CHAPTER XXXII
1802.—This September I was invited to devastate the moors of a
friend in the north, and on my journey to his abode, I unexpectedly
came within fifteen miles of Gimmerton. The ostler at a roadside
public-house was holding a pail of water to refresh my horses, when
a cart of very green oats, newly reaped, passed by, and he
remarked,—'Yon's frough Gimmerton, nah! They're allas three wick'
after other folk wi' ther harvest.' 'Gimmerton?' I repeated—my
residence in that locality had already grown dim and dreamy. 'Ah! I
know. How far is it from this?' 'Happen fourteen mile o'er th'
hills; and a rough road,' he answered. A sudden impulse seized me
to visit Thrushcross Grange. It was scarcely noon, and I conceived
that I might as well pass the night under my own roof as in an inn.
Besides, I could spare a day easily to arrange matters with my
landlord, and thus save myself the trouble of invading the
neighbourhood again. Having rested awhile, I directed my servant to
inquire the way to the village; and, with great fatigue to our
beasts, we managed the distance in some three hours. I left him
there, and proceeded down the valley alone. The grey church looked
greyer, and the lonely churchyard lonelier. I distinguished a
moor-sheep cropping the short turf on the graves. It was sweet,
warm weather—too warm for travelling; but the heat did not hinder
me from enjoying the delightful scenery above and below: had I seen
it nearer August, I'm sure it would have tempted me to waste a
month among its solitudes. In winter nothing more dreary, in summer
nothing more divine, than those glens shut in by hills, and those
bluff, bold swells of heath. I reached the Grange before sunset,
and knocked for admittance; but the family had retreated into the
back premises, I judged, by one thin, blue wreath, curling from the
kitchen chimney, and they did not hear. I rode into the court.
Under the porch, a girl of nine or ten sat knitting, and an old
woman reclined on the housesteps, smoking a meditative pipe. 'Is
Mrs. Dean within?' I demanded of the dame. 'Mistress Dean? Nay!'
she answered, 'she doesn't bide here: shoo's up at th' Heights.'
'Are you the housekeeper, then?' I continued. 'Eea, aw keep th'
hause,' she replied. 'Well, I'm Mr. Lockwood, the master. Are there
any rooms to lodge me in, I wonder? I wish to stay all night.' 'T'
maister!' she cried in astonishment. 'Whet, whoiver knew yah wur
coming? Yah sud ha' send word. They's nowt norther dry nor mensful
abaht t' place: nowt there isn't!' She threw down her pipe and
bustled in, the girl followed, and I entered too; soon perceiving
that her report was true, and, moreover, that I had almost upset
her wits by my unwelcome apparition, I bade her be composed. I
would go out for a walk; and, meantime she must try to prepare a
corner of a sitting-room for me to sup in, and a bedroom to sleep
in. No sweeping and dusting, only good fire and dry sheets were
necessary. She seemed willing to do her best; though she thrust the
hearth-brush into the grates in mistake for the poker, and
malappropriated several other articles of her craft: but I retired,
confiding in her energy for a resting-place against my return.
Wuthering Heights was the goal of my proposed excursion. An
afterthought brought me back, when I had quitted the court. 'All
well at the Heights?' I inquired of the woman. 'Eea, f'r owt ee
knaw!' she answered, skurrying away with a pan of hot cinders. I
would have asked why Mrs. Dean had deserted the Grange, but it was
impossible to delay her at such a crisis, so I turned away and made
my exit, rambling leisurely along, with the glow of a sinking sun
behind, and the mild glory of a rising moon in front—one fading,
and the other brightening—as I quitted the park, and climbed the
stony by-road branching off to Mr. Heathcliff's dwelling. Before I
arrived in sight of it, all that remained of day was a beamless
amber light along the west: but I could see every pebble on the
path, and every blade of grass, by that splendid moon. I had
neither to climb the gate nor to knock—it yielded to my hand. That
is an improvement, I thought. And I noticed another, by the aid of
my nostrils; a fragrance of stocks and wallflowers wafted on the
air from amongst the homely fruit-trees. Both doors and lattices
were open; and yet, as is usually the case in a coal-district, a
fine red fire illumined the chimney: the comfort which the eye
derives from it renders the extra heat endurable. But the house of
Wuthering Heights is so large that the inmates have plenty of space
for withdrawing out of its influence; and accordingly what inmates
there were had stationed themselves not far from one of the
windows. I could both see them and hear them talk before I entered,
and looked and listened in consequence; being moved thereto by a
mingled sense of curiosity and envy, that grew as I lingered.
