CHAPTER 2
There was a special room in Castle
Whitespire where the kings and queens met. That was another thing
about being a king: everything you had was made specially for
you.
It was a marvelous room. It was square, the top of
a square tower, with four windows facing in four directions. The
tower turned, very slowly, as some of the towers in the castle
did—Castle Whitespire was built on complicated foundations of
enormous brass clockwork, cleverly designed by the dwarves, who
were absolute geniuses at that kind of thing. The tower completed
one rotation every day. The movement was almost
imperceptible.
In the center of the room was a special square
table with four chairs—they were thrones, or thronelike, but made
by someone who had the knack, pretty rare in Quentin’s experience,
of making chairs that looked like thrones but were also reasonably
comfortable to sit in. The table was painted with a map of Fillory,
sealed under many layers of lacquer, and at each of the four seats,
pieced into the wood, were the names of the rulers who’d sat there
along with little devices appropriate to said rulers. Quentin got
an image of the White Stag, and the vanquished Martin Chatwin, and
a deck of playing cards. Eliot’s place was the most elaborately
embellished, as befitted the High King. It was a square table, but
there wasn’t any question which side was the head.
The chairs didn’t feel comfortable today. The scene
of Jollyby’s death was still very clear and present in Quentin’s
mind’s eye; in fact it replayed itself more or less constantly,
with showings every thirty seconds or so. As Jollyby collapsed
Quentin had lurched forward and caught him and eased him to the
ground. He groped helplessly at Jollyby’s huge chest, as if he’d
hidden his life somewhere about his person, in some secret inside
pocket, and if Quentin could only find it he could give it back to
him. Janet screamed: a full-throated, uncontrollable horror-movie
scream that wouldn’t stop for a full fifteen seconds until Eliot
grasped her shoulders and physically turned her away from Jollyby’s
corpse.
At the same time the clearing filled with ghostly
green light—a bleak, alien spell of Julia’s that Quentin still
didn’t get the details of, or even the broad outlines of, that was
intended to reveal any bad actors who might be present. It turned
her eyes all black, no whites or iris at all. She was the only one
who’d thought to go on the attack. But there was no one to
attack.
“All right,” Eliot said. “So let’s talk about it.
What do we think happened today?”
They looked at each other, feeling jittery and
shell-shocked. Quentin wanted to do something, or say something,
but he didn’t know what. The truth was, he hadn’t really known
Jollyby all that well.
“He was so proud,” he said finally. “He thought
he’d saved the day.”
“It had to be the rabbit,” Janet said. Her eyes
were red from crying. She swallowed. “Right? Or hare, whatever.
That’s what killed him. What else?”
“We can’t assume that. The hare predicted his death
but it may not have caused it. Post hoc ergo propter hoc.
It’s a logical fallacy.”
If he’d waited even another second he would have
realized that Janet wasn’t interested in the Latin name of the
logical fallacy that she might or might not have been
committing.
“Sorry,” he said. “That’s my Asperger’s flaring up
again.”
“So it’s just a coincidence?” she snapped. “That he
died right then, right after it said that about death? Maybe we’ve
got it wrong. Maybe the hare doesn’t predict the future, maybe it
controls it.”
“Perhaps it does not like being caught,” Julia
said.
“I have a hard time believing that the history of
the universe is being written by a talking rabbit,” Eliot said.
“Though that would explain a lot.”
It was five o’clock in the afternoon, their regular
meeting time. For the first few months after they’d arrived at
Castle Whitespire Eliot had left them to do their own things, on
the theory that they’d naturally find their own courses as rulers,
and take charge of the things that best suited their various gifts.
This had resulted in total chaos, and nothing getting done, and the
things that did get done got done twice by two different people in
two different ways. So Eliot instituted a daily meeting at which
they sorted through whatever business of the realm seemed most
pressing as a foursome. The five o’clock meeting was traditionally
accompanied by what may have been the most gloriously comprehensive
whiskey service ever seen on any of the possibly infinite worlds of
the multiverse.
