Chapter Twenty-five
Another harper played with them. Zoe heard the
sweet, exuberant run of notes like a stream rilling and splashing
into her music, then merging with it, sometimes deep, secret water,
sometimes leaping into light. Phelan, attuned to her, eyes lowered
to his hands, did not seem to notice at first. Then his head
flicked up; he glanced at her. His eyes grew very wide; Zoe heard
his fingers slow, lag after a beat, a sudden, startled absence
before his fingers caught up with her.
She was beginning to falter herself: a breath
instead of a sound now and then, her skin prickling cold under the
midsummer sun. The amphitheater seemed to have grown incredibly
high. The plain shimmered beyond it, green and gold and blue
melting into imprecise horizons, behind an endless rise of stones
spiraling around them. A dream of stones, she thought. A memory of
stones. The plain seemed oddly empty, the sentinel tree on the
crown of the hillocks scattered hither and yon on the plain no
longer shaded colorful gatherings of listeners. Caerau itself
seemed to have vanished into a silvery mist on both sides of the
river.
She felt more breath than music flow out of her, a
long, cold flash of river mist; even her bones had gone cold.
“Don’t stop,” a voice said cheerfully between
verses. Kelda, she thought at first. She heard Phelan beside her,
fingers laboring doggedly, as though his quick, skilled hands had
turned stiff as wood. The harper drove them now, kept the beat,
chose the song they slid into, helplessly caught in his current,
held them in the bright web of his strings.
The amphitheater seemed empty, too. There was no
amphitheater, she realized. The transparent stones surrounded them;
they stood on a knoll somewhere on the plain, somewhere in time or
memory, playing to the whims of the harper, who was not Kelda, she
realized. He was no one she had ever met, an aging, craggy figure,
like a battered old stone, one eye pale blue, the other twilight
dark, his voice like the deep drag of waves on a rocky shore. She
turned her head to see him more clearly, and he smiled.
She recognized that smile: the kelpie’s fearless,
teasing, perceptive glint.
She could hear Phelan’s breathing begin to grow
ragged with shock, fighting itself to finish the song. She waited.
When the harper began yet another rollicking ballad, she wrested
the notes away from him, slowed them into a wordless court dance to
free their voices.
The odd eyes narrowed at her, but the harper’s
dancing fingers did not argue.
“Phelan,” she said softly, letting her fingers
carry the slow, lilting melody without her.
He was looking around bewilderedly ; she wondered
if he saw what she did, or if he had summoned up a private vision.
He answered finally, huskily, “This is—”
“Yes.”
“How did we—”
“I don’t know.”
“You must have—I could—I could never have—”
“You’re here,” she said inarguably, and he was
silent again, face the color of bone, fingers loosing notes like a
scatter of gold into the air.
“Well, how do we—How do we get ourselves out of
this? My father couldn’t find his way out.”
If she had been singing when he said that, her
voice would have shriveled with wonder and shock. Her throat
closed; she couldn’t breathe for a moment. She could only keep
playing until her wordless, frozen thoughts thawed out a word or
two, dredged up a memory.
“Not—” she whispered, her voice still trapped.
“Not—”
“Yes.”
“Nairn?”
“Yes.”
“Oh,” she said soundlessly, the word like a smooth,
cold river stone in her mouth. The harper, restive or mischievous,
tried to pull out of her rhythm suddenly. She fought him
stubbornly, held him to her beat. He could be patient, she thought.
He had nothing to fear. Nothing to lose.
Or did he? She looked at him again, sitting on a
stone merging like an old tooth from the grass. “Who are you?” she
asked, with or without words; she wasn’t sure. “Are you
Kelda?”
“Welkin?” Phelan echoed incomprehensibly, and the
harper only smiled, and played a note that melted Zoe’s heart,
kindled it to flame, and then to poetry.
“Oh,” she said again, astonished, and he nodded at
her.
“Play with me,” he said in his voice like the
broken shards of the world.
“Yes,” she said, or her heart answered; there was
nothing in that moment she wanted more than to spin all the music
she knew into that power, that gold, then to give it all
away.