'Con-trary!' said a voice as sweet as a silver bell.
'That for the third time, you dunce! I'm not going to tell you
again. Recollect, or I'll pull your hair!'
'Contrary, then,' answered another, in deep but softened tones.
'And now, kiss me, for minding so well.' 'No, read it over first
correctly, without a single mistake.' The male speaker began to
read: he was a young man, respectably dressed and seated at a
table, having a book before him. His handsome features glowed with
pleasure, and his eyes kept impatiently wandering from the page to
a small white hand over his shoulder, which recalled him by a smart
slap on the cheek, whenever its owner detected such signs of
inattention. Its owner stood behind; her light, shining ringlets
blending, at intervals, with his brown looks, as she bent to
superintend his studies; and her face—it was lucky he could not see
her face, or he would never have been so steady. I could; and I bit
my lip in spite, at having thrown away the chance I might have had
of doing something besides staring at its smiting beauty. The task
was done, not free from further blunders; but the pupil claimed a
reward, and received at least five kisses; which, however, he
generously returned. Then they came to the door, and from their
conversation I judged they were about to issue out and have a walk
on the moors. I supposed I should be condemned in Hareton
Earnshaw's heart, if not by his mouth, to the lowest pit in the
infernal regions if I showed my unfortunate person in his
neighbourhood then; and feeling very mean and malignant, I skulked
round to seek refuge in the kitchen. There was unobstructed
admittance on that side also; and at the door sat my old friend
Nelly Dean, sewing and singing a song; which was often interrupted
from within by harsh words of scorn and intolerance, uttered in far
from musical accents. 'I'd rayther, by th' haulf, hev' 'em swearing
i' my lugs fro'h morn to neeght, nor hearken ye hahsiver!' said the
tenant of the kitchen, in answer to an unheard speech of Nelly's.
'It's a blazing shame, that I cannot oppen t' blessed Book, but yah
set up them glories to sattan, and all t' flaysome wickednesses
that iver were born into th' warld! Oh! ye're a raight nowt; and
shoo's another; and that poor lad 'll be lost atween ye. Poor lad!'
he added, with a groan; 'he's witched: I'm sartin on't. Oh, Lord,
judge 'em, for there's norther law nor justice among wer rullers!'
'No! or we should be sitting in flaming fagots, I suppose,'
retorted the singer. 'But wisht, old man, and read your Bible like
a Christian, and never mind me. This is "Fairy Annie's Wedding" —a
bonny tune—it goes to a dance.' Mrs. Dean was about to recommence,
when I advanced; and recognising me directly, she jumped to her
feet, crying—'Why, bless you, Mr. Lockwood! How could you think of
returning in this way? All's shut up at Thrushcross Grange. You
should have given us notice!' 'I've arranged to be accommodated
there, for as long as I shall stay,' I answered. 'I depart again
to-morrow. And how are you transplanted here, Mrs. Dean? tell me
that.' 'Zillah left, and Mr. Heathcliff wished me to come, soon
after you went to London, and stay till you returned. But, step in,
pray! Have you walked from Gimmerton this evening?' 'From the
Grange,' I replied; 'and while they make me lodging room there, I
want to finish my business with your master; because I don't think
of having another opportunity in a hurry.' 'What business, sir?'
said Nelly, conducting me into the house. 'He's gone out at
present, and won't return soon.' 'About the rent,' I answered. 'Oh!
then it is with Mrs. Heathcliff you must settle,' she observed; 'or
rather with me. She has not learnt to manage her affairs yet, and I
act for her: there's nobody else.' I looked surprised. 'Ah! you
have not heard of Heathcliff's death, I see,' she continued.
