CHAPTER III
WHILE LEADING
THE WAY upstairs, she recommended that I should
hide the candle, and not make a noise; for her master had an odd
notion about the chamber she would put me in, and never let anybody
lodge there willingly. I asked the reason. She did not know, she
answered: she had only lived there a year or two; and they had so
many queer goings on, she could not begin to be
curious.
Too stupefied to be curious myself, I fastened my door and glanced
round for the bed. The whole furniture consisted of a chair, a
clothes-press, and a large oak case, with squares cut out near the
top resembling coach windows. Having approached this structure, I
looked inside, and perceived it to be a singular sort of
old-fashioned couch, very conveniently designed to obviate the
necessity for every member of the family having a room to himself.
In fact, it formed a little closet, and the ledge of a window,
which it enclosed, served as a table. I slid back the panelled
sides, got in with my light, pulled them together again, and felt
secure against the vigilance of Heathcliff, and every one else.
The ledge, where I placed my
candle, had a few mildewed books piled up in one corner; and it was
covered with writing scratched on the paint. This writing, however,
was nothing but a name repeated in all kinds of characters, large
and small—Catherine Earnshaw, here and
there varied to Catherine Heathcliff, and
then again to Catherine Linton.
In vapid listlessness I leant my head against the window, and
continued spelling over Catherine Earnshaw—Heathcliff—Linton, till
my eyes closed; but they had not rested five minutes when a glare
of white letters started from the dark, as vivid as spectres—the
air swarmed with Catherines; and rousing myself to dispel the
obtrusive name, I discovered my candle-wick reclining on one of the
antique volumes, and perfuming the place with an odour of roasted
calf-skin. I snuffed it off, and, very ill at ease under the
influence of cold and lingering nausea, sat up and spread open the
injured tome on my knee. It was a Testament, in lean type, and
smelling dreadfully musty: a fly-leaf bore the inscription—
'Catherine Earnshaw, her book,' and a date some quarter of a
century back. I shut it, and took up another and another, till I
had examined all. Catherine's library was select, and its state of
dilapidation proved it to have been well used, though not
altogether for a legitimate purpose: scarcely one chapter had
escaped, a pen-and-ink commentary—at least the appearance of
one—covering every morsel of blank that the printer had left. Some
were detached sentences; other parts took the form of a regular
diary, scrawled in an unformed, childish hand. At the top of an
extra page (quite a treasure, probably, when first lighted on) I
was greatly amused to behold an excellent caricature of my friend
Joseph,—rudely, yet powerfully sketched. An immediate interest
kindled within me for the unknown Catherine, and I began forthwith
to decipher her faded hieroglyphics. 'An awful Sunday,' commenced
the paragraph beneath. 'I wish my father were back again. Hindley
is a detestable substitute—his conduct to Heathcliff is
atrocious—H. and I are going to rebel -we took our initiatory step
this evening. 'All day had been flooding with rain; we could not go
to church, so Joseph must needs get up a congregation in the
garret; and, while Hindley and his wife basked downstairs before a
comfortable fire -doing anything but reading their Bibles, I'll
answer for it—Heathcliff, myself, and the unhappy ploughboy were
commanded to take our prayer-books, and mount: we were ranged in a
row, on a sack of corn, groaning and shivering, and hoping that
Joseph would shiver too, so that he might give us a short homily
for his own sake. A vain idea! The service lasted precisely three
hours; and yet my brother had the face to exclaim, when he saw us
descending, "What, done already?" On Sunday evenings we used to be
permitted to play, if we did not make much noise; now a mere titter
is sufficient to send us into corners. '"You forget you have a
master here," says the tyrant. "I'll demolish the first who puts me
out of temper! I insist on perfect sobriety and silence. Oh, boy!
