CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
IN THE STACKS
“ ate, isn’t it?” I blinked away black text and
looked up, found Ethan walking toward my table. My immersion
solution had worked—I hadn’t even heard the library door
open.
“Is it?” I flipped my wrist to check the time on my
watch, but before I read the dial, he announced, “It’s nearly three
o’clock. You look to be engrossed.”
Over an hour had passed, then, since we’d gone our
separate ways. I’d been sitting in the chair with my sword poised
beside me, Pumas discarded beneath the table, legs crossed, for
most of that time.
I scratched my temple and glanced down at the book
before me. “French Revolution,” I told him.
Ethan looked confused and crossed his arms over his
chest. “French Revolution? To what end are you researching the
French Revolution?”
“Because we, I, will better understand who
she is, what she’s after, if we know where she came from.”
“You mean Celina.”
“Come here,” I told him, flipping through a book to
locate the passage I’d found earlier. When he reached the opposite
side of the table, I turned the book toward him and tapped a finger
against the relevant paragraph.
Frowning, he braced his hands on the table, leaned
forward, and read aloud. “The Navarre family owned substantial
holdings in the Burgundy region of France, including a châteaux
near Auxerre. On December 31, 1785, the oldest daughter, Marie Co
lette, was born.” He glanced up. “That would be Celina.”
I nodded. Celina Desaulniers, née Marie Collette
Navarre. Vampires changed identities with some frequency, one
burden of immortality being the fact that you outlived your name,
your family. That tended to make humans a little suspicious; thus,
the name changes.
Of course, Ethan had been a vampire for nearly two
centuries before Celina had been a twinkle in her parents’
aristocratic eyes, and she was a GP member. He’d probably long
since memorized her name, date of birth, and hometown. But I
thought the next few sentences, hidden away in this petite
biography of a long-dead vampire, might be more interesting.
“Marie,” he continued, “although born in France,
was smuggled to England in 1789 to avoid the harshest persecutions
of the Revolution. She became fluent in English and was considered
highly intelligent and a rare beauty. She was raised as a
foreign-born cousin of the Grenville family, which held the Dukedom
of Buckingham. It was assumed that Miss Navarre would marry George
Herbert, Viscount Penbridge, but the couple was never formally
betrothed. George’s family later announced his engagement to Miss
Anne Dupree, of London, but George disappeared hours before the
marriage was to have taken place.”
Ethan made a sound of interest, looked up at me.
“Shall we place any bets as to the disposition of poor
George?”
“Unfortunately, that’s unnecessary on all accounts.
And we
know what happened to Celina—she was made a vampire. But what’s
important is what happened to Anne.” I waved a hand at him. “Skip
to the footnote.”
He frowned, but without taking his gaze away from
the book, pulled out the chair in front of him. He settled himself
into it, crossing one leg over the other, then arranged the book in
his right hand, his left across his lap.
“George’s body was found four days later,” he
continued. “The next day, Anne Dupree eloped with George’s cousin,
Edward.” Ethan closed the book, placed it on the table, and frowned
at me. “I assume you’ve taken me on a stroll through English social
history for a reason?”
“Now you’re ready for the punch line,” I told him,
and pulled from my stack a slim, leather-bound volume, this one
providing biographical information about the current members of the
Greenwich Presidium. I turned to the page I’d flagged and read
aloud: “Harold Monmonth, holding the Presidium’s fourth position
and serving as Council Prelect, was born Edward Fitzwil liam Dupree
in London, England, 1774.” I lifted my gaze from the book, watched
the connections form in his expression.
“So she and Edward, or Harold—what—plotted
together? To have George killed?”
I closed the book, placed it on the table. “Do you
remember what she said in the park, right before she attempted to
fillet you? Something about humans being callous, about a human
breaking her heart? Well, let me lay this out for you from a
woman’s perspective. You’re living in a foreign country with your
English cousins because you’ve been smuggled out of France. You’re
considered a rare beauty, cousin to a duke, and at the age of
nineteen, you nab the first son of a viscount. That’s our George.
You want him, maybe you love him. You certainly love that you’ve
managed to entice him. But just when you think you’ve sealed the
deal, noble George tells you that he’s fallen for the daughter of a
London merchant. A
merchant, Ethan. Someone Celina would have considered far, far
beneath her. You don’t bear any particular grudge toward Anne. You
may even pity her for being less than what you are.” I put my
elbows on the table, leaned forward. “But you don’t pity George.
George, who could have had you, your beauty, your prestige, by his
side. He throws you away for London trash.” I lowered my voice.
“Celina would never let that stand. And what if, conveniently,
George has an older cousin, a thirty-year-old cousin, who has an
attachment to our dear Anne, who is all of sixteen? You and Edward
have a conversation. Mutual goals are discussed. Plans are made,
and George’s body is found in a London slum.”
“Plans are made,” Ethan repeated, nodding, “and two
members of the Presidium have a murder between them. The Presidium
that released Celina, despite what she’d done in Chicago.”