'Heathcliff dead!' I exclaimed, astonished. 'How long ago?' 'Three
months since: but sit down, and let me take your hat, and I'll tell
you all about it. Stop, you have had nothing to eat, have you?' 'I
want nothing: I have ordered supper at home. You sit down too. I
never dreamt of his dying! Let me hear how it came to pass. You say
you don't expect them back for some time—the young people?' 'No—I
have to scold them every evening for their late rambles: but they
don't care for me. At least, have a drink of our old ale; it will
do you good: you seem weary.' She hastened to fetch it before I
could refuse, and I heard Joseph asking whether 'it warn't a crying
scandal that she should have followers at her time of life? And
then, to get them jocks out o' t' maister's cellar! He fair shaamed
to 'bide still and see it.' She did not stay to retaliate, but
re-entered in a minute, bearing a reaming silver pint, whose
contents I lauded with becoming earnestness. And afterwards she
furnished me with the sequel of Heathcliff's history. He had a
'queer' end, as she expressed it. I was summoned to Wuthering
Heights, within a fortnight of your leaving us, she said; and I
obeyed joyfully, for Catherine's sake. My first interview with her
grieved and shocked me: she had altered so much since our
separation. Mr. Heathcliff did not explain his reasons for taking a
new mind about my coming here; he only told me he wanted me, and he
was tired of seeing Catherine: I must make the little parlour my
sitting-room, and keep her with me. It was enough if he were
obliged to see her once or twice a day. She seemed pleased at this
arrangement; and, by degrees, I smuggled over a great number of
books, and other articles, that had formed her amusement at the
Grange; and flattered myself we should get on in tolerable comfort.
The delusion did not last long. Catherine, contented at first, in a
brief space grew irritable and restless. For one thing, she was
forbidden to move out of the garden, and it fretted her sadly to be
confined to its narrow bounds as spring drew on; for another, in
following the house, I was forced to quit her frequently, and she
complained of loneliness: she preferred quarrelling with Joseph in
the kitchen to sitting at peace in her solitude. I did not mind
their skirmishes: but Hareton was often obliged to seek the kitchen
also, when the master wanted to have the house to himself! and
though in the beginning she either left it at his approach, or
quietly joined in my occupations, and shunned remarking or
addressing him—and though he was always as sullen and silent as
possible—after a while, she changed her behaviour, and became
incapable of letting him alone: talking at him; commenting on his
stupidity and idleness; expressing her wonder how he could endure
the life he lived—how he could sit a whole evening staring into the
fire, and dozing. 'He's just like a dog, is he not, Ellen?' she
once observed, 'or a cart-horse? He does his work, eats his food,
and sleeps eternally! What a blank, dreary mind he must have! Do
you ever dream, Hareton? And, if you do, what is it about? But you
can't speak to me!' Then she looked at him; but he would neither
open his mouth nor look again. 'He's, perhaps, dreaming now,' she
continued. 'He twitched his shoulder as Juno twitches hers. Ask
him, Ellen.' 'Mr. Hareton will ask the master to send you
up-stairs, if you don't behave!' I said. He had not only twitched
his shoulder but clenched his fist, as if tempted to use it. 'I
know why Hareton never speaks, when I am in the kitchen,' she
exclaimed, on another occasion. 'He is afraid I shall laugh at him.
Ellen, what do you think? He began to teach himself to read once;
and, because I laughed, he burned his books, and dropped it: was he
not a fool?' 'Were not you naughty?' I said; 'answer me that.'
