18
HE KNEW HE was dying because faces were coming
toward him and all of them were faces he recognized. They came in a
long stream, unending, ones and twos together, and there were no
strangers among them. He had heard it would be like this. Your life
was supposed to flash before your eyes. Everybody said so. And now
it was happening. So he was dying.
He guessed when the faces stopped, that was it.
He wondered who the last one would be. There were a number of
candidates. He wondered who chose the order. Whose decision was it?
He felt mildly irritated he wasn’t allowed to specify. And what
would happen next? When the last face was gone, what then?
But something was going seriously wrong. A face
loomed up who he didn’t know. It was then he realized the Army was
in charge of the parade. It had to be. Only the Army could
accidentally include someone he had never seen before. A complete
stranger, in the wrong place at the wrong time. He supposed it was
fitting. He had lived most of his life under the control of the
Army. He supposed it was pretty natural they would take charge of
organizing this final part. And one mistake was tolerable. Normal,
even acceptable, for the Army.
But this guy was touching him. Hitting him.
Hurting him. He suddenly realized the parade had finished before this guy. This guy wasn’t
in the parade at all. He came after it.
Maybe this guy was there to finish him off. Yes, that was it. Had
to be that way. This guy was here to make sure he died on schedule.
The parade was over, and the Army couldn’t let him survive it. Why
should they go to all the trouble of putting it on and then have
him survive it? That would be no good. No good at all. That would
be a serious lapse in procedure. He tried to recall who had come
before this guy. The second-to-last person, who was really the last
person. He didn’t remember. He hadn’t paid attention. He slipped
away and died without remembering who had been the last face in his
parade.
HE WAS DEAD, but he was still thinking. Was that OK? Was this the afterlife? That would be a hell of a thing. He had lived nearly thirty-nine years assuming there was no afterlife. Some people had agreed with him, others had argued with him. But he’d always been adamant about it. Now he was right there in it. Somebody was going to come sneering up to him and say told you so. He would, if the boot was on the other foot. He wouldn’t let somebody get away with being absolutely wrong about something, not without a little friendly ribbing at least.
He saw Jodie Garber. She was going to tell him.
No, that wasn’t possible. She wasn’t dead. Only a dead person could
yell at you in the afterlife, surely. A live person couldn’t do it.
That was pretty obvious. A live person wasn’t in the afterlife. And
Jodie Garber was a live person. He’d made certain of it. That had
been the whole damn point. And anyway, he was pretty sure he had
never discussed the afterlife with Jodie Garber. Or had he? Maybe
many years ago, when she was still a kid? But it was Jodie Garber. And she was going to speak to him. She sat down in front of
him and pushed her hair behind her ears. Long blond hair, small
ears.
“Hi, Reacher,” she said.
It was her voice. No doubt about it. No mistake.
So maybe she was dead. Maybe it had been an automobile accident.
That would be a hell of an irony. Maybe she was hit by a speeding
truck on lower Broadway, on her way home from the World Trade
Center.
“Hey, Jodie,” he said.
She smiled. There was communication. So she was
dead. Only a dead person could hear another dead person speak,
surely. But he had to know.
“Where are we?” he asked.
“St. Vincent’s,” she said.
Saint Peter he had heard of. He was the guy at
the gates. He had seen pictures. Well, not really pictures, but
cartoons, at least. He was an old guy in a robe, with a beard. He
stood at a lectern and asked questions about why you should be let
in. But he didn’t remember Saint Peter asking him any questions.
Maybe that came later. Maybe you had to go out again, and then try
to get back in.
But who was Saint Vincent? Maybe he was the guy
who ran the place you stayed while you were waiting for Saint
Peter’s questions. Like the boot camp part. Maybe old Vincent ran
the Fort Dix equivalent. Well, that would be no problem. He’d
murdered boot camp. Easiest time he’d ever done. He could do it
again. But he was annoyed about it. He’d finished up a major, for
God’s sake. He’d been a star. He had medals. Why the hell should he
do boot camp all over again?
And why was Jodie here? She was supposed to be
alive. He realized his left hand was clenching. He was intensely
irritated. He’d saved her life, because he loved her. So why was
she dead now? What the hell was going on? He tried to struggle
upright. Something was tying him down. What the hell? He was going
to get some answers or he was going to knock some heads
together.
“Take it easy,” Jodie said to him.
“I want to see Saint Vincent,” he said. “And I
want to see him right now. Tell him to get his sorry ass in this
room inside five minutes or I’m going to be seriously pissed
off.”
She looked at him and nodded.
“OK,” she said.
Then she looked away and stood up. She
disappeared from his sight and he lay back down. This wasn’t any
kind of a boot camp. It was too quiet, and the pillows were
soft.
