CHAPTER 13
Thwack!
Melissa’s tennis racket connected with the ball, and for the first time that morning she heard the nice solid sound that meant she’d finally hit the sweet spot. The ball arced over the net, and she held her breath as her father backed away from the net, swung at it …
… and missed!
The ball sailed over his head, and suddenly Melissa was afraid it was going to go too far, but then it started falling, dropping onto the court just an inch inside the baseline.
“Good shot,” Charles called to her.
Flushing with pleasure, Melissa trotted back to her own baseline, took a bead on her father’s forecourt, and tossed a ball into the air. Her swing was a fraction of a second too late, and the ball drove into the net. She saw her father move forward, preparing himself for the easy lob she always used for her second serve. She waited for him to get into position, already knowing what she was going to do.
She was ahead 40-15, and even though she was certain her father was deliberately missing a lot of easy shots, he did it so well that so far this morning she hadn’t been able to catch him at it. But this time, if she were lucky, she’d get a point by really earning it.
She tossed the second ball into the air, but instead of lobbing it slowly—and reasonably accurately—across the net to drop right into the middle of his court, she put all the force she could muster into her swing.
Thwack!
Once again she hit the sweet spot, and the ball shot over the net, straight and low, speeding past her father to strike the forecourt just inside the line. He stared at her in surprise for a moment, then a grin spread across his face. “I figured you’d take that risk sooner or later,” he called. “I just wasn’t expecting it right now.”
Flushed with her victory, Melissa moved to her back-court, spread her legs and waited for her father’s first serve. A moment later the ball came over the net, but too late she realized he’d pulled the same trick on her she’d just worked on him. Instead of his usual fast and low first serve, the ball was arcing high, and Melissa started running forward. But she misjudged the distance, and when she finally got close enough to the ball to swing at it, she missed completely.
“For heaven’s sake, Melissa,” her mother’s voice called from the next court. “How could you miss a simple shot like that?”
Melissa froze, flushing scarlet with embarrassment. Why couldn’t they have stayed home like they usually did, she wondered, and played on their own court? Then at least everyone wouldn’t have to hear her mother criticizing her.
But of course she knew the answer—her mother had decided she wanted to play today, too, and had insisted the whole family come to the club. “But you can’t get courts on Sunday,” Melissa had protested.
Phyllis had shaken her head. “I called early in the week and reserved two for us this morning. You and your father can play, and Teri and I can play. Then we can switch. It’ll be fun.”
So far, to Melissa’s surprise, it hadn’t been nearly as bad as she’d anticipated. At first she’d felt self-consciously certain that everyone was staring at her. But when she hadn’t heard any laughter as she muffed her first four serves, she finally looked around.
No one was even watching her.
In fact, the few people who were watching the activity on the tennis courts at all had their eyes on Teri, and after sneaking a few glances at the next court herself, Melissa knew why,
Teri, looking gorgeous in her whites, had obviously played tennis before.
And Melissa had had a sneaking suspicion that Teri was giving her mother almost as many points as their father was giving her.
But now, the match with Teri over, her mother was watching her.
All her insecurities flooding back, Melissa took up her position for her father’s second serve.
And missed again.
Six serves later, the game, and the set, were over. Though Melissa had at least managed to connect with two of her father’s serves, her mother’s scrutiny had made her so nervous that she’d blown both the shots, firing one of them into the net and the other one right over the fence, where it went bounding around among the breakfast tables that were set up on the wide terrace between the tennis courts and the swimming pool.
“What happened?” her father asked as he came around the end of the net. “You were doing so well.”
Melissa shrugged. “I just fell apart,” she said, unwilling to admit that it had been her mother’s critical gaze that had made what few skills she had crumble.
Her father smiled at her. “It’s harder when people are watching,” he said, his voice dropping. “But don’t worry about it—nobody plays tennis well all the time.”
Melissa grinned. “I bet Teri does,” she said. “In fact, I bet she could beat you in straight sets.”
Charles glared at his daughter with exaggerated outrage. “You’d bet against your own father? That’s treason!”
Melissa giggled. “Then go on,” she urged. “Try to beat her.”
“And you,” Phyllis chimed in, “can try to beat me!”
