NOAH SPEAKS

Such love and comfort! I revelled in it. The depth of companionship between women beloved of each other is so vastly different to that which exists between a man and a woman that, I must confess, I allowed myself to luxuriate within it.

I chatted with Marguerite’s two children as we rode towards Woburn village (there was a third, an older girl, but she was happily ensconced within her father’s court and had not accompanied her mother to England), and held Kate’s baby. For the first time since learning of my own pregnancy, I felt relaxed and happy. I felt safe. Not merely physically secure, but safe emotionally. Marguerite and Kate and their children represented only joy and loving and companionship.

Their children delighted me. They had so much of their father within them that they were a pleasure merely to watch. They had his darkness of hair and of eye, even Kate’s tiny baby daughter, and I was joyful, not only for their mothers, but for Charles as well, that he had children such as these. “Bastards” they might be in this world’s tiny, cramped morality, but they came of a line so kingly, so powerful, that I knew they would consistently shine in every aspect of their lives. Blessed, indeed.

“I cannot think that your father could bear to allow you out of his sight,” I said to the boy, and he grinned.

“He would not disallow us this adventure,” he replied, “and he said we had mothers who could keep us safe through whatever travail might beset us.”

“Aye,” I said, smiling now at Marguerite and Kate, “you have extraordinary mothers, indeed.”

And so, in warmth and love and joy, we arrived at our house. Woburn village was one of the prettiest English villages I had ever seen, and it was no tragedy for me that I should now find myself living there. The house stood on the gently sloping main street, two doors up from the church: a large, substantial brick and stone building of some three floors that could accommodate with ease all of us—Marguerite, Kate, myself and all our children born or still waiting for birth. The earl had sent along two servants for us, but Marguerite told me she sent them back to the Abbey.

“We three women can manage for ourselves nicely,” she said as we drove into the village. “And besides, what we shall manage within the house, no Christian eyes should witness.”

I smiled, content, and took Marguerite’s hand as we walked into the house.

Marguerite and Kate had travelled well. They had brought with them a vast expanse of books and fabrics and carpets and chests and lamps and everything that might make a home.

“Where did the coin come for all of these riches?” I said, aghast, for I had heard of Charles’ penury, the difficulties of his life in exile, and I did not want to think that he had sent himself even further into poverty that we three might live in comfort.

“Not Charles,” said Kate, “but Louis de Silva. His own father was generous with him, even though Louis is himself a bastard, and so Louis was generous with us.”

“He said,” Marguerite said, and I turned my head to regard her, “that he would do anything for you. Anything. This,” she spread a hand, indicating the vast expanse of opened chests and coffers, “is but a fraction of what he says he gifts to you.”

“And for England?” I whispered. “What will he do for this land?”

Anything. Everything.

I heard the words whispered in the air about me, and I shivered.

Marguerite took my hand again, then she and Kate showed me the house. They had only just arrived themselves, so that all was in chaos, but it was easy enough to see how comfortable we should be. There were two large reception rooms, a kitchen, pantry and two small storerooms on the ground floor, while the two higher floors each held several large rooms which we would use as bedrooms for the children and ourselves.

The children shared one large room on the second floor, and Marguerite, Kate and I resolved to share the largest of the rooms on the third floor. We would not be parted, Marguerite and Kate and I, and were grateful that the chamber contained a bed large enough to hold all three of us, as well as Kate’s baby (and, I had no doubt, Marguerite’s two children when they came to wake us each morning with their shrieks of joy).

The three of us, in bed, sharing love and warmth and companionship and, I hoped, enough power that we might form our own Circle.

As Eaving I had hardly touched my powers during this life. I was waiting, I think, for whatever lay down the road ahead of me.

Now, with Marguerite and Kate close and loving, and already habituated in the Circle, I could do more. Enjoy more.

On that day we merely settled ourselves, fed and loved the children and set them to bed as the sun sank, and then retired to our own chamber high in the house, there to disrobe and crawl into the vast bed.

