Chapter Eighteen
LILLIE’S VISIT WITH Henry’s family was a brief
one. The slave cabins were closely watched at Orchard Hill, and
while families were free to mingle and talk after the children went
to sleep, the overseer conducted regular patrols to make sure no
drinking or other forbidden activity was going on. There was
nothing more strictly forbidden than harboring a runaway from
another plantation, and a slave who broke that rule would be
severely flogged and likely sold. No matter how big or wonderful
the news was that Lillie was bringing, she thus had to share it
quickly, whisper it quietly and then leave as soon as she
could.
Lillie did not know how Henry’s wife and boy would
react to what she came to tell them, but once the moment was over,
she knew she’d never forget it: how they didn’t believe Henry was
alive at first; how they wept with happiness when they did come to
believe it; how they asked and asked when they could see him; how
they wept again when they thought of the suffering he’d
endured.
“Does it hurt him—the place the leg was?” the wife
kept asking.
“No, it don’t,” Lillie answered, having no idea if
that were true or not, but sparing the woman more cause for
tears.
“Does he think about us?”
“He don’t seem to think ’bout nothin’ else.”
Even as Lillie was bringing them such joy, she felt
a familiar sadness rising inside her. What Henry’s family was
feeling, after all, was a happiness she and Mama and Plato would
never know. Papa was dead—well and forever dead—and no strange
slave girl was going to come knocking on their door late one night
to tell them otherwise. When Henry’s wife was done with her
questions and told Lillie she’d best go, she felt strangely
relieved. The two of them exchanged a long, teary hug, then Henry’s
wife peered out the window to make sure no one was prowling and
opened the door a crack.
“Go,” she said. “Go fast—and be safe!” Lillie
slipped outside, looked around and made a quick sprint through the
soft grass and into the cover of the woods.
With the magic of the oven and the stone now gone
and nothing but her own legs to carry her back to Bingham Woods,
Lillie suddenly felt all the fear she’d been spared during her
charmed run to Orchard Hill. The road between the plantations was
filled with the same bats and slave catchers and chilling darkness
as before, but she could no longer outrun or sidestep or breeze
past them. She was just an ordinary slave girl, out at night when
she wasn’t supposed to be—a runaway child who was breaking the law
and would pay dearly if she was caught.
Picking through the thin patch of dark woods, she
quickly came back upon the road and looked far down it in the
direction of Bingham Woods—or as far down it as the black of the
night would allow. She took a few steps and winced at the sound her
feet made against the dirt and stones. When she was running here
under the spell of the baking, she had made no such noise. She had
felt as if she were practically flying—as if little more than her
toe-tips were grazing the road. Now that she heard how loud a road
it could be when you truly trod on it, she reckoned she had been
correct.
All the same, Lillie had to run, and she set off as
fast and as light-footedly as she could. Her legs, she noticed,
ached terribly, surely from the hard work they’d done bringing her
here. At the same time, they had an odd tingliness about them—a
little like the crackle in the wind that could make her hair stand
up before a lightning storm. She liked the feeling and idly
wondered if it would last—if maybe it was something the charm had
left with her forever.
Lillie was beginning to make good speed. When she
looked down, the light of the moon revealed streaks and scattered
pebbles in the soil below her feet, which she reckoned were the
tracks she’d left as she was coming in the other direction. It made
her smile and reassured her that she was going the right way. All
at once, however, she snapped her head to the right and her blood
ran icy. She was sure she’d seen a flicker of light deep in the
woods—the same light she’d seen from the torches of the slave
catchers earlier. She stopped cold, almost losing her footing and
risking making even more noise as she fell into the road, but she
caught her balance and held her ground.
She scanned about, with her breath catching. The
woods in these parts were full of fireflies, Lillie told herself.
She’d seen them; she and Plato had even hunted them. That was
surely all she had noticed. Then, with a deep sense of relief, she
saw the unmistakable cool blue light of one of the little creatures
hovering right in front of her. She allowed herself a nervous
laugh; she’d been a fool girl after all! No sooner had she thought
that, however, than her laugh stopped cold in her throat. Further
away, deep among the trees, she saw the equally unmistakable
orange-yellow light of a fire. And it was a fire that moved in the
bobbing way of a torch being carried by a person. Behind it was a
second fire, moving the same way. It was indeed the slave
catchers—and they were on the move. Lillie felt fit to swoon, but
stayed collected and bounded over to the far side of the road,
where she threw herself down in the dirt.
“Whazzat?” she heard a man’s distant voice say from
somewhere in the direction of the torches. She was surprised and
alarmed at how far the voice carried on the cool night air.
