CHAPTER XIV
AS SOON AS
I had perused this epistle I went to the master,
and informed him that his sister had arrived at the Heights, and
sent me a letter expressing her sorrow for Mrs. Linton's situation,
and her ardent desire to see him; with a wish that he would
transmit to her, as early as possible, some token of forgiveness by
me.
'Forgiveness!' said Linton. 'I have nothing to forgive her, Ellen.
You may call at Wuthering Heights this afternoon, if you like, and
say that I am not angry, but I'm sorry to have lost her; especially
as I can never think she'll be happy. It is out of the question my
going to see her, however: we are eternally divided; and should she
really wish to oblige me, let her persuade the villain she has
married to leave the country.' 'And you won't write her a little
note, sir?' I asked, imploringly. 'No,' he answered. 'It is
needless. My communication with Heathcliff's family shall be as
sparing as his with mine. It shall not exist!' Mr. Edgar's coldness
depressed me exceedingly; and all the way from the Grange I puzzled
my brains how to put more heart into what he said, when I repeated
it; and how to soften his refusal of even a few lines to console
Isabella. I daresay she had been on the watch for me since morning:
I saw her looking through the lattice as I came up the garden
causeway, and I nodded to her; but she drew back, as if afraid of
being observed. I entered without knocking. There never was such a
dreary, dismal scene as the formerly cheerful house presented! I
must confess, that if I had been in the young lady's place, I
would, at least, have swept the hearth, and wiped the tables with a
duster. But she already partook of the pervading spirit of neglect
which encompassed her. Her pretty face was wan and listless; her
hair uncurled: some locks hanging lankly down, and some carelessly
twisted round her head. Probably she had not touched her dress
since yester evening. Hindley was not there. Mr. Heathcliff sat at
a table, turning over some papers in his pocket-book; but he rose
when I appeared, asked me how I did, quite friendly, and offered me
a chair. He was the only thing there that seemed decent; and I
thought he never looked better. So much had circumstances altered
their positions, that he would certainly have struck a stranger as
a born and bred gentleman; and his wife as a thorough little
slattern! She came forward eagerly to greet me, and held out one
hand to take the expected letter. I shook my head. She wouldn't
understand the hint, but followed me to a sideboard, where I went
to lay my bonnet, and importuned me in a whisper to give her
directly what I had brought. Heathcliff guessed the meaning of her
manoeuvres, and said—'If you have got anything for Isabella (as no
doubt you have, Nelly), give it to her. You needn't make a secret
of it: we have no secrets between us.' 'Oh, I have nothing,' I
replied, thinking it best to speak the truth at once. 'My master
bid me tell his sister that she must not expect either a letter or
a visit from him at present. He sends his love, ma'am, and his
wishes for your happiness, and his pardon for the grief you have
occasioned; but he thinks that after this time his household and
the household here should drop intercommunication, as nothing could
come of keeping it up.' Mrs. Heathcliff's lip quivered slightly,
and she returned to her seat in the window. Her husband took his
stand on the hearthstone, near me, and began to put questions
concerning Catherine. I told him as much as I thought proper of her
illness, and he extorted from me, by cross-examination, most of the
facts connected with its origin. I blamed her, as she deserved, for
bringing it all on herself; and ended by hoping that he would
follow Mr. Linton's example and avoid future interference with his
family, for good or evil. 'Mrs. Linton is now just recovering,' I
said; 'she'll never be like she was, but her life is spared; and if
you really have a regard for her, you'll shun crossing her way
again: nay, you'll move out of this country entirely; and that you
may not regret it, I'll inform you Catherine Linton is as different
now from your old friend Catherine Earnshaw, as that young lady is
different from me. Her appearance is changed greatly, her character
much more so; and the person who is compelled, of necessity, to be
her companion, will only sustain his affection hereafter by the
remembrance of what she once was, by common humanity, and a sense
of duty!'
