CHAPTER VI
The youth awakened slowly. He came gradually back
to a position from which he could regard himself For moments he had
been scrutinizing his person in a dazed way as if he had never
before seen himself. Then he picked up his cap from the ground. He
wriggled in his jacket to make a more comfortable fit, and kneeling
relaced his shoe. He thoughtfully mopped his reeking
features.
So it was all over at last! The supreme trial had
been passed. The red, formidable difficulties of war had been
vanquished.
He went into an ecstasy of self-satisfaction. He
had the most delightful sensations of his life. Standing as if
apart from himself, he viewed that last scene. He perceived that
the man who had fought thus was magnificent.
He felt that he was a fine fellow. He saw himself
even with those ideals which he had considered as far beyond him.
He smiled in deep gratification.
Upon his fellows he beamed tenderness and good
will. “Gee! ain’t it hot, hey?” he said affably to a man who was
polishing his streaming face with his coat sleeves.
“You bet!” said the other, grinning sociably. “I
never seen sech dumb hotness.” He sprawled out luxuriously on the
ground. “Gee, yes! An’ I hope we don’t have no more fightin’ till a
week from Monday.”
There were some handshakings and deep speeches with
men whose features were familiar, but with whom the youth now felt
the bonds of tied hearts. He helped a cursing comrade to bind up a
wound of the shin.
But, of a sudden, cries of amazement broke out
along the ranks of the new regiment. “Here they come ag‘in! Here
they come ag’in!” The man who had sprawled upon the ground started
up and said, “Gosh!”
The youth turned quick eyes upon the field. He
discerned forms begin to swell in masses out of a distant wood. He
again saw the tilted flag speeding forward.
The shells, which had ceased to trouble the
regiment for a time, came swirling again, and exploded in the grass
or among the leaves of the trees. They looked to be strange war
flowers bursting into fierce bloom.
The men groaned. The luster faded from their eyes.
Their smudged countenances now expressed a profound dejection. They
moved their stiffened bodies slowly, and watched in sullen mood the
frantic approach of the enemy. The slaves toiling in the temple of
this god began to feel rebellion at his harsh tasks.
They fretted and complained each to each. “Oh, say,
this is too much of a good thing! Why can’t somebody send us
supports?”
“We ain’t never goin’ to stand this second banging.
I didn’t come here to fight the hull damn’ rebel army.”
There was one who raised a doleful cry. “I wish
Bill Smithers had trod on my hand, insteader me treddin’ on
his’n.”The sore joints of the regiment creaked as it painfully
floundered into position to repulse.
The youth stared. Surely, he thought, this
impossible thing was not about to happen. He waited as if he
expected the enemy to suddenly stop, apologize, and retire bowing.
It was all a mistake.
But the firing began somewhere on the regimental
line and ripped along in both directions. The level sheets of flame
developed great clouds of smoke that tumbled and tossed in the mild
wind near the ground for a moment, and then rolled through the
ranks as through a gate. The clouds were tinged an earthlike yellow
in the sunrays and in the shadow were a sorry blue. The flag was
sometimes eaten and lost in this mass of vapor, but more often it
projected, sun-touched, resplendent.
Into the youth’s eyes there came a look that one
can see in the orbs of a jaded horse. His neck was quivering with
nervous weakness and the muscles of his arms felt numb and
bloodless. His hands, too, seemed large and awkward as if he was
wearing invisible mittens. And there was a great uncertainty about
his knee joints.
The words that comrades had uttered previous to the
firing began to recur to him. “Oh, say, this is too much of a good
thing! What do they take us for—why don’t they send supports? I
didn’t come here to fight the hull damned rebel army.”
He began to exaggerate the endurance, the skill,
and the valor of those who were coming. Himself reeling from
exhaustion, he was astonished beyond measure at such persistency.
They must be machines of steel. It was very gloomy struggling
against such affairs, wound up perhaps to fight until
sundown.
He slowly lifted his rifle and catching a glimpse
of the thickspread field he blazed at a cantering cluster. He
stopped then and began to peer as best he could through the smoke.
He caught changing views of the ground covered with men who were
all running like pursued imps, and yelling.
To the youth it was an onslaught of redoubtable
dragons. He became like the man who lost his legs at the approach
of the red and green monster. He waited in a sort of a horrified,
listening attitude. He seemed to shut his eyes and wait to be
gobbled.
A man near him who up to this time had been working
feverishly at his rifle suddenly stopped and ran with howls. A lad
whose face had borne an expression of exalted courage, the majesty
of he who dares give his life, was, at an instant, smitten abject.
He blanched like one who has come to the edge of a cliff at
midnight and is suddenly made aware. There was a revelation. He,
too, threw down his gun and fled. There was no shame in his face.
He ran like a rabbit.
Others began to scamper away through the smoke. The
youth turned his head, shaken from his trance by this movement as
if the regiment was leaving him behind. He saw the few fleeting
forms.
He yelled then with fright and swung about. For a
moment, in the great clamor, he was like a proverbial chicken. He
lost the direction of safety. Destruction threatened him from all
points.
Directly he began to speed toward the rear in great
leaps. His rifle and cap were gone. His unbuttoned coat bulged in
the wind. The flap of his cartridge box bobbed wildly, and his
canteen, by its slender cord, swung out behind. On his face was all
the horror of those things which he imagined.
The lieutenant sprang forward bawling. The youth
saw his features wrathfully red, and saw him make a dab with his
sword. His one thought of the incident was that the lieutenant was
a peculiar creature to feel interested in such matters upon this
occasion.