Phelan felt the change in her: the dancing rill
turning suddenly into such a deep, strong, overriding current that
he could barely keep himself afloat. He let his fingers think for
him, move to her music while his brain told him he could never
possibly do what he was doing, which was akin to keeping himself
adrift by clinging to a leaf sailing above the current, balancing
his life on a passing feather, letting a twig pull him through the
swift, wild, frothing waters of the music that came out of her. He
played accidentals, it seemed, hitting notes out of nowhere by the
skin of his teeth, pulling music out of his prickling back hairs,
out of runnels in his brain he never knew existed. It wasn’t fear
of his father’s fate that kept them coming; he had no time even to
think of that. He was grasping the lowest thread of Zoe’s hem,
catching the edge of her shadow with his fingernails. There was no
letting go; he could only go where she led him.
So when what he thought was a standing stone on the
crest of a nearby hill shouted his name, he rolled an eye at it
confusedly and did not stop. The Oracular Stone, he assumed, though
it sounded oddly like his father.
“Phelan!”
His fingers skipped a beat. It was his father,
calling from the other side of the Turning Tower. Jonah shouted
something more that got tangled up on Zoe’s voice. Phelan ducked
his head, concentrated. If his father had any good advice, he
thought grimly, he would have given it to himself all those
centuries before. As though Jonah had read his mind, he began
walking toward Phelan, a tiny, impossibly distant figure who would
take days, years, eons, maybe, to cross the distance between
them.
The harper wrestled the next song out of Zoe’s
closing notes and leaped away with it, nearly snarling Phelan’s
fingers as he scrabbled to keep up. Something strange came out of
Zoe. He saw her voice curl out of her in long banners of color,
fluttering and dissolving into the wind. Her harp notes scattered
like tiny, glittering insects that spread bright, metallic wings
and swarmed away. He laughed suddenly, breathlessly, and tried to
make that magic with his fingers. Nothing sparked to life from his
notes, but she smiled at him anyway, all flaming silks and
windblown hair, stepping out of her shoes then to stand barefoot in
the long grass. How could she smile? he wondered. How could she not
be afraid, caught in that dire web of power and poetry, with his
father’s fate looming like a vast doorway into timelessness and
trouble in front of them both?
The harper spun the song away again; he and Zoe
sang it together, voices swirling like wind songs over the plain,
his deep, rough-hewn, blustery, hers soaring above it, the golds
and reds and deep gray-blacks of clouds gathering to kindle the
tempest. Phelan’s notes scattered like birds before the storm
riding on their tail feathers.
“Phelan!”
Jonah’s voice sounded out of the weltering. Phelan
couldn’t see him clearly through the blinding shafts of sunlight
spearing through mists and billowings across the plain. He sounded
closer, or else his voice had gotten stronger. What he could
possibly do that wouldn’t plunge them all more deeply into the
inexhaustible cauldron of time, Phelan couldn’t imagine. He wished
Jonah would stop shouting. The incongruous sound, like a sudden
voice breaking in upon a dream, made his fingers falter, miss the
note that led to the next, then the next, until Zoe caught him out
of his flailing, set him back where he was, balanced on the cliff’s
edge by a breath, trying to keep time itself motionless beside
him.
The next time Jonah shouted, he was very close, and
whatever word he loosed across the plain was not Phelan’s
name.
It cracked through the music like an oak bough
breaking, and it silenced the old harper’s voice in the middle of a
word.
The brief hesitation was astonishing enough to
freeze Phelan’s fingers as well. Zoe, fending for herself, seemed
impervious to the disruption. She only glanced at Jonah when he
appeared on the crest of the hill beside Phelan and pulled the harp
from his hands.
“What are you doing?” Phelan cried at him, wrenched
off-balance and feeling as though his own misguided father had
pushed him the wrong way over the cliff edge. “You can’t even
whistle! Strings break when you look at them.”
Jonah ignored him. The harper flung his glinting
smile at them and found his voice again; Jonah’s fingers leaped
after him. Phelan stared at him, sweating, trembling, torn from the
embrace of his instrument, from the embrace of the whirling, deadly
current of music, to stand empty-handed on the shore, music still
clamoring in his head with no way out.
