CHAPTER TWELVE
MERIT’S DEEP, DARK (72% COCOA) SECRET
It was nearly midnight when I made it to Wicker
Park, but I got lucky, finding a corner grocery with its neon OPEN
sign still blazing in the window. I grabbed a bottle of wine and a
chocolate torte, my calorie-laden contribution to Mallory’s
not-going-that-far-away party.
On my way north, I tried to shrug off the job
tension. It wasn’t that I was the first girl to have boss issues,
but how many bosses were four-hundred-year-old Master vampires or
sword-wielding sorcerers? It didn’t help that the same
sword-wielding sorcerer was one-fourth of Mal’s party.
Once in the ’hood, I opted to leave my sword in the
car. Since I was off duty and off Cadogan House turf, it was
unlikely that I’d need it and, more importantly, the act felt like
a tiny rebellion. A wonderful rebellion. A rebellion I
needed.
Mal opened the door as soon as I popped up the
steps. “Hi, honey,” she said. “Bad day at the office?”
I held up booze and chocolate.
“I’ll take that as a yes,” she said, holding open
the door for
me. When I was inside and the door was closed and locked behind
us, I handed over the gifts.
“Chocolate and booze,” she said. “You do know how
to woo a girl. You’ve got mail, by the way.” She bobbed her head
toward the side table, then headed for the kitchen.
“Thanks,” I mumbled after her, picking up the pile.
Apparently the post office hadn’t completely caught up with my
change of address. I set aside magazines, interesting catalogs and
bills, and dumped credit card offers addressed to “Merit, Vampire”
into a pile for shredding. There was also a wedding invitation from
a cousin and, at the bottom of the stack, a small crimson
envelope.
I flipped it over. The envelope was blank but for
my name and address, both written in elegant white calligraphy. I
slid a finger beneath the flap and found a thick, cream-colored
card tucked inside. I pulled it out. It bore a single phrase in the
same calligraphy, this time in bloodred ink:
YOU ARE INVITED.
That was it. No event, no date, no time, and the
back was completely blank. The card contained nothing but the
phrase, as if the writer had forgotten, mid-invite, exactly what
party she’d been inviting me to.
“Weird,” I muttered. But the folks my parents hung
out with could be a little flighty; maybe the printer was in a
hurry, couldn’t finish the stack. Whatever the reason, I stuffed
the half-finished invite back into the pile, dropped the pile back
on the table, and headed for the kitchen.
“So, my boss,” I said, “is kind of an ass.”
“Which boss did you mean?” Catcher stood at the
stove, stirring something in a saucepan. He glanced back at me.
“The asshole vampire or the asshole sorcerer?”
“Oh, I think the name applies pretty well to
either.” I took a seat at the kitchen island.
“Don’t take Darth Sullivan personally,” Mallory
said, twisting a corkscrew into the wine like a seasoned expert.
“And really don’t take Catcher personally. He’s full of
shit.”
“That’s charming, Mallory,” he said.
Mallory winked at me and filled three wineglasses.
We clinked, and I took a sip. Not bad for a last-minute quick-stop
find. “What’s on the menu for dinner?”
“Salmon, asparagus, rice,” Catcher said, “and
probably too much talk about girly shit and vampires.”
I appreciated the light mood. If he could leave our
issues in the Sparring Room back in Cadogan House, I could, too.
“You are aware that you’re dating girly, right?” I asked. Mal may
have loved soccer and the occult, but she was all girly-girl, from
the blue hair to the patent leather flats.
Mal rolled her eyes. “Our Mr. Bell is in denial
about certain issues.”
“It’s lotion, Mallory, for God’s sake.” Catcher
used a long, flat spatula and the tips of his fingers to flip
salmon in his sauté pan.
“Lotion?” I asked, crossing my legs on the island
stool and prepping for some good drama. I could always appreciate
being the audience for a domestic squabble that had nothing to do
with me. And God knows Mal and Catcher were a constant source—I’d
been able to give up TMZ completely, my need for gossip sated by
Carmichael-Bell disputes.
