- Patricia A Mckillip
- The Forgotten Beasts of Eld
- The_Forgotten_Beasts_of_Eld_split_006.html
ONE
The wizard
Heald coupled with a poor woman once, in the king’s city of Mondor,
and she bore a son with one green eye and one black eye. Heald, who
had two eyes black as the black marshes of Fyrbolg, came and went
like a wind out of the woman’s life, but the child Myk stayed in
Mondor until he was fifteen. Big-shouldered and strong, he was
apprenticed to a smith, and men who came to have their carts mended
or horses shod were inclined to curse his slowness and his
sullenness, until something would stir in him, sluggish as a marsh
beast waking beneath murk. Then he would turn his head and look at
them out of his black eye, and they would fall silent, shift away
from him. There was a streak of wizardry in him, like the streak of
fire in damp, smoldering wood. He spoke rarely to men with his
brief, rough voice, but when he touched a horse, a hungry dog or a
dove in a cage on market day, the fire would surface in his black
eye, and his voice would run sweet as a daydreaming voice of the
Slinoon River.
One day he
left Mondor and went to Eld Mountain. Eld was the highest mountain
in Eldwold, rising behind Mondor and casting its black shadow over
the city at twilight when the sun slipped, lost, into its mists.
From the fringe of the mists, shepherds or young boys hunting could
see beyond Mondor, west to the flat Plain of Terbrec, land of the
Sirle Lords, north to Fallow Field, where the third King of
Eldwold’s ghost brooded still on his last battle, and where no
living thing grew beneath his restless, silent steps. There, in the
rich, dark forests of Eld Mountain, in the white silence, Myk began
a collection of wondrous, legendary animals.
From the wild
lake country of North Eldwold, he called to him the Black Swan of
Tirlith, the great-winged, golden-eyed bird that had carried the
third daughter of King Merroc on its back away from the stone tower
where she was held captive. He sent the powerful, silent thread of
his call into the deep, thick forests on the other side of Eld,
where no man had ever gone and returned, and caught like a salmon
the red-eyed, white-tusked Boar Cyrin, who could sing ballads like
a harpist, and who knew the answers to all riddles save one. From
the dark, silent heart of the Mountain itself, Myk brought Gyld,
the green-winged dragon, whose mind, dreaming for centuries over
the cold fire of gold, woke sleepily, pleasurably, to the sound of
its name in the half-forgotten song Myk sent crooning into the
darkness. Coaxing a handful of ancient jewels from the dragon, Myk
built a house of white, polished stone among the tall pines, and a
great garden for the animals enclosed within the ring of stone wall
and iron-wrought gates. Into that house he took eventually a
fountain girl with few words and no fear either of animals or their
keeper. She was of poor family, with tangled hair and muscled arms,
and she saw in Myk’s household things that others saw perhaps once
in their lives in a line of old poetry or in a harpist’s
tale.
She bore Myk a
son with two black eyes who learned to stand silent as a dead tree
while Myk called. Myk taught him to read the ancient ballads and
legends in the books he collected, taught him to send the call of a
half-forgotten name across the whole of Eldwold and the lands
beyond, taught him to wait in silence, in patience for weeks,
months or years until the moment when the shock of the call would
flame in the strange, powerful, startled mind of the animal that
owned the name. When Myk went out of himself forever, sitting
silent in the moonlight, his son Ogam continued the
collection.
Ogam coaxed
out of the Southern Deserts behind Eld Mountain the Lyon Gules, who
with a pelt the color of a king’s treasury had seduced many an
imprudent man into unwanted adventure. He stole from the hearth of
a witch beyond Eldwold the huge black Cat Moriah, whose knowledge
of spells and secret charms had once been legendary in Eldwold. The
blue-eyed Falcon Ter, who had torn to pieces the seven murderers of
the wizard Aer, shot like a thunderbolt out of the blue sky onto
Ogam’s shoulder. After a brief, furious struggle, blue eyes staring
into black, the hot grip of talons loosened; the Falcon gave his
name and yielded to Ogam’s great power.