'That is quite possible,' remarked
Heathcliff, forcing himself to seem calm: 'quite possible that your
master should have nothing but common humanity and a sense of duty
to fall back upon. But do you imagine that I shall leave Catherine
to his duty and humanity? and can you compare my feelings respecting
Catherine to his? Before you leave this house, I must exact a
promise from you that you'll get me an interview with her: consent,
or refuse, I will see her! What do you
say?'
'I say, Mr. Heathcliff,' I replied, 'you must not: you never shall,
through my means. Another encounter between you and the master
would kill her altogether.' 'With your aid that may be avoided,' he
continued; 'and should there be danger of such an event—should he
be the cause of adding a single trouble more to her existence—why,
I think I shall be justified in going to extremes! I wish you had
sincerity enough to tell me whether Catherine would suffer greatly
from his loss: the fear that she would restrains me. And there you
see the distinction between our feelings: had he been in my place,
and I in his, though I hated him with a hatred that turned my life
to gall, I never would have raised a hand against him. You may look
incredulous, if you please! I never would have banished him from
her society as long as she desired his. The moment her regard
ceased, I would have torn his heart out, and drunk his blood! But,
till then—if you don't believe me, you don't know me—till then, I
would have died by inches before I touched a single hair of his
head!' 'And yet,' I interrupted, 'you have no scruples in
completely ruining all hopes of her perfect restoration, by
thrusting yourself into her remembrance now, when she has nearly
forgotten you, and involving her in a new tumult of discord and
distress.'
'You suppose she has nearly
forgotten me?' he said. 'Oh, Nelly! you know she has not! You know
as well as I do, that for every thought she spends on Linton she
spends a thousand on me! At a most miserable period of my life, I
had a notion of the kind: it haunted me on my return to the
neighbourhood last summer; but only her own assurance could make me
admit the horrible idea again. And then, Linton would be nothing,
nor Hindley, nor all the dreams that ever I dreamt. Two words would
comprehend my future—death and hell: existence, after losing her, would be hell.
Yet I was a fool to fancy for a moment that she valued Edgar
Linton's attachment more than mine. If he loved with all the powers
of his puny being, he couldn't love as much in eighty years as I
could in a day. And Catherine has a heart as deep as I have: the
sea could be as readily contained in that horse-trough as her whole
affection be monopolised by him. Tush! He is scarcely a degree
dearer to her than her dog, or her horse. It is not in him to be
loved like me: how can she love in him what he has not?'
'Catherine and Edgar are as fond of each other as any two people
can be,' cried Isabella, with sudden vivacity. 'No one has a right
to talk in that manner, and I won't hear my brother depreciated in
silence!' 'Your brother is wondrous fond of you too, isn't he?'
observed Heathcliff, scornfully. 'He turns you adrift on the world
with surprising alacrity.' 'He is not aware of what I suffer,' she
replied. 'I didn't tell him that.' 'You have been telling him
something, then: you have written, have you?' 'To say that I was
married, I did write—you saw the note.' 'And nothing since?' 'No.'
'My young lady is looking sadly the worse for her change of
condition,' I remarked. 'Somebody's love comes short in her case,
obviously; whose, I may guess; but, perhaps, I shouldn't say.' 'I
should guess it was her own,' said Heathcliff. 'She degenerates
into a mere slut! She is tired of trying to please me uncommonly
early. You'd hardly credit it, but the very morrow of our wedding
she was weeping to go home. However, she'll suit this house so much
the better for not being over nice, and I'll take care she does not
disgrace me by rambling abroad.' 'Well, sir,' returned I, 'I hope
you'll consider that Mrs. Heathcliff is accustomed to be looked
after and waited on; and that she has been brought up like an only
daughter, whom every one was ready to serve. You must let her have
a maid to keep things tidy about her, and you must treat her
kindly. Whatever be your notion of Mr. Edgar, you cannot doubt that
she has a capacity for strong attachments, or she wouldn't have
abandoned the elegancies, and comforts, and friends of her former
home, to fix contentedly, in such a wilderness as this, with you.'
