June 2, 1953
A GOOD EVENING PARTY always gave off a glow.
Drinks were refilled quickly, the food was abundant, the servants
silent and efficient, and the guests all secure in the knowledge
that they had been chosen to attend, that many others had been
excluded and might wish to be here in their place.
The Chens’ coronation party gave off such a glow,
even as Claire and Martin approached the front door.
Candles set in sand in small pots lit the driveway
up to the house. Uniformed men whisked away the cars. Music tinkled
in the background; the Chens had hired a string quartet, installed
in the foyer, three sweaty Chinese men in dinner jackets and a tiny
woman with a violin tucked under her birdlike chin. Their arms
sawed back and forth, making the music seem more labor than
art.
The hostess at the door, holding a glass of
champagne, an apparition in a dress seemingly made out of
silver.
“Hello, hello,” trilled Melody. “How lovely to see
you all. Scepters for everyone.” She gestured to a bowl filled with
wands. “We’re all queen today.”
“You’re so wicked!” rasped a rapier-thin blonde.
“Another day, another party. I’ve seen you, what, three times
already this week? At the Garden Park, at Maisie’s lunch, and at
that little Italian in Causeway Bay? Who were you with, you minx?
That was a very handsome man.”
“A cousin, of course.” Melody winked. “Family’s
very important to me.”
“What nonsense we all talk!” said the blonde and
swept on inside.
Martin and Claire stood together, waiting.
“Claire!” Melody said. “I’m so glad you could
come.”
“Thank you so very much for having us,” Martin
said. Claire could see he was uncomfortable and she was suddenly
irritated with him for it.
“Nice to see you, Melody,” she said. “What a lovely
party.”
Martin got them drinks and Claire stood in the
living room she had been in so often before. It was alive,
different, filled with people talking, laughing, leaning toward one
another confidentially.
“I don’t know a soul,” Martin said when he
returned. “Makes you wonder why they invited the piano teacher and
her husband.”
“Martin!” Claire said. “You don’t need to feel that
way.”
But Martin was right. The other guests at the party
all knew one another and were not receptive to newcomers. Claire
and Martin smiled and sipped their drinks in the corner, wholly
ignored.
Martin gave up and went out to the garden to look
at the flowers and the view of the harbor. Claire stood by herself
for a moment and then went to inspect the photographs on the mantel
that she had seen before.
Trudy was still there, in her swimsuit, laughing at
the camera.
There was a group of four, talking about their last
trip to London, the types with feathered hats and silk suits.
Claire listened to their conversation, nursing her drink.
“But it was beastly. Service there is horrible
after you’ve been in the Far East. You can’t imagine what they
serve you for dinner, cold and awful, and they’re not in the least
apologetic about it. The idea of service is dead in England. Grim,
grim, grim. Much prefer it here where they take some pride in
it.”
“And Poppy’s in London now, isn’t she? I wouldn’t
be surprised if she were at Westminster Abbey now.”
“Oh, she’s horrible. I’m sure she’s tried
everything to get herself in. I suppose we’ll have to hear about it
when she comes back.”
Claire cleared her throat. One of the women, a
buxom redhead, glanced over her shoulder, and continued
talking.
From her position, Claire could see the two men
facing her, and the two women with their backs to her. They were
all English. She would have thought the Chens would have invited
more locals.
“Is Su May coming today?” the redhead asked the
other woman, a younger blonde with a bob. The men left to refresh
their drinks.
“I don’t think so. I think she and Melody had a
falling out.”
“Really? Do tell!”
“The usual. You know”—the blonde’s voice
dropped—“Melody is just impossible these days, so forgetful and
rude. I had a lunch for the Garden Club on Thursday, and she didn’t
let me know if she was able to come, never showed up, and then
never said anything about it! I don’t know what’s going on with her
these days.”
“The OBE’s gone to her head!”
Even lower. “Isn’t it funny how the most local
people are the most Anglophilic?”
“I know, darling. Look around! We could be in
Mayfair!”
“But you know, it’s unusual for locals to host
anything at their house. I think this is the first Chinese house
I’ve been in since I’ve been here.”
“Victor is good at hedging his bets. He’s having
another party tomorrow, for an entirely different crew, but not at
his house, at the club, with mah-jongg afterward and
everything.”
“His own kind.”
“I don’t know how Melody puts up with that man.
He’s the most obvious, venal person Charles has ever dealt with, he
says.”
“But, you know, I’ve wondered. They say,
opium . . .”
The two women stopped talking as another woman
passed by and said hello. They swooped and rustled and pecked at
one another like birds.
“Lavinia! ”
“Maude!”