I nodded back. “Why bother enthralling Presidium
members with your glamour, or relying on your charms, as you put
it, when you’ve got that kind of shared history? When you share a
mutual belief in the disposability of humans?”
Ethan then looked down at the table, seemed to
consider what he’d heard. A sigh, then he raised his gaze to mine
again. “We could never prove this.”
“I know. And I think this information shouldn’t
leave the House, not until we’re more certain of who our friends
are. But if we’re trying to predict what she might do, where she
might go, who her friends are, this is the best way to start.
Well,” I added, “this is the best way for me to start.” I
gazed across the table of books, open notebooks, uncapped pens—a
treasure trove of information, waiting to be connected. “I know how
to search an archive, Ethan. That’s one skill I have no doubts
about.”
“It’s unfortunate that your best source loathes
you.”
That made me smile. “Can you imagine the look on
Celina’s face if I called and asked her to sit down with me? Told
her I wanted to interview her?”
He smirked. “She might appreciate the press.” He
glanced down at his watch. “And speaking of the press, the Masters
should be here with the results of their inquiries within the
hour.”
It wasn’t the best thing I’d heard all day, that
I’d have to face down Morgan again, but I understood that it was
necessary.
“I’d hoped to keep this contained, but we’ve
clearly reached the point where the other Masters need to be
brought on board.” He cleared his throat, shuffled uncomfortably in
his chair, then lifted ice green eyes to mine. “I won’t ask what
happened at your parents’ house with Morgan, but I need you there.
Your position aside, you were a witness to the meeting with the
Breckenridges, to their accusations.”
I nodded. I understood the need. And I gave him
points for diplomatically mentioning it. “I know.”
He nodded, then picked up the small book of history
again, began flipping through the pages. I guessed he planned to
wait in the library until they arrived. I adjusted in my seat, a
little uncomfortable at the company, but once he was settled in,
and when I was reasonably confident that he intended to read
quietly, I turned back to my notes.
Minutes passed, peacefully. Ethan read or
strategized or planned or whatever he did on his side of the table,
occasionally tapping at a BlackBerry he’d pulled from his pocket,
while I continued thumbing through the history books before me,
searching for additional information about Celina.
I was beginning a chapter on the Napoleonic Wars
when I felt Ethan’s gaze. I kept my eyes downcast for a minute,
then two, before I gave in and lifted my eyes. His expression was
blank.
“What?”
“You’re a scholar.”
I turned back to my book. “We’ve talked about this
before. A few nights ago, if you’ll recall.”
“We’ve talked about your social discomfort, your
love of books. Not the fact that you’ve spent more time with a book
in your hand than you have with your Housemates.”
Cadogan House was apparently full of spies. Someone
was reporting our activities to whoever had threatened Jamie, and
someone had apparently been reporting my activities to Ethan.
I shrugged self-consciously. “I enjoy research. And
given the ignorance that you’ve repeatedly pointed out, I need
it.”
“I don’t want to see you hide yourself away in this
room.”
“I do my job.”
Ethan returned his gaze to his book. “I
know.”
The room was quiet again until he shuffled in his
chair, the wood squeaking as he adjusted. “These chairs aren’t at
all comfortable.”
“I didn’t come down here for comfort.” I looked up,
gave him a predatory grin. “You’re free to work in your
office.”
I didn’t have that luxury. Yet.
“Yes, we’re all agog at your studiousness.”
I rolled my eyes, pricked by the accumulation of
subtle insults. “I get that you have no confidence in my work
ethic, Ethan, but if you’re going to think up insults, could you do
it somewhere else?”
His voice was flat, calm. “I have no doubts about
your work ethic, Sentinel.”
I pushed back my chair, then walked around the
table to the pile of books at one end. I shuffled through the stack
until I found the text I needed. “Could have fooled me,” I
muttered, flipping through to the index and tracing the
alphabetical entries with a fingertip.
“I don’t,” he said lightly. “But you’re so—what did
you tell me once?” He glanced up, looked absently at the ceiling.
“Ah, that I was easy to prick? Well, Sentinel, you and I have that
in common.”
I arched a brow. “So in the middle of a crisis,
because you’re angry at Celina and the Breckenridges, you’ve come
down here to get a rise out of me? That’s mature.”
“You’ve missed my point completely.”
“I didn’t realize you had one,” I muttered.
“I find it unfortunate,” Ethan said, “that this is
what your life would have been.”
We avoided, usually, the issue of my dissertation.
Of my looming doctorate. Of the fact that he’d had me pulled from
the University of Chicago after he made me a vampire. It helped me,
and therefore him vicariously, not to dwell on it. But for him to
insult it, to insult what I’d done, managed a new level of
pretension.
I looked up at him, palms flat on the table. “What
is that supposed to mean?”
“It means you’d have finished your dissertation,
secured a professorship at some East Coast liberal arts college,
and then what? You’d buy yourself a cottage and update that box on
wheels you call a car, and you’d spend most of your time in your
tiny office nitpicking antiquated literary conceits.”