Then he heard Jonah’s music melding with Zoe’s like
silver braided with gold, like sunlight with sky, small birds
flying out of his harp, and butterflies out of hers, their voices
winding together, sweet, sinewy, strong as bone and old as stone.
Together, they transfixed him, spellbound in their spell, his mouth
still hanging open, and all the unplayed music in him easing out of
his heart with every breath.
He didn’t notice when the old harper stopped
playing. Sometime before that, the mist of stones around them had
begun to float away, like clouds breaking up after a maelstrom.
Phelan, sitting on the ground by then, watched wordlessly as the
harper slipped the harp from his shoulder, reached for its case.
Phelan saw the markings on the harp then, secrets all over it,
whittled into the wood.
He found his voice finally, whispered, “Who are
you? Are you Kelda?”
“Sometimes. Sometimes I’m Welkin. Sometimes ...” He
shrugged. “I go where the music is.”
“What is—What is your true name?”
The paler eye narrowed at him, catching light. “Ask
your father. He knows.”
Phelan gazed up at his father, who was still
playing as though his fingers were trying to let loose a
millennium’s worth of unspent notes. “What did you do to him? He
couldn’t play a blade of grass before today. He couldn’t find the
beat in a pair of spoons.”
“I didn’t do anything. You did.” He slid the harp
into the case, fastened the old leather ties, and patted it fondly,
whereupon it disappeared. Phelan stared at the nothingness where it
had been; his eyes were pulled away to follow the harper’s
gesturing arm. “He’s been trapped in this tower since he tried to
kill me with his music. That time, he only brought down that old
watchtower. This time, he found a better way to deal with me. He
turned his heart inside out to rescue you from his fate. Not,” he
added, as Phelan opened his mouth, “that you were anywhere near it.
But he didn’t know. He pulled down the tower walls with his music
for you.”
Phelan felt his skin constrict. “Who are you?” he
asked again, his voice a wisp, a tendril of itself.
The harper smiled. “Just an old stone,” he said,
and became so, a weathered boulder embedded in the crown of the
hill, scaly with lichen and the faint patterns of what might once
have been words, drowsing in the afternoon sun.
Phelan shifted to lean against it after a while, as
he listened to his father and Zoe. After a longer while, he heard
the stone prophesy:
“She’ll be the next bard of this land. She’ll sing
the moon down and the sun up, and not a bard will be left standing
against her magic.”
After a time even longer than that, Beatrice found
him.
She came up the knoll, carrying her high-heeled
sandals, looking windblown, uncertain, even, he saw with
astonishment, as he rose, somewhat fearful. He went to meet her,
saw the tears still drying on her face. He put his arms around her,
felt again the strong, sweet embrace of the music in her.
“I couldn’t see you,” he said.
“You’re all I could see. I was so frightened. I’ve
never been so frightened. Everyone else had faded away, and I knew
from your father’s tale where you and Zoe had gotten to. Kelda
tricked you—”
He started to shake his head, then stopped and
smiled crookedly. “Well. I suppose he did.”
“I tried to follow your father into the tower. But
I couldn’t find my way until now. What happened to them?”
“My father managed to topple the right tower this
time.”
She turned her head, looked over his shoulder; he
felt her indrawn breath against his ear. “That’s Jonah. All this
time I thought it was Kelda, playing with Zoe. I couldn’t see
anything very clearly until now. I’ve never heard your father play
before.”
“Neither have I. He finally remembered how.”
Her hair brushed his mouth as she shifted again.
“Where is Kelda?”
Phelan hesitated, found it easiest just to say it.
“He turned back into Welkin and reminded my father how to play
again. Then he turned himself back into that.”
He gestured to the boulder breaking out of the
ground. He felt the princess’s tremor of astonishment. She loosed
him slowly, dropping her sandals, all her attention on the stone
now, he noticed wryly, with the labyrinth of weathered lines on
it.
She knelt beside it, touching it, caressing it, her
splayed fingertips finding and tracing the ancient scorings,
smiling even as her mouth shook with wonder and tears fell onto the
sunlit stone. “The oldest words,” she whispered. “The oldest magic
... Oh, Phelan, look at this.” He crouched down beside her, drew a
salty kiss from her, wishing he lay under those gently searching
fingers and wondering if, in whatever dream the old bard inhabited,
he felt them. “It’s the spiraling circle.”
