CHAPTER FIFTEEN
It was a day as different from other days as dogs
are from cats and both of them from chrysanthemums or tidal waves
or scarlet fever. It is the law in many states, certainly in ours,
that it must rain on long holiday weekends, else how could the
multitudes get drenched and miserable? The July sun fought off a
multitude of little feathered clouds and drove them scuttling, but
thunderheads looked over the western rim, the strong-arm
rain-bearers from the Hudson River Valley, armed with lightning and
already mumbling to themselves. If the law was properly obeyed,
they would hold back until a maximum number of ant-happy humans
were on the highways and the beaches, summer-dressed and
summer-green.
Most of the other stores did not open until
nine-thirty. It had been Marullo’s thought to catch a pinch of
trade by having me jump the gun half an hour. I thought I would
change that. It caused more ill feeling among the other stores than
the profit justified. Marullo didn’t care about that, if he ever
knew about it. He was a foreigner, a wop, a criminal, a tyrant, a
squeezer of the poor, a bastard, and eight kinds of son of a bitch.
I having destroyed him, it was only natural that his faults and
crimes should become blindingly apparent to me.
I felt old long hand edging around on my
father’s watch and I found I was sweeping viciously with tensed
muscles, waiting for the moment of swift, smooth movement of my
mission. I breathed through my mouth, and my stomach pushed against
my lungs as I remember it did waiting for an attack.
For Saturday-morning-Fourth-of-July-weekend,
there were few people about. A stranger—old man—went by, carrying a
fishing rod and a green plastic tackle box. He was on his way to
the town pier to sit all day dangling a limp strip of squid in the
water. He didn’t even look up, but I forced his attention.
“Hope you catch some big ones.”
“Never catch anything,” he said.
“Stripers come in sometimes.”
“I don’t believe it.”
A red-hot optimist, but at least I had set the
hook in his attention.
And Jennie Single rolled along the sidewalk. She
moved as though she had casters instead of feet, probably New
Baytown’s least reliable witness. Once she turned on her gas oven
and forgot to light it. She’d have blown herself through the roof
if she could have remembered where she had put the matches.
“Morning, Miss Jenny.”
“Good morning, Danny.”
“I’m Ethan.”
“Course you are. I’m going to bake a
cake.”
I tried to gouge a scar in her memory. “What
kind?”
“Well, it’s Fannie Farmer but the label fell off
the package so I really don’t know.”
What a witness she would make, if I needed a
witness. And why did she say “Danny”?
A piece of tinfoil on the pavement resisted the
broom. I had to stoop down and lift it with a fingernail. Those
assistant bank mice were really mousing the hour with Cat Baker
away. They were the ones I wanted. It was less than one minute to
nine when they burst from the coffee shop and sprinted across the
street.
“Run—run—run!” I called and they grinned
self-consciously as they charged the bank doors.
Now it was time. I must not think of the whole
thing—just one step at a time and each in its place, as I had
practiced. I folded my anxious stomach down where it belonged.
First lean the broom against the doorjamb where it could be seen. I
moved with slow, deliberate speed.
From the corner of my eye I saw a car come along
the street and I paused to let it go by.
“Mr. Hawley!”
I whirled the way cornered gangsters do in the
movies. A dusty dark green Chevrolet had slid to the curb and,
great God! that Ivy League government man was getting out. My
stone-built earth shuddered like a reflection in water. Paralyzed,
I saw him cross the pavement. It seemed to take ages, but it was
simple as that. My long-planned perfect structure turned to dust
before my eyes the way a long-buried artifact does when the air
strikes it. I thought of rushing for the toilet and going through
with it. It wouldn’t work. I couldn’t repeal the Morphy law.
Thought and light must travel at about the same speed. It’s a shock
to throw out a plan so long considered, so many times enacted that
its consummation is just one more repetition, but I tossed it out,
threw it away, closed it off. I had no choice. And light-speed
thought said, Thank God he didn’t come one minute later. That would
have been the fatal accident they write about in crime
stories.
And all this while the young man moved stiffly
four steps across the pavement.
Something must have showed through to him.
“What’s the matter, Mr. Hawley? You look
sick.”
“Skitters,” I said.
“That’ll wait for no man. Run for it. I’ll
wait.”
I dashed for the toilet, closed the door, and
pulled the chain to make a rush of water. I hadn’t switched on the
light. I sat there in the dark. My quaking stomach played along. In
a moment I really had to go, and I did, and slowly the beating
pressure in me subsided. I added a by-law to the Morphy code. In
case of accident, change your plan—instantly.
