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think they should have studied me for the effects of prolonged coldsleep, instead of stuffing me full of current trends in medicine and shipping me out here. But they said they were desperate, that no one else had my background. Perhaps my reaction to Zebara is partly that, although I think no one who hasn’t been through it can understand what it’s like to wake up and find that thirty or forty years have gone by. Did you know I have a great-great-great-granddaughter who’s older than I am in elapsed time? That makes us both feel strange. Zebara knew me then. Though to me that’s the self I am now. Yet he’s dying of old age. I know that personal feelings aren’t supposed to intrude on the mission, but these are, in a sense, relevant to the work I’m doing. My normal lifespan, without coldsleep, would be twelve to fourteen decades, right?”

“Yes. Perhaps even longer, these days. I think the rates for women with your genetic background are up around fifteen or sixteen decades.”

Lunzie shrugged. “See? Even the lifespans have changed since I was last awake. But my point is that each time I’ve come out of a prolonged coldsleep, I’ve battled severe depression over the relationships I’ve lost. The kind of depression which we know impairs the immune system, makes people more susceptible to premature aging and disease. This depression, this despair and chaos, will affect the heavyworlders even more, because their lifespan is naturally shorter, especially on high-G worlds. My feelings —my personal experiences— are what got me scheduled for this mission. While I can’t claim that I consciously chose to consider Zebara as part of a research topic, his reaction to my lack of aging and my reaction to his physical decay, are not matters I can ignore.”

Tailler stood, stretched, and leaned against the bench behind him. “I see your point. Emotions and intellect are both engaged and so tangled that you can’t decide which part of this is most important. Would you say, on the whole, that you are an intuitive or a patterned thinker?”

“Intuitive, according to my efcrly psych profiles, but with strong logical skills as well.””

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