it.
Then Erin would know there was something terribly wrong about Bree.
She should have told Erin yesterday. She could
have passed the test then. Maybe it would be better to wait until
Erin came to see her, which she inevitably would. Wimp. Always
reacting, never acting.
Do it, do it, do
it.
She got up too fast and felt dizzy. Then she
almost lost it when Erin wasn’t in her office. She’d been there a
minute ago, for God’s sake. Where could she have gone so
quickly?
“You okay, Bree?”
She jumped and almost shrieked, catching herself
at the last minute. “Dominic.” Where had he come from? She felt her
palms start to sweat.
“How’s your dad doing?”
“He’s dead.” The words just fell out of her
mouth. Take them back, take them back. She
hadn’t meant to do it like that; she’d intended to lead into it.
Now it was too, too late.
“Oh Jesus, Bree. I’m so sorry.” Dominic touched
her arm. He was tall, over six feet, and his height made her want
to curl into him, bury her face against his dark hair. Not in a
sexual way. Not even in the way she wanted Luke to comfort her. But
because Dominic was a strong man, a kind man. And he didn’t want
anything from her. He was safe.
His eyes, dark with emotion, traveled her face
as if he could read something in her features. “You should have
called us. You didn’t need to come in.”
What did he expect her to do? When he’d lost
Jay, it had been so different. A child versus an old man. A sudden
tragedy, instead of a cancer the family had known about for months.
The beginning of heartbreak instead of the end of a long, bad
journey. When Dominic came back to work after Jay, he’d been a
ghost you could see through.
It wasn’t like that for Bree. She didn’t feel
sad. She didn’t feel anything except relief and guilt. She didn’t
want Dominic to pick up on those wrong
emotions.
“I’m just glad he’s out of his misery.” Like a
dog that had to be put down. Oh yeah, she didn’t want Dominic to
hear that.
He nodded, his gaze full of shadows. He was
thinking about Jay, she was sure, and she hated to be the
reminder.
Yet he touched her shoulder in sympathy and
comfort. “You should be with your mom, Bree, not here.”
“She had things to do.” Her mom didn’t need her.
Her mom was throwing out more stuff. Today, she planned to tackle
the garage where her father had kept all his tools and odds and
ends. Bree’d had to tell her not to go hog wild and throw out
things they needed for the house and yard maintenance.
But she couldn’t reveal all that wackiness to
Dominic. Instead she added, “She’s managing. Mom’s stoic.” Even
that didn’t seem like enough explanation and she rushed on. “She’s
always got to be doing something. Do-do-do, that’s my mom.” She
tried to smile, but it felt oddly stretched across her face. Then
she realized she probably shouldn’t be smiling at all. “I think she
needs some alone time to assimilate and get herself centered and .
. .” She let her voice trail off because she just seemed to be
digging a deeper hole with all the meaningless chatter.
If Dominic noticed she was babbling, he didn’t
mention it. He simply shook his head in empathy. “I know how hard
it is. That’s why this is a time for family. You go. We’ll be
fine.”
“But I’ve got the check run to set up.”
He gave her a look. “Erin can do that. Go home,
Bree.”
Suddenly she was glad it was Dominic who’d found
her instead of Erin. He didn’t ask any particulars, didn’t probe
for details. He had all the right words and none of the difficult
ones, no questions that would show her up.
But God, she was hiding behind nonanswers and
idiotic chatter, not facing up and saying what needed to be said.
She needed to change, grow a backbone, do something. Take charge. Decide what to do instead of
letting someone else make her decisions for her.
Only today wasn’t her growth day. After a few
more pointless words, Bree took the opportunity Dominic gave her
and ran. She didn’t even stop to grab her umbrella and raincoat.
Yeah, a wimp.
DOMINIC FOUND ERIN IN MANUFACTURING BREATHING
DOWN Matt’s neck. They’d given Matt, one of their techs,
responsibility for assembling the transducers in-house. The
transducers were the probes that took the readings the ultrasonic
gauge measured and were integral to a quality instrument. They’d
been outsourcing the production for years with Leon, but Leon was
retiring. Matt, a skinny kid in his midtwenties with lank hair and
hangdog features, had taken on the transducer assembly with more
enthusiasm than they’d gotten out of him in six months. Erin had
made the right choice in trusting him, but she couldn’t resist a
little mother-henning. It was in her nature.