“Harriet!”
Claire slipped away.
Later, she found herself talking to Annabel, a
frosted champagne-blond American from Atlanta, Georgia, who was in
Hong Kong with her husband, Peter, who was with the State
Department.
“What’s your story, darlin’? ” Annabel asked. Her
eyes were bright with alcohol, her hair in a beehive.
“I am here with my husband, who’s with the Water
Department,” Claire said.
“All these departments!” Annabel hooted. “The
State! Water! Make sure it’s in the pipes!”
“Er, yes,” Claire said. She never knew how to talk
to Americans, who were so informal, or what to say to their odd
exclamations.
“And you, what do you do to pass the time? Do you
have children?”
“No,” Claire said. “Do you?”
“I have four, all under five. I keep popping them
out and Peter’s ready to strangle me. I tell him, I wasn’t the only
one involved here, you know? At least here, we have all the amahs.
Back home, it’s not like this.”
“Have you been long in Hong Kong?” Claire asked
politely.
“Three years. Had Jack here, thank God he was a
Cesarean . . .” The woman chattered on and on, buoyed by her own
effervescence, and Claire listened, glad to have an excuse to stand
quietly and not look awkward.
Martin found her later, waiting by the powder
room.
“Hullo,” he said. “Ready to leave soon?”
She nodded.
“I’ll be right out.” She ducked into the bathroom
and splashed water on her face. She felt as if she were waiting for
something to happen.
Later, she heard the redhead and the blonde, Maude
and Lavinia, discuss her.
“Who was that woman lurking around?”
“I think I heard Melody say she’s the piano
teacher.”
“Really?”
“Pretty, though, don’t you think?”
“In a wan, blond sort of way, I suppose.”
The sound of a light slap. “You are such a bitch!”
Laughter.
“It’s that skin, you know. Drives men wild.”
“Yes, it just goes, though. It’s wasted on the
young.”
A sudden commotion near the door. A maid had
fainted in the heat. The houseboy was summoned and carried her
out.
“Bloody hot,” a man in a boater said.
“Always,” rejoined another. “Haven’t you
heard?”
Into this senseless conversation, Will strode,
unexpected. He stopped in front of them, the first people he
saw.
“Did you hear?” he said, with shock on his face.
His voice was not loud but everyone heard him. “Reggie Arbogast’s
gone and shot himself.”
The two men gaped.
“The man who had the parties on the Peak?” Claire
cried, before she could help it. In her simple mind, Claire still
imagined that money might buy happiness. A few people turned to
stare at her; most were still in shock.
The buzz rose audibly, immediate.
“His poor wife.”
Sotto voce. “Regina? I wonder he didn’t shoot her
instead.”
“The children?”
“All back in England. They’ll send a telegram, of
course. What a tragedy.”
“When I saw him at Fanling, he seemed rather down.
He went straight to the clubhouse for drinks. Rather the worse for
wear by the time I’d finished up.”
But Will was there for a reason. He looked around
the room for Victor and walked over to him.
“You bastard,” he said, and swung at the man. “You
let him think all this time he was the one who broke.” The room
quieted immediately.
Victor Chen staggered back but did not fall. He
came up, holding his jaw, and tried to smile.
“Now, Will, you come here after not having shown up
for days and then take a swing at me? You’ve been quite the absent
driver.”
“Shut up. You are despicable.”
Around them, people were spellbound, unable to
move, even though manners dictated they should leave. A few, more
decorous than the others, inched toward the door.
“You are behind all of this. You brokered the damn
Crown Collection back to the Chinese government under the guise of
patriotism, didn’t you? You didn’t care who suffered, just that you
enriched yourself and got in good with the new people. And you know
what your Chinese government did with it? They probably smashed it
into shards, as representative of bourgeois values!” His voice
rose.
“The Chinese have the right to their own history,”
Victor said stiffly. “It should never have been taken from them in
the first place.”
“You are such a hypocrite,” Will continued, as if
he hadn’t heard. “When you were reading history at Cambridge, you
were all about jolly old England, punting and strawberries and
cream, and then when it suited your purpose here, you became the
model China man, currying favor with the Nationalists, the
Communists, whoever would receive you. You don’t know whether
you’re coming or going, old man.” He stepped closer to Victor,
menacing.
“I wouldn’t expect you to understand, Will,” Victor
said, adjusting his shirt. “You least of all. You come to Hong Kong
and find your little nest of cronies, and your half-breed filly,
and all is right with the world. Bloody British on their moral high
horse, while they poisoned half of China with opium for their own
gain.”
“It doesn’t matter anymore, Victor. You are
doomed.”
