38
At eight p.m., Walt was watching the Disney
Channel with his daughters, the smell of burgers and home fries
lingering in the air. Nikki lay on the floor playing Animal
Crossing on her DS while simultaneously watching the show,
something Walt disapproved of but tonight wasn’t going to make a
big deal about. But it reminded him that as he made the transition
back, away from depending so much on Lisa, that he had a
responsibility to be consistent. The girls had learned to slip
through the cracks, sometimes more like fissures, that existed
between his way of parenting, Lisa’s discipline, and their mother’s
basic fear of how to handle them. The girls had brokered these
differences to their benefit, playing one against the other, citing
established rules from another camp that likely didn’t exist, and
effectively playing Walt’s guilt against him. There were at least
two downsides to this: first, they got away with everything;
second, they learned how to manipulate rather than face the music.
He could cut them a certain amount of slack for the difficulty of
their situation—the Taffy Twins, pulled and stretched in several
directions at once—but for their sakes, it was time to lay down the
law and see to it that, as much as humanly possible, Gail kept with
the same program.
“Nikki, the TV or the DS, but not both,” he
said.
“Mom lets me.”
“You want me to call her? If she says otherwise,
it’ll cost you the DS for the week.”
She flipped the machine shut, stuck her lower lip
out as she did so, and huffed as she pushed it aside.
“This show is boring,” Nikki said.
“No it isn’t,” Emily complained. “I like it.”
“Why don’t you read, Nikki? After this show, we’re
going to read together. The three of us.”
“Oh, Dad . . .” Emily complained. To her sister she
said, “See what you did?”
“Did not.”
“Did too!”
“Girls!” Walt said, raising his voice. “This show,
then reading.” He looked over at them thinking that these two
children defined him more than his job, more than any of his
accomplishments. At school events he introduced himself with “I’m
Nikki and Emily’s father.” He thought that summed it up.
His computer chirped from the living room.
“Skype,” the girls both said, nearly in
unison.
“I’ll get it,” Walt announced. “But when this
show’s over,” he said, already moving toward the dining table,
“don’t start another one.”
“Yeah, yeah . . .” Nikki said, sounding entirely
insincere.
He was going to have to work on that attitude of
hers as well. “Have you got a pen?” Boldt asked once Walt had
logged on.
“I do.”
“There can’t be a paper trail right now, although
that’s being worked on.”
“Did you get my e-mail with Wynn’s shoe
information?”
“I did. Thanks for that. More to come. Stay
tuned.”
“Ready when you are.”
“These are the e-mail addresses on the list server:
all people who requested to be notified of Gale’s parole. Some, I’m
told, had restraining orders in place. Others were his victims. He
had a pile of assault charges by the time they put him away. There
are twenty-two on here. I’ll read them slowly. Here goes.”
Boldt, head down in the video, reading glasses
perched on the end of his nose, out of scale on his huge head and
looking toylike, read the e-mail addresses carefully, calling out
capitalization, underscores, and “dots,” working patiently through
the list.
Walt read each back. Some were easy to identify the
sender by the name, others wouldn’t be difficult to follow up on
because of the host server—the name of a football team or a
recognizable company. Five were generic and therefore
obscure.
“They’re going to be tricky,” Walt said.
“I could ask Buddy Cornell to chase down the real
names. There’s probably an e-mail trail in their system from these
people, and I imagine at least some sign their names when sending a
message. All he’s got to do is chase down those e-mails and read
them. As long as we keep this by phone, and off any kind of paper
trail, I think Buddy will help us.”
“I’d appreciate it.”
“Let me check it out for you.”
“I can Google the e-mail addresses as well.
Sometimes that works. And I can cold-call the hosts. We’ve had to
do that before and some of them are pretty cooperative.”
“And we have CIs here,” Boldt said, meaning
criminal informants, “that are magicians when it comes to this
stuff.”
“Anagrams,” Nikki’s girlish voice said from over
Walt’s shoulder.
“Hello, young lady,” Boldt said from the
screen.
Walt didn’t have to look over his shoulder because
the camera view that showed his face in a small window also showed
Nikki standing to his left.
“My friends’ parents . . .” she said, “they make
anagrams out of my friends’ names so you can’t tell who they are.
