3
GWEN GREETED ME AT HER FRONT DOOR WITH A WARM hug.
Hints of Italian herbs underlay her expensive perfume. My throat
got a lump as it hit me how much I’d missed her. It had been too
long. The strength of her hug showed she thought so, too.
She stepped back and offered a hand to Kane,
welcoming him. Nick, Gwen’s husband, repeated the routine—a hug for
me, a handshake for Kane—and took our coats.
“Where are the kids?” I asked, stepping into the
living room. As soon as I cleared the doorway Maria, my
eleven-year-old niece, rocketed over and threw her arms around me.
I stroked her fine blonde hair and kissed the top of her head. She
was getting so tall.
“I see you found Maria,” Gwen said. “The boys are
already in bed.” The boys meant Zack, six, and Justin, who
was two. “That’s why I invited you for a late dinner, so I could
wrestle the little hooligans into bed and have a grown-up evening
for a change.” She put a hand on Maria’s shoulder and drew her back
a step. “And that’s why Maria is on her way to bed, too.”
“But Mom, I want to talk to Aunt Vicky.”
“We agreed you could say hello, and then you’d go
to bed. No arguments. Remember?”
“Yeah.” Maria looked at the floor.
Kane came forward, holding out his hand. “Hi,
Maria,” he said. “I’m Kane. Vicky’s told me lots about you.” He
smiled. “All of it good.”
Maria squinted at him, giving him the once-over, as
she shook his hand solemnly. “Are you Vicky’s boyfriend?”
He and I exchanged a glance, and his eyes were so
full of warmth and light I melted a little inside.
“Yes,” we said together.
Maria nodded, and her serious expression morphed
into a grin. “Okay.”
A timer dinged. Gwen looked toward the kitchen
door. “ That’s the lasagna,” she said. “Upstairs now, Maria. I’ll
come up in a minute to say good night. Then you can read for a bit,
but lights out by nine, all right?”
“Okay, Mom.”
Gwen squeezed the girl’s shoulder and went into the
kitchen.
Maria stood on tiptoe to plant a kiss on my cheek.
“Come back soon, okay? When it’s not just for grown-ups.”
“I will. But you listen to your mom now.”
She nodded, said good night to Kane and her dad,
and climbed the stairs.
“Who wants a drink?” Nick asked.
Nick poured me my usual club soda. Kane had a
Scotch. (His werewolf metabolism would burn off that, plus any wine
served with dinner, long before it was time to drive home.) Gwen
returned and announced that dinner would be on the table in fifteen
minutes.
Conversation flowed easily. Kane asked Nick about
his work in a downtown Boston investment firm and talked
knowledgeably with Gwen about the novel her book club was reading.
Once we moved into the dining room, he admired the table and
complimented the food. She caught my eye and touched her chin as
she tucked her hair behind her right ear, a signal we’d developed
in high school. It meant, “This guy’s a good one.”
Halfway through dinner, the conversation slowed
down for a minute. During the pause, Kane turned to Gwen.
“I enjoyed meeting your aunt last month,” he
said.
Gwen stiffened, but Kane didn’t notice.
Oh, no. Don’t bring up Mab. Not when
everything was going so well. I tried to kick him under the table
and missed.
“I don’t think—” I began, but he talked over
me.
“Wales is such a beautiful country, and her home is
magnificent. I know Vicky used to visit Mab every summer. Did you
also spend a lot of time with your aunt when you were growing
up?”
Gwen’s face was ghost white. She bit her lip, and I
could almost hear her mentally count to ten. Very precisely, she
laid her fork on the edge of her plate. “We do not mention that
woman’s name in this house.”
Kane froze. Then he glanced at me, perplexed.
Damn it, I should’ve warned him. I’d been so caught
up in thoughts of Pryce and the Morfran and the South End Reaper
that it hadn’t occurred to me to tell Kane to leave Mab out of the
conversation. My aunt had trained me as a demon fighter; I’d been
her apprentice for seven years. She was tough and strict and rarely
showed her emotions, but I loved her like a second mother. Kane had
liked Mab, too, during his brief visit to Wales. He’d never have
suspected how much my sister hated her.
There was no way I could explain it now.
Kane’s eyes darted back and forth between me and
Gwen. Nick reached over and put his hand on Gwen’s, but my sister
stared at her plate like she was trying to set it on fire with her
eyes. The silence extended, then graduated to a whole new level of
awkward. I flailed around for a safe topic.
“Gwen,” I said, reaching for the bread basket,
“this bread is delicious. Did you get it from that new Italian
bakery near the train station?”
She looked at the basket in my hand as if she’d
never seen such a thing before, then blinked and nodded. “Yes, I
did. And the tiramisu we’re having for dessert, too.”
“Ooh, yum. I love tiramisu,” I said, so
heartily I almost peeked into the demon plane to see if any stray
wisps of Gluttony clung to me. But of course Gluttony wasn’t the
problem.