'Perhaps I was,' she went on; 'but I did not expect him to be so
silly. Hareton, if I gave you a book, would you take it now? I'll
try!' She placed one she had been perusing on his hand; he flung it
off, and muttered, if she did not give over, he would break her
neck. 'Well, I shall put it here,' she said, 'in the table-drawer;
and I'm going to bed.' Then she whispered me to watch whether he
touched it, and departed. But he would not come near it; and so I
informed her in the morning, to her great disappointment. I saw she
was sorry for his persevering sulkiness and indolence: her
conscience reproved her for frightening him off improving himself:
she had done it effectually. But her ingenuity was at work to
remedy the injury: while I ironed, or pursued other such stationary
employments as I could not well do in the parlour, she would bring
some pleasant volume and read it aloud to me. When Hareton was
there, she generally paused in an interesting part, and left the
book lying about: that she did repeatedly; but he was as obstinate
as a mule, and, instead of snatching at her bait, in wet weather he
took to smoking with Joseph; and they sat like automatons, one on
each side of the fire, the elder happily too deaf to understand her
wicked nonsense, as he would have called it, the younger doing his
best to seem to disregard it. On fine evenings the latter followed
his shooting expeditions, and Catherine yawned and sighed, and
teased me to talk to her, and ran off into the court or garden the
moment I began; and, as a last resource, cried, and said she was
tired of living: her life was useless. Mr. Heathcliff, who grew
more and more disinclined to society, had almost banished Earnshaw
from his apartment. Owing to an accident at the commencement of
March, he became for some days a fixture in the kitchen. His gun
burst while out on the hills by himself; a splinter cut his arm,
and he lost a good deal of blood before he could reach home. The
consequence was that, perforce, he was condemned to the fireside
and tranquillity, till he made it up again. It suited Catherine to
have him there: at any rate, it made her hate her room up-stairs
more than ever: and she would compel me to find out business below,
that she might accompany me. On Easter Monday, Joseph went to
Gimmerton fair with some cattle; and, in the afternoon, I was busy
getting up linen in the kitchen. Earnshaw sat, morose as usual, at
the chimney corner, and my little mistress was beguiling an idle
hour with drawing pictures on the window-panes, varying her
amusement by smothered bursts of songs, and whispered ejaculations,
and quick glances of annoyance and impatience in the direction of
her cousin, who steadfastly smoked, and looked into the grate. At a
notice that I could do with her no longer intercepting my light,
she removed to the hearthstone. I bestowed little attention on her
proceedings, but, presently, I heard her begin—'I've found out,
Hareton, that I want—that I'm glad—that I should like you to be my
cousin now, if you had not grown so cross to me, and so rough.'
Hareton returned no answer. 'Hareton, Hareton, Hareton! do you
hear?' she continued. 'Get off wi' ye!' he growled, with
uncompromising gruffness. 'Let me take that pipe,' she said,
cautiously advancing her hand and abstracting it from his mouth.
Before he could attempt to recover it, it was broken, and behind
the fire. He swore at her and seized another. 'Stop,' she cried,
'you must listen to me first; and I can't speak while those clouds
are floating in my face.' 'Will you go to the devil!' he exclaimed,
ferociously, 'and let me be!' 'No,' she persisted, 'I won't: I
can't tell what to do to make you talk to me; and you are
determined not to understand. When I call you stupid, I don't mean
anything: I don't mean that I despise you. Come, you shall take
notice of me, Hareton: you are my cousin, and you shall own me.' 'I
shall have naught to do wi' you and your mucky pride, and your
damned mocking tricks!' he answered. 'I'll go to hell, body and
soul, before I look sideways after you again. Side out o' t' gate,
now, this minute!' Catherine frowned, and retreated to the
window-seat chewing her lip, and endeavouring, by humming an
eccentric tune, to conceal a growing tendency to sob. 'You should
be friends with your cousin, Mr. Hareton,' I interrupted, 'since
she repents of her sauciness. It would do you a great deal of good:
it would make you another man to have her for a companion.' 'A
companion!' he cried; 'when she hates me, and does not think me fit
to wipe her shoon! Nay, if it made me a king, I'd not be scorned
for seeking her good-will any more.' 'It is not I who hate you, it
is you who hate me!' wept Cathy, no longer disguising her trouble.
'You hate me as much as Mr. Heathcliff does, and more.' 'You're a
damned liar,' began Earnshaw: 'why have I made him angry, by taking
your part, then, a hundred times? and that when you sneered at and
despised me, and—Go on plaguing me, and I'll step in yonder, and
say you worried me out of the kitchen!' 'I didn't know you took my
part,' she answered, drying her eyes; 'and I was miserable and
bitter at everybody; but now I thank you, and beg you to forgive
me: what can I do besides?' She returned to the hearth, and frankly
extended her hand. He blackened and scowled like a thunder-cloud,
and kept his fists resolutely clenched, and his gaze fixed on the
ground. Catherine, by instinct, must have divined it was obdurate
perversity, and not dislike, that prompted this dogged conduct;
for, after remaining an instant undecided, she stooped and
impressed on his cheek a gentle kiss. The little rogue thought I
had not seen her, and, drawing back, she took her former station by
the window, quite demurely. I shook my head reprovingly, and then
she blushed and whispered -'Well! what should I have done, Ellen?