LOOKING BACK, IT should have been a shock. But it wasn’t. The room just swam into focus and he saw the decor and the shiny equipment and he thought hospital. He changed from being dead to being alive with the same little mental shrug a busy man gives when he realizes he’s wrong about what day it is.
The room was bright with sun. He moved his head
and saw he had a window. Jodie was sitting in a chair next to it,
reading. He kept his breathing low and watched her. Her hair was
washed and shiny. It fell past her shoulders, and she was twirling
a strand between her finger and thumb. She was wearing a yellow
sleeveless dress. Her shoulders were brown with summer. He could
see the little knobs of bone on top. Her arms were long and lean.
Her legs were crossed. She was wearing tan penny loafers that
matched the dress. Her ankles glowed brown in the sun.
“Hey, Jodie,” he said.
She turned her head and looked at him. Searched
his face for something and when she found it she smiled.
“Hey yourself,” she said. She dropped the book
and stood up. Walked three paces and bent and kissed him gently on
the lips.
“St. Vincent’s,” he said. “You told me, but I
was confused.”
She nodded.
“You were full of morphine,” she said. “They
were pumping it in like crazy. Your bloodstream would have kept all
the addicts in New York happy.”
He nodded. Glanced at the sun in the window. It
looked like afternoon.
“What day is it?”
“It’s July. You’ve been out three weeks.”
“Christ, I ought to feel hungry.”
She moved around the foot of the bed and came up
on his left. Laid her hand on his forearm. It was turned palm-up
and there were tubes running into the veins of his elbow.
“They’ve been feeding you,” she said. “I made
sure you got what you like. You know, lots of glucose and
saline.”
He nodded.
“Can’t beat saline,” he said.
She went quiet.
“What?” he asked.
“Do you remember?”
He nodded again.
“Everything,” he said.
She swallowed.
“I don’t know what to say,” she whispered. “You
took a bullet for me.”
“My fault,” he said. “I was too slow, is all. I
was supposed to trick him and get him first. But apparently I
survived it. So don’t say anything. I mean it. Don’t ever mention
it.”
“But I have to say thank you,” she
whispered.
“Maybe I should say thank you,” he said. “Feels
good to know somebody worth taking a bullet for.”
She nodded, but not because she was agreeing. It
was just random physical motion designed to keep her from
crying.
“So how am I?” he asked.
She paused for a long moment.
“I’ll get the doctor,” she said quietly. “He can
tell you better than me.”
She went out and a guy in a white coat came in.
Reacher smiled. It was the guy the Army had sent to finish him off
at the end of his parade. He was a small, wide, hairy man who could
have found work wrestling.
“You know anything about computers?” he
asked.
Reacher shrugged and started worrying this was a
coded lead-in to bad news about a brain injury, impairment, loss of
memory, loss of function.
“Computers?” he said. “Not really.”
“OK, try this,” the doctor said. “Imagine a big
Cray supercomputer humming away. We feed it everything we know
about human physiology and everything we know about gunshot wounds
and then we ask it to design us a male person best equipped to
survive a thirty-eight in the chest. Suppose it hums away for a
week. What does it come up with?”
Reacher shrugged again. “I don’t know.”
“A picture of you, my friend,” the doctor said.
“That’s what. The damn bullet didn’t even make it into your chest.
Your pectoral muscle is so thick and so dense it stopped it dead.
Like a three-inch kevlar vest. It popped out the other side of the
muscle wall and smashed a rib, but it went no farther.”
“So why was I out three weeks?” Reacher asked
immediately. “Not for a muscle wound or a broken rib, that’s for
damn sure. Is my head OK?”
The doctor did a weird thing. He clapped his
hands and punched the air. Then he stepped closer, beaming all over
his face.
“I was worried about it,” he said. “Real worried
about it. Bad wound. I would have figured it for a nail gun, until
they told me it was shotgun debris from manufactured furniture. It
penetrated your skull and was about an eighth inch into your brain.
Frontal lobe, my friend, bad place to have a nail. If I had to have
a nail in my skull, the frontal lobe would definitely not be my
first choice. But if I had to see a nail in anybody else’s frontal lobe I’d pick yours, I guess, because
you’ve got a skull thicker than Neanderthal man’s. Anybody normal,
that nail would have been all the way in, and that would have been
thank you and good night.”
“So am I OK?” Reacher asked again.
“You just saved us ten thousand dollars in
tests,” the doctor said happily. “I told you the news about the
chest, and what did you do? Analytically? You compared it with your
own internal database, realized it wasn’t a very serious wound,
realized it couldn’t have needed three weeks of coma, remembered
your other injury, put two and two together and asked the question
you asked. Immediately. No hesitation. Fast, logical thinking,
assembly of pertinent information, rapid conclusion, lucid
questioning of the source of a possible answer. Nothing wrong with
your head, my friend. Take that as a professional opinion.”