“I told the family we’d take care of the funeral,”
Quentin said. “It’s just his parents. He was an only child.”
“I should say something,” Eliot said. “He taught me
bugling.”
“Did you know he was a were-lion?” Janet smiled
sadly. “True story. It went on a solar calendar—he changed only at
equinoxes and solstices. He said it helped him understand the
animals. He was hairy everywhere.”
“Please,” Eliot said. “I would give anything to not
know how you know that.”
“It helped with lots of things.”
“I have a theory,” Quentin said quickly. “Maybe the
Fenwicks did it. They’ve been pissed at us ever since we got
here.”
The Fenwicks were the most senior of the several
families who were running things at the time when the Brakebills
returned to Fillory. They weren’t happy about being kicked out of
Castle Whitespire, but they didn’t have the political capital to do
much about it. So they satisfied themselves with making mischief
around the court.
“Assassination would be a big step up for the
Fenwicks,” Eliot said. “They’re pretty small-time.”
“And why would they kill Jollyby?” Janet said.
“Everybody loved Jollyby!”
“Maybe they were trying for one of us, not him,”
Quentin said. “Maybe one of us was supposed to catch the hare. You
know they’re already trying to put it around that we killed
him?”
“But how would they have done it?” Eliot said.
“You’re saying they sent a rabbit assassin?”
“They could not turn the Seeing Hare,” Julia said.
“Unique Beasts do not intervene in the affairs of men.”
“Maybe it wasn’t the Seeing Hare at all, maybe it
was a person in hare form. A were-hare. Look, I don’t know!”
Quentin rubbed his temples. If only they’d hunted
that stupid lizard instead. He was annoyed at himself for
forgetting what Fillory was like. He’d let himself believe that
things were all better after Alice had killed Martin Chatwin, no
more death and despair and disillusionment and whatever else the
hare had said. But there was more. It wasn’t like the books. There
was always more. Et in Arcadia ego.
And even though he knew it was crazy, in a
childishly elegant way, he couldn’t escape a vague feeling that
Jollyby’s death was his fault, that it wouldn’t have happened if he
hadn’t been tempted by that adventure. Or maybe he wasn’t tempted
enough? What were the rules? Maybe he should have gone into the
clearing after all. Maybe Jollyby’s death had been meant for him.
He was supposed to go into the meadow and die there, but he didn’t,
so Jollyby had to instead.
“Maybe there isn’t an explanation,” he said out
loud. “Maybe it’s just a mystery. Just another crazy stop on
Fillory’s magical mystery tour. No reason for it, it just happened.
You can’t explain it.”
This didn’t satisfy Eliot. He was still Eliot, the
languid lush of Brakebills, but becoming High King had uncovered a
dismayingly rigorous streak in him.
“We can’t have unexplained deaths in the kingdom,”
he said. “It won’t do.” He cleared his throat. “Here’s what’s going
to happen. I’ll put the fear of Ember into the Fenwicks, just in
case. It won’t take much. They’re a bunch of pussy dandies. And I
say that as a pussy dandy myself.”
“And if that doesn’t work?” Janet said.
“Then, Janet, you’ll go lean on the Lorians.” That
was Fillory’s neighbor to the north. Janet was in charge of
relations with foreign powers—Quentin called her Fillory Clinton.
“They’re always behind everything bad in the books. Maybe they were
trying to decapitate the leadership. Stupid pseudo-Viking fuckers.
Now for Christ’s sake let’s talk about something else for a
while.”
But they had nothing else to talk about, so they
lapsed into silence. Nobody was especially happy with Eliot’s plan,
least of all Eliot, but they didn’t have a better one, or even a
worse one. Six hours after the fact Julia’s eyes were still flooded
with black from the spell she’d cast in the forest. The effect was
disconcerting. She had no pupils. He wondered what she could see
that they couldn’t.
Eliot shuffled his notes, looking for another item
of business, but business was in short supply these days.
“It is time,” Julia said. “We must go to the
window.”
Every day after the afternoon meeting they went out
on the balcony and waved to the people.
“Damn it,” Eliot said. “All right.”
