CHAPTER 9
CONSIDERING I WAS ONLY SUPPOSED to visit
Clarence’s twice a week for feedings, I was kind of amazed that I
seemed to be here practically every day. Not only that, this was my
first time visiting the estate alone. Before, I’d been with Keith
or Jill and had a very well-defined goal. Now, I was on my own. I
hadn’t realized how much that would freak me out until I was
approaching the house, which became even more looming and dark than
usual.
There’s nothing to be afraid of, I told
myself. You’ve been with a vampire and dhampir all week. You
should be used to it. Besides, really, the scariest thing about
this place was the old house itself. Clarence and Lee weren’t all
that intimidating, and Adrian . . . well, Adrian was pretty much
the least scary vampire I’d ever met. He was too bratty for me to
feel any real fear, and actually . . . as much as I hated to admit
it, I kind of looked forward to seeing him. It made no sense, but
something about his infuriating nature made me forget about my
other worries. Weirdly, I felt like I could relax around him.
Dorothy escorted me in, and I expected to be taken
to the sitting room again. Instead, the housekeeper led me through
a few twists and turns of the dark halls, finally landing in a
billiards room that looked like it could have been straight out of
Clue. More dark wood lined the room, and stained glass
windows let in filtered sunlight. Most of the room’s illumination
came from a hanging light centered over a rich green pool table.
Adrian was lining up a shot as I shut the door behind me.
“Oh,” he said, knocking a red ball into a hole.
“It’s you.”
“You were expecting someone else?” I asked. “Am I
interrupting your social calendar?” I made a big show of glancing
around the empty room. “I don’t want to keep you from the mob of
fans beating down your door.”
“Hey, a guy can hope. I mean, it’s not impossible
that a car full of scantily clad sorority girls might break down
outside and need my help.”
“That’s true,” I said. “Maybe I can put a sign out
front that says, ‘ATTENTION ALL GIRLS: FREE HELP HERE.’”
“‘ATTENTION ALL HOT GIRLS,’” he corrected,
straightening up.
“Right,” I said, trying not to roll my eyes.
“That’s an important distinction.”
He pointed at me with the pool stick. “Speaking of
hot, I like that uniform.”
This time, I did roll my eyes. After Adrian had
teased me last time about my uniform looking like my normal
clothes, I’d made sure to change out of it before coming today. Now
I wore dark jeans and a black-and-white printed blouse with a
ruffled collar. I should have known the outfit change wouldn’t save
me from his snark.
“Are you the only one here?” I asked, noting his
solo game.
“Nah. Clarence is around doing . . . I don’t know.
Old man stuff. And I think Lee’s fixing that lock before he heads
to LA. It’s kind of funny. He seems upset that he needs to use
tools. He keeps thinking the strength of his own hands should be
more than enough.”
I couldn’t help a smile. “I don’t suppose you
offered to help?”
“Sage,” Adrian declared. “These hands don’t do
manual labor.” He knocked another ball into a hole. “You want to
play?”
“What? With you?”
“No, with Clarence.” He sighed at my dumbfounded
look. “Yes, of course with me.”
“No. I need to talk to you about Jill.”
He was silent for a few moments and then returned
to the game as though nothing had happened. “She wasn’t sick
today.” He said that with certainty, though there was a funny,
bitter tone to his words.
“No. Well, not in the same way. She got sick out in
the sun during PE. I’m going to see Keith after this to see if we
can get a medical excuse.” I’d actually tried calling him earlier,
with no luck. “But that’s not why I’m here. There’s a guy who likes
Jill—a human guy.”
“Have Castile rough him up.”
I leaned back against the wall and sighed. “That’s
the thing. I asked him to. Well, not rough him up, exactly. It’s
Eddie’s roommate. I asked Eddie to tell him to back off and make up
some reason for staying away from Jill—like that she’s too young.”
Fearing Adrian would be as lax as Eddie in this, I asked, “You
understand why it’s important, right? No Moroi and human
dating?”
He was watching the table, not me. “Yup, I’m with
you there, Sage. But I still don’t see the problem.”
“Eddie won’t do it. He says he doesn’t think Jill
should be denied the chance to date and go to dances. That it’s
okay if she and Micah hang out, so long as it doesn’t get
serious.”
Adrian was good at hiding his feelings, but this
looked like it’d caught him by surprise. He straightened up and
spun the base of the pool stick on the floor as he thought. “That
is weird. I mean, I get the logic, and there’s something to it. She
shouldn’t be forced into isolation while she’s here. I’m just
surprised Castile came up with it.”