He ran like a blind man. Two or three times he fell
down. Once he knocked his shoulder so heavily against a tree that
he went headlong.
Since he had turned his back upon the fight his
fears had been wondrously magnified. Death about to thrust him
between the shoulder blades was far more dreadful than death about
to smite him between the eyes. When he thought of it later, he
conceived the impression that it is better to view the appalling
than to be merely within hearing. The noises of the battle were
like stones; he believed himself liable to be crushed.
As he ran on he mingled with others. He dimly saw
men on his right and on his left, and he heard footsteps behind
him. He thought that all the regiment was fleeing, pursued by these
ominous crashes.
In his flight the sound of these following
footsteps gave him his one meager relief He felt vaguely that death
must make a first choice of the men who were nearest; the initial
morsels for the dragons would be then those who were following him.
So he displayed the zeal of an insane sprinter in his purpose to
keep them in the rear. There was a race.
As he, leading, went across a little field, he
found himself in a region of shells. They hurtled over his head
with long wild screams. As he listened he imagined them to have
rows of cruel teeth that grinned at him. Once one lit before him
and the livid lightning of the explosion effectually barred the way
in his chosen direction. He groveled on the ground and then
springing up went careering off through some bushes.
He experienced a thrill of amazement when he came
within view of a battery in action. The men there seemed to be in
conventional moods, altogether unaware of the impending
annihilation. The battery was disputing with a distant antagonist
and the gunners were wrapped in admiration of their shooting. They
were continually bending in coaxing postures over the guns. They
seemed to be patting them on the back and encouraging them with
words. The guns, stolid and undaunted, spoke with dogged
valor.
The precise gunners were coolly enthusiastic. They
lifted their eyes every chance to the smoke-wreathed hillock from
whence the hostile battery addressed them. The youth pitied them as
he ran. Methodical idiots! Machine-like fools! The refined joy of
planting shells in the midst of the other battery’s formation would
appear a little thing when the infantry came swooping out of the
woods.
The face of a youthful rider, who was jerking his
frantic horse with an abandon of temper he might display in a
placid barnyard, was impressed deeply upon his mind. He knew that
he looked upon a man who would presently be dead.
Too, he felt a pity for the guns, standing, six
good comrades, in a bold row.
He saw a brigade going to the relief of its
pestered fellows. He scrambled upon a wee hill and watched it
sweeping finely, keeping formation in difficult places. The blue of
the line was crusted with steel color, and the brilliant flags
projected. Officers were shouting.
This sight also filled him with wonder. The brigade
was hurrying briskly to be gulped into the infernal mouths of the
war god. What manner of men were they, anyhow? Ah, it was some
wondrous breed! Or else they didn’t comprehend—the fools.
A furious order caused commotion in the artillery.
An officer on a bounding horse made maniacal motions with his arms.
The teams went swinging up from the rear, the guns were whirled
about, and the battery scampered away. The cannon with their noses
poked slantingly at the ground grunted and grumbled like stout men,
brave but with objections to hurry.
The youth went on, moderating his pace since he had
left the place of noises.
Later he came upon a general of division seated
upon a horse that pricked its ears in an interested way at the
battle.24 There
was a great gleaming of yellow and patent leather about the saddle
and bridle. The quiet man astride looked mouse-colored upon such a
splendid charger.
A jingling staff was galloping hither and thither.
Sometimes the general was surrounded by horsemen and at other times
he was quite alone. He looked to be much harassed. He had the
appearance of a business man whose market is swinging up and
down.
The youth went slinking around this spot. He went
as near as he dared trying to overhear words. Perhaps the general,
unable to comprehend chaos, might call upon him for information.
And he could tell him. He knew all concerning it. Of a surety the
force was in a fix, and any fool could see that if they did not
retreat while they had opportunity—why—
He felt that he would like to thrash the general,
or at least approach and tell him in plain words exactly what he
thought him to be. It was criminal to stay calmly in one spot and
make no effort to stay destruction. He loitered in a fever of
eagerness for the division commander to apply to him.
As he warily moved about, he heard the general call
out irritably: “Tompkins, go over an’ see Taylor, an’ tell him not
t’ be in such an all-fired hurry; tell him t’ halt his brigade in
th’ edge of th’ woods; tell him t’ detach a reg‘ment—say I think
th’ center ’ll break if we don’t help it out some; tell him t’
hurry up.”
A slim youth on a fine chestnut horse caught these
swift words from the mouth of his superior. He made his horse bound
into a gallop almost from a walk in his haste to go upon his
mission. There was a cloud of dust.
A moment later the youth saw the general bounce
excitedly in his saddle.
“Yes, by heavens, they have!” The officer leaned
forward. His face was aflame with excitement. “Yes, by heavens,
they’ve held ‘im! They’ve held ’im!”
He began to blithely roar at his staff: “We’ll
wallop ‘im now. We’ll wallop ’im now. We’ve got ‘em sure.” He
turned suddenly upon an aid: “Here—you—Jones—quick—ride after
Tompkins—see Taylor—tell him t’ go in—everlastingly—like
blazes—anything.”
As another officer sped his horse after the first
messenger, the general beamed upon the earth like a sun. In his
eyes was a desire to chant a paean. He kept repeating, “They’ve
held ‘em, by heavens!”
His excitement made his horse plunge, and he
merrily kicked and swore at it. He held a little carnival of joy on
horseback.