“She has, like, fourteen kinds of lotion.” He had
trouble getting out the words, his shock and chagrin at Mallory’s
moisturizer stockpile apparently that intense.
Mallory waved her glass at me. “Tell him.”
“Women moisturize,” I reminded him. “Different
lotions for different body parts, different scents for different
occasions.”
“Different thicknesses for different seasons,”
Mallory added. “It’s pretty complicated, actually.”
Catcher dumped a cutting board of trimmed asparagus
into a steamer pot. “It’s lotion. I’m pretty sure science
has advanced to the point that you can buy a single bottle that
will take care of all that.”
“Missing the point,” I said.
“He’s missing the point,” Mallory parroted. “You’re
totally missing the point.”
Catcher snorted and turned to face us, arms crossed
over a Marquette T-shirt. “You two would agree that the world is
flat if it meant you could gang up on me.”
Mallory bobbed her head. “True. That is
true.”
I nodded and grinned at Catcher. “That’s what makes
us awesome. A force of nature.”
“What’s bad about this conversation,” Catcher said,
pointing at Mallory as he stalked toward her, then waggling his
finger between their bodies, “is that we’re dating. You’re supposed
to side with me.”
Mallory burst out laughing, just in time for
Catcher to reach her and nab her glass of wine before Cabernet
sloshed over the top. “Catch, you’re a boy. I’ve known you for like
a week.” Two months, actually, but who was counting? “I’ve known
Merit for years. I mean, the sex is great and all, but she’s my
BFF.”
For the first time since I’d known Catcher, he was
speechless. Oh, he sputtered a little, tried to get something out,
but Mallory’s pronouncement stopped him short. He looked to me for
help. If I hadn’t been amused, the desperation in his eyes would
have moved me.
“You’re the one that moved in, Slugger,” I said
with a shrug. “She’s right. Maybe next time you should do a little
of that famous Bell investigatory work before you sign up for the
full ride.”
“You two are impossible,” he said, but wrapped his
free arm around Mal’s waist and pressed his lips to her temple.
Just as I was visited by a pang of jealousy that tightened my
stomach, I heard a car door shut outside.
“Morgan’s here,” I said, uncrossing my legs and
bounding off my stool. I glanced back at both of them and pressed
my hands together. “Please, for the love of God, have clothes on
when I get back.”
I smoothed my hair as I traveled the hallway, then
pulled open the front door. He’d parked an SUV in front of the
brownstone.
Correction, I thought, as Morgan popped out of the
passenger side—Morgan’s driver parked the SUV. I guess Morgan
preferred to be chauffeured these days.
I stepped outside, hands on my hips as I waited for
him on the stoop. He strode toward the house, dressed in jeans and
a couple of layered T-shirts, a shamelessly happy grin on his face,
a paper sleeve of flowers in his hand.
“Hello, Chicago’s newest Master.”
Morgan shook his head, grinned. “I come in peace,”
he said, and bounded up the stairs. He stood on the step below
mine, which put us nearly at eye level. “Hello, beautiful.”
I smiled down at him.
“In the interest of détente between our Houses,” he
said, leaning in and lowering his voice to a whisper, “and to
celebrate this historic meeting of vampires, I’m going to kiss
you.”
“Fair enough.”
He did, his lips soft and cool against mine, the
length of his body warm as he pressed in. The kiss was sweet and
very, very eager. He nipped at my lips, whispering my name as he
did it, hinting at the depths of his desire. But before we’d gone
further than propriety would have allowed, given that we were
standing on the stoop in full view of the street, he pulled
back.
“You look”—he shook his head as if in
awe—“outstanding.”
He grinned up at me, dark blue eyes alight with pleasure . . . and
what looked like pride.