“Yeah, but that’s a hard concept to live by. Where
do you draw the ‘casual’ line? Honestly, I get this feeling Eddie
just didn’t want to confront Micah—the roommate. Which is crazy,
because Eddie doesn’t seem like the type to be afraid of anything.
What is there about Micah that would make Eddie so uneasy?”
“Is Micah some big, hulking guy?”
“No,” I said. “He’s built, I guess. Good at sports.
Really friendly and easygoing—not the type you’d have to be afraid
would turn on you if you warned him away from your sister.”
“Then you can talk to him. Or just talk to Jailbait
and explain things to her.” Adrian seemed satisfied he’d solved the
matter and knocked in the last ball.
“That was my plan. I just wanted to make sure you’d
back me. Jill listens to you, and I thought it’d be easier if she
knew you agreed with me. Not that I even know how she feels. For
all I know, this is all overkill.”
“Can’t hurt to be too careful with her,” said
Adrian. He stared off, lost in his own thoughts. “And I’ll let her
know how I feel about it.”
“Thank you,” I said, kind of surprised at how easy
this had been.
His green eyes danced mischievously. “Now
will you play a round with me?”
“I don’t really—”
The door opened, and Lee walked in, dressed
casually in jeans and a T-shirt. He was carrying a screwdriver.
“Hey, Sydney. I thought I saw your car out there.” He glanced
around. “Is, uh, Jill with you?”
“Not today,” I said. New insight struck me as I
recalled that Lee attended school in Los Angeles. “Lee, have you
ever dated a human girl at your school?”
Adrian arched an eyebrow. “Are you asking him out,
Sage?”
I scowled. “No!”
Lee turned thoughtful. “No, not really. I have some
human friends, and we go out as a group and hang out . . . but I’ve
never done more than that. LA’s a big place, though. There are
Moroi girls around, if you know where to look.”
Adrian perked up. “Oh?”
My hope that Lee might tell Jill he too had to
avoid dating faded. “Well, that would make your dating situation
much easier than Jill’s.”
“What do you mean?” asked Lee.
I recapped everything to him about Micah and Eddie.
Lee nodded along thoughtfully.
“That is hard,” he admitted.
“Can we go back to the part about Moroi girls
hanging out in LA?” asked Adrian hopefully. “Can you direct me to
some of the . . . oh, let’s say, more open-minded ones?”
Lee’s attention was on me, however. His easy smile
grew uncertain, and he glanced at his feet. “This might seem kind
of weird . . . but I mean, I wouldn’t mind asking Jill out.”
Adrian was on that before I could even think of a
response. “What, do you mean like on a date? You son of a
bitch! She’s only fifteen.” You never would’ve guessed he’d been
talking about easy Moroi girls only moments before.
“Adrian,” I said. “I’m guessing Lee’s definition of
a date is a little different than yours.”
“Sorry, Sage. You’ve got to trust me when it comes
to dating definitions. Last I checked, you aren’t an expert in
social matters. I mean, when was the last time you were even on a
date?” It was just another of the witty barbs he tossed around so
easily, but it stung a little. Was my lack of social experience
that obvious?
“But,” I added, ignoring Adrian’s question, “there
is an age difference.” I honestly had no idea how old Lee
was. His being in college gave me some clue, but Clarence seemed
awfully old. Having a child late in life wasn’t that weird, though,
for humans or Moroi.
“There is,” said Lee. “I’m nineteen. Not a huge
gap—but big enough. I shouldn’t have said anything.” He looked
embarrassed, and I felt both sorry for him and confused for myself.
Matchmaking wasn’t in the Alchemist handbook.
“Why would you want to ask her out?” I asked. “I
mean, she’s great. But are you just doing this to distract her from
Micah and give her a safe dating alternative? Or do you, um, like
her?”
“Of course he likes her,” said Adrian, quick to
defend Jill’s honor.
I had a feeling that there was really no good way
for Lee to answer at this point. If he expressed interest in her,
Adrian’s bizarre chivalric instincts were going to kick in. If Lee
wasn’t interested, Adrian would no doubt demand to know why Lee
didn’t want to marry her then and there. It was one of those
fascinating—but weird—quirks of Adrian’s personality.
“I like her,” said Lee bluntly. “I’ve only talked
to her a couple of times, but . . . well, I’d really like to get to
know her better.”
Adrian scoffed, and I shot him a glare. “Once
again,” I said. “I think you guys have different definitions for
the same words.”
