Fourteen
Too late. Only as she said it aloud
did Eve understand how true that was.
“There’s no way you could disappear from my life
now that wouldn’t hurt,” she told him.
It wasn’t the sort of thing she said to a man,
ever, not even to a man she was fond of and whose company she
enjoyed. It was too encouraging, too misleading; her sense of fair
play wouldn’t permit her to knowingly lead a man down a dead
end.
And this thing with Hazard? It had to qualify as
the deadest end of all time. She would hardly describe what she
felt for him as fondness. As for his company, it was more maddening
and disruptive than enjoyable. The man was a thorn in her side. A
threat to everything that mattered to her. Bad news. Trouble. The
kind of complication she didn’t need. And she wanted him more than
she could bear.
She wanted to kiss him; she wanted to know the
taste of him layered over whiskey, and to breathe him in
until her head was spinning and she couldn’t hold any more. She
wanted to feel him, the cool silkiness of his long hair sliding
over her skin and the taut ripple of his muscles beneath her
fingertips. And she wanted to press her cheek against his chest and
feel his heart pounding hard and fast. For her.
Then she wanted to rip off his clothes so she could
touch and lick and nibble and do all the things she’d imagined
doing when she should have been thinking about something else.
Something safe.
She must be crazy. And, she decided as the steady
drumbeat of her desire became louder and more insistent, that was
probably for the best.
Crazy people had a right to do crazy things. In
fact, it was almost an obligation. It was up to them to counteract
the sort of controlled, reasonable person she used to be, to shake
things up and keep the world from sliding into monotony. The best
part was that they couldn’t be held accountable after the fact. It
was the law. Not guilty by reason of insanity, Your Honor.
Even the temporarily insane were given a pass.
Maybe that’s what this was, temporary insanity.
Maybe if she left right then and got a good night’s sleep, she
would be her old self in the morning. The self that knew better,
the self that didn’t take chances or act impulsively or daydream
about ripping off men’s clothes.
That’s what she would do. She would stop staring
into Gabriel Hazard’s eyes; she would forget those amazing amber
flecks mixed in with the gray, flecks so small you had to get
really close to him to see them. She would forget all about amber
flecks and obscenely long eyelashes black as soot. She would snap
out of it and pull herself together and go home. And life would go
on as planned.
Temptation resisted.
Status quo maintained.
Disaster averted.
On the other hand, if this really was
temporary insanity, it might be best to wait it out. Driving
while crazy could be dangerous. The smart, sensible thing to
do might be to stay off the roads and let nature take its course
and then get on with her life as planned.
Maybe it was because, to a crazy woman, temptation
was just opportunity dressed up in racy black lingerie, but for
reasons she didn’t want to examine just then, Eve decided that’s
what she would do, she would play it smart and stay. With that
settled, it seemed only natural that she should be the one to make
the first move.
She lifted her hand to touch Hazard’s face and he
caught it in midair.
“What are you doing?” he demanded. His usually
smooth voice had gone all low and gritty.
The real Eve wanted to say “I don’t know” or “Oops,
sorry, my hand slipped,” but the real Eve wasn’t driving this bus
and that’s not what came out of her mouth.
The response that came out, in a tone that matched
his, was, “I’m making the first move.”
Hazard’s eyes narrowed. “That would be a
mistake.”
“I know,” said the crazy woman at the wheel. “But
I’m tired of waiting for you to do it.”
Surprise flashed in his eyes, and the barest hint
of amusement.
“You do understand that nothing good can come from
this?” he asked. Rhetorically, since even as he said the words his
grip on her arm gentled and his thumb began to slide back and forth
across the inside of her wrist.
Eve might have nodded. She wasn’t sure. His touch
brought a drift of pleasure as light and buoyant as champagne
bubbles, and she went with it happily.
“I have nothing to offer you,” he warned. “No
pretty words. No promises. Not even tomorrow.”
“You have what I need,” she told him. “You have
tonight.”
“One night?” He regarded her solemnly, his full
bottom lip curling with what might be regret. “You deserve so much
more.”
“Yes. I do. So you better make it memorable.”
His smile was slow and wicked.
“I shall do my best,” he promised, pulling her
close with a quick, hard tug.
Eve stumbled, but it didn’t matter because Hazard
caught her with his body. And then he took control.