“Thank you. You don’t look half bad yourself. I
mean, you’re a vampire, but that’s not really your fault.”
Morgan clucked his tongue and leaned around me,
gazing through the open door. “You should be affording me the
Grateful Condescension I’m due. Is that salmon?”
I appreciated that the boy’s love of food was
nearly as big as mine. “That’s what I hear.”
“Sweet. Let’s go in.”
We made it as far as the hallway before he stopped
me, before he sidled me against one of the few parts of the wall
that weren’t covered in Carmichael family photographs. Then he
tucked his index finger into a belt loop on my jeans and tugged me
closer.
He leaned in, smelling of bright, grassy cologne.
It was kind of an odd smell on a night-dwelling vampire.
“I really didn’t get a chance to say hello and good
night properly,” he murmured.
“I think you were gearing up for the salmon.”
His voice was barely audible, a sultry rustling of
sound. “Exactly. I got distracted, and I really don’t think I gave
it my best.”
“In that case . . .” was all I got out before his
lips found mine. This kiss was just as eager as his last had been,
his mouth hungry and urgent, tongue teasing and insistent. His
hands slid around my back, enveloping me in his arms and his
spring-green scent. He sighed at the contact.
“Hey, did Morgan ever—Oh, dear God.”
Morgan’s head popped up, and we both looked to find
Mallory just outside the kitchen door, hands over her eyes. She
waved.
“Uh, hi, Morgan. Hi. Oh, God. Sorry,” she
sputtered, and
immediately turned on her heel and walked back into the
kitchen.
I grinned happily. “And now she knows what
it feels like.”
“Except we were actually clothed,” Morgan pointed
out, then looked back at me with a knowing smile. “But we could
remedy that pretty easily.”
“Yeah, getting naked to teach Mallory a lesson
ain’t real high on my priority list.”
He barked out a laugh, leaning back with the force
of it, our bodies still pressed together at the hips, then smiled
down at me, eyes bright, grin wide. “I missed you, Mer.”
I couldn’t help it—my smile faltered, and I hated
myself for it. I hated that I couldn’t return that careless, joyous
smile. I hated that I didn’t—or maybe just didn’t yet?—feel that
same spark that lit Morgan’s eyes. I wondered if it could grow,
with time and with nearness. I wondered if I was being too hard on
myself, expecting too much to think that I could fall for someone
after just a few weeks. Maybe I needed more time. Maybe I was
vastly overthinking it.
Morgan’s smile dipped a bit at one corner.
“Everything okay?”
“Yeah, I’m just . . . It’s been a really long
night.” That was entirely true, so it was really only a lie of
omission.
“Yeah?” He pushed a lock of hair behind my ear.
“You wanna talk about it?”
“Nah, let’s go get some food and make fun of
Mallory and Catcher.”
He closed his eyes, a tightness at the corners. I’d
hurt him, by not telling him about my night, by not sharing more of
myself with him, and I slapped myself mentally for it. But when he
opened his eyes again, his expression was forgiving, a corner of
his mouth tipped up into a smile. “You’re going to have to help me
out here, Merit. I can’t be the only one doing this.”
I gave him points for honesty, and for not saying
that I owed it to him to try, given that Ethan had all but ordered
our courtship. I half smiled back at him, simultaneously feeling a
sense of relief, that at least he’d put the relationship issue out
there, and a sense of foreboding, that I was going to be the one to
bring that relationship down around us.
“I know,” I said. “I know. I’m really about as good
at relationships as I am at being a vampire. I’m kind of a smart
but surprisingly inept girl.” That was the entire truth.
Morgan laughed full out, then pressed a kiss to my
forehead. “Come on, genius. Let’s eat.”
Dinner was ready by the time we made it into the
kitchen, our fingers linked together as we walked. Morgan slipped
his hand away and presented his bundle of red-tipped white tulips
to Mallory. “Thanks for having me over.”