I stood straight, crossed my arms over my chest,
and had to take a moment in order to keep from snapping back at
him. And I only did that because he was my boss.
Still, my tone was frosty. “Nitpicking antiquated
literary conceits?”
His arched brows challenged me to respond.
“Ethan, it would have been a quiet life, I know
that. But it would have been fulfilling.” I looked down at my
katana. “Maybe a little less adventurous, but fulfilling.”
“A little less?”
His voice was so sarcastic it was nearly
flabbergasting. I took it to be vampire arrogance that he couldn’t
believe the ordinary lives of human beings were in any way
rewarding.
“Exciting things can happen in archives.”
“Such as?”
Think, Merit, think. “I could unravel a
literary mystery. Find a missing manuscript. Or, the archive could
be haunted,” I suggested, trying to think of something a little
more in his area of expertise.
“That’s quite a list, Sentinel.”
“We can’t all be soldiers turned Master vampires,
Ethan.” And thank God for that. One of him was plenty enough.
Ethan sat forward, linked his fingers on the table,
and gazed at me. “My point, Sentinel, is this: Compared to this
world, your new life, your human life would have been cloistered.
It would have been a small life.”
“It would have been a life of my choosing.” Hoping
to end that particular line of conversation, I closed the book I’d
pretended to stare at. I picked it up, along with a couple of its
companions, and walked them back to their shelves.
“It would have been a waste of you.”
Thankfully, I was facing the bookshelf when he
offered that little nugget, as I don’t think he’d have appreciated
the eye roll or mimicry. “You can stop plying me with compliments,”
I told him. “I’ve already gotten you in to see my father and the
mayor.”
“If you believe that sums up our interactions over
the last week, you’ve missed the point.”
When I heard the slide of his chair, I paused, hand
on the spine of a book about French drinking customs. I pushed the
book back in line with its comrades and said lightly, “And you’ve
insulted me again, which means we’re back on track.”
I gathered up the next book in my stack, my eyes
scanning the Dewey Decimal numbers on the shelves to locate its
home.
In other words, I was trying very, very hard not to
think about the sound of footsteps behind me, or the fact that they
were moving closer.
Interesting that I hadn’t yet moved out of his
path.
“My point, Sentinel, is that you are more than a
woman who hides in a library.”
“Hmm,” I nonchalantly said, sliding the final book
into its home. I knew what was coming. I could hear it in his
voice—the low, thick hum of it. I didn’t know why he was trying,
given his apparently conflicted feelings about me, but this was the
prelude to seduction.
Footsteps, and then he was next to me, his body
behind mine, his lips at the spot of skin just below my ear. I
could feel the warmth of his breath against my neck. The smell of
him—clean, soapy, almost discomfortingly familiar. As much as the
want of it disturbed me, I wanted to sink back against him, let him
envelop me.
Part of that, I knew, was vampire genetics, the
fact that he’d changed me, some kind of evolutionary connection
between Master and vampire.
But part of it was much, much simpler.
“Merit.”
Part of it was boy and girl.
I shook my head. “No, thank you.”
“Don’t deny it. I want this. You want this.”
He said the words, but the cant of them was wrong.
Irritated. Not words of desire, but an accusation. As if we’d
fought the attraction and hadn’t been strong enough to resist it,
and we were worse off for it.
But if Ethan fought it, he didn’t resist. He leaned
in, a hand at my waist, his body behind mine, and grazed his teeth
along the sensitive skin of my neck. The breath shuddered out of
me, my eyes rolling back, the vampire inside me thrilled by the
innate dominance of the act. I tried to fight my way to the surface
of the rising lust, and made the mistake of turning around, facing
him. I’d been intent on giving him what-for, on sending him away,
but he took full advantage of my shift in position.
Ethan pressed closer, one hand on each side of me,
fingers gripping the shelves, framing my body with his, and stared
down at me, eyes as green as cut emeralds. He raised a hand to my
face, stroked my lip with his thumb. His eyes became quicksilver, a
sure sign of his hunger. Of his arousal.
“Ethan,” I said, a hesitation, but he shook his
head, gaze dropping to my lips, then drifting shut. He leaned
closer, his lips just touching mine. Teasing, hinting, but not
quite kissing. My lids fell, and his hands were at my cheeks,
fingers at my jaw, his breath staccato and rushed as his lips
traced a trail, pressed kisses, against my closed eyes, my cheeks,
everywhere but my lips.
“You are so much more than that.”
It was the words that did me in, that sealed my
fate. My core went liquid, body humming, limbs languid as he worked
to arouse me, to incite me.
I opened my eyes and looked up at him as he pulled
back, his eyes wide and intense and insanely green. He was so
beautiful, his eyes on me, the desire clear, golden hair around his
face, ridiculous cheekbones, mouth that would tempt a saint.
“Merit,” he roughly said, then leaned his
forehead against mine, asking for my consent, my permission.
I wasn’t a saint.
My eyes wide, decision made and the repercussions
be damned, I nodded.