“Not true,” said Adrian. “All guys mean the same
thing when they want to ‘get to know a girl better.’ You’re a
well-bred young lady, so I understand why you’d be too innocent to
understand. Good thing you’ve got me here to interpret.”
I turned back to Lee, not even bothering to respond
to Adrian. “I think it’s fine if you go out with her.”
“Assuming she’d even be interested,” said Lee,
looking uncertain.
I remembered her smile when he’d stopped to talk to
her yesterday. That had seemed pretty promising. But then, so had
her enthusiasm over Micah. “I bet she would.”
“So you’re just going to let her go off alone?”
asked Adrian, giving me a look that told me not to question him.
This time, his concern was legitimate. I shared it. Jill was in
Palm Springs to be safe. She was enrolled at Amberwood because it
was also safe. Suddenly going out with a guy we hardly knew would
not meet either Alchemist or guardian protocols for safety.
“Well, she can’t even leave campus,” I said,
thinking aloud. “Not without me.”
“Whoa,” said Adrian, “if you get to come along as a
chaperone, so do I.”
“If we both do, then Eddie will want to as well,” I
pointed out. “Doesn’t sound like much of a date.”
“So?” Adrian’s brief moment of seriousness and
concern had vanished in the face of what he saw as social fun. How
could anyone’s mood flip so quickly? “Think of it as less of a date
than a faux-family outing. One that will entertain me while
protecting her virtue.”
I put my hands on my hips and turned toward him.
This seemed to amuse him more. “Adrian, we’re focusing on Jill
here. This isn’t about your personal entertainment.”
“Not true,” he said, green eyes sparkling.
“Everything’s about my personal entertainment. The world is my
stage. Keep it up—you’re becoming a star performer in the
show.”
Lee glanced between us with a comically helpless
look. “Do you guys want to be alone?”
I flushed. “Sorry.” Adrian made no apologies, of
course.
“Look,” said Lee, who kind of seemed like he was
beginning to regret bringing this up at all. “I like her. If it
means bringing your whole group so I can be with her, then that’s
fine.”
“Maybe it’s better this way,” I mused. “Maybe if we
do more things as a group—aside from her feedings—she won’t be in
danger of wanting to go out with a human guy.” Who we didn’t even
know for sure that she was interested in. We didn’t even know if
she was interested in Lee either. We were being awfully
heavy-handed with her love life, I realized.
“This is kind of what I wanted before,” Adrian said
to me. “Just more of a social life.”
I thought back to yesterday’s conversation, in
which he’d demanded I find him lodging. “That’s not quite what you
asked for.”
“If you want to get out more,” said Lee, “you
should come back to LA with me tonight. I’ll be back here after
class tomorrow anyway, so it’d just be a quick trip.”
Adrian brightened so much that I wondered if Lee
had suggested it to try to smooth over any tension remaining about
his interest in Jill. “Will you introduce me to those girls?” asked
Adrian.
“Unbelievable,” I said. Adrian’s double standard
was ridiculous.
I didn’t notice the door opening until Keith was
completely in the room. I was never exactly happy to see him, but
it was good luck that he was suddenly here, right when I needed to
talk to him about Jill and her problems with PE. My best plan had
been to show up at his apartment and hope to catch him there. He’d
saved me the trouble.
Keith looked at all three of us—but he didn’t share
our smiles. No winks or pretty boy charm from him today. “I saw
your car out there, Sydney,” he said sternly, turning to me. “What
are you doing here?”
“I had to talk to Adrian,” I said. “Did you get my
message? I tried calling earlier.”
“I’ve been busy,” he said crisply. His expression
was hard, his tone chilling the room. Adrian and Lee had lost their
smiles, and both now looked confused as they tried to figure out
why Keith was so annoyed. I shared their curiosity. “Let’s talk. In
private.”
I suddenly felt like a naughty child without
knowing why. “Sure,” I said. “I . . . I was just leaving anyway.” I
moved to join Keith at the door.
“Wait,” said Lee. “What about—” Adrian nudged him
and shook his head, murmuring something I couldn’t hear. Lee stayed
quiet.
“See you around,” said Adrian cheerfully. “Don’t
worry—I’ll remember what we talked about.”
“Thanks,” I said. “See you guys later.”
Keith left without a word, and I followed him out
of the house and into the late-afternoon heat. The temperature had
gone down since the ill-fated PE class but not by much. Keith
trudged through the gravel driveway, coming to a halt beside Latte.
His car was parked nearby.
“That was rude,” I told him. “You didn’t even say
goodbye to them.”