“What’s what?” another man responded.
“That noise.”
“Didn’t hear no noise. Maybe some night
critter.”
Lillie held her breath. The men said nothing and
she dared peek up slightly. The torchlights were still in the
distance and had moved no closer—but neither had they moved farther
away.
“That ain’t the sound a night critter makes,” the
first voice said at length.
“It don’t do to chase everything you think you
hear.”
“It don’t do not to.”
To Lillie’s horror, she now heard the sound of the
men’s footsteps crunching through underbrush, and she peeked back
up to see that the torches were once again bobbing. She also, for
the first time, heard panting. The men had a dog—a slave hound
surely, a small, ugly breed of beast that was not good for much at
all except for smelling fear. Lillie had no doubt that just such a
smell was coming off her powerfully now. She reckoned the hound was
not yet close enough to pick up her scent, but when it was, she’d
be done for. The animal was known both for its fleet speed and its
powerful bite, and once it had hold of a slave, it never let go. A
tiny whimper escaped Lillie, and she immediately silenced
herself—but too late.
“Over there!” one of the men said. Immediately, the
speed of their footsteps picked up and an excited yip came from the
dog. A wave of helplessness overcame Lillie. Her wits may have
dreamed up the plan that brought her here tonight and her courage
may have carried her this far, but her fear—the fear of a child—had
finally betrayed her.
But Lillie wasn’t just a child. Lying by the road,
feeling her heart pound, knowing that that heart was sending out a
drumbeat of scent to the slave hound’s nose, she thought of her
papa. Papa was Ibo; Papa’s papa had been Ibo too. And that meant
Lillie was Ibo. She was part of a tribe whose girls hunted
alongside the boys, whose women went to war alongside the men.
Lillie might be nothing but a slave child in South Carolina, but
she was an Ibo warrior too—and no laws or slave-catchers or cruel,
fool dogs could ever change what was in her blood. And with that
thought, she felt her heart slow. And with her heart slowing, she
felt her breath grow even. And with that, she sprang to her
feet.
“Again!” one of the men’s voices cried. “I heard it
again!”
Lillie lit out down the road again and heard the
slave catcher’s footsteps pursuing her as fast as they could and
the crashing sound of the dog racing along with them. But as surely
as she knew anything, she knew that the dog was running blind. If
she’d left a fear scent before, it was now gone. The animal would
be fighting through the blackness of the night just like the men
were. And the men—carrying their torches and still stumbling
through the woods—would not be moving fast until they reached the
clear running of the road. This was a fair race, Lillie
reckoned—and one she could win if she kept her wits.
She held that thought in her head, thinking only of
the safety of the slave dance that lay far ahead and not the danger
that approached from behind. As she did, she felt calmer still,
stronger still, charmed now not by the workings of an old woman’s
magic but by her own renewed courage. If she didn’t shake off the
slave catchers, she knew, she might at least beat them back to
Bingham Woods, where she could rejoin the party and get lost among
the other slaves. The whip men there wouldn’t care for men from
another plantation stumbling in and causing a disturbance as they
chased after a shadow they and their dog hadn’t even seen.
Finally, far ahead, Lillie saw another light—the
warm sky-brightening orange of lanterns and a large cook fire.
Faintly, she could hear music, and more faintly still, voices. She
had the length of about three plow rows ahead of her before she
could break through the woods and be back at Bingham Woods. Soon it
was two lengths, then just one, and then she plunged into the thick
stand of trees that bordered the plantation and at last was on the
grounds. In front of her was a dancing, laughing swirl of slaves
and everywhere around her was the sweet smell of roasting meat. She
ran even faster toward the crowd—head down, feet pounding—when
suddenly, off to her left, someone who was running just as fast in
the same direction collided with her hard.
Lillie was shoved to the ground, her head striking
the soil and her vision filling with flashes and stars. The wind
was knocked entirely out of her, preventing her from crying out.
She felt a weight on top of her and realized that she was pinned to
the ground. The road men had caught her! They had doubled back,
circled the plantation and hit her from the other side! Any moment
she would be feeling the terrible pain of the slave hound’s bite.
But then she heard a voice, and it was not the voice of a slave
catcher at all.
“Lillie!” it said. “Lillie! What is this
about?”
Lillie tried to make her eyes line up properly, but
they were loose and swoony from the fall. She sat up and closed one
eye to focus better on the face in front of her. It was, to her
astonishment, Miss Sarabeth, looking back at her crossly.
“Lillie!” she repeated. “What’s the meaning of
this?”