He put his arms around her, one hand cupping the
back of her head, the other at the small of her back. She wasn’t
petite, or delicate, but that’s how he made her feel as he easily
tipped her back just enough so that her weight was resting on his
arm. Eve wound her arms around his neck purely for pleasure and not
because she had the slightest fear that he would let her fall. He
didn’t press or push, he leaned, he nudged, he guided. He had moves
that must have taken all of his two hundred years to perfect.
When her hair fell back, he lowered his mouth to
the hollow below her ear. His breath was warm against her skin, but
she shivered anyway as he slid kisses over her throat and jaw,
edging closer and closer to her lips, always slowly, too slowly, so
slowly impatience made her skin prickle and her breath come fast,
and even with all that rapid breathing it seemed not enough oxygen
was reaching her brain. Or maybe it was getting too much oxygen;
she tried to think which of the two it was that made you
lightheaded.
Then at last he was kissing her lips and there was
an explosion inside her and she didn’t think at all. She felt.
She’d heard the expression “zero to sixty in six point seven
seconds”; that was her, her sensory speed shot from zero to sixty .
. . to a hundred . . . faster . . . in the time it took his tongue
to find hers.
Sensations collided and tumbled through her, all of
them new and exciting. It was the heady, consuming feeling she had
the first time she saw him multiplied by a zillion, like being
caught in a storm that was raging inside and out. There was heat in
her belly and sparks danced along her nerve endings; it was more
stimulation than she’d ever felt, more than she’d known she could
feel, and it still wasn’t enough.
The woman in her understood that he was a man
who—if he wanted to—could make her knees buckle as elegantly and
effortlessly as he held the door for her, a man who would take the
time to seduce her one . . . small . . . slow . . . step at a time,
if that’s what she wanted. It wasn’t. Her senses were humming,
racing, sending the frantic beat of her heart echoing all through
her . . . more, more, more.
Craving him, she drove the kiss deeper, lifting
into him hungrily, urgently, resisting when he tried to raise his
head to speak.
“Slow down,” he whispered against her mouth.
Eve shook her head. “No. I don’t want slow . . . or
gentle . . . or safe. I want it hard and fast . . . and now.”
He did lift his head at that, enough to see clearly
the expression in her eyes. His own were shaded with doubt. “You’re
sure?”
“Very.”
He smiled that smile again, only this time
it was fast and wicked.
In one fluid move, he went from holding her in his
arms to grasping her by the shoulders, kissing her hard and pushing
forward until Eve felt the wall at her back. And she was thankful
for it when he took his hands from her shoulders. Knees buckling
now.
Lifting his head, he grasped the hem of her yellow
silk T-shirt and dragged it off her. His gaze immediately dropped
to her breasts, to where her heavy breathing made them swell above
the lacy bra that was also yellow. For a fraction of a second the
bright color seemed to captivate and please him; he traced the top
edge of one cup with his fingertip. Then he was once again all
lusty fervor.
He stared into her eyes, not with doubt this time,
but with intent, his own eyes more black than gray, and ravenous,
as he slid one hand over her shoulder and behind her to free the
tiny hooks more quickly than Eve could have done it herself.
Slipping one finger under each narrow strap, he
pulled it off, baring her from the waist up and watching her face
the whole time, which somehow made it all the more erotic. She
trembled as his gaze slowly moved lower.
His mouth flexed and his breath caught, she knew it
did, as he cupped his hand beneath one breast. He swirled the side
of his thumb around her nipple until it peaked. Then he bent and
did the same with his mouth, and Eve felt heat and dampness and the
full blooming of desire between her thighs.
She moved her hips restlessly; she couldn’t stop
the soft moan that rose from deep inside her and she didn’t care.
The raw passion that she’d ignored and denied for so long, maybe
forever, was seizing its moment in the sun and overriding all of
her that was cautious and self-conscious.
When Hazard used his teeth to nip the sensitive tip
of her breast, a thrill shot through her and he did it again,
harder, and shoved his hips against hers, pinning her to the wall,
thrilling her with the proof of how badly he wanted her.
“Fast enough for you?” he asked.
Eve opened her eyes, her head tipped back against
the wall, and met his gaze.
“No,” she uttered, and grasped fistfuls of his
shirt somewhere in the vicinity of his shoulders, tugging and
twisting until it was his back against the wall.