With the crook
of an ungentle smile inherited from Myk, Ogam called also to him
the oldest daughter of the Lord Horst of Hilt as she rode one day
too close to the Mountain. She was a frail, beautiful child-woman,
frightened of the silence and the strange, gorgeous animals that
reminded her of things on the old tapestry in her father’s house.
She was afraid also of Ogam, with his sheathed, still power and his
inscrutable eyes. She bore him one child, and died. The child,
unaccountably, was a girl. Ogam recovered from his surprise
eventually and named her Sybel.
She grew tall
and strong in the Mountain wildness, with her mother’s slender
bones and ivory hair and her father’s black, fearless eyes. She
cared for the animals, tended the garden, and learned early how to
hold a restless animal against its will, how to send an ancient
name out of the silence of her mind, to probe into hidden,
forgotten places. Ogam, proud of her quickness, built a room for
her with a great dome of crystal, thin as glass, hard as stone,
where she could sit beneath the colors of the night world and call
in peace. He died when she was sixteen, leaving her alone with the
beautiful white house, a vast library of heavy, iron-bound books, a
collection of animals beyond all dreaming, and the power to hold
them.
She read one
night not long afterward, in one of his oldest books, of a great
white bird with wings that glided like snowy pennants unfurled in
the wind, a bird that had carried the only Queen of Eldwold on its
back in days long before. She spoke its name softly to herself:
Liralen; and, seated on the floor beneath the dome, with the book
still open in her lap, she sent a first call forth into the vast
Eldwold night for the bird whose name no one had spoken for
centuries. The call was broken abruptly by someone shouting at her
locked gates.
She woke the
Lyon, asleep in the garden, with a touch of her mind, and sent it
padding to the gates to cast a golden, warning eye at the intruder.
But the shouting continued, urgent, incoherent. She sighed,
exasperated, and sent the Falcon Ter instructions to lift the
intrudes and drop him off the top of Eld Mountain. The shouting
ceased suddenly, a moment later, but a baby’s thin, uncomforted
voice wailed into the silence, startling her. She rose finally,
walked through the marble hall in her bare feet, out into the
garden where the animals stirred restlessly in the darkness about
her. She reached the gates, of thin iron bars and gold joints, and
looked out.
An armed man
stood with a baby in his arms and Ter Falcon on his shoulder. The
man was silent, frozen motionless under the play of Ter’s grip; the
child in his mailed arms cried, oblivious. Sybel’s eyes moved from
the still, half-shadowed face to the Falcon’s
eyes.
I told
you, she said privately,
to drop him off the top of Eld
Mountain.
The blue,
unwavering eyes looked down into hers. You are young, Ter
said, but you are without
doubt powerful, and I will obey you if you tell me a second time.
But I will tell you first, having known men for countless years,
that if you begin killing them, one day they will grow frightened,
come in great numbers, tear down your house and loose your animals.
So the Master Ogam told us many times.
Sybel’s bare
foot tapped a moment on the earth. She moved her eyes to the man’s
face and said,
“Who are you?
Why are you shouting at my gates?”
“Lady,” the
man said carefully, for the ruffled feathers of Ter’s wing brushed
his face, “are you the daughter of Laran, daughter of Horst, Lord
of Hilt?”
“Laran was my
mother,” Sybel said, shifting from one foot to another impatiently.
“Who are you?”
“Coren of
Sirle. My brother had a child by your aunt—your mother’s youngest
sister.” He stopped with a sudden click of breath between his
teeth, and Sybel waved a hand at the Falcon.
Loose
him, or I will be standing here all night. But stay close in case
he is mad.
The Falcon
rose, glided to a low tree branch above the man’s head. The man
closed his eyes a moment; tiny beads of blood welled like tears
through his shirt of mail. He looked young in the moonlight, and
his hair was the color of fire. Sybel looked at him curiously, for
he gleamed like water at night with link upon link of
metal.
“Why are you
dressed like that?” she said, and he opened his
eyes.
“I have been
at Terbrec.” He glanced up at the dark outline of bird above him.
“Where did you get such a falcon? He cut through iron and leather
and silk...”
“He killed
seven men,” Sybel said, “who killed the wizard Aer for the jewels
on his books of wisdom.”