Reacher nodded slowly. “So when can I get out of
here?”
The doctor took the medical chart off the foot
of the bed. There was a mass of paper clipped to a metal board. He
riffed it through. “Well, your health is excellent in general, but
we better watch you a while. Couple more days, maybe.”
“Nuts to that,” Reacher said. “I’m leaving
tonight.”
The doctor nodded. “Well, see how you feel in an
hour.”
He stepped close and stretched up to a valve on
the bottom of one of the IV bags. Clicked it a notch and tapped a
tube with his finger. Watched carefully and nodded and walked back
out of the room. He passed Jodie in the doorway. She was walking in
with a guy in a seersucker jacket. He was about fifty, pale, short
gray hair. Reacher watched him and thought a
buck gets ten this is the Pentagon guy.
“Reacher, this is General Mead,” Jodie
said.
“Department of the Army,” Reacher said.
The guy in the jacket looked at him, surprised.
“Have we met?”
Reacher shook his head. “No, but I knew one of
you would be sniffing around, soon as I was up and running.”
Mead smiled. “We’ve been practically camped out
here. To put it bluntly, we’d like you to keep quiet about the Carl
Allen situation.”
“Not a chance,” Reacher said.
Mead smiled again and waited. He was enough of
an Army bureaucrat to know the steps. Leon used to say something for nothing, that’s a foreign
language.
“The Hobies,” Reacher said. “Fly them down to
D.C. first class, put them up in a five-star hotel, show them their
boy’s name on the Wall and make sure there’s a shitload of brass in
full-dress uniform saluting like crazy the whole time they’re doing
it. Then I’ll keep quiet.”
Mead nodded.
“It’ll be done,” he said. He got up unbidden and
went back outside. Jodie sat down on the foot of the bed.
“Tell me about the police,” Reacher said. “Have
I got questions to answer?”
She shook her head.
“Allen was a cop killer,” she said. “You stick
around NYPD territory and you’ll never get another ticket in your
life. It was self-defense, everybody’s cool.”
“What about my gun? It was stolen.”
“No, it was Allen’s gun. You wrestled it away
from him. Roomful of witnesses saw you do it.”
He nodded slowly. Saw the spray of blood and
brains all over again as he shot him. A pretty good shot, he
thought. Dark room, stress, a nail in his head, a .38 slug in his
chest, bull’s-eye. Pretty damn close to the perfect shot. Then he
saw the hook again, up at Jodie’s face, hard steel against the
honey of her skin.
“You OK?” he asked her.
“I’m fine,” she said.
“You sure? No bad dreams?”
“No bad dreams. I’m a big girl now.”
He nodded again. Recalled their first night
together. A big girl. Seemed like a million years ago.
“But are you OK?” she
asked him back.
“The doctor thinks so. He called me Neanderthal
man.”
“No, seriously.”
“How do I look?”
“I’ll show you,” she said.
She ducked away to the bathroom and came back
with the mirror from the wall. It was a round thing, framed in
plastic. She propped it on his legs and he steadied it with his
right hand and looked. He still had a fearsome tan. Blue eyes.
White teeth. His head had been shaved. The hair had grown back an
eighth of an inch. On the left of his face was a peppering of
scars. The nail hole in his forehead was lost among the debris of a
long and violent life. He could make it out because it was redder
and newer than the rest, but it was no bigger than the mark a
half-inch away where his brother, Joe, had caught him with a shard
of glass in some long-forgotten childhood dispute over nothing, in
the same exact year Hobie’s Huey went down. He tilted the mirror
and saw broad strapping over his chest, snowy white against the
tan. He figured he had lost maybe thirty pounds. Back to 220, his
normal weight. He handed the mirror back to Jodie and tried to sit
up. He was suddenly dizzy.
“I want to get out of here,” he said.
“You sure?” she asked.
He nodded. He was sure, but he felt very sleepy.
He put his head back on the pillow, just temporarily. He was warm
and the pillow was soft. His head weighed a ton and his neck
muscles were powerless to move it. The room was darkening. He
swiveled his eyes upward and saw the IV bags hanging in the far
distance above him. He saw the valve the doctor had adjusted. He
had clicked it. He remembered the plastic sound. There was writing
on the IV bag. The writing was upside down. He focused on it.
Concentrated hard. The writing was green. It read Morphine.
“Shit,” he whispered, and the room spun away
into total darkness.
WHEN HE OPENED his eyes again, the sun had moved backward. It was earlier in the day. Morning, not afternoon. Jodie was sitting in her chair by the window, reading. The same book. She was a half-inch farther through it. Her dress was blue, not yellow.
“It’s tomorrow,” he said.
She closed the book and stood up. Stepped over
and bent and kissed his lips. He kissed her back and clamped his
teeth and pulled the IV needles out of his arm and dropped them
over the side of the bed. They started a steady drip onto the
floor. He hauled himself upright against the pillows and smoothed a
hand over his bristly scalp.