was that you? Frances darling, pull his hair as you go by: I heard
him snap his fingers." Frances pulled his hair heartily, and then
went and seated herself on her husband's knee, and there they were,
like two babies, kissing and talking nonsense by the hour—foolish
palaver that we should be ashamed of. We made ourselves as snug as
our means allowed in the arch of the dresser. I had just fastened
our pinafores together, and hung them up for a curtain, when in
comes Joseph, on an errand from the stables. He tears down my
handiwork, boxes my ears, and croaks: '"T' maister nobbut just
buried, and Sabbath not o'ered, und t' sound o' t' gospel still i'
yer lugs, and ye darr be laiking! Shame on ye! sit ye down, ill
childer! there's good books eneugh if ye'll read 'em: sit ye down,
and think o' yer sowls!" 'Saying this, he compelled us so to square
our positions that we might receive from the far-off fire a dull
ray to show us the text of the lumber he thrust upon us. I could
not bear the employment. I took my dingy volume by the scroop, and
hurled it into the dog-kennel, vowing I hated a good book.
Heathcliff kicked his to the same place. Then there was a hubbub!
'"Maister Hindley!" shouted our chaplain. " Maister, coom hither!
Miss Cathy's riven th' back off 'Th' Helmet o' Salvation,' un'
Heathcliff's pawsed his fit into t' first part o' 'T' Brooad Way to
Destruction!' It's fair flaysome that ye let 'em go on this gait.
Ech! th' owd man wad ha' laced 'em properly—but he's goan!"
'Hindley hurried up from his paradise on the hearth, and seizing
one of us by the collar, and the other by the arm, hurled both into
the back-kitchen; where, Joseph asseverated, "owd Nick would fetch
us as sure as we were living: and, so comforted, we each sought a
separate nook to await his advent. I reached this book, and a pot
of ink from a shelf, and pushed the house-door ajar to give me
light, and I have got the time on with writing for twenty minutes;
but my companion is impatient, and proposes that we should
appropriate the dairywoman's cloak, and have a scamper on the
moors, under its shelter. A pleasant suggestion—and then, if the
surly old man come in, he may believe his prophecy verified—we
cannot be damper, or colder, in the rain than we are here.'
* * *
I suppose Catherine fulfilled her project, for the next sentence
took up another subject: she waxed lachrymose. 'How little did I
dream that Hindley would ever make me cry so!' she wrote. 'My head
aches, till I cannot keep it on the pillow; and still I can't give
over. Poor Heathcliff! Hindley calls him a vagabond, and won't let
him sit with us, nor eat with us any more; and, he says, he and I
must not play together, and threatens to turn him out of the house
if we break his orders. He has been blaming our father (how dared
he?) for treating H. too liberally; and swears he will reduce him
to his right place—'
* * *
I began to nod drowsily over the dim page: my eye wandered from
manuscript to print. I saw a red ornamented title—'Seventy Times
Seven, and the First of the Seventy-First.' A Pious Discourse
delivered by the Reverend Jabez Branderham, in the Chapel of
Gimmerden Sough.' And while I was, half-consciously, worrying my
brain to guess what Jabez Branderham would make of his subject, I
sank back in bed, and fell asleep. Alas, for the effects of bad tea
and bad temper! What else could it be that made me pass such a
terrible night? I don't remember another that I can at all compare
with it since I was capable of suffering. I began to dream, almost
before I ceased to be sensible of my locality. I thought it was
morning; and I had set out on my way home, with Joseph for a guide.
The snow lay yards deep in our road; and, as we floundered on, my
companion wearied me with constant reproaches that I had not
brought a pilgrim's staff: telling me that I could never get into
the house without one, and boastfully flourishing a heavy-headed
cudgel, which I understood to be so denominated. For a moment I
considered it absurd that I should need such a weapon to gain
admittance into my own residence. Then a new idea flashed across
me. I was not going there: we were journeying to hear the famous
Jabez Branderham preach, from the text—'Seventy Times Seven;' and
either Joseph, the preacher, or I had committed the 'First of the
Seventy-First,' and were to be publicly exposed and excommunicated.
We came to the chapel. I have
passed it really in my walks, twice or thrice; it lies in a hollow,
between two hills: an elevated hollow, near a swamp, whose peaty
moisture is said to answer all the purposes of embalming on the few
corpses deposited there. The roof has been kept whole hitherto; but
as the clergyman's stipend is only twenty pounds per annum, and a
house with two rooms, threatening speedily to determine into one,
no clergyman will undertake the duties of pastor: especially as it
is currently reported that his flock would rather let him starve
than increase the living by one penny from their own pockets.