Melissa’s breath caught in her throat. Though her first instinct was to plead that she was too tired, she instantly changed her mind. For the last week—ever since the bonfire, in fact—things had been going better. Her mother hadn’t seemed as angry at her as usual, and Melissa was certain she knew why.
Teri had been protecting her.
The day after the bonfire had been the worst, for early that morning Cyndi Miller had called Teri to tell her about seeing the ghost the night before. And when Teri had told her about it, Melissa had had a horrible moment of panic, certain that she’d been sleepwalking again.
But Teri had insisted she didn’t have anything to worry about. “Even if it was you, nobody believes Cyndi and Ellen really saw anything. And we’ll tell Phyllis it happened before I got home, so she’ll think you were still tied to the bed.”
Melissa had impulsively thrown her arms around Teri. “Would you do that for me?” she asked. “Really?”
“Of course,” Teri replied. “I’m your sister, aren’t I? You’d do the same for me, wouldn’t you?”
Melissa had nodded, but still hadn’t been certain it would work. But when her mother finally heard the story, Teri had been as good as her word.
“But it couldn’t have been Melissa,” she’d insisted. “Cyndi and Ellen left at the same time I did, so it must have happened while you and I were talking. Besides, I was reading for at least an hour after I went to bed, and if Melissa had gone out, I’d have heard her. She’d have had to go right past my door, and there’s a squeaky board.”
To Melissa’s relief, her mother had accepted the story. Since then, with her mother convinced that she hadn’t walked in her sleep, she’d even been allowed to sleep without her restraints. But if her mother got mad at her now, with her father going back to the city tonight …
She came out of her reverie and forced herself to smile. “Okay,” she said. “Do you want to serve?”
“Don’t be silly,” Phyllis replied. “We’ll volley.”
Her mother lobbed the ball directly to her, and she managed to return it. It came back right in front of her, and once more she hit it back over the net. But when she’d returned it a third time, her mother suddenly stepped to one side, chopped hard at the ball, and it shot past Melissa almost before she realized it was coming.
“My serve,” Phyllis announced.
Twenty minutes later, with the first set over and the second set at 3-0, Melissa felt tears of frustration welling up in her eyes. So far she hadn’t scored a single point against her mother, and the longer the torture went on, the worse things got.
On the second court, Teri and her father were hard at it, and her father, completely occupied with trying to keep up with Teri’s game, hadn’t even noticed what was happening to Melissa.
Now, as her mother prepared to serve, Melissa’s eyes wandered once more to the second court. Teri, playing close to the net, was firing the ball back at her father, whose shirt was showing splotches of sweat as he darted back and forth across the court, doing his best to return his elder daughter’s shots. Suddenly Melissa heard the sharp snap of her mother’s racket hitting the ball, and jerked her eyes away from the other court. But it was too late, for just as she turned, the ball ricocheted off the court a couple of feet in front of her, smashing into her chest with enough force to make her yelp with pain. Before she could say anything, her mother’s voice, harsh and grating, followed the ball toward her.
“Really, Melissa! If you’re not going to concentrate on the game, I don’t see why you want to play it at all. It hardly makes it any fun for your opponent, you know!”
Melissa’s emotions, held in check for so long, suddenly boiled over. “You knew I wasn’t ready,” she cried. Tears, caused more by outrage than by pain, streamed down her cheeks. “And it’s not any fun for me, either! All I’m doing is chasing balls for you!”
On the other court, Charles let Teri’s last shot slip past him, turning toward the sound of his younger daughter’s voice just in time to see her drop her racket on a bench by the gate and rush off the court, her head down, her shoulders hunched over.
“Melissa?” he called, starting after her.
“Oh, for heaven’s sake, Charles!” Phyllis snapped, her voice cutting sharply through the morning air. “Just let her go! The only way she’s going to learn to be a good sport is by taking her losses with good grace. And she can’t learn to do that as long as you throw every game to her and make up to her every time she bursts into tears.”
Charles’s jaw set, he started off the court, ignoring his wife’s words. But then Teri spoke.
“Daddy? Aren’t we going to finish our game?”
He hesitated, turning to look back at Teri, who was standing on the other side of the net, disappointment in her eyes. He vacillated for a moment, then stifled a sigh, knowing that if he abandoned the game with Teri to go after Melissa, it would only mean a fight with Phyllis later.