’Cause of all the creepy stuff you talk about at school, Dad. Maybe
they’re anagrams.”
Boldt bit back a smile on the screen.
“Worth a try,” he said.
“Looks like my daughters are going to help me,”
Walt said.
“Can’t argue with that. I’ll give Buddy a call as
backup.”
“Much appreciated.”
“And thanks again for the shoe stats. I think we
may be able to pull this off by tomorrow sometime, if you’re
available.”
“I’m here,” Walt confirmed.
They ended the call. Walt wrapped his arm around
Nikki. “Okay, girl . . . looks like you just earned yourself a job.
Double your allowance if you unscramble these names.”
“What about me?” Emily complained.
“You take half the names. Nikki takes half. Nikki
goes first. You both get the extra allowance, and reading time is
delayed by half an hour.”
“Hooray!” Nikki shouted, too close to her father’s
ear.
The girls took to the work enthusiastically,
thrilled to be needed, he realized. It alerted him to a glaring
omission in his fathering: he took care of his girls, but he rarely
asked them to take care of him. As the computer printer whined from
the other room, Walt realized it wasn’t just the girls. He felt
uncomfortable when others offered him their help—he looked at
generosity as a debt, rather than as a gift. Even in the workplace,
he had trouble delegating, pleased to have a deputy sheriff to
handle that for him. He was sitting there contemplating the
mistakes he’d made with Gail and was still making with the girls
when Nikki delivered several pages of printout to him.
“We crossed out the ones that didn’t make any
sense,” Emily explained.
“And we put arrows by the ones that sounded like
names,” Nikki said.
He looked at his watch: they’d been at it for just
over an hour, content to eat up reading time. He’d been occupied
with Larry King and stewing over his personality
shortcomings.
He praised their effort, placed the pages down onto
the coffee table, and headed into their room; the three of them
spent forty-five minutes reading about five kids inside Disney
World after dark. The girls went to bed reluctantly, which was
typical for any night, especially in summer when the sun didn’t set
until nine-thirty and the sky glowed faintly well past ten
p.m.
He got a kick out of their effort, pushing the
pages aside and reviewing some paperwork from his briefcase until
well past eleven. Letterman was tearing into the administration’s
health care proposals as Walt packed it up for the night. He killed
the TV and subsequently knocked the girls’ hard work onto the
floor, scattering the pages.
There was no explaining what the eye could see or
the ear could hear. No explaining why Walt could look across a
forest floor and effortlessly spot game tracks where others could
not. No explaining how a musician could hear a flurry of notes
within the confines of utter silence. Walt was bent over and
scooping up the fallen pages as his eye picked first one word
singled out with a hand-drawn arrow, then a second.
Shaw Ken
His eye darted around the page as his fingers found
the sheet and brought it up to a reading distance, Walt still bent
over the coffee table. Both entries had been crossed out,
distinguished as nonsense words by either Nikki or Em:
The cross-out was such that he could read the word
as Fine or Fino.
The top of the page carried an extraordinarily long
URL that combined the website and the search string. Walt hurried
to the computer and carefully typed the address into the browser
bar, his throat tight, his mouth dry, his heart pounding. He knew
the answer but the investigator in him would not allow any jumping
to conclusions, demanding precise evidence. He double-checked each
letter in the long address, not wanting to input it a second time
and, confirming its accuracy, hit Enter.
The screen went blank. Walt found himself holding
his breath as the web page loaded. He scrolled down the results,
the page lying alongside the keyboard.
Fino
“No . . .” he muttered aloud.
The e-mail address “Anon.Weakfish@gmail.com”
unscrambled to Fino A Shaw Ken. Fiona Kenshaw.
He looked back and forth between the page and
screen in disbelief, trying hard to convince himself there had to
be a mistake. Obviously, the girls had input the address
incorrectly. But that reliable eye of his picked out the truth: all
the double-checking wasn’t going to change the results. Nikki and
Emily had done a fine job of it.