“Oh, these are gorgeous.” She enveloped him in a
hug he didn’t look like he was expecting, but seemed inordinately
pleased by. “And you’re welcome. We’re glad you could come.”
Mallory gave him a bright smile, and gave me a
concealed thumbs-up, then set about finding a vase for the flowers
while Morgan and Catcher said their manly hellos—consisting of a
symbolic head bob from Catcher (of the “You’re in my lair now”
variety) and a responding nod from Morgan (of the “You are clearly
the king of this castle” variety).
A vase in one hand and the flowers in the other,
Mallory paused at the threshold of the kitchen. “Merit, do you need
blood?”
I didn’t even need to think about it. Although I
hadn’t had a run of overwhelming bloodlust since my first week as a
vampire—the First Hunger that had led me to nearly plant my fangs
in Ethan’s neck, and a second bout of drinking roused by an
unpleasant discussion with my father—I wasn’t going to
risk it, and tried to be preventative by drinking the
Canon’s recommended pint every other day. Vampires were
hardly the monsters we were made out to be in fairy tales and
television shows. We were hardly different from humans, but for the
genetic mutation, fangs, silvering eyes, and periodic penchant for
blood.
What? I said hardly different.
“Yes, I need blood,” I told her, petulant as a
teenager reminded to take her vitamins, and snatched a bag of
Blood4You Type A from the refrigerator. Although Mallory, as a
now-former ad exec, found the name embarrassingly sophomoric, she
appreciated not being my lunch.
I glanced back at Morgan, waved the bag at him.
“Hungry?”
He moved closer to me, gaze surprisingly
possessive, arms crossed over his chest, and leaned down. “You
realize that we’d be sharing blood?”
“Is that a problem?”
His brow furrowed in confusion. “No, no. It’s just.
. . .”
He paused, and I blinked. Did I miss something? I
tried to flip mentally back through chapter three of the
Canon (“Drink Me”), which discussed some of the etiquette of
vampire drinking. Vampires could drink directly from humans or
other vampires, and I’d witnessed firsthand the sensuality of it
when Amber had been Ethan’s beverage of choice. But the intimacy of
drinking prepackaged blood in front of an audience escaped me. I’d
seen Ethan do it just the other day.
On the other hand, Morgan was a Navarre vampire,
prohibited from drinking blood directly from humans. The
Canon didn’t get into the emotions of it, but maybe even
drinking from plastic assumed a greater importance when it was the
only way you could share the act.
“Is that a problem?” I asked.
He must have reconciled my ignorance, as he finally
smiled
back. “Must be a House thing. Yeah, I’ll take a pint. B if you
have it.”
There was a bag of B in the refrigerator, and I
concluded his palate was more sensitive than mine if he could taste
the difference in the coagulant qualities of a bag of blood. I was
about to reach for two glasses when I realized that, in addition to
the apparent philosophical differences, he might ingest
differently, too.
My hand on the open cabinet door, I turned back to
him. “How do you take it?”
“Just pour it into a glass.” He frowned, scratched
absently at his temple. “You know, maybe we need to have some kind
of mixer. Get Cadogan and Navarre vamps together, get them talking.
It seems like there’s a lot we don’t know about each other.”
“I was just thinking that the other day, actually,”
I said, thinking Ethan would be thrilled at the opportunity to
build rapport, and potentially an alliance, with the folks from
Navarre.
I pulled down waffle-etched glasses from a cabinet
and opened the plastic valves in the top of the bags, filling a
glass for each of us. I handed one to Morgan, and took a sip of
mine.
Morgan sipped from his own glass, eyes on me as he
drank. His eyes didn’t silver, but his predatory, seductive gaze
left little doubt about his line of thinking. He drained the glass
without taking a breath, chest heaving when he finally finished
it.
And then, with the tip of his tongue, he grabbed a
single drop that had caught on his upper lip.
“I win,” he said, very softly.