“Ter,” the
young man breathed, and her brows rose in
surprise.
“Who are
you?”
“I told you.
Coren of Sirle.”
“But that
means nothing to me. What are you doing at my gates with a
baby?”
Coren of Sirle
said very slowly and patiently, “Your mother, Laran, had a sister
named Rianna—she was your aunt. She married the King of Eldwold
three years ago. My—”
“Who is the
King these days?” Sybel asked curiously.
The young man
caught a startled breath. “Drede. Drede is the King of Eldwold, and
he has been King for fifteen years.”
“Oh. Go
on—Drede married Rianna. That is very interesting, but I have a
Liralen to call.”
“Please!” He
glanced up at the Falcon and lowered his voice. “Please. I have
been fighting for three days. Then my uncle tossed a baby into my
arms and told me to give it to the wizard woman on Eld Mountain.
Suppose, I said, she will not take him? What will she want with a
baby? And he looked at me and said, you will not come down from
that mountain with the child—do you want your brother’s son
dead?”
“But why does
he want to give it to me?”
“Because it is
the child of Rianna and Norrel, and they are both
dead.”
Sybel blinked.
“But you said Rianna was married to Drede.”
“She
was.”
“Then why is
the child Norrel’s son? I do not understand.”
Coren’s voice
rose perilously. “Because Norrel and Rianna were lovers. And Drede
killed Norrel three days ago on the Plain of Terbrec. Now will you
take the baby so I can go back and kill Drede?”
Sybel looked
at him out of her black, unwinking eyes. “You will not shout at
me,” she said very softly. The mailed hands of Coren curled and
uncurled in the moonlight. He took a step toward her, and the soft
light shaped the long bones of his face, traced lines of exhaustion
beneath his eyes.
“I am sorry,”
he whispered. “Please. Try to understand. I have ridden the late
day and half the night. My brother and half my kinsmen are dead.
The Lord of Niccon joined forces with Drede, and Sirle cannot stand
against them both. Rianna died of the child’s birth. If Drede finds
the child, he will kill it out of revenge. There is no safe place
for it in Sirle. There is no safe place for it anywhere but here,
where Drede will not think to come. Drede has killed Norrel, but I
swear he will not take this child. Please. Take care of him. His
mother was of your family.”
Sybel looked
down at the child. It had stopped crying; the night was very still
about them. It waved tiny fists aimlessly in the air, and pushed at
the soft blanket wrapped around it. She touched its pale, plump
face, and its eyes turned toward her, winking like
stars.
“My mother
died of me,” she said. “What is its name?”
“Tamlorn.”
“Tamlorn. It
is very pretty. I wish it had been a girl.”
“If it had
been, I would not have had to ride all this way to hide it. Drede
is afraid the child might declare its legitimacy, when it is older,
and fight Drede’s own heir. Sirle would back it—my people have been
playing for the kingship of Eldwold ever since King Harth died at
Fallow Field and Tarn of Sirle held the throne for twelve years,
then lost it again.”
“But if
everyone knows the child is not Drede’s—”
“Only Drede,
Rianna and Norrel know the truth of the matter, and Rianna and
Norrel are dead. Kings’ bastards can be very
dangerous.”
“He does not
look dangerous.” Her lean, pale fingers whispered over its cheek. A
smile strayed absently across her face. “It will go nicely, I
think, in the collection.”
Coren’s arms
tightened around the child. “It is Norrel’s son—it is not an
animal.”
Sybel’s level
eyes raised. “Is it not less? It eats and sleeps and it does not
think, and it requires special care. Only... I do not know what to
do with a baby. It cannot tell me what it
needs.”
Coren was
silent a moment. When he spoke finally, she heard the weariness
haunting his voice like an overtone. “You are a girl. You should
know such things.”
“Why?”
“Because—because you will have children someday and
you—will have to know how to care for them.”
“I had no
woman to care for me,” Sybel said. “My father fed me goat’s milk
and taught me to read his books. I suppose I will have a child that
I can train to care for the animals when I am
dead.”