“Maybe we shouldn’t today,” Janet said. “It feels
wrong.”
Quentin knew what she meant. The thought of
standing out there on the narrow balcony, frozen smiles on their
faces, princess-waving at the Fillorians who gathered for the daily
ritual, felt a little off. Still.
“We should to do it,” he said. “Today of all
days.”
“We’re accepting congratulations for doing
nothing.”
“We’re reassuring the people of continuity in the
face of tragedy.”
They filed out onto the narrow balcony. In the
castle courtyard far below, at the bottom of a vertiginous drop, a
few hundred Fillorians had gathered. From this height they looked
unreal, like dolls. Quentin waved.
“I wish we could do something more for them,” he
said.
“What do you want to do?” Eliot said. “We’re the
kings and queens of a magic utopia.”
Cheers drifted up from far below, faintly. The
sound was tinny and far away—it had the audio quality of a musical
greeting card.
“Some progressive reforms? I want to help somebody
with something. If I were a Fillorian I would depose me as an
aristocratic parasite.”
When Quentin and the others took the thrones, they
hadn’t known exactly what to expect. The details of what was
involved were vague—there would be some ceremonial duties, Quentin
supposed, and presumably a lead role in policy making, some
responsibility for the welfare of the nation they ruled. But the
truth was that there just wasn’t much actual work to do.
The weird thing was that Quentin missed it. He’d
expected Fillory to be something like medieval England, because it
looked like medieval England, at least on casual inspection. He
figured he’d just use European history, to the extent that he
remembered it, as a crib sheet. He would pursue the standard
enlightened humanitarian program, nothing extraordinary, greatest
hits only, and go down in history as a force for good.
But Fillory wasn’t England. For one thing the
population was tiny—there couldn’t have been more than ten thousand
humans in the whole country, plus that many talking animals and
dwarves and spirits and giants and such. So he and the other
monarchs—or tetrarchs, whatever—were more like small-town mayors.
For another, while magic was very real on Earth, Fillory was
magical. There was a difference. Magic was part of the ecosystem.
It was in the weather and the oceans and the soil, which was wildly
fertile. If you wanted your crops to fail you had to work pretty
hard at it.
Fillory was a land of hyperabundance. Anything that
needed making could be gotten from the dwarves, sooner or later,
and they weren’t an oppressed industrial proletariat, they actually
enjoyed making things. Unless you were an actively despicable
tyrant, the way Martin Chatwin had been, there were just too many
resources and too few people to create anything much in the way of
civil strife. The only shortage that the Fillorian economy suffered
from was a chronic shortage of shortages.
As a result whenever any of the Brakebills—as they
were called, even though Julia had never even been to Brakebills,
as she wasn’t slow to point out—tried to get serious about
something, there turned out not to be much to be serious about. It
was all ritual and pomp and circumstance. Even money was just for
show. It was toy money. Monopoly money. The others had all but
given up on trying to make themselves useful, but Quentin couldn’t
quite let it go. Maybe that was what had been nagging at him, as he
stood on the edge of that meadow in the woods. There must be
something real somewhere out there, but he could never quite seem
to get his hands on it.
“All right,” he said. “What next?”
“Well,” Eliot said, as they filed back inside.
“There is this situation with the Outer Island.”
“The where?”
“The Outer Island.” He picked up some royal-looking
documents. “That’s what it says. I’m king of it, and even I don’t
know where it is.”
Janet snorted. “Outer is off the east coast. Way
off, a couple of days’ sail. God, I can’t believe they even let you
be king. It’s the easternmost point in the Fillorian Empire. I
think.”
Eliot peered at the map painted on the table. “I
don’t see it.”
Quentin studied the map too. On his first visit to
Fillory he’d sailed deep into the Western Sea, on the other side of
the Fillorian continent, but his knowledge of the east was pretty
sketchy.
“It’s not big enough.” She pointed to Julia’s lap.
“That’s where it would be if we had a bigger table.”
Quentin tried to imagine it: a little slip of white
tropical sand, embellished with a decorative palm tree, embedded in
an ocean of blue-green calm.