For once Melissa would have to take care of herself.
His hand tightening on his racket, he went back to his game, while Phyllis settled down on one of the benches to watch.
Tag grasped the machete with both hands, raised it over his right shoulder like a baseball bat, then swung. The blade flashed brightly in the sunlight, then struck the main trunk of the ivy that clung to the east face of the house, slicing almost through it before it lost its momentum and stuck fast. He grunted, twisted at the blade, then pulled it loose, letting it drop to the ground as he paused for a moment to catch his breath. He’d been working steadily for nearly two hours, but it seemed as if there was still almost as much ivy on the wall as when he’d started. Still, when his eyes shifted to the pile of vines that already lay on the lawn at the base of the wall, he knew he must be making some progress. But was it really possible for the ivy to double its mass as he pulled it off the house? He wiped the sweat and grime from his forehead with the right sleeve of his shirt, then picked up the machete once more. A moment later, with another swipe of the big blade, he finished cutting through the vine’s thick stem. Then began the fun part.
Grasping the stem with both hands, he began pulling it away from the face of the wall, feeling the tendrils reluctantly give up their grip on the stones with which this side of the house was faced. The game he played with himself was simple—the whole idea was to see how much of the plant he could work loose before the main stem itself broke and the whole thing collapsed down on him.
Half an hour ago, working carefully, he’d managed to get everything loose except a few tendrils that had stubbornly clung to the crevices around the attic dormer, and when the mass of vine had finally fallen, it completely covered him. Blackie, surprised at his master’s sudden disappearance, began barking madly, then started digging at the tangle, burrowing in as if trying to save Tag. In the end he had spent more time freeing the wriggling dog from the snarl than in getting himself loose.
He gave the main stem another exploratory pull. Near the second floor the stem split, the larger half of it snaking off to the right. If he could work that part free, the weight of the vine itself would pull the rest of it loose. Just as he was about to start working at it, Blackie began barking, then dashed off across the lawn, his tail wagging furiously. Cocking his head, Tag abandoned the ivy for a moment, turning to watch the dog.
A moment later Melissa, her head down, her hands stuffed in the pockets of her shorts, appeared at the head of the path that wound through the woods toward the club. As Blackie bounded up to her, her hands came out of her pockets to fend off his leap. “Stop that!” Tag heard her say, her voice trembling.
“Melissa?” he called out. “Hey, Melissa!” She glanced over at him, then turned away. Frowning, Tag trotted across the lawn, catching up to her as she was about to duck around a curve in the trail. “Hey! What’s wrong?”
Melissa was still for a moment, but finally turned around. Tag could see she’d been crying—her cheeks were still stained with tears and her eyes were circled in red.
“You okay?”
Melissa snuffled, then reached down to pet Blackie, who was pressed against her legs. “I guess,” she sighed.
Tag’s head tilted slightly and he placed his hands on his hips. Melissa had been like a sister to him almost since the day she was born, and she’d never been very good at hiding her feelings from him. “So if you’re okay, how come you’re crying?”
“I’m not crying,” Melissa replied.
Tag shrugged. “Big deal—you were a minute ago. What happened?” When Melissa still hesitated, he moved toward her. “You might as well tell me,” he said. “I’ll just keep pestering you till you do.”
Almost against her will, a tiny smile crept into the corners of Melissa’s mouth. “You can’t. You have to get the ivy off the wall, and if you don’t do it, I might tell Mother on you.”
“Sure,” Tag agreed. “And I might jump over the moon.”
A giggle escaped Melissa’s lips, and she fell in next to Tag as they started walking toward the house. By the time they came to the tangle of ivy that was heaped on the ground next to the east wall, Melissa had told him what happened at the club. “I know I can’t beat her,” she said, sighing heavily. “But how come she has to make a fool of me?”
’Cause she’s mean as shit, Tag thought, but decided he’d better keep the words to himself. Then, his eyes falling on the machete, he had an idea. “You want to beat up on her?” he asked. Melissa frowned in puzzlement.
“What do you mean?”