Coren gazed at
her, his lips parted. “If it were not for my uncle,” he said
softly, “I would take the child back home rather than leave
Norrel’s son here with you, your ignorance and your heart of
ice.”
Sybel’s face
grew as still before him as the still full moon. “It is you who are
ignorant,” she whispered. “I could have Ter rip you into seven
pieces and drop your bloodless head on the Plain of Terbrec, but I
am controlling my temper. Look!”
She unlocked
the gates, her fingers shaking in an anger that roused through her
like a clean mountain wind. She snapped private calls into the
dream-drugged minds about her, and, like pieces of dreams
themselves, the animals moved toward her. Coren stepped in beside
her. He propped the child on one shoulder, his mailed arms
protecting its back, one hand cupping its head, while his eyes
slid, wide, over the moving, rustling darkness. The great Boar
reached them first, fire-white in the darkness, his tusks like
white marble that hunters dreamed of, and a sound came,
inarticulate, from Coren’s throat. Sybel rested one hand above the
small red eyes. “Do you think because I care for these animals, I
cannot care for a child? They are ancient, powerful as princes,
wise and restless and dangerous, and I give them whatever they
require. So I will give this child what it requires. And if that is
not what you want, then leave. I did not ask you to come with a
child; I do not care if you go with it. I may be ignorant in your
world, but here you are in my world and you are a
fool.”
Coren stared
down at the Boar, struggling for words. “Cyrin,” he whispered.
“Cyrin. You have him.” He stopped again, his breath jerking through
his open mouth. His voice came slow, dredging memory. “Rondar—Lord
of Runrir captured—the Boar Cyrin that no man had captured before,
the elusive Cyrin, Keeper of Riddles and—demanded either Cyrin’s
life or all the wisdom of the world. And Cyrin uprooted a stone at
Rondar’s feet, and Rondar said it was worthless and rode away,
still searching...”
“How do you
know that tale?” Sybel asked, astonished. “It is not one of
Eldwold.”
“I know it. I
know.” He lifted his head, his arms tight around the child as a
great shape swooped toward them, silent, a shadow upon the night.
The Swan folded itself gently before them, its back broad as the
Boar’s, its eyes black as the night between two
stars
“The Swan of
Tirlith—Is it the Swan? Sybel, is it?”
“How do you
know my name?” she whispered.
“I know.” He
watched two cats ease through the night, coming from opposite sides
of the house, and she heard him swallow. Tamlorn struggled in his
arms, but Coren did not move. The Cat Moriah reached them, nudged
its black, flat head under Sybel’s hand, then lay down on her feet
and yawned at Coren, showing teeth like honed polished
stones.
“Moriah...
Lady of the Night, who gave the wizard Tak the spell that opened
the doorless tower where he was captured... I do not—I do not know
the Lyon—” Gules Lyon, his eyes liquid gold, traced a close circle
about Coren’s legs, then settled in front of him, muscle sliding
leisurely into muscle beneath the glowing pelt. Coren shook his
head quickly. “Wait—There was a Lyon of the Southern Deserts who
lived in the courts of great lords, dispensing wisdom, fed on rich
meats, wearing their collars and chains of iron and gold only so
long as he chose... Gules.”
“How do you
know these things?”
The Lyon’s
great head turned toward Sybel. Where, Gules
inquired curiously, did you
find this one?
He brought me
a baby, Sybel said distractedly. He knows my name, and I do not
know how.
“Once he could
speak,” Coren said.
“Once they all
could. They have been wild, away from men so long that they have
forgotten how, except for Cyrin, just as men—most men—have
forgotten their names. How do you—”
Coren started
beside her, and she looked up. The span of unfurled wings blotted
the moon, shadowed their faces, then dropped lower, each stroke
sucking a heartbeat of wind. Tamlorn kicked restlessly against
Coren’s hold, wailed a complaint into his ear. The Dragon dropped
sluggishly before them, holding Coren in its lucent green gaze. Its
shadow welled huge to their feet. Its mind-voice was ancient, dry
as parchment in Sybel’s mind.
There
is a cave in the mountains where his bones will never be
found.
No. I
called you because I was angry, but 1 am not angry, now. He is not
to be harmed.
He is a
man, armed.