It took Mallory’s voice to drag my gaze away from
his mouth. “All right, kids,” she said from the dining room, “I
think we’re ready.”
I took the final drink from my glass, put both our
glasses into the sink, and accompanied Morgan into the dining room.
His
tulips were in the vase and the accessories of fancy dining—place
mats, cloth napkins, silverware, and wineglasses—lay on the table
before each of the four chairs. Our plates were already laden with
food—fillets of salmon, herb-sprinkled rice, and spears of steamed
asparagus—larger portions for the calorie-sucks that were
modern-day vampires.
Catcher and Mallory were already seated on two
sides of the table. We took the remaining two chairs, then Morgan
picked up his wineglass and raised it to both of them. “To good
friends,” he said.
“To vampires,” Mallory said, clinking her glass
against mine.
“No,” Catcher said. “To Chicago.”
Dinner was great. Good food, good conversation,
good company. Catcher and Mallory were entertaining, as usual, and
Morgan was charming, listening intently to Mallory’s stories of my
antics.
Of course, because I’d been a grad student the
entire time that I’d known her, there weren’t that many antics to
report. There were, however, plenty of stories about my geekiness,
including the tale of what she called my “Juilliard” stage.
“She’d been in the middle of some kind of musical
obsession,” Mallory began, grinning at me. She’d pushed back her
plate and crossed her legs on her chair, clearly prepped for a
lengthy tale. I pre-cut the last of my salmon into tiny bites,
ready to intervene should things get dicey.
“She’d rented, like, every musical DVD she could
find, from Chicago to Oklahoma. Girl could not get
enough of the singing and dancing.”
Morgan leaned forward. “Did she watch
Newsies? Tell me she watched Newsies.”
Mallory pursed her lips to bite back a laugh, then
held up two fingers. “Twice.”
“Do go on,” Morgan said, giving me a sideways
glance. “I’m fascinated.”
“Well,” Mallory said, lifting a hand to push blue
hair behind her ear, “you know Merit used to dance—ballet—but she
eventually came to her senses. And by the way, I don’t know what
kind of freaky shit vampires are into, but if at all possible, stay
away from her feet.”
“Mallory Carmichael!” My cheeks heated with
a blush I’m sure was crimson red.
“What?” she asked with a nonchalant shrug. “You
danced in toe shoes. It happens.”
I put an elbow on the table, my forehead in my
hand. This, I bet, is what my life would have been like had my
sister Charlotte and I been closer—the kind of intimate humiliation
that only siblings could provide. For better or for worse and, God
willing, in sickness and in health, Mallory was a sister.
A hand caressed my back. Morgan leaned over,
whispered in my ear, “It’s okay, babe. I still like you.”
I gave him a sardonic look. “That feeling is not
mutual at the moment.”
“Mmm-hmmm,” he said, then turned back to Mallory.
“So our former ballerina was hooked on musicals.”
“Not so much the musicals, but the style.” Mallory
looked at me, made an apologetic face.
I waved her off. “Just put it out there.”
“Keep in mind, she went to NYU, then Stanford, then
lands back in Chicago. And our Merit loved the Big Apple. The Windy
City is a little more akin to New York living than California was,
but it’s far from having a walkup in the Village. But Mer decides
she can make up for it. With clothes. So this one winter, she
starts wearing leggings, big floppy sweaters, and always a scarf.
She never left the house without a scarf kind of”—Mallory waggled
her arms in the air—“draped all around her. She had
a pair of brown knee-high boots, wore them every day. It was this
whole ‘ballerina chic’ thing.” Mallory adjusted on her seat, leaned
forward, and crooked a finger at Morgan and Catcher. They both
leaned forward, obviously entranced. The girl knew how to work a
crowd.
“There was a beret.”
They both let out groans, sat up again. “How could
you?” Morgan asked with a mock horror that was belied by the laugh
that was threatening to escape him. “A beret, Merit? Really?”
“You will never give me shit again,” Catcher said.