“Maybe you should try doing what I do,” he said. “Sometimes, when I get real pissed off at someone, I start hacking away with the machete, and pretend whatever I’m hacking at is the person I’m mad at.” He handed the machete to Melissa, and nodded toward the heap of ivy. “I’ve got to chop all that up to get it out of here anyway,” he went on. “Try it.”
Melissa gazed at Tag for a few seconds, trying to decide if he was serious. At last she reached out and took the machete from him. She grasped it with her right hand, but when Tag released it, she almost lost her grip.
“Careful,” Tag cautioned. “If you drop it on your foot, you can kiss your toes good-bye.”
Melissa grasped the handle of the huge blade with both hands, eyeing the pile of ivy. “What am I supposed to do?” she asked. “I feel stupid.”
“Who are you mad at?” Tag countered.
“My … my mom.”
Tag tilted his head toward the pile of vines. “Then pretend that’s her,” he said.
Melissa stared at the pile of ivy, trying to figure out how she could pretend that it was her mother. Then she had an idea.
She pictured the ivy as hair.
Human hair.
Her mother’s hair.
And suddenly her rage of a few moments ago, the rage she had carefully gotten under control as she walked home from the club, welled up inside her.
“I hate you!” The words erupted from her, and as she spoke them she raised the machete over her head. A second later it arced downward, and as the blade slashed through the tangle of vines, she imagined it was her mother she was hitting.
She slashed at the ivy again, and inside her she could feel the dam she’d built around her anger begin to crumble. Her pent-up fury raged like a torrent, down into her arms and out the slashing, hacking blade of the heavy machete. She kept at it, moving forward a step at a time as the pile of vines disintegrated under her attack.
She pushed on, chopping away at the vines, and as her arms rose and fell, she kept seeing and hearing her mother over and over again.
Ridiculing her clothes, criticizing her figure, correcting her manners.
Standing over her bed, the dreaded restraints held in her hands.
The machete kept moving, rising and falling, as Melissa slashed away at the hateful images.
Then, as suddenly as the rage had built up inside her, it was gone.
She dropped the machete to the ground and stood panting for a moment as she stared at the destruction she’d caused. And then she heard Tag’s voice behind her.
“Feel better?”
She blinked, and turned around to face him. Her arms were sore from swinging the blade and she was sweating all over.
But she felt better.
The anger—the simmering fury that had threatened to overwhelm her only a few minutes before—was gone. A crooked grin spread across her face. “That’s weird,” she breathed. She was silent for a moment. “But it felt good. Really good.”
An hour later, his match with Teri over and Teri herself already involved in another—this time with Brett Van Arsdale—Charles sank down at a table on the terrace and gratefully took a sip of the drink Phyllis had ordered for him. “I guess I’m not as young as I used to be,” he said, finally catching his breath. “Whoever taught her how to play did a good job.”
Phyllis, watching Teri volley with Brett, smiled happily. “She’s wonderful, isn’t she? And isn’t this nice, finally being able to spend a Sunday morning at the club while our daughter plays tennis with her friends?”
Charles’s eyes narrowed. His voice took on a hard edge. “In case you’ve forgotten,” he said, dropping his voice so only Phyllis could hear it, “our daughter went home in tears, thanks to you. Just once in a while you could give her a break.”
Phyllis’s smile froze on her lips. “I’m just trying to do what’s right for her,” she countered. “You’re not helping her by constantly letting her win.” She paused for a moment, waving to Kay Fielding, who nodded back at her, then returned her attention to her husband. “She’s not stupid, you know—she knows exactly what you’re doing, and all it does is undermine her self-confidence even more.”
Charles took another sip of his drink while he considered his wife’s words. Was she right? Was he spoiling Melissa? Probably he was—after all, during the summers, he only got to see her on weekends, and even when they were in the city he was often so busy he only had an hour or so a day for her.
And he still remembered what Burt Andrews had told him two years ago, when Melissa’s sleepwalking had first manifested itself. The morning that Cora had found her in the little room in the attic, sound asleep, with no memory of how she’d gotten there, neither he nor Phyllis had had any idea of what to do. But at last he’d called their family doctor in the city, who had immediately recommended a psychiatrist in Portland. And Andrews, if nothing else, had at least eased their worries.
Sleepwalking, he’d told them, was not in and of itself a terribly serious problem. He’d suggested a light restraint—just something strong enough to wake Melissa up when she started to leave her bed at night.