However, in my dream, Jabez had a full and attentive congregation;
and he preached—good God! what a sermon; divided into four hundred and ninety parts, each fully equal to
an ordinary address from the pulpit, and each discussing a separate
sin! Where he searched for them, I cannot tell. He had his private
manner of interpreting the phrase, and it seemed necessary the
brother should sin different sins on every occasion. They were of
the most curious character: odd transgressions that I never
imagined previously.
Oh, how weary I grow. How I
writhed, and yawned, and nodded, and revived! How I pinched and
pricked myself, and rubbed my eyes, and stood up, and sat down
again, and nudged Joseph to inform me if he would ever have done. I was condemned to hear all out:
finally, he reached the 'First of the
Seventy-first.' At that crisis, a sudden inspiration descended
on me; I was moved to rise and denounce Jabez Branderham as the
sinner of the sin that no Christian need pardon.
'Sir,' I exclaimed, 'sitting here within these four walls, at one
stretch, I have endured and forgiven the four hundred and ninety
heads of your discourse. Seventy times seven times have I plucked
up my hat and been about to depart—Seventy times seven times have
you preposterously forced me to resume my seat. The four hundred
and ninety-first is too much. Fellow-martyrs, have at him! Drag him
down, and crush him to atoms, that the place which knows him may
know him no more!'
'Thou art the
man!' cried Jabez, after a solemn pause, leaning over his
cushion. 'Seventy times seven times didst thou gapingly contort thy
visage—seventy times seven did I take counsel with my soul—Lo, this
is human weakness: this also may be absolved! The First of the
Seventy-First is come. Brethren, execute upon him the judgment
written. Such honour have all His saints!'
With that concluding word, the whole assembly, exalting their
pilgrim's staves, rushed round me in a body; and I, having no
weapon to raise in self-defence, commenced grappling with Joseph,
my nearest and most ferocious assailant, for his. In the confluence
of the multitude, several clubs crossed; blows, aimed at me, fell
on other sconces. Presently the whole chapel resounded with
rappings and counter rappings: every man's hand was against his
neighbour; and Branderham, unwilling to remain idle, poured forth
his zeal in a shower of loud taps on the boards of the pulpit,
which responded so smartly that, at last, to my unspeakable relief,
they woke me. And what was it that had suggested the tremendous
tumult? What had played Jabez's part in the row? Merely the branch
of a fir-tree that touched my lattice as the blast wailed by, and
rattled its dry cones against the panes! I listened doubtingly an
instant; detected the disturber, then turned and dozed, and dreamt
again: if possible, still more disagreeably than before.
This time, I remembered I was
lying in the oak closet, and I heard distinctly the gusty wind, and
the driving of the snow; I heard, also, the fir bough repeat its
teasing sound, and ascribed it to the right cause: but it annoyed
me so much, that I resolved to silence it, if possible; and, I
thought, I rose and endeavoured to unhasp the casement. The hook
was soldered into the staple: a circumstance observed by me when
awake, but forgotten. 'I must stop it, nevertheless!' I muttered,
knocking my knuckles through the glass, and stretching an arm out
to seize the importunate branch; instead of which, my fingers
closed on the fingers of a little, ice-cold hand! The intense
horror of nightmare came over me: I tried to draw back my arm, but
the hand clung to it, and a most melancholy voice sobbed, 'Let me
in—let me in!' 'Who are you?' I asked, struggling, meanwhile, to
disengage myself. 'Catherine Linton,' it replied, shiveringly (why
did I think of Linton? I had read Earnshaw twenty times for Linton)—'I'm come home:
I'd lost my way on the moor!' As it spoke, I discerned, obscurely,
a child's face looking through the window. Terror made me cruel;
and, finding it useless to attempt shaking the creature off, I
pulled its wrist on to the broken pane, and rubbed it to and fro
till the blood ran down and soaked the bedclothes: still it wailed,
'Let me in!' and maintained its tenacious gripe, almost maddening
me with fear. 'How can I!' I said at length. 'Let ME go, if you
want me to let you in!' The fingers relaxed, I snatched mine
through the hole, hurriedly piled the books up in a pyramid against
it, and stopped my ears to exclude the lamentable prayer. I seemed
to keep them closed above a quarter of an hour; yet, the instant I
listened again, there was the doleful cry moaning on! 'Begone!' I
shouted. 'I'll never let you in, not if you beg for twenty years.'