Dominic stood for a moment watching her. His
wife took his breath away. She always would. They’d come close to
losing each other when they lost Jay. He would ache for his son
every minute for the rest of his days, but if he’d lost Erin, too,
he wouldn’t have survived. Somehow, in the last few weeks, they’d
found a way to go on together. Yet it was moments like this that
brought home to him once again how fragile life was. When he’d seen
the struggle and pain in Bree’s face, the way she’d blurted out the
news of her father’s death, then the horror on her face after she
said it.
He’d seen all that. But he’d seen more.
“Got a minute, babe?” he said to Erin.
She looked up, her features a mask of
concentration, her focus on the task. Until she blinked. And
smiled. God, he loved that smile. In ways, they’d regained that
exciting sense of newness in a relationship that would normally be
long gone after fifteen years of marriage. God yes, he’d have
traded his life for the return of his son, but he had Erin, and
this time he’d hang on to every precious minute of their life
together, taking nothing for granted.
“What?” Her eyebrows knitted together.
Dominic crooked his finger until they’d moved
out of earshot, closer to the inventory shelving. “I just talked
with Bree,” he started.
“Her father’s dead,” Erin finished for him,
putting a hand to her forehead. “Dammit, I didn’t even see her come
in. I should have been watching. How’s she doing?” It was so like
Erin to blame herself.
“Kinda abnormal. She talked.”
“What do you expect?”
“I mean she talked.”
Bree usually said as little as possible to him. “She was downright
chatty.” Sort of, at least for Bree. It was hard to put into words
what was bothering him.
“She was like that with me. Almost as if she
didn’t know how to say whatever it was she wanted to say, and she
actually babbled.”
“She had this crazy notion she had to take care
of the check run,” he said. “I sent her home.”
“Oh, Jesus, I can do the check run. Is her mom
okay?”
“I guess so. She said her mom had things to do,
whatever that means.”
Erin pursed her lips. “She shouldn’t even have
come in. When did he die?”
“I don’t know. She didn’t say.”
“So I guess they haven’t decided on when they’re
having the funeral. I’ll give her a call later, make sure she’s
okay, and find out about the service. We should attend, and send
some flowers, too.”
That was Erin, making sure everyone was okay.
Still, he worried about Bree. Never one to wear her feelings on her
sleeve, he nevertheless wondered if her father’s illness, then his
death, had pushed her to a breaking point.
“LUKE, THERE’S A WOMAN OUT HERE, BUT SHE DOESN’T
HAVE AN appointment.” His secretary’s voice was low, wary, unsure.
“I don’t recognize her name from anything
I’ve ever seen in your calendar. And she doesn’t even have a
business card,” Linda added, low and incredulous.
“Who is it?” he prompted. Linda wasn’t usually
so reticent. In fact, she sounded almost . . . spooked.
“She says her name is Miss Mason.”
Bree? In the middle of the morning? Not once
during their entire relationship had she ever come to his office.
They’d fantasized about it the other day, having her suck him at
work, but he hadn’t realized she even knew where his office was
located. Not that he’d ever hidden his company’s name from
her.
“Send her in. And hold all my calls until I’m
done.”
His secretary was efficient, but she didn’t like
surprises. She certainly wasn’t used to women showing up
unannounced, especially without a business card or appointment,
good heavens.
Bree entered, and Linda closed the door behind
her.
Dark circles beneath her eyes, no lipstick, and
skin so pale the shadow of her veins showed beneath the surface,
Bree, as the old saying went, looked like death warmed over. She’d
pulled her hair back in a hasty ponytail but wisps had blown loose,
and her black blazer seemed to hang on her frame. His biggest
desire in the world was to wrap her in his arms.
“Master,” was all she said, and he knew his
embrace was nowhere near what she needed from him now.