Nick came to the rescue—or tried to. “So,” he asked
Kane, “do you think the Celtics are going to make it to the
playoffs this year?”
Kane is a workaholic who doesn’t know the meaning
of the phrase “spare time”—he’s too busy crusading for paranormal
rights. It would never occur to him to go to a basketball game or
other sporting event for fun. But sports sometimes tied in to his
work, and he kept up enough to discuss whatever sport was in season
when he was schmoozing with influential people. Just last week he’d
taken a couple of congressmen to a Celtics game, courtside seats
and everything.
Kane and Nick talked about basketball for several
minutes. Nick was enthusiastic, certain the Celts would go all the
way this year. Kane made some informed comments, but mostly he
listened to Nick, who glowed with pleasure as he reeled off
statistics.
Gwen, on the other hand, seemed to have lost her
appetite, pushing food around her plate. Kane kept glancing her
way. He wrapped up the conversation with Nick by inviting him to a
game—courtside seats again—in a couple of weeks.
Whoa. Courtside seats. My brother-in-law rated as
highly as a senator. That must mean Kane . . . My commitment-shy
brain dug in its heels and refused to go down that path.
Kane turned to Gwen. “Do your kids like sports? Any
budding basketball stars in the family?” Smart move, bringing Gwen
back into the conversation by asking about her kids. It was a topic
my sister and her husband could discuss for hours.
“Not basketball.” Gwen looked up slowly. “Not yet,
anyway. Nick promised Zachary he’d teach him to shoot baskets when
he gets a little taller. But Zack is only six, so he’s got quite a
bit of growing to do.”
“He’s a pretty good shot with that kid-sized
basketball hoop we got him,” Nick pointed out.
“Oh, and you should see him when Nick lifts him up
and lets him shoot at the hoop over the garage.” The image made
Gwen smile. “He’s so cute when you do that.” She turned back to
Kane, her face softened with pride in her kids. “Zack and Maria
both play soccer, although I think Maria is going to give up soccer
for ballet. She’s crazy about dance. She says she still wants to
play softball this spring, though. She’s a good shortstop.”
“She’s a terrific shortstop,” Nick
corrected. “You would not believe this one play she made last
season . . .” He launched into a description, Gwen jumping in here
and there with more details.
Kane listened, asking the right questions in the
right places. Soon, the stiffness had melted from Gwen’s shoulders
and she was laughing and enjoying the conversation again. Crisis
averted. No wonder Kane was so good at his job. He was a master at
getting people to relax and open up.
In my peripheral vision, the kitchen door cracked
open and Maria peered through. I pointed at Gwen to ask whether she
wanted me to get her mom’s attention, but Maria’s eyes widened and
she shook her head vigorously. She pointed at me, and then crooked
her finger.
I stood and picked up my plate. Gwen pushed back
her chair, but I put a hand on her shoulder. “You sit and talk,” I
said. “I’ll clear the table. Everyone want coffee? I’ll get that
started, too.”
“The tiramisu—”
“I’ll take care of it. You worked hard putting
together a great dinner. I can handle dessert.”
Balancing the stack of dirty dishes, I shouldered
open the swinging door into the kitchen. Maria sat at the table in
her PJs. She slumped in her chair, one bare foot swinging back and
forth.
“Hi,” I said.
“Hi.” She glanced at me, then examined her
hands.
“So what did you want to talk about?”
She shrugged and chewed at a thumbnail.
Okay. Maybe she didn’t know how to broach
the topic, whatever it was. I’d let her get to it in her own time.
I slid the plates onto Gwen’s spotless counter. “Aren’t you
supposed to be in bed?”
“Yeah.”
“I think I hear a ‘but’ coming.”
“But . . .” A faint smile curled her lips, then
faded away. “I couldn’t sleep.” She murmured her next words so
softly I almost missed them. “I’m scared to.”
I turned on the water at the sink. “How about you
rinse, and I’ll load the dishwasher?”
“Okay.” She got up and padded over to where I
stood. Her small feet looked cold on the tile floor, so I moved
over to make room on the rug in front of the sink. We worked for a
minute or two in silence, Maria squinting at each plate with
concentration.
“Bad dreams, huh?” I asked.
She gave half a nod, then shook her head. “Not bad.
Some of them are good. But they’re weird.”
Now we were getting to it. “Weird how?”
“It’s like I’m not me anymore.” Worry
clouded her face as she handed me a plate. “Mom said I should tell
her if I have dreams like that.”
“Have you? Told her, I mean.”
Her wet hand gripped my wrist. “What will she do if
she finds out?”
I curled my fingers around hers and gave a little
squeeze. “It’ll be okay, sweetie. I promise.” I picked up a dish
towel and dried both our hands. She nodded, but doubt furrowed her
forehead.