He wouldn't shake hands, and he wouldn't look: I must show him some
way that I like him -that I want to be friends.' Whether the kiss
convinced Hareton, I cannot tell: he was very careful, for some
minutes, that his face should not be seen, and when he did raise
it, he was sadly puzzled where to turn his eyes. Catherine employed
herself in wrapping a handsome book neatly in white paper, and
having tied it with a bit of ribbon, and addressed it to 'Mr.
Hareton Earnshaw,' she desired me to be her ambassadress, and
convey the present to its destined recipient. 'And tell him, if
he'll take it, I'll come and teach him to read it right,' she said;
'and, if he refuse it, I'll go upstairs, and never tease him
again.' I carried it, and repeated the message; anxiously watched
by my employer. Hareton would not open his fingers, so I laid it on
his knee. He did not strike it off, either. I returned to my work.
Catherine leaned her head and arms on the table, till she heard the
slight rustle of the covering being removed; then she stole away,
and quietly seated herself beside her cousin. He trembled, and his
face glowed: all his rudeness and all his surly harshness had
deserted him: he could not summon courage, at first, to utter a
syllable in reply to her questioning look, and her murmured
petition. 'Say you forgive me, Hareton, do. You can make me so
happy by speaking that little word.' He muttered something
inaudible. 'And you'll be my friend?' added Catherine,
interrogatively. 'Nay, you'll be ashamed of me every day of your
life,' he answered; 'and the more ashamed, the more you know me;
and I cannot bide it.' 'So you won't be my friend?' she said,
smiling as sweet as honey, and creeping close up. I overheard no
further distinguishable talk, but, on looking round again, I
perceived two such radiant countenances bent over the page of the
accepted book, that I did not doubt the treaty had been ratified on
both sides; and the enemies were, thenceforth, sworn allies. The
work they studied was full of costly pictures; and those and their
position had charm enough to keep them unmoved till Joseph came
home. He, poor man, was perfectly aghast at the spectacle of
Catherine seated on the same bench with Hareton Earnshaw, leaning
her hand on his shoulder; and confounded at his favourite's
endurance of her proximity: it affected him too deeply to allow an
observation on the subject that night. His emotion was only
revealed by the immense sighs he drew, as he solemnly spread his
large Bible on the table, and overlaid it with dirty bank-notes
from his pocket-book, the produce of the day's transactions. At
length he summoned Hareton from his seat. 'Tak' these in to t'
maister, lad,' he said, 'and bide there. I's gang up to my own
rahm. This hoile's neither mensful nor seemly for us: we mun side
out and seearch another.' 'Come, Catherine,' I said, 'we must "side
out" too: I've done my ironing. Are you ready to go?' 'It is not
eight o'clock!' she answered, rising unwillingly. 'Hareton, I'll
leave this book upon the chimney-piece, and I'll bring some more
to-morrow.' 'Ony books that yah leave, I shall tak' into th'
hahse,' said Joseph, 'and it'll be mitch if yah find 'em agean;
soa, yah may plase yerseln!' Cathy threatened that his library
should pay for hers; and, smiling as she passed Hareton, went
singing up-stairs: lighter of heart, I venture to say, than ever
she had been under that roof before; except, perhaps, during her
earliest visits to Linton. The intimacy thus commenced grew
rapidly; though it encountered temporary interruptions. Earnshaw
was not to be civilized with a wish, and my young lady was no
philosopher, and no paragon of patience; but both their minds
tending to the same point—one loving and desiring to esteem, and
the other loving and desiring to be esteemed—they contrived in the
end to reach it. You see, Mr. Lockwood, it was easy enough to win
Mrs. Heathcliff's heart. But now, I'm glad you did not try. The
crown of all my wishes will be the union of those two. I shall envy
no one on their wedding day: there won't be a happier woman than
myself in England!