“You’ve always been dramatic, Will,” Victor said.
“Just like Trudy. Sentimental too. Those qualities are luxuries, I
assure you.”
Will stood still for a moment.
“You aren’t worth it,” he said finally. “You will
never be worth anything.”
Suddenly Melody was next to Will.
“Will,” she pleaded. “We are not enemies here. We
loved the same people. We all had tragedies during the war. Can’t
you forgive, just a little?”
She looked at him, but he didn’t move. She shifted,
then for some reason changed direction toward Claire, and appealed
to her.
“Surely you must understand, Claire. Life is so
complicated and we make decisions that are difficult.”
Claire, caught unguarded, was exposed. Martin was
there. The whole world was there. The women who had been talking
about her stared; she was reborn in their eyes—someone worth
seeing.
Now she was being unveiled in front of the world as
somehow connected to their hosts, and to Will, a part of this
puzzle. She was unused to the attention. She remembered the moment
at the Chens’ dinner party where everyone had stared at her,
waiting for her witty rejoinder, a sign that she belonged with
them—a response that had never come. She thought of the feeling she
often had around Will—that she was someone else entirely, the other
Claire who had never gotten a chance to surface, a Claire who had
opinions and said things that people listened to, someone who was
visible. She thought of all these things, and looked back at the
sea of faces as they waited for her to answer Melody.
First, she nodded, as unobtrusively as possible.
She blushed, looked down. Edwina Storch’s pale, sweaty face rose in
her mind. You must rise to the occasion. Yes, but in a
different way from what Edwina imagined.
Claire looked up from the floor, raised her
eyes.
“Melody, we all make choices but we have to stand
by them and acknowledge responsibility if we find ourselves on the
wrong end.” Her voice quavered but the attention of every person in
the room was on her.
She felt Martin staring at her, bewildered. She
couldn’t look at him. She focused instead on what she was
doing.
“I don’t know what’s going on here, but I do know
that Will is telling you something important.”
She wanted to be generous, she wanted to
understand. The queen, being crowned in England on this very day,
surely would expect it of her. She wanted so badly to be merciful
and kind, and to touch Melody gently on the shoulder and tell her
it would be all right, that things would work out, that she herself
would make sure of it.
Claire was thinking of all of these things, feeling
the warm glow of benevolence.
But then, Melody’s face twitched.
It was quick, and then it was over, but Claire saw
it nonetheless. This woman, Melody was thinking, is my daughter’s
piano teacher! She is someone I hired to teach Locket how to strike
some black and white keys on a musical instrument. She is simple,
English, not anyone I need to ask a favor of.
And then it was gone, erased by the woman’s innate
practicality. But it was too late. Claire had seen it already. The
heat rose from her chest to her head. She was the one who didn’t
need anything of anyone. She turned to her lover.
“Will,” she said, emboldened. “I know you don’t . .
.”
“This doesn’t concern you, Claire,” he interrupted.
He barely saw her.
But she knew him well now.
“I know,” she said. “But Melody has a point.” She
knew this would inflame him further.
“Don’t be absurd. You have no idea what’s going
on.”
“But . . .”
“Out,” he said, pointing to the door.
Part of her thrilled to Will’s command of the
situation. He was owning her, finally. She heard a faint “I say”
that sounded like it came from her husband. She closed her eyes.
She couldn’t see Martin now, couldn’t see his bewildered,
humiliated face, and have to sort out how that made her feel. So
she closed her eyes and felt the dull throb of the blood coursing
through her head and the weight of all those eyes on her and she
opened her own, looked around at the blurry sea of faces, and then
she thought about what she should do and everything seemed to be
going in slow motion, as if she were under water. She blinked, and
everything was still blurry. A maid cried out from the kitchen,
unaware of the drama going on at the party, she heard glasses clink
as they were assembled on a tray by another unsuspecting servant, a
fly buzzed terribly near her ear, and she saw a redheaded woman
slowly, slowly sweep her hand through her hair, all the while
looking at her. All this happened as if it were in a room far away
from her, enclosed in glass. In the end, she stood up a little
straighter, took a deep breath, and then she did the only thing she
could think of doing at that moment, that particular instant: she
just walked away. It was cowardly and messy and left much to be
dealt with later but her heart felt full and tender and she didn’t
see that she had any choice. She walked away from the gaping women
and the perplexed men, and went directly to the door and put her
hand on the knob. She hesitated, she didn’t know why, and then she
turned the door handle—she remembered always the cool metal in her
palm—and she walked out. She didn’t look at Martin. She couldn’t.
She didn’t even look at Will. She walked outside, to a new and
unknown life.