“Sorry if I don’t bring out my best manners for
vampires,” snapped Keith. “I’m not as close to them as you
are.”
“What’s that supposed to mean?” I demanded,
crossing my arms. Staring him down, I felt all my old animosity
bubble up. It was hard to believe that I’d been laughing just a
minute ago.
Keith sneered. “Just that you seemed awfully cozy
with them in there—hanging out, having a good time. I didn’t know
this was where you spent your free time after school.”
“How dare you! I came here on business,” I
growled.
“Yeah, I could tell.”
“I did. I had to talk to Adrian about Jill.”
“I don’t recall him being her guardian.”
“He cares about her,” I argued. “Just like any of
us would for a friend.”
“Friend? They’re not like us at all,” said
Keith. “They’re godless and unnatural, and you have no business
being friends with any of them.”
I wanted to shout back that from what I’d observed,
Lee was a hundred times more decent of a person than Keith would
ever be. Even Adrian was. It was only at the last second that my
training kicked in. Don’t raise a fuss. Don’t contradict your
superiors. No matter how much I hated it, Keith was in charge
here. I took a deep breath.
“It was hardly fraternizing. I simply came by to
talk to Adrian, and Lee happened to be here. It wasn’t like we’d
all been planning some big party.” Best not to mention the group
date plan.
“Why didn’t you just call Adrian if you had a
question? You called me.”
Because being face-to-face with him is less
sickening than being around you.
“It was important. And when I couldn’t get ahold of
you, I figured I’d have to drive over to your place anyway.”
Hoping to shift away from my “bad behavior,” I
jumped in and recapped everything that had happened today,
including Jill’s sun exposure and Micah’s attentions.
“Of course she can’t date him,” he exclaimed, after
I’d explained about Micah. “You have to put a stop to that.”
“I’m trying. And Adrian and Lee said they’d
help.”
“Oh, well, I feel a lot better now.” Keith shook
his head. “Don’t be naive, Sydney. I told you. They don’t care
about this stuff as much as we do.”
“I think they do,” I argued. “Adrian seemed to get
it, and he has a lot of influence over Jill.”
“Well, he’s not the one the Alchemists are going to
come after and send off to re-education for playing around with
vampires when she should be disciplining them.”
I could only stare. I wasn’t sure which part of
what he’d just said was more offensive: the well-worn insinuation
that I was a “vamp lover” or that I was capable of “disciplining”
any of them. I should’ve known his false friendliness wouldn’t
last.
“I’m doing my job here,” I said, still keeping my
voice level. “And from what I can see, I’m doing more work than
you, since I’m the one who’s been putting out fires all
week.”
I knew it was an illusion, seeing as the glass eye
couldn’t really stare, but I felt like he was glaring at me with
both eyes. “I’m doing plenty. Don’t even think to criticize
me.”
“What were you doing here?” I asked, suddenly
realizing how weird that was. He’d accused me of “socializing” but
had never explained his motives.
“I had to see Clarence, not that it’s any of your
business.”
I wanted more details but refused to let on how
curious I was. He’d been here yesterday too, according to Lee.
“Will you call the school tomorrow and get Jill excused from
PE?”
Keith gave me a long and heavy look. “No.”
“What? Why not?”
“Because being out in the sun won’t kill
her.”
Again, I bit down on my anger and tried for the
diplomacy I’d been schooled in. “Keith, you didn’t see her. Maybe
it won’t kill her, but it was miserable for her. She was in
agony.”
“I don’t really care if they’re miserable or not,”
Keith said. “And neither should you. Our job is to keep her alive.
There was no mention of making sure she’s happy and
comfortable.”
“I wouldn’t think anyone would have to tell
us,” I said, aghast. Why was he so upset? “I’d think being
sensitive human beings, we could just do it.”
“Well, now you can. You can either get someone
above us to issue a note to the school or you can give her ice
baths after gym class. I really don’t care what you do, but maybe
it’ll keep you busy enough that you’ll stop coming over here
unannounced and throwing yourself at creatures of darkness. Don’t
let me hear about this happening again.”
“You are unbelievable,” I said. I was too upset and
at a loss for words to manage anything more eloquent.
“I’m looking out for your soul,” he said loftily.
“It’s the least I can do for your dad. Too bad you aren’t more like
your sisters.”
