CHAPTER 3
 
HEATH STOPPED TO PULL HIS AXE FROM HIS SADDLEBAGS, which allowed Atira to slip into the shade of the forest for a moment to try and release her anger.
Here, the trees stood tall, concealing the sky with their bright green leaves. Without the sun, the air here was cooler. Heavier, somehow.
Atira shivered.
She was a warrior of the Plains, of the wide-open grasses. Yes, they had alders growing by the waters that reached the height of a warrior and a bit beyond—but nothing that grew as tall as these trees, towering over her head, blocking out all light and sound. Atira felt hemmed in by the trees, their stout trunks blocking her sight, and the underbrush hampered her movement.
How was a warrior to see, to know what was coming, to see what was behind? She shivered again and took a step back before she caught herself.
“Ready, milady?”
Heath’s voice startled her, and she jumped slightly as he came to stand next to her.
His blue eyes were warm and understanding, which just angered her even more.
“I am not your lady,” she bit the words off. “That is a—”
“I know, I know,” Heath said as he walked past her. “It is a Xyian way that is of the city and therefore foul and evil.” He turned his head, looking around. “Nothing good here. We need to go farther in.”
“There is wood here,” Atira said, picking up some dried branches.
“Small sticks aren’t going to cook a meal,” Heath said. “If it bothers you, go back and look for dried dung.”
“There’s none,” Atira said glumly.
“What, not interested in fresh?” Heath looked back at her over his shoulder, his eyebrows arched over his sparkling eyes, alight with mischief. His lips curved ever so slightly.
Atira’s heart lurched, and her own lips started up as well before she caught herself and stiffened.
“I know you fear the woods.” Heath turned away and started down a path that only he could see.
“I do not fear it,” Atira said angrily as she followed him.
“Remember how I felt, when we were racing hard to catch up with the Warlord and his armies? When I rode out on the Plains for the first time?” Heath continued, ignoring her protest. “Couldn’t figure out which direction we were traveling, much less where we were. The open sky was a nightmare.”
“It was not,” Atira said. “It has a beauty all its own.”
“So you told me then.” Heath kept walking.
Atira stayed silent, remembering all too well when she’d spoken those words. They’d been naked, wrapped in blankets, sated and sweet in each other’s arms. Heath had spoken his fears, and she’d comforted him with more than just words.
Atira tried to forget, but her body remembered.
“I am not afraid,” she insisted, following Heath as he headed deeper within the tangle. “I am . . . uncomfortable.” She stopped for a moment, looking around. “The forest is so full. Everything moves in the wind, and there is no clear path.”
“There are deer tracks,” Heath chuckled. “We are following one now. And you need to have a care for widowmakers, that’s for sure.”
Atira stopped, her hand on her hilt. “What are those?”
Heath pointed up and off the side. “There. Dead branches held up by other branches. They can fall without warning and hurt anyone caught below. If they kill a man, they make a widow.”
Atira stared at him. Her command of Xyian was fairly good, but that was not a word she knew. “What’s a widow?”
Heath paused. “A widow is a woman who has lost her—” He stopped. “Maybe a better word would be deadfall. If it falls on you, you are dead.”
Atira glanced up, looking at the mass of tree branches and leaves above her head. “Deadfall,” she repeated, letting her frustration show. “So now, I need to fear ‘up’ as well as what is around me?”
“There,” Heath pointed. “That’s what we are looking for.”
It was a massive tree, lying on its side, its dead branches bare. Heath hefted his axe, and started to work at a thick branch. After a few blows, he leaned his weight on it, breaking it away from the tree with a sharp crack.
“It’s dry enough. You should be able to break it in threes.” Heath helped her drag the branch over to a clear area.
They worked in silence, broken only by the ringing of Heath’s axe. After a bit, birds started to sing again, becoming used to their presence. There were other sounds as well. Atira stopped, lifting her head from the work to try to identify the strange rustling noises around them.
Heath paused, breathing heavily. “Mice, probably. And squirrels.”
Atira looked around even more. Heath had the most experience hunting in this land, and he’d brought in a large sack of squirrels one night to camp. Lara and Marcus had conferred, and the camp had been treated to something called ‘squirrel stew.’ Atira would be more than willing to have that again.
The work went fast. They had a sizable pile, almost more than they could carry back to camp. If Atira was to try once again to make things plain to him, it must be now. Even with bells, there was little privacy in camp.