“Have you been there?” Eliot said.
“No one’s ever been there. It’s just a dot on the
map. Somebody started a fishing colony there after his ship
collided with it like a million years ago. Why are we talking about
the Outer Island?”
Eliot went back to his papers. “Looks like they
haven’t paid their taxes in a couple of years.”
“So?” Janet said. “Probably that’s because they
don’t have any money.”
“Send them a telegram,” Quentin said. “DEAR OUTER
ISLANDERS STOP SEND MONEY STOP IF YOU HAVE NO MONEY THEN DO NOT
SEND MONEY STOP.”
The meeting flagged while Eliot and Janet tried to
outdo each other in composing the most useless possible telegram to
the Outer Islanders.
“All right,” Eliot said. The turning tower had
rotated to where the flaming Fillorian sunset lit up the sky behind
him. Ladders of pink cloud were stacked up above his shoulders.
“I’ll lean on the Fenwicks about Jollyby. Janet will speak to the
Lorians.” He waved vaguely. “And somebody will do something about
the Outer Island. Who wants scotch?”
“I’ll go,” Quentin said.
“It’s just there on the sideboard.”
“No, I mean to the Outer Island. I’ll go there.
I’ll see about the taxes.”
“What?” Eliot sounded annoyed by the idea. “Why?
It’s the ass end of nowhere. And anyway, it’s a treasury matter.
We’ll send an emissary. That’s what emissaries are for.”
“Send me instead.”
Quentin couldn’t have said what the impulse was
exactly, he just knew that he had to do something. He thought of
the circular meadow and the broken clock-tree and the film clip of
Jollyby dying started up again. What was the point of all this when
you could just drop dead, just like that? That’s what he wanted to
know. What was even the fucking point?
“You know,” Janet said, “we’re not invading it. We
don’t need to send a king to the Outer Island. They haven’t paid
their taxes, which by the way is like eight fish. They’re not
exactly powering the whole economy.”
“I’ll be back before you know it.” He could already
tell he’d gotten it right. The tension inside him broke as soon as
he said it. Relief was flooding through him, at what he didn’t even
know. “Who knows, maybe I’ll learn something.”
This would be his quest: collecting taxes from a
bunch of backwater yokels. He had skipped the adventure of the
broken tree, and that was fine. He would have this one
instead.
“Could look weak, with the Jollyby thing.” Eliot
fingered his royal chin. “You taking off at the first sign of
trouble.”
“I’m a king. It’s not like they’re going to not
re-elect me.”
“Wait,” Janet said. “You didn’t kill Jollyby, did
you? Is that what this is about?”
“Janet!” Eliot said.
“No, really. It would all fit together—”
“I didn’t kill Jollyby,” Quentin said.
“All right. Fine. Great.” Eliot ticked the item off
on his agenda. “Outer Island, check. That’s it then.”
“Well, I hope you’re not going alone,” Janet said.
“God knows what they’re like out there. It could be Captain Cook
all over again.”
“I’ll be fine,” Quentin said. “Julia’s coming with
me. Right, Julia?”
Eliot and Janet both stared at him. How long had it
been since he surprised those two? Or anybody? He must be on to
something. He smiled at Julia, and she looked back at him, though
with her all-black pupils her expression was unreadable.
“Of course I am,” was all she said.
That night Eliot paid Quentin a visit in his
bedroom.
When he first found it the room had been stuffed
with an appalling amount of hideous quasi-medieval junk. It had
been literally centuries since all four of Whitespire’s thrones had
been filled at the same time, and in the meantime the extra royal
suites had been invaded and occupied by creeping armies of
superfluous candelabras, defunct chandeliers listing and deflated
like beached jellyfish, unplayable musical instruments,
unreturnable diplomatic gifts, chairs and tables so piteously
ornamental they would break if you looked at them, or even if you
didn’t, dead animals ruthlessly stuffed in the very act of begging
for mercy, urns and ewers and other even less easily identifiable
vessels that you didn’t know whether to drink out of or go to the
bathroom in.