'It is twenty years,' mourned the voice: 'twenty years. I've been a
waif for twenty years!' Thereat began a feeble scratching outside,
and the pile of books moved as if thrust forward. I tried to jump
up; but could not stir a limb; and so yelled aloud, in a frenzy of
fright. To my confusion, I discovered the yell was not ideal: hasty
footsteps approached my chamber door; somebody pushed it open, with
a vigorous hand, and a light glimmered through the squares at the
top of the bed. I sat shuddering yet, and wiping the perspiration
from my forehead: the intruder appeared to hesitate, and muttered
to himself. At last, he said, in a half-whisper, plainly not
expecting an answer, 'Is any one here?' I considered it best to
confess my presence; for I knew Heathcliff's accents, and feared he
might search further, if I kept quiet. With this intention, I
turned and opened the panels. I shall not soon forget the effect my
action produced.
Heathcliff stood near the entrance, in his shirt and trousers; with
a candle dripping over his fingers, and his face as white as the
wall behind him. The first creak of the oak startled him like an
electric shock: the light leaped from his hold to a distance of
some feet, and his agitation was so extreme, that he could hardly
pick it up. 'It is only your guest, sir,' I called out, desirous to
spare him the humiliation of exposing his cowardice further. 'I had
the misfortune to scream in my sleep, owing to a frightful
nightmare. I'm sorry I disturbed you.' 'Oh, God confound you, Mr.
Lockwood! I wish you were at the—' commenced my host, setting the
candle on a chair, because he found it impossible to hold it
steady. 'And who showed you up into this room?' he continued,
crushing his nails into his palms, and grinding his teeth to subdue
the maxillary convulsions. 'Who was it? I've a good mind to turn
them out of the house this moment?' 'It was your servant Zillah,' I
replied, flinging myself on to the floor, and rapidly resuming my
garments. 'I should not care if you did, Mr. Heathcliff; she richly
deserves it. I suppose that she wanted to get another proof that
the place was haunted, at my expense. Well, it is—swarming with
ghosts and goblins! You have reason in shutting it up, I assure
you. No one will thank you for a doze in such a den!'
'What do you mean?' asked
Heathcliff, 'and what are you doing? Lie down and finish out the
night, since you are here; but, for
heaven's sake! don't repeat that horrid noise: nothing could excuse
it, unless you were having your throat cut!'
'If the little fiend had got in at the window, she probably would
have strangled me!' I returned. 'I'm not going to endure the
persecutions of your hospitable ancestors again. Was not the
Reverend Jabez Branderham akin to you on the mother's side? And
that minx, Catherine Linton, or Earnshaw, or however she was
called—she must have been a changeling—wicked little soul! She told
me she had been walking the earth these twenty years: a just
punishment for her mortal transgressions, I've no doubt!' Scarcely
were these words uttered when I recollected the association of
Heathcliff's with Catherine's name in the book, which had
completely slipped from my memory, till thus awakened. I blushed at
my inconsideration: but, without showing further consciousness of
the offence, I hastened to add—'The truth is, sir, I passed the
first part of the night in—' Here I stopped afresh—I was about to
say 'perusing those old volumes,' then it would have revealed my
knowledge of their written, as well as their printed, contents; so,
correcting myself, I went on—'in spelling over the name scratched
on that window-ledge. A monotonous occupation, calculated to set me
asleep, like counting, or—'
'What can
you mean by talking in this way to me!'
thundered Heathcliff with savage vehemence. 'How—how dare you, under my roof?—God! he's mad to speak so!'
And he struck his forehead with rage.