He didn’t resist. Leaning back, he was the perfect
height for her to settle her thigh high between his with a rocking
motion that made him jerk and suck in a quick, sharp breath. Heady
with power, she slid her palms slowly down the front of his shirt,
feeling the heat and muscle beneath the soft fabric, thrilled by
the rapid thud of his heartbeat. She opened one button and pressed
her lips to the base of his throat; his pulse jumped and so did
hers. Lifting her head to look into his eyes, she slid her hands up
under his shirt and touched him the way she’d imagined doing. The
light coming from a lamp behind her bathed him in intriguing
shadows that danced as she inched her hands lower to caress him
with ever bolder strokes. His skin was warm and firm, and there was
a narrow strip of silky hair that started a few inches above his
belt and disappeared beneath it. It was a trail far too enticing
for Eve to resist following, especially knowing she may never be
this crazy again.
She quickly opened his belt buckle and lowered his
zipper. Hazard’s head shot back against the wall with an audible
bang. His chest lifted as he dragged in a long, ragged breath and
held it.
Eve pressed her fingers against his rock hard belly
and slid them lower. He was hard there too, and hot, and when she
took him in her hand, a fierce, savage need shot to life and ripped
through her. It clawed at her already battered restraint and roared
in her ears.
She was still able to hear Hazard groan, “Oh God,”
and bang his head against the wall a second time in the heartbeat
before he grabbed her at the waist and spun them so that they were
right back where they started, except this time they were both
half-naked and panting and wild-eyed.
“My move,” he half said, half grunted.
Eve braced her hands on the wall on either side of
her to keep from swaying as he took hold of her skirt from the
bottom and worked it up over her hips, bunching it at her waist
until there was no more room to bunch.
He murmured with surprise and delight when he
discovered all she was wearing underneath were the pretty yellow
panties that matched her bra and covered about an inch and a half
of her flesh.
Even that was too much for him to be denied. Eve
gasped, startled, when he dipped his shoulder and lifted her off
her feet with one very strong arm. She clung to him as he used his
free hand to strip her panties off with amazing skill and agility;
then he set her back down and slipped his hand between her legs and
touched her, revealing a gift far more amazing.
Eve gripped the wall and gladly let him have his
way. With the hand not driving her mad and making her whimper, he
stroked the curves of her hip and waist and breasts. His mouth
closed hungrily over hers, swallowing the sounds she made, his
tongue pumping inside her in slow, evocative thrusts that made her
want one thing only . . . want it badly and right away.
“Now,” she pleaded, grabbing his hips and moving
against him. “Now.”
Hazard was torn.
The habits of several lifetimes and everything he
believed were commanding him to slow down, hold back, play gently.
It was folly to rush a woman, even a woman pleading to be rushed,
especially a woman pleading to be rushed if that woman was
Eve. He knew intuitively that her life was as lacking in romance as
it was flowers from male admirers. He couldn’t fathom why it was
so—the tastes and proclivities of modern men often baffled him—but
he knew it was that way. And he knew that if anyone needed and
deserved to be courted and wooed, it was Eve
The trouble was that, competing with those noble
commands, rising from a darker, more primitive place inside him,
were demands that were selfish and urgent and carnal. They clamored
for him to act, to seize, to give her what she wanted, as hard and
fast as she professed to want it . . . as hard and fast as he knew
he wanted it.
Whatever nobility was in him was already hanging by
a very thin thread when she suddenly dipped her head and bit his
lip and snapped the thread altogether.
He grabbed and lifted her.
She wrapped her legs around him, tightly, and slid
lower, slowly.
He held his breath, concentrating on sensations,
diligently, skillfully, like a master safecracker listening for the
perfect alignment of tumblers, and when he felt her soft, wet heat
open to him, he thrust up and into her, filling her and fueling the
desire that was driving him through a spiraling tunnel toward
release and the safe, sweet darkness of oblivion beyond.
It had been so long . . . so long . . . and never
like this.
He felt her moving with him, her hunger and
excitement a perfect match for his own.
And when their gazes met and locked, her eyes
mirrored the same wonder he felt, the same passion that was surging
inside him.
She was with him, both of them inside the same
storm, both riding the same blessed, merciless wave.
When they were almost there, she reared up and
tossed her head back, radiant with beauty and power . . . power
that ignited the air around them. He could taste it on his tongue
and feel it scorch his skin.
And just before they crashed, in that final,
fleeting, endless speck of time, he sensed it winding around them,
pulling them even closer together, a gossamer ribbon of
quicksilver, piercing and flowing through her and into him.
The drawback to making wild, unrestrained,
up-against-the-wall love with a man is the awkward aftermath.