No. She turned to
Coren, as he stood watching the Dragon with Tamlorn wriggling,
whimpering, ignored in his arms, and her eyes curved suddenly in a
little smile. “You know that one.”
“His name is
not so old that men have forgotten it. There was an Eldwold prince
taking rich gifts over the Mountain to a southern lord to buy arms
and men, whose bones and treasure have never been found... There
are tales still told of fire blazing out of the summer sky over
Mondor, and the crops burning, and the Slinoon River steaming in
its bed.”
“He is old and
tired,” Sybel said. “Those days are behind him. I hold his name,
and he cannot free himself from me to do such things
again.”
Coren shifted
Tamlorn finally, and the baby quieted. The dark prints of weariness
had eased from his face, leaving it young for a moment, wondering.
He looked down at her.
“They are
beautiful. So beautiful.” He looked down at her a moment longer,
before he spoke again. “I must go. There will be news of the battle
at Mondor. I cannot bear the thought that my brothers may be dead
and I do not know. Will you take Tamlorn? He will be safe here,
with such a guard. Will you love him? That—that is what he requires
most.”
Sybel nodded
wordlessly. She took the child, holding it awkwardly, and it tugged
curiously at her long hair. “But how do you know so many things?
How do you know my name?”
“Oh. I asked
an old woman living down the road a ways. She gave your name to
me.”
“I do not know
any old women.”
He smiled at a
memory. “You should know that one. I think—I think if you need help
with Tamlorn, she will give it to you.” He paused, looking at
Tamlorn. He touched the soft, round cheek, and the smile drained
from his face. leaving it numb with a bewildered grief. “Good-bye.
Thank you,” he whispered, and turned. Sybel followed him to the
gate.
“Good-bye,”
she said through the bars as he mounted. “I know nothing of wars,
but I know something of sorrow. And that, I think, is what you pass
from hand to hand at Terbrec.”
He looked down
at her, mounted. “It is true,” he said. “I
know.”
She met, as
she turned away from the gate, the little round, fiery eyes of the
silver Boar in her path. She caught the minds around her, holding
them all in their quietness with an effort. You may go now. I am sorry I woke you, but 1 lost
my temper.
The Boar did
not move. You cannot give
love, he remarked,
until you have first taken
it.
You are
not very helpful, Sybel said
irritably, and the great Boar gave a little snort that was his
private laughter.
That
old woman climbed the wall once, looking for herbs. I snorted at
her and she snorted back at me. She could help you. What would you
give me for all the wisdom of the world?
Nothing, because I do not want it now. Give it to
Coren. He said I had a heart of ice.
Cyrin snorted
again, gently. Indeed, he
needs wisdom.
I told
him so, Sybel
said.
The next
morning, she went out of the house, down the mountain path that led
to the city below. The great old pines swayed in the wind, creaking
and moaning of the coming of winter. Their needles were soft and
cold under her bare feet, stroked here and there with sunlight. She
carried Tamlorn, sleeping, in the white wool blanket. He was warm
and heavy in her arms, soft and freshly washed. She watched his
face, with its long, pale lashes and its heavy cheeks. Once she
stopped to nuzzle her face against his soft, pale
hair.
“Tamlorn,” she
whispered. “Tamlorn. My Tam.”
She saw a
small house within the trees, its chimney smoking. A gray cat
curled asleep on the roof, and a black raven perched on a pair of
antlers hanging above the door. Doves, pecking in the yard,
fluttered around her as she walked to the door. The raven looked
down at her sideways out of one eye and gave a cry like a
question: Who?
She ignored it, opened the door. Then she
stood motionless in the doorway, for across the threshold there was
no floor but mist that moved uneasily, immeasurable at her feet.
She looked around, puzzled, and saw the walls of the house looking
back at her, with eyes and round dark mouths. The door slipped out
of her hand, closed behind her, and the mists moved upward, coiling
around the watching eyes, covering them, until it hid even the
roof; and the raven flew toward her from somewhere beyond the
mists, and gave its question again: Who?
Tamlorn
wriggled in her arms, wailed a complaint. She kissed him absently.