'She abandoned them under a delusion,' he answered; 'picturing in
me a hero of romance, and expecting unlimited indulgences from my
chivalrous devotion. I can hardly regard her in the light of a
rational creature, so obstinately has she persisted in forming a
fabulous notion of my character and acting on the false impressions
she cherished. But, at last, I think she begins to know me: I don't
perceive the silly smiles and grimaces that provoked me at first;
and the senseless incapability of discerning that I was in earnest
when I gave her my opinion of her infatuation and herself. It was a
marvellous effort of perspicacity to discover that I did not love
her. I believed, at one time, no lessons could teach her that! And
yet it is poorly learnt; for this morning she announced, as a piece
of appalling intelligence, that I had actually succeeded in making
her hate me! A positive labour of Hercules, I assure you! If it be
achieved, I have cause to return thanks. Can I trust your
assertion, Isabella? Are you sure you hate me? If I let you alone
for half a day, won't you come sighing and wheedling to me again? I
daresay she would rather I had seemed all tenderness before you: it
wounds her vanity to have the truth exposed. But I don't care who
knows that the passion was wholly on one side: and I never told her
a lie about it. She cannot accuse me of showing one bit of
deceitful softness. The first thing she saw me do, on coming out of
the Grange, was to hang up her little dog; and when she pleaded for
it, the first words I uttered were a wish that I had the hanging of
every being belonging to her, except one: possibly she took that
exception for herself. But no brutality disgusted her: I suppose
she has an innate admiration of it, if only her precious person
were secure from injury! Now, was it not the depth of absurdity—of
genuine idiotcy, for that pitiful, slavish, mean-minded brach to
dream that I could love her? Tell your master, Nelly, that I never,
in all my life, met with such an abject thing as she is. She even
disgraces the name of Linton; and I've sometimes relented, from
pure lack of invention, in my experiments on what she could endure,
and still creep shamefully cringing back! But tell him, also, to
set his fraternal and magisterial heart at ease: that I keep
strictly within the limits of the law. I have avoided, up to this
period, giving her the slightest right to claim a separation; and,
what's more, she'd thank nobody for dividing us. If she desired to
go, she might: the nuisance of her presence outweighs the
gratification to be derived from tormenting her!' 'Mr. Heathcliff,'
said I, 'this is the talk of a madman; your wife, most likely, is
convinced you are mad; and, for that reason, she has borne with you
hitherto: but now that you say she may go, she'll doubtless avail
herself of the permission. You are not so bewitched, ma'am, are
you, as to remain with him of your own accord?' 'Take care, Ellen!'
answered Isabella, her eyes sparkling irefully; there was no
misdoubting by their expression the full success of her partner's
endeavours to make himself detested. 'Don't put faith in a single
word he speaks. He's a lying fiend! a monster, and not a human
being! I've been told I might leave him before; and I've made the
attempt, but I dare not repeat it! Only, Ellen, promise you'll not
mention a syllable of his infamous conversation to my brother or
Catherine. Whatever he may pretend, he wishes to provoke Edgar to
desperation: he says he has married me on purpose to obtain power
over him; and he sha'n't obtain it—I'll die first! I just hope, I
pray, that he may forget his diabolical prudence and kill me! The
single pleasure I can imagine is to die, or to see him dead!'
'There—that will do for the present!' said Heathcliff. 'If you are
called upon in a court of law, you'll remember her language, Nelly!