“I want it understood between us,” she started, cracking one last large branch. “You and I have shared bodies, Heath of Xy, but this means little to me, as this is the way of our people. You are mistaken in thinking it means more.”
The chopping stopped behind her. Good—he was listening for once.
“I am in the service of the Warlord, and you serve the Warprize,” she said. “Our paths are the same for now. But this talk of bonding needs to cease. We cannot continue to argue in camp. It upsets the Warprize, and she has more than enough of a load to bear.”
Atira turned to find herself nose to nose with Heath.
He was standing there, glowering, sweat gleaming on his brow. The breeze carried his scent to her. Strong, clean . . . male. And so very familiar.
Her mouth went dry. This close, she could feel the warmth of his body and the heat of his glare. Skies above, she wanted him still, even with his odd city ways. She swayed toward him, licking her lips.
“What we shared,” came his soft growl, “was not meaningless.”
Atira started. “I didn’t mean—”
“So it was meaningless,” his voice lowered, rough with desire, “when you were lying there at Master Healer Eln’s, bored out of your mind while your broken leg healed, and I came and read the Epic of Xyson for hours on end.”
“Heath,” Atira whispered, fighting her rising need.
“I taught you to read and write Xyian, and you taught me the language of the Plains,” Heath continued. “Lying there, your leg all rigged up. So beautiful. So determined to learn. To heal.”
“As the Warlord commanded,” Atira said.
“Meaningless, the first time I kissed you.” Heath lifted his hand and touched her lips. “I couldn’t get enough of your sweet mouth. We got those straps and weights all tangled, and Eln threatened to vivisect me.”
Atira smiled faintly. “I didn’t know what that word meant.”
“Eln explained it, didn’t he? In vivid detail.” Heath drew closer. Atira lifted her head, waiting . . . hoping . . .
“Then the day that Eln let you walk, I suppose it was meaningless that we celebrated that night, late into the night.” Heath put his hand on her hip. The heat of it burned through her leathers. “Remember? That first night?”
“Heath,” Atira breathed, letting her eyelids droop, taking in his scent. Waiting for his kiss.
Instead, Heath knelt down, his gaze never leaving hers as he lowered himself down at her feet.
Atira caught her breath.
Heath calmly started to gather firewood.
“Meaningless. All of it. Every danger, every bedding, everything we’ve shared.” Heath gathered several pieces of firewood as he spoke.
Atira frowned down at the top of his curly head. “That is not what I meant. You Xyians—”
Heath stood up abruptly and shoved the firewood at Atira. She took it, and then stood there as he started loading more on. “This isn’t about Xy, or the Plains. This is about you and me. It has been months since we shared our bodies. Months since you threw me out of your tent. Months since I asked you to bond with me.”
“I am of the Plains,” Atira snapped. “I do not choose to bond. I am free to sleep with any others that I choose. You—”
“But you haven’t,” Heath said.
“What?” Atira stared at the man.
“Months, now, since I asked you to bond with me,” Heath repeated as he took a step closer. “Since you threw me out of your tent and your life. But you haven’t shared with anyone else in all that time, Atira.”
“I . . .” Atira raised her arms higher, as if the firewood could offer protection from the heat of those eyes.
“Have you?” Heath demanded.
“I—” Irritated at her own stuttering, Atira blurted out the truth. “No.”
Heath pressed closer, forcing her to step back. “You can protest all you want, Atira of the Bear, but you and I know the truth. I love you. I want you, in all ways. Your obligations to the tribe are done. You are free to bond, free to choose a life with me. And that is what I want, Atira. Nothing more. Nothing less.”
“No.”
“You are afraid . . .” Heath said, his eyes flashing.
“No,” Atira denied.
“Uncomfortable then.” Heath started to smile. “I make you uncomfortable, don’t I?” He moved close enough that the bark on the firewood brushed his chest. “Don’t I?”
Atira pressed her lips tight together, to keep from blurting out her fear. Of him. Of her feelings.
Heath smirked. “I scare you, my fierce warrior. I terrify you.”
Atira drew in a breath to deny his words, but Heath leaned in, his lips close to hers.
“Coward,” he whispered.
With a snarl Atira dropped the firewood and went for her dagger.
Heath danced back, laughing, taunting her . . .
“Heyla, you two.”
They both jerked their heads around to see Prest coming toward them through the wood.
“You are wanted.”
“What is it?” Heath asked, still keeping a wary eye on Atira.
“A messenger has come,” Prest said. “He carries news of your ‘father.’”