Keith turned his back on me and unlocked the car
door without another word. He got in and drove off, leaving me
staring. Tears threatened my eyes, and I swallowed them back. I
felt like an idiot—but not because of his accusations. I didn’t
believe for an instant that I’d done anything wrong by coming over
here. No, I was mad—mad at myself—because I’d let him walk away
with the last word and because I hadn’t had the nerve to say
anything back. I’d stayed silent, just like everyone always told me
to.
I kicked the gravel in my anger, sending a spray of
it into the air. A few small rocks hit my car, and I winced.
“Sorry.”
“Would he accuse you of being evil for talking to
an inanimate object?”
I spun around, heart racing. Adrian was leaning
against the house, smoking. “Where did you come from?” I demanded.
Even though I knew everything there was to know about vampires, it
was hard to shake superstitious fears of them appearing out of thin
air.
“Other door,” he explained. “I went out to smoke
and overheard the commotion.”
“It’s rude to eavesdrop,” I said, knowing I sounded
unbearably prim but unable to stop myself.
“It’s rude to be an asshole like that.” Adrian
nodded toward where Keith had driven away. “Are you going to be
able to get Jill out of class?”
I sighed, suddenly feeling tired. “Yeah, I should
be able to. It’ll just take a little longer while I get some other
Alchemist to be our fake parents. Would’ve been a lot faster if
Keith had done it.”
“Thanks for looking out for her, Sage. You’re okay.
For a human.”
I almost laughed. “Thanks.”
“You can say it too, you know.”
I walked over to Latte and paused. “Say
what?”
“That I’m okay . . . for a vampire,” he
explained.
I shook my head, still smiling. “You’ll have a hard
time getting any Alchemist to admit that. But I can say you’re okay
for an irreverent party boy with occasional moments of
brilliance.”
“Brilliant? You think I’m brilliant?” He threw his
hands skyward. “You hear that, world? Sage says I’m
brilliant.”
“That’s not what I said!”
He dropped the cigarette and stamped it out, giving
me a devil-may-care grin. “Thanks for the ego boost. I’m going to
go tell Clarence and Lee all about your high opinion.”
“Hey, I didn’t—”
But he was already gone. As I drove away, I decided
the Alchemists needed an entire department devoted to handling
Adrian Ivashkov.
When I got back to my dorm room, I found Jill
sitting surrounded in textbooks and papers, undoubtedly trying to
catch up from yesterday.
“Wow,” I said, thinking of the homework that waited
for me too. “You’ve got a whole command center set up.”
Rather than smile at my joke, Jill looked up with
an icy gaze. “Do you think,” she said, “that maybe next time you
want to mess with my dating life, you could talk to me
first?”
I was speechless. Adrian had said he’d talk to
Jill. I just hadn’t realized it’d be so quickly.
“You don’t have to go behind my back to keep me
away from Micah,” she added. “I’m not stupid. I know I can’t date a
human.”
So Adrian had apparently told her that much.
“And,” Jill continued, still in that cold tone,
“you don’t have to set me up with the only eligible Moroi within a
hundred miles in order to keep me out of trouble.”
Okay . . . Adrian had apparently told her
everything. I would’ve expected more discretion from him,
especially with the Lee part.
“We . . . we weren’t setting you up,” I said
lamely. “Lee wanted to ask you out anyway.”
“But rather than talk to me, he asked permission
from you guys! You don’t control my life.”
“I know that,” I said. “We weren’t trying to!” How
had this just blown up right in front of me? “Lee acted on his
own.”
“Just like you did when you went to talk to Adrian
behind my back.” Her eyes glittered with angry tears, daring me to
deny it. I couldn’t and only now realized the wrongness of what I’d
done. Ever since she found out she was royal, Jill had watched
other people dictate her life for her. Maybe my intentions to get
Adrian to talk to her about Micah were good, but I’d addressed them
in the wrong way.
“You’re right,” I said. “I’m sorry that I—”
“Forget it,” she said, slipping a pair of
headphones on. “I don’t want to hear any more. You made me look
stupid in front of both Adrian and Lee. Not that they’ll even think
twice about me in Los Angeles tonight.” She waved a hand at me and
looked down at the book in front of her. “I’m done with you.”
Whether she couldn’t hear me because of the music
or simply because she’d now chosen to ignore me, I couldn’t say.
All I knew was that I once again found myself comparing her to Zoe.
Just like with Zoe, I’d tried to do something good for Jill, and it
had backfired. Just like with Zoe, I’d ended up hurting and
humiliating the one I’d tried to protect.
Sorry, Sage. Last I checked, you aren’t an
expert in social matters.
That, I thought bitterly, was the saddest part of
all—that Adrian Ivashkov was right.