Chapter Six
‘‘Mate—’’
‘‘Will you please not call me that?’’ I
interrupted, backing away from the silver-eyed dragon who could
kiss all semblance of wits right out of my head.
‘‘You are the wyvern’s mate,’’ the woman in black
said suddenly from behind me, causing me to spin around. I felt
trapped, surrounded by all number of threats, and I wanted nothing
more than to slip out into the night and find a dark corner to sit
and think about what had happened.
Everyone knew that it was impossible to take a
dragon’s fire and live . . . unless you were a dragon’s mate.
Wyvern’s fire was supposedly more potent than a regular dragon’s,
and the fact that I’d kissed Gabriel without being burned to a
crisp seemed to indicate that there was, in fact, something going
on between us. But I was a doppelganger! I’d never heard of one
being a wyvern’s mate. . . . I shook my head at my foolish
thoughts. The question of whether or not a doppelganger could be a
mate diminished in importance when there were so many other things
claiming my attention.
I took a step toward the woman. ‘‘Look . . . er . .
. I’m sorry, I don’t know your name.’’
‘‘This is Maata,’’ Gabriel said smoothly, coming
forward to do the introductions. ‘‘And that is Tipene. They are
members of my guard.’’
‘‘You’re obviously an intelligent woman,’’ I told
Maata, hoping to make her see reason. ‘‘I know this situation
appears to indicate one thing, but I assure you that I’m no one’s
mate. I’m a doppelganger, not human, not an elemental being like
Cyrene, not even a spirit. Strictly speaking, I’m made up of
shadows.’’
‘‘You felt like flesh and blood to me.’’ Gabriel
was right behind me, the warmth of his body reaching me even though
the night air was balmy. A little shiver went up my back as his
breath caressed the nape of my neck. For a moment I was reminded of
Magoth’s repeated seductions, but where he was icy cold, Gabriel
radiated heat. ‘‘There is no other who could withstand my fire,
May. It is a shock to me, too—a joyous one, I assure you, since I
never expected to have a mate—but we will explore this new
phenomenon together.’’
I turned slowly and looked at him, really looked at
him. His eyes were still bright with an emotion I realized was part
sexual interest and part jubilation. But there was something else
in his expression, something unyielding that hinted of trouble to
come. He was a dragon, a wyvern, a healer, yes, but also a man who
was a leader, someone who would quite likely fight to the death to
protect his sept. He would be focused, relentless in his pursuit of
whatever stirred his interest, and also possessive, since that was
reported to be a trait common to all dragons.
An oddly deflated feeling possessed me, a sadness
that I couldn’t risk experiencing what it would be like to be
cherished by such a man. Sooner or later, however, reality would
catch up to me, and that would be the end of everything. As much of
a temptation as Gabriel represented, it would be better for us all
if I didn’t give in and see what a dragon had to offer.
‘‘No,’’ I said simply, with as much kindness as I
could. ‘‘There is no phenomenon. There is nothing to explore, at
least not between us. I will arrange to have Cyrene moved. We will
not impose upon your kindness any longer.’’
I made it across the room, my foot on the stairs
before the two bodyguards caught me, one on either arm.
‘‘You are the wyvern’s mate,’’ Maata said, her face
set. ‘‘You cannot reject him.’’
‘‘Excuse me?’’ I asked, unable to believe what she
said.
‘‘You are his mate. You can’t leave.’’
I looked at the other guard, Tipene, the one who
had stepped on my arm. His face was just as impassive as Maata’s.
‘‘You are the mate,’’ was all he said, just as if that was the end
of the discussion.
‘‘Even if a doppelganger could be a mate, and even
if I was that doppelganger, it doesn’t matter. I can’t
stay.’’
‘‘Let her go,’’ Gabriel ordered. As soon as they
released my arms, I twisted around to face him. He stood a few feet
beyond me, incredibly handsome in his evening clothes, his eyes
drawing me in and making me want to lose myself in them. He was
still, but a coiled sense of power seemed to surround him, as if he
was a panther about to pounce.
‘‘I’m sorry,’’ I told him. ‘‘This is no reflection
on you. You seem to be a very nice man . . . dragon . . . but
unfortunately, even if I agreed that somehow, I was meant to be
your mate, there are circumstances that prohibit me from taking
that role. I hope you understand.’’
‘‘I understand,’’ he said after a few moment’s
silence, his voice rubbing along my skin like velvet.
Before I could stop myself, I took a step forward
toward him. ‘‘Thank you.’’