Quentin had had the room cleared out to the bare
walls. Everything must go. He left the bed, one table, two chairs,
a few of the better rugs, and some pleasing and/or politically
expedient tapestries, that was all. He liked one tapestry in
particular that depicted a marvelously appointed griffin frozen in
the act of putting a company of foot soldiers to flight. It was
supposed to symbolize the triumph of some group of long-dead people
over some other group of long-dead people whom nobody had liked,
but for some reason the griffin had cocked its head to one side in
the midst of its rampage and was gazing directly out of its woven
universe at the viewer as if to say, yes, granted, I’m good at
this. But is it really the best use of my time?
When it was finally empty the room had grown by
three times its size. It could breathe again. You could think in
it. It turned out to be about as big as a basketball court, with a
smooth stone floor, towering timbered ceilings where light got lost
in the upper reaches and made interesting shadows, and soaring
Gothic lead-glass windows a few little panels of which actually
opened. It was so gloriously still and empty that when you scuffed
your foot on the stone it echoed. It had the kind of hushed
stillness that on Earth you saw only from a distance, on the other
side of a velvet rope. It was the stillness of a closed museum, or
a cathedral at night.
There was some murmuring among the upper servants
that such a spartan chamber was not entirely suitable for a king of
Fillory, but Quentin had decided that one of the good things about
being a king of Fillory was that you got to decide what’s suitable
for a king of Fillory.
And anyway, if it was high royal style they wanted,
the High King was their man. Eliot had a bottomless appetite for
it. His bedroom was the gilded, diamond-studded, pearl-encrusted
rococo lair of a god-king. Whatever else it was, it was entirely
suitable.
“You know in the Fillory books you could actually
get into the tapestries?” It was late, after midnight, and Eliot
was standing eye-to-eye with the woven griffin and sipping from a
tumbler of something amber.
“I know.” Quentin was stretched out on the bed,
wearing silk pajamas. “Believe me, I’ve tried. If they really did
it I have no idea how they did it. They just look like ordinary
tapestries to me. They don’t even move like in Harry Potter.”
Eliot had brought a tumbler for Quentin too.
Quentin hadn’t drunk any yet, but he hadn’t ruled out the
possibility either. At any rate he wasn’t going to let Eliot drink
it, which he would inevitably try to do when he was done with his
own. Quentin made a nest for the tumbler in the blankets next to
him.
“I’m not sure I’d want to get into this one,” Eliot
said.
“I know. Sometimes I wonder if he’s trying to get
out.”
“Now this fellow,” he said, moving on to a
full-length portrait of a knight in armor. “I wouldn’t mind getting
into his tapestry, if you get what I mean.”
“I get what you mean.”
“Pull that sword out of its scabbard.”
“I get it.”
Eliot was building up to something, but there was
no rushing him. Though if he took much longer Quentin was going to
fall asleep.
“Do you think if I did you’d see a little tapestry
version of me running around in there? I don’t know how I’d feel
about that.”
Quentin waited. Since he’d made the decision to go
to the Outer Island he felt calmer than he had in ages. The windows
were open, to the extent that they could be opened, and warm night
air flowed in, smelling like late summer grass and the sea, which
wasn’t far off.
“So about this trip of yours,” Eliot said
finally.
“About it.”
“I don’t understand why you’re doing this.”
“Do you have to?”
“Something about quests and adventures and
whatever. Sailing beyond the sunset. It doesn’t matter. We don’t
need you here for the Jollyby thing. One of us really should go out
there anyway, they probably don’t even know they have kings and
queens again. Just pass along any prurient details as a matter of
state security.”
“Will do.”
“But I want to talk to you about Julia.”
“Oh.” Whiskey time. Trying to drink lying down,
Quentin took a bigger swallow than he meant to, and it ignited a
brush fire in his guts. He suppressed a cough. “Look, you’re only
High King,” he gasped, “you’re not my dad. I’ll figure it
out.”
“Don’t get defensive, I just want to make sure you
know what you’re doing.”
“And what if I don’t?”