Then she said, standing in the strange, watching
house,
“Whose heart
am I in?”
The mist
vanished and the watching faces hardened into pine knot. A thin old
woman in a leaf-colored robe, with white hair in a thousand untidy
curls around her face, rose from a rocking chair, her ringed hands
clasped.
“A baby!” She
took him from Sybel, made noises at it like cooing doves. Tamlorn
stared at her and made a sudden catch at her long nose. He smiled
toothlessly as she clucked at him. Then she looked at Sybel, her
eyes iron-gray, sharper than a king’s blade.
“You.”
“Me,” said
Sybel. “I need advice, if you would be pleased to give it to
me.”
“With Cyrin
Boar and Gules Lyon to advise you, child, you come to me? Why, what
lovely hair you have, so long and fine... Has any man told you
that?”
“Cyrin Boar
and Gules Lyon have never had a baby dumped in their arms. I must
give it what it requires, and it cannot tell me. Cyrin said you
might help me, since you snorted at him. Cyrin at times makes no
sense. But can you help me?”
“Onions,” said
the old woman. Sybel blinked at her.
“Old woman, I
have stood in the eye of your heart while you looked at me, and
anyone with such an inner eye is no fool. Will you help
me?”
“Of course,
child. I let you in. Onions—you grow them in your garden. I was
trying to remember. Will you let me have a few, now and
then?”
“Of
course.”
“I love them
in a good stew. Sit down—there, on the sheepskin by the hearth.
That was given to me by a man from the city who hated his wife and
wanted to be rid of her.”
“Men are
strange in the city. I do not understand loving and hating, only
being and knowing. But now I must learn how to love this child.”
She paused a moment, her ivory brows crooked a little. “I think I
do love him. He is soft, and he fits so into my arms, and if Coren
of Sirle came for him again, it would be hard to give him
up.”
“So.”
“So,
what?”
“So it is
Drede’s child. I have been hearing about that from my
birds.”
“Coren said it
is Norrel’s child.”
The thin lips
smiled. “I do not think so. I think he is the son of Drede the
King. There is a raven at the King’s palace whose eyes never
close...”
Sybel stared
at her, lips parted. She drew a slow breath. “I do not understand
such things. But he is mine now to love. It is very strange. I have
had my animals for sixteen years, and this child for one night; and
if I had to choose one thing from all of them, I am not sure that I
would not choose this thing, so helpless and stupid as he is.
Perhaps because the animals could go and require nothing from
anyone, but my Tam requires everything from
me.”
The woman
watched her, rocking back and forth in her chair, rings flashing on
her still hands, fire-flecked.
“You are a
strange child... so fearless and so powerful to hold such great,
lordly beasts. I wonder you are not lonely
sometimes.”
“Why should I
be? I have many things to talk to. My father never spoke much—I
learned silence from him, silence of the mind that is like clear,
still water, in which nothing is hidden. That is the first thing he
taught me, for if you cannot be so silent, you will not hear the
answer when you call. I was trying to call the Liralen, last night
when Coren came.”
“Liralen...”
The old woman’s face softened until it seemed dreaming and young
beneath her curls. “The pennant-winged, moon-colored Liralen... Oh,
child, when you capture it finally, let me see
it.”
“I will. But
it is very hard to find, especially when people interrupt me with
babies. My father fed me goat’s milk, but Tam does not seem to like
it.”
The old woman
sighed. “I wish I could feed him, but a cow would be more useful,
unless I find some mountain woman to nurse
him.”
“He is mine,”
Sybel said. “I do not want some other woman to begin to love
him.”
“Of course,
child, but— Will you let me love him, just a little? It has been so
long since I have had children to love. I will steal a cow from
someone, leave a jewel in its place.”
“I can call a
cow.”
“No, child, if
anyone is a thief it must be me. You must think of yourself, of
what would happen if people suspected you of calling away their
animals.”
“I am not
afraid of people. They are fools.”
“Oh, child;
but they can be so powerful in their loving and hating. Did your
father, when he talked to you, give you a
name?”
“I am Sybel.
But you did not have to ask me that.”