The rest of the world seemed to recede until only a
small stretch of wool carpet bearing Gabriel and myself existed.
His eyes searched mine, searing a silver path straight down to my
soul. It was as if our souls touched for one blinding moment of
glory.
Drake’s voice lashed across me with the violence of
a whip crack, dragging me back into reality with a painful jerk.
‘‘There is still the matter of Mei Ling.’’
I backed away from Gabriel, not trusting myself to
be near him. For a moment I wished . . . but that was folly. I
needed to stop moping over wishes that would never be realized, and
instead work on getting us out of the situation. The doorway loomed
behind me. Oh, how I wanted to race through it, grab Cyrene, and
escape this house. But I couldn’t, not yet. Slowly, I examined
everyone in the room, silent and still as if they’d been frozen
into place. I avoided looking at Gabriel’s bright eyes, looking
instead at the man who’d spoken. ‘‘What about it?’’
‘‘You are the thief Mei Ling.’’ Drake frowned for a
moment. ‘‘You don’t look Asian.’’
‘‘I’m not. Or rather, Cyrene isn’t, hence I am
not.’’
‘‘Then why are you called Mei Ling?’’ he
asked.
‘‘Mayling,’’ Aisling said suddenly, smiling. ‘‘It’s
a nickname.’’
I nodded, and decided to brazen it out rather than
offer up a denial none of them would believe. ‘‘And if I said I was
the thief Mei Ling? What would you do? Hand me over to the watch?
Burn me at the stake? Wrap me in chains and toss me into the
nearest dungeon?’’
‘‘There is a price on her head,’’ István said. ‘‘A
large price.’’
‘‘That’s right,’’ Aisling said thoughtfully. ‘‘I
heard about that earlier. You stole something from Dr. Kostich, and
he put a whopper of a bounty on your head.’’
‘‘Is this the point where you blackmail me into
doing your bidding?’’ I asked, shifting my attention to Gabriel.
‘‘Are you going to threaten to turn me in if I don’t steal for you,
too?’’
‘‘Too?’’ he asked, jumping on the word, his
eyes curious. ‘‘You do not steal for yourself?’’
I paused for a moment, damning my verbal slip
before tightening my lips. Why did I care what he thought of me,
what any of them thought of me? Why did I want to explain to them
how I had been bound to Magoth even before I’d been created, how I
had no freedom in my life, no ability to make my own decisions. Why
did it matter that Gabriel’s words stung me until I wanted to
scream my innocence? I owed them nothing. They were no different
from anyone else who tried to use me. ‘‘I am a doppelganger, a
shadow walker. There is no end of people who have offered to hire
me for one illegal purpose or another.’’
‘‘Then you will have no difficulty undertaking this
task for Gabriel,’’ Drake said.
To my surprise, Gabriel turned to the other wyvern
with a frown. ‘‘Drake, you are interfering with my mate.’’
‘‘I’m not your mate! And you needn’t couch your
demand in such polite terms, dragon. There are those in the world
who don’t bother with the niceties. They are the ones who use force
to make me do their bidding.’’
‘‘I am not interfering,’’ Drake told Gabriel,
totally missing my sarcasm.
‘‘You are, and I don’t appreciate it. May is mine,
not yours. I won’t have you giving her orders or threatening
her.’’
‘‘Oh, for mercy’s . . . I am not anyone’s
mate!’’
Everyone ignored me. The green wyvern looked
surprised at Gabriel for a moment. Aisling covered up a little
chirp of laughter by suddenly taking a sip from her glass.
‘‘Might I point out that you have interfered with
my mate on numerous occasions?’’ Drake said. ‘‘You even
planned to challenge me for her.’’
A little spike of pain stabbed inside me. Gabriel
flashed a glance toward me that I had no trouble deciphering as
embarrassed. ‘‘That was before I knew . . . That doesn’t matter.
The fact remains that you are interfering, and although I know you
mean well, I would appreciate it if you would allow me to handle my
mate in my own fashion.’’
‘‘The situation concerns us, as well. I believe
that we have a right to ensure that matters are concluded
satisfactorily.’’
‘‘You know, I think I’m with Gabriel on this,’’
Aisling said, putting her hand on her wyvern’s arm. ‘‘Maybe we
should just butt out—’’
‘‘Kostya is not Gabriel’s problem alone,’’ Drake
told her.
‘‘We are the only ones who are threatened by him,’’
Gabriel argued, taking a step toward the other dragon. ‘‘You are
not fighting for your survival as we are ours.