“I can feel him on you,” I whispered as we sat, our bodies lit only by the guttering flame of a single candle set on a chest. I ran my hands slowly over Marguerite’s naked body, then Kate’s, exploring the curves and bounties of each one, observing with pleasure the marks of their children on their bellies. “I can smell him on you.”

Kate was nervous at this. “Do you mind?”

“No. I do not. I am glad that you and he both have managed to find some comfort. But, oh, how I envied you when your Circle reached out and touched me! I could feel the closeness between you, and I wished it so much for myself.”

“And thus John Thornton,” said Marguerite. She had stretched out on the bed atop the covers, close to both Kate and myself. One of her hands rested warm on my thigh where I sat cross-legged, the other on Kate’s hip. We were all so close, so together.

“Aye,” I said. “Thus John Thornton.”

“Was he a good lover?” asked Kate, and I think the expression on my face was enough answer for her and Marguerite for they both laughed, and Kate clapped her hands.

“He wishes this child was his,” said Marguerite when she sobered, and her hand slid from my thigh to my belly.

I shuddered at its gentle movement. “Oh, aye. He begged me to allow him to acknowledge it.”

Marguerite said nothing, but her hand slid back and forth over my belly, as if feeling the child within.

“You shall start to round out soon,” she said.

I put my hand over hers and pressed it against my flesh. “Kate, do you remember when you were Erith, and you and Loth took me to Mag’s Pond?”

Kate grunted, no doubt remembering also the debacle of that occasion.

“I conceived my daughter that night, and lost her to Genvissa’s ill will seven months later.”

I stopped, and they said nothing, waiting.

“This is she,” I whispered. “Reconceived.”

“Eaving,” said Marguerite, “are you sure?”

“Oh, aye. I can feel it. My daughter, returned.”

Kate, who, as Erith, had witnessed my sorrow at my daughter’s earlier death, reached out a hand and very gently caressed my face. “Ah,” she said, “this is good news, truly. A promise, for the future.”

I hesitated. Since that night when first I had realised my pregnancy, I’d been torn between two conflicting emotions. Sheer joy at the child’s second chance at life, and a growing worry that no matter how hard I tried, I could not communicate, by any means, with her. Was there anything wrong with her, or was it…

“I fear so greatly for this child,” I said, “sharing my womb with that…”

“That imp?” said Marguerite. “And who should truly fear, Noah? Your sweet growing daughter, or the imp?”

I laughed a little, for I thought she jested, but I ceased when I saw how darkly serious were her eyes.

“The imp?” I said. “It should fear?”

“Noah,” Marguerite said, and she slid upright and, moving her hand from under mine, held me close as if she were the mother and I the child. “This child has been conceived for a reason. Yes, you and Brutus lay together, and did those things that tend to make babies…but this is a baby reborn. I think that she is here for a purpose, and I think that she is not as other babies, innocent and unknowing. Noah, she has been to the Otherworld and back. What has that done to her? What power has that given her?”

I didn’t respond, for Marguerite’s comments made me deeply uncomfortable.

“And she was conceived of two such powerful parents,” Marguerite continued. “You, Eaving, goddess of the waters and of the fertility of this land, and he, Kingman of the Troy Game, and all else that awaits him. For all the gods’ sakes, Noah, this baby is a gift, and I think you have yet to realise the full extent of that gift. The imp?” I felt her shrug slightly against me. “The imp is a mere nuisance compared to the power that I think comprises your daughter.”

I put my own hands over my belly. “I try to feel her, to speak with her, yet I feel and see nothing.”

“Sometimes that is the way it is,” said Marguerite. “Whatever the power of the mother, she cannot penetrate her own womb.”

I thought of the countless times I had seen my daughter within the stone hall, and said nothing. I also remembered that I had always seen her at six or seven years of age, and that comforted me. She would live to be born, at least.

“She will live to command in her own right,” whispered Marguerite against my ear, kissing me here and there between her words. “For now, my sweet, I think we have better things to do than to worry about your child. She can take care of herself, for this night at least.”

I laughed, and put my cares aside, and turned to offer Marguerite my mouth.