“Miss Sarabeth,” Lillie said. “Why . . . why did
you hit me?”
“I didn’t hit you!” Sarabeth answered. “You hit
me!”
The two girls got clumsily to their feet and began
to straighten their clothes and collect themselves. “Look at this,
Lillie,” Sarabeth moaned, holding out a handful of her skirt that
was stained green with grass and brown with dirt. “There’ll be no
explaining this to my mother when she catches sight of it.”
“I’m sorry, Miss Sarabeth. I am,” Lillie said. “I
can help you try to clean it.”
“There’s nothing we can do for it here,” Sarabeth
answered, giving up on the dress and turning back to Lillie. “What
were you doing running like that anyway? There isn’t anything over
there but the woods.”
Lillie looked at Sarabeth, broke the gaze, then
looked nervously back at the woods—half expecting the slave
catchers and the hound to burst through at any second. “Weren’t
doin’ nothin’,” she said. “I just needed the privy.”
“Isn’t there a slave privy near the cabins?”
“It was busy,” Lillie answered. “I had to use the
woods.”
“Then why were you running back?”
Lillie kept her eyes fixed on the ground and took a
moment to respond—a moment that said that whatever her answer was,
it wasn’t going to be a truthful one. “I was afraid.” She shrugged.
“Woods are dark; no tellin’ what animals are about.”
Sarabeth scowled disbelievingly and scanned Lillie
up and down. Her clothes were rumpled; her hair was undone; even
now, she didn’t seem fully to have caught her breath. Sarabeth took
all that in, and her mouth dropped open as she realized what it
must mean. She craned her neck around Lillie toward the
woods.
“Lillie, you wicked girl!” she said. “Is there a
boy out there?”
Lillie looked up, this time meeting Sarabeth’s eyes
square.
“No! No, there’s not! My mama would flog me herself
if I did such a thing.”
“You don’t get your clothes all tangled and leaves
in your hair from using the privy,” Sarabeth said.
Lillie reached up and felt her hair. There was a
scrap of leaf clinging to it, and she plucked it away. “Miss
Sarabeth, you has to believe me. I’m not a girl what would behave
like that.”
“Then what were you doing?”
Lillie said nothing and Sarabeth studied her
closely once more. This time, her gaze settled on the slave girl’s
shoes. They were covered with fresh dust, road dust, and so, for
that matter, were Lillie’s legs. Sarabeth snapped her gaze back
up.
“You ran off!” she said. “You went
somewhere.”
“No!” Lillie stammered. “I didn’t. I
wouldn’t!”
“Don’t lie to me!”
“I ain’t lyin’!”
“Do you know what happens to runaway slaves?”
“I ain’t no runaway!”
“They get sold off is what happens. They never see
their families again.”
“But I’m here now, Miss Sarabeth! How could I be a
runaway?”
“Maybe you got lost. Maybe you got scared of the
roads. But you were doing something you’re not supposed to
do.”
“Miss Sarabeth,” Lillie implored, “whatever I done
I had to do, and I come straightly back. Please don’t tell
nobody!”
“If I stay quiet, Lillie, then I’m doing something
I’m not supposed to do. There’s strict rules about reporting
runaways.”
Lillie’s face now showed true fear and she
frantically shook her head no. “Miss Sarabeth, we ain’t never done
nothin’ to hurt each other before,” Lillie said. “You’re my
friend.”
“I was your friend,” Sarabeth answered. “You don’t
want that anymore.”
“But I do, I do! Just don’t tell nobody I’m a
runaway,’cause I ain’t!”
Lillie looked at the other girl beseechingly.
Sarabeth’s expression began to soften, though she kept her eyes
narrow and her arms folded. As the girls stood there, fixed on one
another’s faces, a voice called out.
“Lillie!” it said.
Both girls turned. From the crowd of dancing and
feasting slaves, they could see an arm waving. It belonged to
Lillie’s mama, who was standing on tiptoes to see over the crowd.
The part of the evening had now arrived when the grown slaves and
the child slaves would mix for family dances, and all the mamas and
papas would be looking for their boys and girls.
“Lillie,” Mama called again, “come here ’fore I
have to fetch you.”
Lillie waved back and nodded a big yes that her
mama would be sure to see, then turned back toward Sarabeth.
“Go,” Sarabeth said flatly. “Before you get
yourself in even more trouble.”
Lillie struggled for something to say, but before
she could, the Master’s daughter turned on her heel and walked
away. From deep in the woods, Lillie faintly heard the barking of
an angry hound, but it was too far away to do her any harm.