We are the ones who must deal with Kostya.’’
‘‘That doesn’t mean—’’
‘‘Yes, it does!’’ Gabriel interrupted, the two men
now toe to toe.
Their respective bodyguards lined up behind them as
the wyverns slipped into a language I didn’t understand.
‘‘What are they speaking?’’ I asked Aisling, as she
hoisted herself to her feet.
‘‘Bah. Baby’s sitting right on my bladder. Hmm? Oh,
that’s Zilant.’’ She smiled at my look of confusion. ‘‘I only just
found out about it myself. It’s a language that all dragons were
taught centuries ago, so that members of different septs could
understand one another. It’s pretty much unused now that most of
them speak English. Zilant had something to do with the origins of
the black dragons—it’s a region in Russia, evidently, and took the
name from there.’’
The two wyverns were still going at it, arguing
with occasional intercessions from their bodyguards.
‘‘Are they always like that?’’ I couldn’t help but
ask.
Aisling smiled at me. ‘‘Pretty much so. They’re
arrogant to a man, and bossy, and they always think their way is
the only way. . . .’’ She tossed a fond look toward the dark-haired
green wyvern. ‘‘But they’re also absolutely unswerving in their
devotion. I know this whole thing with Gabriel has probably made
you feel like the rug has been pulled out from under you, but he
really is a sweetie, and I doubt if you’ll have the trouble with
him that I had with Drake. He was absolutely impossible when I
first met him.’’
‘‘I heard that!’’ the man in question said,
interrupting his argument long enough to shoot a potent glare at
Aisling.
She blew him a kiss, then excused herself and went
off to the bathroom.
I started to edge my way out of the room. I made it
to the stairs before Gabriel turned his head to notice I was nearly
out of the room.
‘‘Mate!’’ he said, frowning.
‘‘Mate?’’ A voice came from behind me on the
stairs. Cyrene stood there, her face puzzled as she glanced around
the room. ‘‘You can’t mean . . . May? A mate? A dragon’s
mate?’’
‘‘I thought you were tired and taking a nap,’’ I
said, hurrying up to her.
‘‘I had a quick bath instead. I feel much better,
although I’m confused about what’s going on here. Did that
delicious Gabriel call you ‘mate’?’’
I opened my mouth to explain, but found it hard to
put things in a manner that sounded like anything but mindless
babble. ‘‘Er . . .’’
‘‘That is correct,’’ Gabriel said, moving over to
stand next to me. He didn’t touch me, but he didn’t need to—to my
embarrassment, I found myself leaning toward him, as if he was a
lodestone and I was a magnet. ‘‘May is my mate.’’
‘‘But she can’t be!’’ Cyrene said, shaking her head
as she marched over to us.
‘‘She can’t?’’ Gabriel asked, looking from her to
me. ‘‘Why can’t she?’’
Gods, he was handsome. That warm brown skin, those
liquid silver eyes, along with a strong jaw and gently squared chin
that for some reason made me feel suspiciously weak in the knees.
But he was a dragon, a wyvern, and I was Cyrene’s shadow. I moved a
step away and tried to ignore the sorrow that filled me.
‘‘Why can’t she?’’ Cyrene looked at him as if he
was insane. ‘‘Because she doesn’t like men, that’s why. She’s never
had sex.’’
My face burned as I closed my eyes for a minute,
fighting with the desire to shadow. ‘‘Cyrene, no one is interested
in this.’’
‘‘Well, I certainly think Gabriel is going to be
interested if he’s under the delusion that you are his mate! I know
it’s hard for you to be open about this, but evidently there is a
major misunderstanding about you. We owe it to them to be truthful;
these people are our friends, after all.’’
‘‘István broke your neck,’’ I pointed out,
momentarily sidetracked from the hell my life had suddenly
become.
‘‘Yes, but I’m sure he didn’t mean it,’’ she said,
turning to him. ‘‘You didn’t, did you?’’
István nodded, frowned, then shook his head. ‘‘I
thought you were attacking Jim.’’
‘‘There, you see? You know I would never want to
put you on the spot, dear Mayling, but now is not the time for
shyness. Do not be afraid to admit the truth.’’
‘‘Oh, gods,’’ I swore to myself, sinking into the
nearest chair. Why me? my mind shrieked. Why did Cyrene pick
now to bring up this issue?