The gray eyes
curved faintly. “Oh, yes, my birds are everywhere... But there is a
difference in a name spoken of, and a name given at last by the
bearer. You know that. My name is Maelga. And the child’s name?
Will you give me that as a gift?”
Sybel smiled.
“Yes. I would like you to have his name. It is Tamlorn.” She looked
down at him, her ivory hair tickling the small, plump face.
“Tamlorn. My Tam,” she whispered, and Tamlorn
laughed.
So Maelga
stole a cow and left a jeweled ring in its place, and for months
afterward people left their barn doors open hopefully. Tam grew
strong, pale-haired and gray-eyed, and he laughed and shouted
through the still white halls, and teased the patient animals and
fed them. Years passed, and he became lean and brown, and explored
the Mountain with shepherd boys, climbing through the mists,
searching deep caves, bringing home red foxes, birds and strange
herbs for Maelga. Sybel continued her long search for the Liralen,
calling nights, disappearing for days at a time and returning with
old, jeweled books with iron locks that might hold its name. Maelga
chided her for stealing, and she would reply
absently,
“From little
wizardlings, who do not know how to use them. I must have that
Liralen. It is my obsession.”
“One day,”
Maelga said, “you will mistake a great wizard for a little
wizardling.”
“So? I am
great, too. And I must have the Liralen.”
One evening,
twelve years after Coren had brought Tamlorn to her, Sybel went to
the cold, deep cave Myk had built for Gyld the Dragon. It lay
behind a ribbon of water, and trees about it grew huge and still as
pillars vaulting a chamber of silence. She stepped over three rocks
to the falls, then slipped behind it, the water running across her
face like tears. Within, the cave was dark and wet as the heart of
a mountain; Gyld’s green eyes glowed in it like jewels. The great,
folded bulk of him formed a shadow against the deeper shadow. Sybel
stood still before him, like a slender pale flame in the dark. She
looked into the unblinking eyes.
Yes?
Thoughts rose
slow and formless as a dark bubble in the Dragon’s mind, and opened
to the dry, parchment rustle of his voice. It has been a thousand years since I fell asleep
over the gold I gathered from Prince Sirkel, and fell asleep
watching his open eyes and his blood trickle slowly over coin piece
and coin piece and gather in the hollow neck of a cup.
His voice whispered away. There was silence
while another bubble formed and broke. I dream of that gold, and wake to see it, and it
is not here... I wake to cold stone. Give me leave to gather it
once more.
Sybel was
silent as a stone rising from stone. She said, You will fly, and men will see you and remember
your deeds with terror. They will come to destroy my house and they
will see gold burning in the sun, and nothing, nothing will turn
them back from my house.
No, said
Gyld. I will go by night and
gather it in secret, and if any man watches, I will slay in
secret.
Then, said
Sybel, they would come and
kill us both.
No man
can kill me.
What of
me? And Tam? No.
The great bulk
stirred, amorphous, and she felt the warm sigh of his
breath.
I was
old and forgotten when the Master woke me by name in the hollow
veins of Eld, and brought me out of my dreaming with his song of my
deeds... It was pleasant to be sung of once more... It is pleasant
to be named by you, but I must have my sweet
gold...
Quick and
turning as a snake his thoughts fled away from her, slipping down,
down through caverns of his mind to the dark maze of it. Swift as
water draining into earth, stealthy as man burying man beneath
moonlight, he carried his name down to the forgetting regions where
he was nameless even to himself, but she was there before him,
waiting behind the last door of his mind. She stood among the half
fragments of his memories of slayings, lustings and half-eaten
meals and said,
If you
want this so badly, I will think of a way. Do nothing, but be
patient. I will think.
His breath
came once more, and his thoughts welled once more to the dark
cave. Do this one thing for
me, and I will be patient.
She stepped
out of the cave, water shining in her hair, and breathed deeply of
the cool night air. She thought of the Dragon in flight, smooth
flame in motion, and of the deep, peaceful pools of the Black
Swan’s eyes, and the memory of the Dragon’s ground mind with the
broken embers of his passions faded deep into her own. Then she
heard a rustling behind her in the dark, still earth, sensed a
watching.
“Tam?
Maelga?”