It has happened to me before that in crisis or
great danger I have stepped out and apart and as an interested
stranger watched myself, my movements and my mind, but immune to
the emotions of the thing observed. Sitting in the blackness, I saw
the other person fold his perfect plan and put it in a box and
close the lid and shove the thing not only out of sight but out of
thought. I mean that by the time I stood up in the darkness and
zipped and smoothed and laid my hand on the flimsy plywood door, I
was a grocery clerk prepared for a busy day. It was no
secretiveness. It was really so. I wondered what the young man
wanted, but only with the pale apprehension that comes from a
low-grade fear of cops.
“Sorry to keep you waiting,” I said. “Can’t
remember what I ate to cause that.”
“There’s a virus going around,” he said. “My
wife had it last week.”
“Well, this virus carried a gun. I nearly got
caught short. What can I do for you?”
He seemed embarrassed, apologetic, almost shy.
“A guy does funny things,” he said.
I overcame an impulse to say, It takes all
kinds—and I’m glad I did because his next words were, “In my
business you meet all kinds.”
I walked behind the counter and kicked the
leather Knight Templar hatbox closed. And I leaned my elbows on the
counter.
Very odd. Five minutes earlier I saw myself
through the eyes of other people. I had to. What they saw was
important. And as he came across the pavement, this man had been a
huge, dark, hopeless fate, an enemy, an ogre. But with my project
tucked away and gone as a part of me, I saw him now as an object
apart—no longer linked with me for good or bad. He was, I think,
about my age, but shaped in a school, a manner, perhaps a cult—a
lean face and hair carefully trimmed short and standing straight
up, white shirt of a coarse woven linen with the collar buttoned
down and a tie chosen by his wife, and without doubt patted and
straightened by her as he left the house. His suit a gray darkness
and his nails home cared for but well cared for, a wide gold
wedding ring on his left hand, a tiny bar in his buttonhole, a
suggestion of the decoration he would not wear. His mouth and dark
blue eyes were schooled to firmness, which made it all the more
strange that they were not firm now. In some way a hole had been
opened in him. He was not the same man whose questions had been
short, squared bars of steel spaced perfectly, one below its
fellow.
“You were here before,” I said. “What is your
business?”
“Department of Justice.”
“Your business is justice?”
He smiled. “Yes, at least that’s what I hope.
But I’m not on official business—not even sure the department would
approve. But it’s my day off.”
“What can I do for you?”
“It’s kind of complicated. Don’t know quite
where to begin. It’s not in the book. Hawley, I’ve been in the
service twelve years and I’ve never had anything like this
before.”
“Maybe if you tell me what it is I can help you
do it.”
He smiled at me. “Hard to set it up. I’ve been
driving three hours from New York and I’ve got to drive three hours
back in holiday traffic.”
“Sounds serious.”
“It is.”
“I think you said your name was Walder.”
“Richard Walder.”
“I’m going to be swamped with customers, Mr.
Walder. Don’t know why they haven’t started. Hot-dog-and-relish
trade. You’d better start. Am I in trouble?”
“In my job you meet all kinds. Tough ones,
liars, cheats, hustlers, stupid, bright. Mostly you can get mad at
them, get an attitude to carry you through. Do you see?”
“No, I guess not. Look, Walder, what in hell’s
bothering you? I’m not completely stupid. I’ve talked to Mr. Baker
at the bank. You’re after Mr. Marullo, my boss.”
“And I got him,” he said softly.
“What for?”
“Illegal entry. It’s not my doing. They throw me
a dossier and I follow it up. I don’t judge him or try him.”
“He’ll be deported?”
“Yes.”
“Can he make a fight? Can I help him?”
“No. He doesn’t want to. He’s pleading guilty.
He wants to go.”
“Well, I’ll be damned!”
Six or eight customers came in. “I warned you,”
I called to him, and I helped them select what they needed or
thought they did. Thank heaven I had ordered a mountain of hot-dog
and hamburger rolls.
Walder called, “What do you get for
piccalilli?”
“It’s marked on the label.”
“Thirty-nine cents, ma’am,” he said. And he went
to work, measuring, bagging, adding. He reached in front of me to
ring up cash on the register. When he moved away I took a bag from
the pile, opened the drawer, and, using the bag like a potholder, I
picked up the old revolver, took it back to the toilet, and dropped
it in the can of crankcase oil that waited for it.