And take a good look at that countenance: she's near the point
which would suit me. No; you're not fit to be your own guardian,
Isabella, now; and I, being your legal protector, must retain you
in my custody, however distasteful the obligation may be. Go
up-stairs; I have something to say to Ellen Dean in private. That's
not the way: up-stairs, I tell you! Why, this is the road upstairs,
child!' He seized, and thrust her from the room; and returned
muttering -'I have no pity! I have no pity! The more the worms
writhe, the more I yearn to crush out their entrails! It is a moral
teething; and I grind with greater energy in proportion to the
increase of pain.' 'Do you understand what the word pity means?' I
said, hastening to resume my bonnet. 'Did you ever feel a touch of
it in your life?' 'Put that down!' he interrupted, perceiving my
intention to depart. 'You are not going yet. Come here now, Nelly:
I must either persuade or compel you to aid me in fulfilling my
determination to see Catherine, and that without delay. I swear
that I meditate no harm: I don't desire to cause any disturbance,
or to exasperate or insult Mr. Linton; I only wish to hear from
herself how she is, and why she has been ill; and to ask if
anything that I could do would be of use to her. Last night I was
in the Grange garden six hours, and I'll return there to-night; and
every night I'll haunt the place, and every day, till I find an
opportunity of entering. If Edgar Linton meets me, I shall not
hesitate to knock him down, and give him enough to insure his
quiescence while I stay. If his servants oppose me, I shall
threaten them off with these pistols. But wouldn't it be better to
prevent my coming in contact with them, or their master? And you
could do it so easily. I'd warn you when I came, and then you might
let me in unobserved, as soon as she was alone, and watch till I
departed, your conscience quite calm: you would be hindering
mischief.' I protested against playing that treacherous part in my
employer's house: and, besides, I urged the cruelty and selfishness
of his destroying Mrs. Linton's tranquillity for his satisfaction.
'The commonest occurrence startles her painfully,' I said. 'She's
all nerves, and she couldn't bear the surprise, I'm positive. Don't
persist, sir! or else I shall be obliged to inform my master of
your designs; and he'll take measures to secure his house and its
inmates from any such unwarrantable intrusions!'
'In that case I'll take measures
to secure you, woman!' exclaimed Heathcliff; 'you shall not leave
Wuthering Heights till to-morrow morning. It is a foolish story to
assert that Catherine could not bear to see me; and as to
surprising her, I don't desire it: you must prepare her—ask her if
I may come. You say she never mentions my name, and that I am never
mentioned to her. To whom should she mention me if I am a forbidden
topic in the house? She thinks you are all spies for her husband.
Oh, I've no doubt she's in hell among you! I guess by her silence,
as much as anything, what she feels. You say she is often restless,
and anxious-looking: is that a proof of tranquillity? You talk of
her mind being unsettled. How the devil could it be otherwise in
her frightful isolation? And that insipid, paltry creature
attending her from duty and humanity! From pity and
charity! He might as well plant an oak in a
flower-pot, and expect it to thrive, as imagine he can restore her
to vigour in the soil of his shallow cares? Let us settle it at
once: will you stay here, and am I to fight my way to Catherine
over Linton and his footman? Or will you be my friend, as you have
been hitherto, and do what I request? Decide! because there is no
reason for my lingering another minute, if you persist in your
stubborn ill-nature!'
Well, Mr. Lockwood, I argued and complained, and flatly refused him
fifty times; but in the long run he forced me to an agreement. I
engaged to carry a letter from him to my mistress; and should she
consent, I promised to let him have intelligence of Linton's next
absence from home, when he might come, and get in as he was able: I
wouldn't be there, and my fellow-servants should be equally out of
the way. Was it right or wrong? I fear it was wrong, though
expedient. I thought I prevented another explosion by my
compliance; and I thought, too, it might create a favourable crisis
in Catherine's mental illness: and then I remembered Mr. Edgar's
stern rebuke of my carrying tales; and I tried to smooth away all
disquietude on the subject, by affirming, with frequent iteration,
that that betrayal of trust, if it merited so harsh an appellation,
should be the last. Notwithstanding, my journey homeward was sadder
than my journey thither; and many misgivings I had, ere I could
prevail on myself to put the missive into Mrs. Linton's hand.
But here is Kenneth; I'll go down,
and tell him how much better you are. My history is dree, as we say, and will serve to while away
another morning.
Dree, and dreary! I reflected as the good woman descended to
receive the doctor: and not exactly of the kind which I should have
chosen to amuse me. But never mind! I'll extract wholesome
medicines from Mrs. Dean's bitter herbs; and firstly, let me beware
of the fascination that lurks in Catherine Heathcliff's brilliant
eyes. I should be in a curious taking if I surrendered my heart to
that young person, and the daughter turned out a second edition of
the mother.