He pushed away from the table. The chair legs
caught and he nearly went over backward, throwing his legs out and
recovering his balance. But he was unsteady on his feet as he stood
and roamed the room, his eyes unable to leave the screen and the
piece of paper carrying his daughters’ handiwork. He paced. Hurried
into the kitchen and popped a beer and drank from the can greedily
as he continued to contemplate what it all meant. He knew what it
meant, of course, but he couldn’t allow it to mean that, so
his effort was to reframe the evidence into something that made
sense, offered an alternate universe.
He pried his eyes away long enough to glance at his
watch: 11:28. He pulled the BlackBerry off his hip and held it in
his palm, then sneaked a glimpse over his shoulder toward the
girls’ room. This was the collision of work and family, this moment
and moments like it. The after-hours demands of the job and his
allowing it to interfere.
He scrolled through the BlackBerry’s address book
to Myra’s entry. His sister-in-law or Kevin would willingly come
over and be in the house for the sake of his daughters if asked.
Kevin was probably awake anyway.
He worked the device and his thumb hovered over the
green key, now with Fiona’s cell number highlighted. Then,
not.
The list server evidence was not yet evidence—it
would have to arrive in written form from either Boldt or Buddy
Cornell to be of use to Walt’s prosecuting attorney. Walt had
mistakenly—stupidly, he thought—requested that Boldt pressure his
people to authenticate the evidence, to deliver it formally. Could
he now undo that request without sending up a red flag? Was he
willing to do so for her? Did he dare jump to such conclusions
without giving her a chance to explain things?
But he told himself he wasn’t jumping to any
conclusions. First had been Gale’s NA sponsor telling him Gale was
atoning to women, and Walt’s recollection of the photo of the
wide-eyed black kid on Fiona’s wall, photos taken of Katrina
victims: New Orleans, Gale’s home city. Now the list server e-mail
address providing a direct link between Gale and Fiona. Combined
with Fiona’s recent erratic behavior, Walt began to see his
suspicion of Kira—and Fiona’s reaction to it—in a new light. He
thought back to his interview of Vince Wynn on the night of the
backyard shooting, and Wynn’s mention of having received an e-mail
from the list server announcing Gale’s parole, nearly two weeks
late; he connected this, rightly or wrongly, to Fiona’s going pale
at the Advocates dinner as she got a look at her phone. Had she,
too, received a list server e-mail that night? Had the man at the
back of the conference room, the man Kira had mistaken for her
abductor, Roy Coats, actually been Martel Gale? If Kira knew about
Fiona’s past it was conceivable she’d experienced a transference,
making Fiona’s anxiety her own, and not realizing the difference.
The two kids working valet parking had described the man as a hulk
of almost comic book proportions: that fit with Gale’s
steroid-induced enormity.
If he drove up to see her, what excuse would there
be later for his not having used a ruling of probable cause to
conduct a search of the property? He no longer needed the
Engletons’ permission for such a search. He had to shed his
emotional response and think this through more carefully. Where did
the evidence lead? What was hard evidence, and what amounted to
speculation? What would his record show or suggest? Detailed
records were kept of his e-mails, phone calls, radio calls,
informal meetings, proper interrogations. Could he untangle that to
keep charges off of Fiona? Was that what he wanted to do? Was that
something he was willing to do?
He had prided himself over a career of public
service at having never corrupted a case or allowed himself to be
corrupted. The office had accepted donations of Hummers, RVs,
boats, trailers, and cash—He had never once taken so much as a gas
can or a dime for himself. He’d had ample opportunity to screen
friends from drunk driving charges or excuse parking tickets. Never
had done it. But Fiona was different. Not only could he forgive a
woman from defending herself against the likes of a Martel Gale,
but after nearly two years of avoiding women in the wake of his
marriage’s collapse, he’d now found the one woman he was willing to
risk himself with—and here was his repayment. It seemed quite
possible she’d bludgeoned a man to death.
His thumb cleared the phone’s search field and
typed an “F” into the blank bar. Hovered there.
But his cell phone calls were a matter of public
record. He looked toward the kitchen phone. His home calls could
easily be subpoenaed. His work calls. His e-mail. He cursed into
the room: his life was a matter of public record.
He caught sight of the computer. Nikki had a
Hotmail account she used for instant messaging. He’d set it up for
her. He knew the password. He stepped toward the dinner table,
recalling that Skype allowed the user to place phone calls anywhere
in the world.
Including six miles up the highway.