“I own you now. I own your ass.”
I plucked at a bite of salmon, chewed it with
careful deliberation, then waved my fork at them. “You are all on
my shit list. All of you.”
Morgan sighed happily, drained the last of his
glass of wine. “This is good,” he said. “This is really helpful.
What else do I need to know?”
“Oh, she has tons of secrets,” Mallory confided,
with a grin to me. “And I know all of them.”
Morgan, one arm slung on the back of his chair,
made a beckoning movement with his free hand. “Let’s go. Keep ’em
coming.”
“Mallory,” I warned, but she only laughed.
“Well, let’s see. I bet you didn’t tell him about
the secret kitchen drawer. You should clean that out while you’re
over here.”
Morgan sat up straight and slid a glance behind him
at the kitchen door. “Secret kitchen drawer?” Then he looked back
at me, winged up eyebrows.
My answer was quick and vehement.
“No.”
He slid back his chair.
“Morgan, no.”
He was halfway to the kitchen before I was out of
my chair,
laughing as I rushed after him. “Morgan! Damn it, stop! She was
kidding. There’s no such thing.”
By the time I made it to the kitchen, he was
pulling drawers open left and right. I jumped on his back and
wrapped my arms around his shoulders. “She was kidding! I
swear.”
I expected him to throw me off, but he laughed,
pulled my legs around his waist, and kept searching.
“Merit, Merit, Merit. You’re too quiet. So many
secrets.”
“She was kidding, Morgan.” In a desperate attempt
to keep my secret drawer, well, secret, I kissed the top
curve of his ear. He paused and cocked his head to the side to give
me better access. But after I put my chin on the top of his head
and said, “Thank you,” he started searching again.
“Hey! I thought you were going to stop!”
“Then you’re naïve.” He pulled open another drawer,
froze. “Holy shit.”
I sighed and slid down his back. “I can explain
this.”
He pulled out the drawer—a long, flat bay intended
for silverware—as far as it would go, and stared into it. He gaped,
mouth open, at its contents before turning his head to look at me.
“Anything you want to say?”
I gnawed the edge of my lip. “My parents didn’t let
me have candy?”
Morgan reached in and grabbed a handful of the
drawer’s contents—South American chocolate bars, bags of
chocolate-covered dried cherries, chocolate pastiches, chocolate
buttons, chocolate stars, chocolate lollipops, chocolate shells,
chocolate-covered gingerbread Christmas tree cookies, a
white-chocolate-covered Twinkie, chocolate caramels, cocoa from a
small-batch chocolatier and a foot-long Toblerone bar. He looked at
me, tried not to laugh, and, for all that effort, made a strangled,
hiccupped sound. “And so you’re compensating for that?”
I crossed my arms. “Do you have a problem with my
stash?”
He made that sound again. “No?”
“Quit laughing at me,” I ordered, but I was
grinning when I said it. Morgan redeposited his handful of
chocolate, closed the drawer, grabbed my hips, and arranged my body
between his and the island.
He looked down at me with an expression of mock
gravity. “I’m not laughing at you, Mer. Chortling, maybe, but not
laughing.”
“Ha.” I gave him a baleful look that even I knew
was unconvincing.
“Um, not to get personal, but I saw that dessert
you brought. Were you planning on sharing that, or was that just
your portion?”
“HA,” I repeated.
“It’s a good thing you’re not obsessive. Oh, wait,”
he said dryly, “yes, you are.”
“Some people like wine. Some like cars. Some,” I
said, tugging at the hem of his undoubtedly designer T-shirt, “like
fantastically expensive clothes. I like chocolate.”
“Yeah, Mer, I can see that. But the real question
is, do you apply that passion to other areas of your life?”
“I have no idea what you’re talking about.”
“Liar,” he said, closing his eyes and lowering his
lips to mine. Our lips had just touched when the silence was
broken.
“Would you please stop feeling up my
Sentinel?”