I did not know whether to resent this language or pursue my
explanation; but he seemed so powerfully affected that I took pity
and proceeded with my dreams; affirming I had never heard the
appellation of 'Catherine Linton' before, but reading it often over
produced an impression which personified itself when I had no
longer my imagination under control. Heathcliff gradually fell back
into the shelter of the bed, as I spoke; finally sitting down
almost concealed behind it. I guessed, however, by his irregular
and intercepted breathing, that he struggled to vanquish an excess
of violent emotion. Not liking to show him that I had heard the
conflict, I continued my toilette rather noisily, looked at my
watch, and soliloquised on the length of the night: 'Not three
o'clock yet! I could have taken oath it had been six. Time
stagnates here: we must surely have retired to rest at eight!'
'Always at nine in winter, and rise at four,' said my host,
suppressing a groan: and, as I fancied, by the motion of his arm's
shadow, dashing a tear from his eyes. 'Mr. Lockwood,' he added,
'you may go into my room: you'll only be in the way, coming
down-stairs so early: and your childish outcry has sent sleep to
the devil for me.' 'And for me, too,' I replied. 'I'll walk in the
yard till daylight, and then I'll be off; and you need not dread a
repetition of my intrusion. I'm now quite cured of seeking pleasure
in society, be it country or town. A sensible man ought to find
sufficient company in himself.' 'Delightful company!' muttered
Heathcliff. 'Take the candle, and go where you please. I shall join
you directly. Keep out of the yard, though, the dogs are unchained;
and the house—Juno mounts sentinel there, and—nay, you can only
ramble about the steps and passages. But, away with you! I'll come
in two minutes!'
I obeyed, so far as to quit the
chamber; when, ignorant where the narrow lobbies led, I stood
still, and was witness, involuntarily, to a piece of superstition
on the part of my landlord which belied, oddly, his apparent sense.
He got on to the bed, and wrenched open the lattice, bursting, as
he pulled at it, into an uncontrollable passion of tears. 'Come in!
come in!' he sobbed. 'Cathy, do come. Oh, do—once more! Oh! my heart's darling! hear me this time, Catherine, at last!' The spectre showed a
spectre's ordinary caprice: it gave no sign of being; but the snow
and wind whirled wildly through, even reaching my station, and
blowing out the light.
There was such anguish in the gush
of grief that accompanied this raving, that my compassion made me
overlook its folly, and I drew off, half angry to have listened at
all, and vexed at having related my ridiculous nightmare, since it
produced that agony; though why was beyond
my comprehension. I descended cautiously to the lower regions, and
landed in the back-kitchen, where a gleam of fire, raked compactly
together, enabled me to rekindle my candle. Nothing was stirring
except a brindled, grey cat, which crept from the ashes, and
saluted me with a querulous mew.
Two benches, shaped in sections of a circle, nearly enclosed the
hearth; on one of these I stretched myself, and Grimalkin mounted
the other. We were both of us nodding ere any one invaded our
retreat, and then it was Joseph, shuffling down a wooden ladder
that vanished in the roof, through a trap: the ascent to his
garret, I suppose. He cast a sinister look at the little flame
which I had enticed to play between the ribs, swept the cat from
its elevation, and bestowing himself in the vacancy, commenced the
operation of stuffing a three-inch pipe with tobacco. My presence
in his sanctum was evidently esteemed a piece of impudence too
shameful for remark: he silently applied the tube to his lips,
folded his arms, and puffed away. I let him enjoy the luxury
unannoyed; and after sucking out his last wreath, and heaving a
profound sigh, he got up, and departed as solemnly as he came.
A more elastic footstep entered
next; and now I opened my mouth for a 'good-morning,' but closed it
again, the salutation unachieved; for Hareton Earnshaw was
performing his orison sotto voce, in a
series of curses directed against every object he touched, while he
rummaged a corner for a spade or shovel to dig through the drifts.
He glanced over the back of the bench, dilating his nostrils, and
thought as little of exchanging civilities with me as with my
companion the cat. I guessed, by his preparations, that egress was
allowed, and, leaving my hard couch, made a movement to follow him.