“Did I ever tell you,” Eliot said, sitting on one
of the two chairs, “how Julia and I met?”
“Well, sure.” Had he? The exact particulars were
fuzzy. “I mean, not in granular detail.”
The truth was that they hardly ever talked about
that time. They talked around it. No good memories there for
anybody. It was after the big disaster in Ember’s Tomb. Quentin had
been half-dead and had to be left in the care of some irritating
but ultimately very medically effective centaurs while Eliot and
Janet and the others returned to the real world. Quentin had spent
a year recovering in Fillory, then he went back to Earth and gave
up magic. He spent another six months working in an office in
Manhattan until Janet and Eliot and Julia finally came and got him.
If they hadn’t he’d probably still be there. He was grateful, and
he always would be.
Eliot stared out the window into the black moonless
night, like an oriental potentate in his dressing gown, which
looked too heavily embroidered to be comfortable.
“You know Janet and I were in pretty rough shape
when we left Fillory?”
“Yes. Though at least Martin Chatwin hadn’t chewed
you practically in half.”
“It’s not a contest, but yes, that is true. But we
were shaken up. We loved Alice, too, you know, in our way. Even
Janet did. And we thought we’d lost you as well as her. We were
well and truly done with Fillory and all its goods and chattels, I
can tell you.
“Josh went home to his parents in New Hampshire,
and Richard and Anaïs went off somewhere to do whatever it was
they’d been doing before they went to Fillory. Not big mourners,
those two. I couldn’t face New York again, nor could I face my
grotesque so-called family in Oregon, so I went home with Janet to
L.A.
“That turned out to be an excellent decision. You
know her parents are lawyers? Entertainment lawyers. Fantastically
rich, huge house in Brentwood, working all the time, no discernible
emotional life whatsoever. So we sucked around Brentwood for a week
or two until Janet’s parents got tired of the sight of our
post-traumatic faces shuffling off to bed as they were getting up
for a predawn squash match. They packed us off to a fancy spa in
Wyoming for a couple of weeks.
“You wouldn’t have heard of it, it was that kind of
place. Impossible to get into and ludicrously expensive, but money
means nothing to these people, and I wasn’t about to argue. Janet
practically grew up there—the staff all knew her from when she was
a little girl. Imagine that—our Janet, a little girl! She and I had
a bungalow to ourselves and positively legions of people to wait on
us. I think Janet had a manicurist for every nail.
“And they did a thing with mud and hot stones—I
swear to you there was magic in it. Nothing feels that good without
magic.
“Of course, the terrible secret of places like that
is that they’re horrifically boring. You have no idea the extremes
we were driven to. I played tennis. Me! They got very scoldy
when it came to drinking on the court, I can tell you. I told them
it’s just part of my form. You can’t relearn technique, not at my
age.
“Well, by the third day Janet and I were
considering having sex with each other just to relieve the tedium.
And then, like a dark angel of mercy come to safeguard my virtue,
Julia appeared.
“It was like one of those Poirot mysteries set at a
posh country seat. There was some accident down by the pool—I was
never clear on the details, but an enormous fuss was made. I
suppose that’s one of the things you pay for: first-class fuss. At
any rate the first time I laid eyes on our Julia she was being
carried through the lobby strapped to a backboard, soaking wet and
cursing a blue streak and insisting that she was fine, absolutely
fine. Take your paws off me, you damned dirty apes.
“The next day I came down to the bar around three
or four in the afternoon and there she was again, drinking alone,
all in black. Vodka gimlets I believe. The mysterious lady. It was
painfully obvious that she didn’t belong at the spa. Her hair was a
rat’s nest, you literally can’t imagine. Worse than now even. Her
cuticles were bitten down to the quick. Shoulders hunched. Nervous
stutter. And then she had no grasp of how things worked. She tried
to tip the staff. She pronounced the names of French wines with an
actual French accent.
“Of course I was drawn to her at once. I figured
she must be Russian. Daughter of a jailed oligarch, that sort of
thing. No one but a Russian could afford to stay there and still
have hair that bad. Janet thought she was just out of rehab and
from the looks of it headed right back in. Either way we fell upon
her like starving people.