But no voice,
no mind answered. The black trees rose like monoliths, blocking the
stars. The rustling faded like the breath of wind into silence. She
turned again toward the house, a line between her white
brows.
She went to
see Maelga a few days later and sat on the skin by the fireplace,
her arms around her knees, and Maelga watched her face as she
stirred soup.
“There is
Something in the forest without a name.”
“Are you
afraid of it?” Maelga asked. Sybel looked up at her
surprisedly.
“Of course
not. But how can I call it if it has no name? It is very strange. I
cannot remember reading about a nameless thing anywhere. What are
you cooking? If I were not already hungry, I would be hungry from
the smell of it.”
“Mushrooms,”
said Maelga. “Onions, sage, turnips, cabbage, parsley, beets, and
something Tam brought me that has no name.”
“Some day,”
Sybel said, “Tam will poison us all.” She leaned her shining head
back against the stones and sighed. Maelga’s eyes flicked to
her.
“What is it?
Does it have a name?”
She stirred.
“I do not know. I am very restless these days, but I do not know
what I want. Sometimes, I fly with Ter in his thoughts as he hunts.
He cannot fly as high as I want him to, or so fast, though the
earth rushes beneath us and he goes higher than Eld Mountain... And
I am there, when he kills. That is why I want the Liralen so. I can
ride on its back and we can go far, far into the setting sun, the
world of the stars. I want... I want something more than my father
had, or even my grandfather, but I do not know what I
want.”
Maelga tasted
the soup, the jewels on her thin hands winking. “Pepper,” she said.
“And thyme. Only yesterday a young woman came to me wanting a trap
set for a man with a sweet smile and lithe arms. She was a fool,
not for wanting him, but for wanting more of him than
that.”
“Did you help
her?”
“She gave me a
box of sweet scent. So now she will be miserable and jealous for
the rest of her life.” She looked at Sybel, sitting still against
the stones, her black eyes hidden, and she sighed. “My child, can I
do anything for you?”
Sybel’s eyes
lifted, smiling faintly. “Shall I add a man to my collection? I
could. I could call anyone I want. But there is no one I want.
Sometimes, the animals grow restless like this, dreaming of days of
flights and adventures, of the acquiring of wisdom, of the sound of
their names spoken in awe, in fear. The days are over, few remember
their names, but they dream, still... and I think of the still way
I learned, and how only my father, then you, then Tam, ever gave me
back my name... I think... I think I want some days to take that
mountain path down into the strange, incomprehensible
world.”
“Then go,
child,” said Maelga. “Go.”
“Perhaps I
will. But who would keep my animals?”
“Hire a
wizardling.”
“For Ter? No
wizardling could hold him. When I was Tam’s age, I could hold him.
I wish Tam were half wizard. But he is only half
king.”
“You have
never told him that, surely.”
“Am I a fool?
What good would knowing that do? A dream like that could make him
miserable. In the world below, it may even kill him. He is better
off playing with shepherd boys and foxes and marrying, when he is
old enough, some pretty mountain girl.” She sighed again, her white
brows creeping into a little frown. Then she straightened,
startled, as the door burst open. Tam stared down at her, taut,
glistening with sweat, his pale hair sticking in points to his
flushed face.
“Sybel— The
Dragon—he hurt a man— Come quickly—” He flashed away like a hare.
Sybel followed him out. She stood motionless as a tree in front of
the house, and caught the current of the Dragon’s thoughts with one
swift blaze of his name.
Gyld.
She felt him
curled in the darkness of his wet cave, thoughts tumbling in his
mind of flight, of gold, of a man’s pale face staring up at him,
open-mouthed, then hidden suddenly behind his upflung arms. She
gave a tiny murmur of surprise.
“What is it?”
Maelga said, her hands clasped anxiously. Sybel’s thoughts came
back to her.
“Gyld went to
get his gold, and a man saw him flying with it, so Gyld attacked
him.”
“Oh, no. Oh,
dear.” Then her gray eyes pinpointed Sybel’s face. “You know
him.”
“I know him,”
she said slowly, and the frown deepened in her eyes. “Coren of
Sirle.”