“The what?”
“There.” She took his hand, guided his fingers
around a circle, then into smaller and smaller rings that wound
down into its heart. She looked at him, laughing through her tears.
“It’s the symbol on the door stone of the tomb we’re unburying.
I’ve never seen it anywhere else. I wonder if that’s his
name.”
“He’s a ghost?”
“Well, maybe the tomb isn’t a tomb. Or maybe it’s
still waiting for him—he hasn’t gotten around to dying yet.”
Bemused, he thought of the word Jonah had shouted
that made the bard’s sure fingers skip a note with astonishment.
Hearing your own name after who knew how many millennia might have
that effect, he thought. He took the princess’s fingers, raised
them away from the battered face of the stone to his lips, moved
that she could see so clearly the words engraved in stone and all
the worlds within the words.
Behind them, the music had begun to slow, fray into
an unfinished phrase, a scattering of notes. Jonah laughed
suddenly, a free, wondering sound unlike anything Phelan had ever
heard from him.
Then the amphitheater thundered, roared, wave after
wave of sound rolling across it from every point to crash together,
unwieldy echoes rippling back again to meet the constant noise.
They stood on stage and scaffolding again, musicians turned to
stone in the suddenly appearing world, the princess looking around
bewilderedly for the vanished stone, the knoll, the secret world,
the ancient word beneath her hand.
Zoe came back to life first, managing a smile
across the distance at Quennel, on his feet like everyone else in
the place, and clapping so hard she thought his hands might fall
off.
Then she turned to Jonah, held him in a long,
incredulous gaze before she spoke. “Nairn?”
He looked back at her silently; Phelan glimpsed the
shadow of the endless road in his eyes.
“I was young and foolish then,” he answered
finally, and she shivered.
“So are we all ...”
“Maybe,” he said more gently. “But you recognized
Kelda before I did. Welkin. All the magic and the poetry, the
ancient voices of this land come to life, with two feet to roam on,
a harp, and a pair of hands to play it with. You heard that true
voice.”
Her eyes clung to him. “You played that true voice
today,” she whispered.
He smiled. “I hear it every time I listen to you.
You were born with it. There are always ulterior motives in mine.”
He reached out to Phelan, drew him close. “I thought I was rescuing
my son. That wily harper fooled me again. I seem to have rescued
myself instead.”
“My father,” the princess murmured, looking over
the edge of the scaffolding, “is on his way over here. And Quennel.
And my mother. And my uncle, probably wanting to know where Kelda
is. And my aunt. Is there anyone who particularly wants to explain
all this?”
“I don’t,” Zoe said adamantly.
“Nor me,” Phelan breathed.
“That leaves me,” Jonah said dryly. “But not just
this moment ...”
“The school refectory,” Zoe suggested tiredly. “I
put a stew on to simmer this morning, and I don’t think I’ve ever
been so hungry in my life. It will soon be the only quiet, empty
place in this city. Come back with me, and I’ll feed everyone.
Phelan, what is so funny?”
“The Inexhaustible Cauldron,” he told her, throwing
an arm around her and dropping a kiss on her sweat-soaked hairline.
“The final detail. I wondered when you’d get around to that.”
“I’ll drive,” the princess offered promptly,
looking a question at Jonah, who nodded after a moment.
“For a little while ... Then I will need to go and
find the moon, drink a cup of moonlight with her.”
“You will come back,” Phelan said abruptly. Jonah
gave him a bittersweet smile.
“This time,” he promised. “And all the nights that
I have left ...” He tightened the hand on his son’s shoulder.
“Don’t grieve for me yet, boy ; I’ve simply returned to the land of
the living. I may never get used to it, and what a wonderful change
that will be. Ah—” he added, at a thought, and slid the harp from
his shoulder, held it out to Phelan.
Phelan shook his head, slipped the strap back over
Jonah’s shoulder, “Keep it,” he said huskily, smiling crookedly at
his impossible father. “Celebrate with the moon for me. You’ve
finally given me an end to my paper.”