“How do you feel?” she asked.
He sat still in the bed and concentrated on a
slow survey up his body, starting with his toes and ending with the
top of his head.
“Fine,” he said.
“There are people here to see you,” she said.
“They heard you’d come around.”
He nodded and stretched. He could feel the chest
wound. It was on the left. There was weakness there. He reached up
with his left hand to the IV stand. It was a vertical stainless
steel bar with a spiral curl at the top where the bags slipped on.
He put his hand over the curl and squeezed hard. He felt bruising
in his elbow where the needles had been and sensitivity in his
chest where the bullet had been, but the steel spiral still
flattened from round to oval. He smiled.
“OK, send them in,” he said.
He knew who they were before they got inside. He
could tell by the sound. The wheels on the oxygen cart squeaked.
The old lady stood aside and let her husband enter first. She was
wearing a brand-new dress. He was in the same old blue serge suit.
He wheeled the cart past her and paused. He kept hold of the handle
with his left hand and drew his right up into a trembling salute.
He held it for a long moment and Reacher replied with the same. He
threw his best parade-ground move and held it steady, meaning every
second of it. Then he snapped it down and the old guy wheeled the
cart slowly toward him with his wife fussing behind.
They were changed people. Still old, still
feeble, but serene. Knowing your son is dead is better than not
knowing, he guessed. He tracked back to Newman’s windowless lab in
Hawaii and recalled Allen’s casket with Victor Hobie’s skeleton in
it. Victor Hobie’s old bones. He remembered them pretty well. They
were distinctive. The smooth arch of the brow, the high round
cranium. The even white teeth. The long, clean limbs. It was a
noble skeleton.
“He was a hero, you know.”
The old man nodded.
“He did his duty.”
“Much more than that,” Reacher replied. “I read
his record. I talked with General DeWitt. He was a brave flyer who
did more than his duty. He saved a lot of lives with his courage.
If he’d lived, he’d have three stars now. He’d be General Victor
Truman Hobie, with a big command somewhere, or a big job in the
Pentagon.”
It was what they needed to hear, but it was
still true. The old woman put her thin pale hand over her husband’s
and they sat in silence, eyes moist and focused eleven thousand
miles away. They were telling themselves stories of what might have
been. The past stretched away straight and uncomplicated and now it
was neatly amputated by a noble combat death, leaving only honest
dreams ahead of it. They were recounting those dreams for the first
time, because now they were legitimate. Those dreams were
fortifying them just like the oxygen hissing in and out of the
bottle in time with the old man’s ragged breathing.
“I can die happy now,” he said.
Reacher shook his head.
“Not yet you can’t,” he said. “You have to go
see the Wall. His name will be there. I want you to bring me a
photograph of it.”
The old man nodded and his wife smiled a watery
smile.
“Miss Garber told us you might be living over in
Garrison,” she said. “You might be our neighbor.”
Reacher nodded.
“It’s possible,” he said.
“Miss Garber is a fine young woman.”
“Yes, ma’am, she is.”
“Stop your nonsense,” the old man said to her.
Then they told him they couldn’t stay, because their neighbor had
driven them down and had to get back. Reacher watched them all the
way out to the corridor. Soon as they were gone, Jodie came back
in, smiling.
“The doctor says you can leave.”
“So can you drive me? Did you get a new car
yet?”
She shook her head. “Just a rental. No time for
shopping. Hertz brought me a Mercury. It’s got satellite
navigation.”
He stretched his arms above his head and flexed
his shoulders. They felt OK. Surprisingly good. His ribs were fine.
No pain.
“I need clothes,” he said. “I guess those old
ones got ruined.”
She nodded. “Nurses sliced them off with
scissors.”
“You were here for that?”
“I’ve been here all the time,” she said. “I’m
living in a room down the hall.”
“What about work?”
“Leave of absence,” she said. “I told them,
agree or I quit.”
She ducked down to a laminate cupboard and came
out with a stack of clothes. New jeans, new shirt, new jacket, new
socks and shorts, all folded and piled together, his old shoes
squared on top, Army-style.
“They’re nothing special,” she said. “I didn’t
want to take too much time out. I wanted to be with you when you
woke up.”
“You sat around here for three weeks?”
“Felt like three years,” she said. “You were all
scrunched up. Comatose. You looked awful. In a real bad way.”
“This satellite thing,” he said. “Does it have
Garrison on it?”
“You going up there?”
He shrugged.
“I guess. I need to take it easy, right? Country
air might do me good.”
Then he looked away from her.
“Maybe you could stay with me awhile, you know,
help me recover.”
He threw back the sheet and slid his feet to the
floor. Stood up, slow and unsteady, and started to dress, while she
held his elbow to keep him from falling.