“You’re good at this,” I said when I came
back.
“I used to have a job at Grand Union after
school.”
“It shows.”
“Don’t you have anybody to help?”
“I’m going to bring my boy in.”
Customers always come in coveys, never in evenly
spaced singles. A clerk gets set in the interval to meet the next
flight. Another thing, when two men do something together they
become alike, differences of mind become less ragged. The Army
discovered that black and white no longer fight each other when
they have something else to fight in company. My subcutaneous fear
of a cop dissipated when Walder weighed out a pound of tomatoes and
totted up a list of figures on a bag.
Our first flight took off.
“Better tell me quick what you want,” I
said.
“I promised Marullo I’d come out here. He wants
to give you the store.”
“You’re nuts. I beg your pardon, ma’am. I was
speaking to my friend.”
“Oh, yes. Of course. Well, there are five of
us—three children. How many frankfurters will I need?”
“Five apiece for the children, three for your
husband, two for you. That’s twenty.”
“You think they’ll eat five?”
“They think they will. Is it a picnic?”
“Uh-huh.”
“Then get five extra for dropping in the
fire.”
“Where do you keep the Plug-O for sinks?”
“Back there with the cleansers and
ammonia.”
It was broken up like that and was bound to be.
Edited of customers, it was like this:
“I guess I’m in a state of shock. I just do my
job and it’s with mugs for the most part. If you get conditioned by
crooks and liars and cheats, why, an honest man can shock the hell
out of you.”
“What do you mean, honest? My boss never gave
away anything. He’s a tough monkey.”
“I know he is. We made him that way. He told me
and I believe him. Before he came over he knew the words on the
bottom of the Statue of Liberty. He’d memorized the Declaration of
Independence in dialect. The Bill of Rights was words of fire. And
then he couldn’t get in. So he came anyway. A nice man helped
him—took everything he had and dropped him in the surf to wade
ashore. It was quite a while before he understood the American way,
but he learned—he learned. ‘A guy got to make a buck! Look out for
number one!’ But he learned. He’s not dumb. He took care of number
one.”
This was interspersed with customers so it
didn’t build to a dramatic climax—just a series of short
statements.
“That’s why he wasn’t hurt when somebody turned
him in.”
“Turned him in?”
“Sure. All it takes is a telephone call.”
“Who did that?”
“Who knows? The department’s a machine. You set
the dials and it follows through all the steps like an automatic
washer.”
“Why didn’t he run for it?”
“He’s tired, right to his bones he’s tired. And
he’s disgusted. He’s got some money. He wants to go back to
Sicily.”
“I still don’t get it about the store.”
“He’s like me. I can take care of chiselers.
That’s my job. An honest man gums up my works, throws me sky high.
That’s what happened to him. One guy didn’t try to cheat him,
didn’t steal, didn’t whine, didn’t chisel. He tried to teach the
sucker to take care of himself in the land of the free but the boob
couldn’t learn. For a long time you scared him. He tried to figure
out your racket, and he discovered your racket was honesty.”
“Suppose he was wrong?”
“He doesn’t think he was. He wants to make you a
kind of monument to something he believed in once. I’ve got the
conveyance out in the car. All you have to do is file it.”
“I don’t understand it.”
“I don’t know whether I do or not. You know how
he talks— like corn popping. I’m trying to translate what he tried
to explain. It’s like a man is made a certain way with a certain
direction. If he changes that, something blows, he strips a gear,
he gets sick. It’s like a—well, like a do-it-yourself police court.
You have to pay for a violation. You’re his down payment, kind of,
so the light won’t go out.”
“Why did you drive out here?”
“Don’t know exactly. Had to—maybe—so the light
won’t go out.”
“Oh, God!”
The store clouded up with clamoring kids and
damp women. There wouldn’t be any more uncluttered moments until
noon at least.
Walder went out to his car, and came back and
parted a wave of frantic summer wives to get to the counter. He
laid down one of those hard board bellows envelopes tied with a
tape.
“Got to go. Four hours’ drive with this traffic.
My wife’s mad. She said it could wait. But it couldn’t wait.”
“Mister, I been waiting ten minutes to get
waited on.”
“Be right with you, ma’am.”
“I asked him if he had any message and he said,
‘Tell him good-by.’ You got any message?”
“Tell him good-by.”
The wave of ill-disguised stomachs closed in
again and it was just as well for me. I dropped the envelope in the
drawer below the cash register and with it—desolation.