‘‘I . . .’’ Gabriel looked as stupefied as just
about everyone else. ‘‘Are you sure?’’ he finally asked Cyrene, his
confused gaze on me.
‘‘Oh, yes,’’ Cyrene answered, taking up a position
next to me in order, undoubtedly, to show support. ‘‘I’m quite
sure. May’s never been with a man physically, even though more than
a few have wanted her.’’
‘‘The things I miss while I’m in the bathroom,’’
Aisling murmured as she took her seat again.
I hunched over, dropping my head to my hands in
mortification, regretting to the very depths of my being the day I
had the bright idea of telling Cyrene that I had never had, and
never would have, a sexual relationship with a man. ‘‘Please,
Cyrene! No more!’’
‘‘So wait, she’s a virgin?’’ Jim asked in an
awestruck voice, coming over to snuffle my hands. ‘‘Wow. I haven’t
seen a professional virgin since we were in Hungary.’’
‘‘Well, not strictly speaking, because when she was
created, I wasn’t . . . er . . .’’ Cyrene had a rare and lamentably
late moment of circumspection, and thankfully stopped that line of
thought before I died of embarrassment right there before
her.
I could feel Gabriel’s speculative gaze on me. I
peered at him through my fingers. He examined me for a moment, then
winked.
I wanted to die all over again.
‘‘Well, that’s really . . . um . . . I’m not quite
sure what to say to that,’’ Aisling said.
‘‘You said she hasn’t been with men, but you guys
aren’t . . . you know, girlfriends, are you?’’ Jim asked,
continuing to sniff me.
I smacked at its nose, glaring at it before I
turned the look on my twin as she said in an indignant tone, ‘‘Of
course we’re not lovers! I created her! Making love to her
would be like . . . like . . . like having sex with my own
clone!’’
‘‘Well, you know, some people might find that kind
of kinky and yet oddly attractive. I, myself—ow!’’
‘‘Silence!’’ Aisling said, shaking a rolled-up
magazine at the demon.
‘‘Cy, please!’’ I begged. ‘‘Now that you’ve
shredded what remains of my dignity, can we move on?’’
She patted my hand. ‘‘I’m just trying to help clear
things up. It’s not fair to Gabriel that he not know the truth if
he believes you are his mate.’’
My lips twitched as I tried to decide if I wanted
to burst into laughter or tears.
‘‘That’s OK,’’ Jim said, leaning against me,
leaving a little puddle of drool on the top of my shoe. ‘‘We won’t
think bad of you just because no one’s ever parked the pink
Plymouth in your garage of love.’’
‘‘Jim!’’ Aisling said, whapping it on the butt with
the magazine.
‘‘What? I said it politely! Would you have
preferred ‘ride the skin bus to Tuna Town’?’’
‘‘No!’’
I wondered if it would be possible to strangle a
demon to death.
‘‘Windsurfing on Mount Baldy?’’
‘‘That’s it!’’ Aisling bellowed, pointing a finger
at the demon. ‘‘One more euphemism, and you’re spending a week in
the Akasha.’’
‘‘I think it’s time we leave,’’ I said at the same
time, standing up to grab Cyrene’s arm.
‘‘I’m so sorry for Jim’s rudeness,’’ Aisling
apologized.
‘‘Her twin started it,’’ the dog said, although it
shut up quickly enough when Aisling shot it a look that promised
retribution.
‘‘I don’t see what you’re so upset about,’’ Cyrene
told me, frowning slightly. ‘‘It’s nothing to be ashamed
of—’’
‘‘Cy!’’ I yelled, praying the ground would open up
before me and swallow me whole.
‘‘May’s sexual experience, or lack of it, doesn’t
matter at all,’’ Gabriel pronounced, his voice wrapping itself
around me as he moved closer, not quite touching me, but close
enough that I could feel his body heat again. ‘‘She is my mate
regardless.’’
‘‘No, you don’t understand,’’ Cyrene interrupted,
tugging his sleeve. ‘‘The problem isn’t that she hasn’t been with
any men before . . . the problem is that she doesn’t like
men.’’
You could have heard a feather drop in the silence
that followed. Every single pair of eyes but Cyrene’s turned to
me.
I groaned to myself and thought seriously of
murdering my twin.
‘‘She . . . doesn’t?’’ Gabriel asked, disbelief
rife in his voice.
‘‘No, she doesn’t. She told me so herself. But you
know that she’s my twin, yes? My identical twin? An exact copy of
me? So perhaps I’m the real mate, and you just got confused because
May is so much like me.’’