But most of Andrews’s advice had been directed at Charles himself: “You have to be careful, Mr. Holloway. All fathers have a tendency to spoil their daughters, and since you gave Teri up to her mother, you’re going to have a very strong tendency to over-indulge Melissa. It’s simply a matter of guilt.”
“But I don’t feel guilty,” Charles had replied. “I gave up Teri because it was best for her. It was either that or drag her through the courts for God-only-knows how long.”
“I’m not arguing that,” the doctor had interrupted. “I’m sure you did exactly the right thing. But I’m afraid guilt isn’t rational, and no matter how logical your actions were, you’re going to have to guard against spoiling Melissa to compensate for your subconscious feelings that you abandoned Teri. It puts both Melissa and your wife in a difficult position. Phyllis becomes cast as the disciplinarian, and Melissa gets mixed messages from her parents, and becomes confused. And out of the confusion …” His voice had trailed off, leaving the thought hanging, but Charles had understood it perfectly well.
Whatever Melissa’s problems were, the root of them lay within himself.
And Andrews, he supposed now, was probably right. But still …
“I guess I just don’t see how humiliating her in public is going to help,” he began. Before he could go on, Phyllis cut him off.
“And I don’t see how airing our dirty laundry at the club is going to help anything at all,” she said, her voice brittle.
Charles’s eyes fixed coldly on his wife, and when he spoke, his voice had a note to it that told her she had pushed him far enough. “Then don’t do it,” he said. “If you can’t bring yourself to let Melissa have some fun at tennis—no matter how poorly she plays—then don’t play with her at all.”
Phyllis’s jaw set angrily, but she said nothing, and for the next half hour the two of them sat at their table, nodding to the people who passed by, talking briefly with Marty and Paula Barnstable when they paused on their way to brunch.
To each other, they spoke not another word.
“Ready to go home?” Charles asked Teri after she’d finally lost her match with Brett and joined them at the table.
Teri’s brows rose questioningly. “I thought we were staying for brunch.”
Charles smiled sympathetically. “I know, but don’t you think we ought to go see how Melissa’s doing?”
Phyllis stirred in her chair, her head turning almost imperceptibly toward her husband. “Why don’t you go?” she suggested. “Teri and I can stay here, and perhaps Melissa might feel like coming back with you.”
“No,” Charles said, his tone once more conveying that he would stand for no argument. “I can’t imagine she’d want to come back here today, and I don’t blame her. So if you’re finished with your drink …” He let his voice trail off, signed the check, and rose to his feet.
Phyllis, on the verge of arguing, suddenly changed her mind, but did her best to smile at Teri. “When your father makes up his mind,” she said, not quite bringing off her attempt to make light of their quarrel, “it just doesn’t do any good to argue with him.”
Ignoring his wife’s comment, Charles strode across the terrace, Teri hurrying after him. Phyllis, seething silently, followed more slowly, deliberately taking her time.
Ten minutes later, as they climbed up the gentle rise from the beach to the edge of the lawn, Phyllis came to a sudden halt. On the lawn in front of the house, Melissa and Tag were engaged in a playful wrestling match, with Blackie doing his best to join in.
“Melissa!” Phyllis called, the sharpness in her voice instantly bringing her daughter to her feet. “How many times have I told you you’re too old for that sort of thing? You’re a teenager now, and I expect you to act like one.” She strode across the lawn, but as she approached Melissa, Blackie put himself between the two of them, a low growl rumbling in his throat.
Phyllis stopped short, glaring at the dog, then turned her anger toward Tag. “This is the last time I’m going to tell you, Tag. If you can’t keep that dog under control, I’m going to get rid of it. And as for you, young lady,” she went on, refocusing on Melissa, her eyes raking the grass stains on her daughter’s white shorts and blouse, “I want you to get upstairs right now and get yourself cleaned up. Those clothes you’re wearing are brand new, and I’ll be surprised if they’re not ruined.”
Her happiness while playing with Tag having evaporated like dew in the morning sun, Melissa turned and fled into the house.
“Very good, Phyllis,” Charles said tightly before he hurried after his younger daughter. “At this rate, we should have her back to Dr. Andrews before the end of the summer.”