He noticed this, and thrust at an inner door with the end of his
spade, intimating by an inarticulate sound that there was the place
where I must go, if I changed my locality.
It opened into the house, where the females were already astir;
Zillah urging flakes of flame up the chimney with a colossal
bellows; and Mrs. Heathcliff, kneeling on the hearth, reading a
book by the aid of the blaze. She held her hand interposed between
the furnace-heat and her eyes, and seemed absorbed in her
occupation; desisting from it only to chide the servant for
covering her with sparks, or to push away a dog, now and then, that
snoozled its nose overforwardly into her face. I was surprised to
see Heathcliff there also. He stood by the fire, his back towards
me, just finishing a stormy scene with poor Zillah; who ever and
anon interrupted her labour to pluck up the corner of her apron,
and heave an indignant groan. 'And you, you worthless—' he broke
out as I entered, turning to his daughter-in-law, and employing an
epithet as harmless as duck, or sheep, but generally represented by
a dash—. 'There you are, at your idle tricks again! The rest of
them do earn their bread -you live on my charity! Put your trash
away, and find something to do. You shall pay me for the plague of
having you eternally in my sight—do you hear, damnable jade?' 'I'll
put my trash away, because you can make me if I refuse,' answered
the young lady, closing her book, and throwing it on a chair. 'But
I'll not do anything, though you should swear your tongue out,
except what I please!' Heathcliff lifted his hand, and the speaker
sprang to a safer distance, obviously acquainted with its weight.
Having no desire to be entertained by a cat-and-dog combat, I
stepped forward briskly, as if eager to partake the warmth of the
hearth, and innocent of any knowledge of the interrupted dispute.
Each had enough decorum to suspend further hostilities: Heathcliff
placed his fists, out of temptation, in his pockets; Mrs.
Heathcliff curled her lip, and walked to a seat far off, where she
kept her word by playing the part of a statue during the remainder
of my stay. That was not long. I declined joining their breakfast,
and, at the first gleam of dawn, took an opportunity of escaping
into the free air, now clear, and still, and cold as impalpable
ice. My landlord halloed for me to stop ere I reached the bottom of
the garden, and offered to accompany me across the moor. It was
well he did, for the whole hill-back was one billowy, white ocean;
the swells and falls not indicating corresponding rises and
depressions in the ground: many pits, at least, were filled to a
level; and entire ranges of mounds, the refuse of the quarries,
blotted from the chart which my yesterday's walk left pictured in
my mind. I had remarked on one side of the road, at intervals of
six or seven yards, a line of upright stones, continued through the
whole length of the barren: these were erected and daubed with lime
on purpose to serve as guides in the dark, and also when a fall,
like the present, confounded the deep swamps on either hand with
the firmer path: but, excepting a dirty dot pointing up here and
there, all traces of their existence had vanished: and my companion
found it necessary to warn me frequently to steer to the right or
left, when I imagined I was following, correctly, the windings of
the road. We exchanged little conversation, and he halted at the
entrance of Thrushcross Park, saying, I could make no error there.
Our adieux were limited to a hasty bow, and then I pushed forward,
trusting to my own resources; for the porter's lodge is untenanted
as yet. The distance from the gate to the grange is two miles; I
believe I managed to make it four, what with losing myself among
the trees, and sinking up to the neck in snow: a predicament which
only those who have experienced it can appreciate. At any rate,
whatever were my wanderings, the clock chimed twelve as I entered
the house; and that gave exactly an hour for every mile of the
usual way from Wuthering Heights. My human fixture and her
satellites rushed to welcome me; exclaiming, tumultuously, they had
completely given me up: everybody conjectured that I perished last
night; and they were wondering how they must set about the search
for my remains. I bid them be quiet, now that they saw me returned,
and, benumbed to my very heart, I dragged up-stairs; whence, after
putting on dry clothes, and pacing to and fro thirty or forty
minutes, to restore the animal heat, I adjourned to my study,
feeble as a kitten: almost too much so to enjoy the cheerful fire
and smoking coffee which the servant had prepared for my
refreshment.