Eventually the heavy breathing stops and—unlike Carl Sandburg’s
fog, which comes prettily on little cat feet—silence falls like a
lead veil. Reason slowly returns, and all too soon you realize
there’s just no graceful, dignified way for you to . . .
disentangle, straighten the clothing you still have on and retrieve
what’s missing.
Unless the man you tangled with is Hazard.
With Hazard in charge, Eve found herself back on
solid ground, supported by his strong hands at her waist until it
was certain her legs weren’t too wobbly to hold her. Before she
could stutter a single syllable, her skirt was unbunched, her shirt
and bra were in her hands, and Hazard’s back was to her as he
attended to his own buttoning and zipping.
He finished before she did—probably because he
didn’t have himself as a distraction—and walked over to a recessed
steel panel on the wall near the bar. He passed more time fiddling
with buttons and dials and soon the music of Beethoven’s Moonlight
Sonata streamed from a half dozen small speakers mounted close to
the ceiling.
Interesting, she thought, no photos, no tchotchkes,
and not so much as a stale cracker in the kitchen, but there was a
state-of-the-art sound system and a small distillery’s worth of
top-notch whiskey. Boys will be boys . . . no matter how many
centuries old they happen to be.
Once she was dressed, she looked around and found
her purse.
“Do you mind if I use the bathroom,” she asked
Hazard.
“Not at all. It’s just down the hall on—”
“The left,” she finished for him. “I
remember.”
“Of course.” He snagged her hand as she walked by
and held onto it. When she turned to look at him, he used his other
hand to smooth her hair back from her face and then stroked her
cheek with the back of his fingers.
“So soft.” It was as if he were talking to himself.
His deep voice was pitched low; it blended with the music and Eve
had to strain to hear. “I’d forgotten how soft skin can be . . . I
hadn’t realized how much I’d forgotten . . . how much there was to
forget.”
“Maybe it’s time to start remembering,” she told
him.
His mouth crooked in a faint smile, but his gray
eyes were somber. For a second she thought he was going to say
something else, but he only lifted her hand to his lips to kiss the
back of it and then he let her go.
Her hand tingled all the way to the bathroom.
The man definitely had a gift. Several actually, as
evidenced by the delicious, lingering hum of nerve endings in other
strategic places on her body. She knew many well-mannered men,
well-mannered by twenty-first-century standards anyway, and she
couldn’t name one capable of pulling off a hand kiss with a
fraction of Hazard’s effortless grace. He raised gallantry to an
art form.
Which is why the sudden change in his behavior was
so unexpected and confusing.
When she returned to the living room, he was half
sitting with one leg hitched up on the back of the low-slung sofa,
a glass in his hand.
He lifted the glass toward her. “Whiskey?”
“No, thanks. I only drink whiskey when I’m going
into shock,” she explained in an attempt at humor.
“Perhaps you’d prefer a glass of wine? Something
intense and complex but ethereal . . . a Prosecco would suit you, I
think.” The words were polite enough, solicitous even, but there
was an unmistakable coolness in his tone, as if someone had stopped
by in the three minutes she was out of the room and told him she
was a serial killer. “Or tea . . . a soothing cup of tea. Or
chocolate.”
Wine? Tea? Chocolate? She thought about the
barren kitchen. Was it possible he had another kitchen tucked away
somewhere? Or a wine cellar?
“Wine would be lovely,” she replied, trying not to
sound uneasy even though that’s how he was making her feel.
“Yes, it would,” he countered. “We could settle
ourselves here on the sofa and snuggle. You could tell me that
you’ve never done this sort of thing before; I could tell you that
no other woman in my considerable past compares to you.” He took a
serious swallow of whiskey. “Unfortunately for you, Enchantress, I
don’t have wine here. Or anything else you might want or need or
deserve. And I refuse to feel guilty about it.”
Is that what this was about? Some misguided notion
of chivalry? Maybe she shouldn’t be surprised. It was entirely
possible that his attitudes were as old-fashioned as his
manners.
“There’s no reason you should feel guilty,” she
assured him. “I’m a big girl, Hazard. I knew what I was
doing.”
“Did you?” He eyed her with open skepticism. “Could
you possibly?”
“I’m not looking for promises, if that’s what this
is about.”
“Good. I told you I had nothing to offer you and I
meant it.”
“And I told you that we had tonight and that was
enough. And just for the record, the night’s not over.”
His jaw clenched and his gaze hardened. “It is for
me.”