“The approach was subtle. The trick was not setting
off her alarms, which were all obviously set to a hair trigger. It
was Janet, that mistress of seduction, who cracked her in the
end—she planted herself in a public lounge and complained loudly
about a rather involved computer issue. You could watch our Julia
wrestle with herself, but it was a fait accompli.
“After that—well, you know how it is on those
vacations. As soon as you learn another person’s name they become
inescapable. We ran into each other everywhere. You wouldn’t think
a place like that was her style, would you? But there she was, up
to her neck in mud, with cucumber slices over her eyes. She was
constantly plunging in and out of baths and things. Once Janet
tried to go in a steam bath with her, but she’d turned it up so
high everybody else had to flee. Probably she had them thrash her
with birch twigs. It was like she was trying to rid herself of some
stubborn taint.
“It came out that she had a weakness for cards, so
we spent hours just drinking and playing three-handed bridge. Not
talking. We didn’t know she was a magician, of course. How could
we? But you could tell she was bursting with some terrible secret.
And she had those things that one likes about magicians: she was
disgustingly bright and rather sad and slightly askew. To tell you
the truth I think one of the things we liked about her was that she
reminded us of you.
“Well, you know how in the Poirot books he always
goes on vacation to get away from it all, the mysteries and
whatever else, only to have a murder committed on the very island
he’s fled to for peace and quiet and some civilized gastronomy? It
was exactly like that, except that we were fleeing magic. One night
I wandered over to her bungalow around ten or eleven at night.
Janet and I had had a fight, and I was looking for someone to
complain about her to.
“When I passed Julia’s window I saw that she was
building a fire. That was odd to begin with. The fireplaces were
absolutely enormous in those bungalows, but it was the middle of
summer and nobody in their right mind was using them. But Julia had
a roaring blaze going. She was building it very methodically,
placing the logs very carefully. She marked each log before she put
it on—scraped away some of the bark with a little silver
knife.
“And then as I watched . . . I don’t know how to
describe it so you’ll understand. She kneeled down in front of the
fire and began putting things in it. Some of the things were
obviously valuable—a rare shell, an old book, a handful of gold
dust. Some of them must just have been precious to her. A piece of
costume jewelry. An old photograph. Each time she put one in she’d
stop and wait a minute, but nothing happened, except that whatever
it was burned or melted and gave off a nasty smell. I don’t know
what she was waiting for, but whatever it was it never came.
Meanwhile she got more and more agitated.
“I felt utterly tawdry spying on her, but I
couldn’t look away. Finally she ran out of precious things, and
then she started crying, and then she put herself into the fire.
She crawled over the hearth and collapsed, half in and half out of
the flames, sobbing her little heart out. Her legs were sticking
out. It was awful to see. Her clothes went up right away, of
course, and her face got black with soot, but the fire never
touched her skin. She was absolutely sobbing. Her shoulders shook
and shook . . .”
Eliot stood up and went to the window. He struggled
with one of the little panes for a second, then he must have found
a catch Quentin had never noticed because he pulled the whole
window open. Quentin couldn’t see how he did it. He put his glass
on the sill.
“I don’t know if you’re falling in love with her or
if you just think you are or what it is you’re doing,” he said. “I
suppose I can’t blame you, you always did like to make things as
hard as possible on yourself. But just listen to what I’m telling
you.
“That was how it all started, how we knew she was
one of us. The spell was something very strong. I could hear the
hum of it even over the fire, and the light in the room had gone a
funny color. But so much of her magic is just impossible to parse.
I knew right away she’d never been to Brakebills, because it
sounded like gibberish to me, and I couldn’t get within a thousand
miles of how it worked or what she was trying to do, and she never
said, and I never asked.
“But if I absolutely had to guess I’d say she was
attempting a summoning. I’d say she was trying to bring back
something that she’d lost, or that was taken away from her,
something that was very precious to her indeed. And if I had
another guess, I’d have to say that it wasn’t working.”