“Dishwasher loaded,” I announced. “How about some
hot chocolate? That helps me sleep sometimes.”
“Okay.” Maria sat down again at the table.
I put two mugs of milk into the microwave. As they
heated, I got the coffeemaker started.
“You look weird in a dress,” Maria observed.
Yeah, I could agree with that. Felt weird, too, not
to be in my usual jeans. “That’s because I don’t have cool pajamas
like yours.”
Maria looked down at her pajamas, blue flannel
covered with yellow peace signs, and grinned. “Mom would freak if
you wore pajamas to a dinner party.”
“You’re right, she would. But at least I’d be
comfortable.”
Maria laughed. I stirred in the cocoa and carried
the two mugs to the table. She took hers in both hands and sipped,
then sipped again. She put down the mug and wiped off a cocoa
mustache with the back of her hand.
“So tell me about these dreams of yours,” I
said.
Maria drank more cocoa. “They start off normal—you
know, just dreams. But then they change.” She wriggled in her
chair, sitting up straighter. “Like, I had this one where I was
walking down the hall at school, except all of a sudden I realized
I was underwater, swimming. It scared me because I thought I’d
drown. I kept thinking, ‘I need air. I need to breathe.’ But then I
realized I was breathing. I could breathe the water.” Her
eyes went wide with amazement as she remembered how that felt.
“After that, it got fun. Except I was worried I couldn’t open my
locker because I didn’t have any hands. Just fins. And then I
laughed at myself because I thought, ‘Silly. Why would a fish need
a locker?’ The laughing made lots of bubbles.” Amusement lit her
eyes but dimmed at once to worry. “Do you have dreams like
that?”
“Sure. When I was your age, I had them all the
time. Swimming, running—but on four legs, right?—burrowing, flying
. . .”
Maria leaned toward me. “Flying dreams are the
best. It’s like, suddenly I’m up the air and I’m
flying. And then somehow I realize I always could; I just
didn’t know it before. It’s great. I can go anywhere I want. And
part of me thinks, ‘Why do I even bother to walk?’”
“Yeah, I know what you mean. It’s like—”
The kitchen door swung open. “How’s that coffee
coming?” Gwen stopped and stared at the two of us. From the heat
that rose in my cheeks—and from the way Gwen watched us through
narrowed eyes like we were conspirators plotting an assassination—I
knew we looked way guiltier than a girl and her aunt sharing some
cocoa.
“What are you doing up, young lady?” Gwen asked
Maria.
“Um, I . . .” Maria’s round eyes implored me for
help.
“She came downstairs for hot chocolate,” I said.
“It sounded like a good idea, so I made us each a mug. She helped
me load the dishwasher, too.”
“Well, you get back to bed now, Maria. I’ll be up
in a few minutes to tuck you in. Again.”
“Okay. Night, Mom. Night, Aunt Vicky.” Maria gave
Gwen and then me a peck on the cheek. She fled up the back
stairs.
I put the empty mugs in the dishwasher and got a
carton of half-and-half from the fridge.
“So, what were you two talking about?” Gwen took
the half-and-half and poured it into a cream pitcher, which she set
on a tray. The tension was back in her shoulders, and her hand
shook. That was Gwen. When upset, make things even more
perfect.
“Oh, you know . . .” I so didn’t want to get
between my sister and her daughter on this issue. Maria should
confide in Gwen about the dreams, yes. But not until she felt
ready.
“She’s having dreams, isn’t she? Preshifting
dreams.”
“They’re just dreams, Gwen. She said she had a
couple of odd dreams lately—flying, swimming, stuff like that.
Norms get those, too. It doesn’t necessarily mean anything.”
“But it might.” Gwen’s biggest fear was that her
daughter would become a shapeshifter. That was a big part of why
she’d married a norm; she’d hoped human DNA would make her children
something other than Cerddorion, something closer to “normal.” But
as Maria grew, so did Gwen’s fears. It didn’t help matters that a
crazy scientist with an ambition to map the shapeshifter genome had
tried last fall to kidnap Maria and use her as a lab animal. I’d
brought Maria home, but Gwen’s protective instincts had kicked into
overdrive. Yet she couldn’t protect Maria from herself. She
couldn’t shield the girl from her own nature—whatever that turned
out to be.
“We’ll have to wait and see,” I said. “There’s no
point in worrying yourself sick about it now.”
“We’ll talk about this later.” Gwen’s tone made the
words sound like a threat.
I held open the door as she carried the coffee tray
into the dining room. She’d forgotten the tiramisu. But it didn’t
matter. The evening was over. Not even Kane could pull Gwen back
from whatever dark place she’d gone in her worries about Maria, in
her anger and hurt that Maria had chosen to talk to me—not
Gwen—about what she was going through. Within fifteen minutes, we
were saying good night.