39
TO HAVE AND TO HOLD
Some time with Lilissa. So much had happened. It was hard to remember that it was only last night that they’d spent the night together hiding in The Maze. Hard to remember that only this morning she’d saved him from One-Thumb. Since then, he’d seen Master Sy kill a man in cold blood and mutilate another. He shuddered. The thief-taker had had Threehands’ blood all over him. He looked the part. A butcher. Was that right, doing that to a man, even to a thief? Then again, Threehands had been clear about what was going on in his mind. Berren supposed he ought to be glad.
Whenever he stopped to think, his head filled up with Threehands and Lilissa. Listening to Lilissa breathe in the dark. Master Sy clutching Threehands’ tongue. Running away from Jerrin. Blacksword’s face, split in half. The man beside him, quietly dying while they talked. Holding Lilissa’s hand outside the upside-down temple. Kissing her. There was a lot that hadn’t been said. Somewhere he still had half a bag of spice cakes back at Master Sy’s house. They might be crushed to crumbs by now, but cake was still cake. Cake would help. They’d talk. He’d tell her what he’d seen today.
Except when Berren reached her house, someone had been there before him. Her tiny door hung open, flapping feebly back and forth in the evening breeze. As he came closer he caught a smell of her in the air. The smell of flowers. Lavender.
Cautiously, he went inside. Behind the door, everything had been turned upside down. Every piece of furniture was smashed, every piece of cloth ripped and slashed. On the opposite wall, someone had scratched a symbol. He’d had a good enough idea who’d done this even before, but now he knew. One-Thumb; the sign made that plain as the sun in the sky. One-Thumb, and he was waiting for him round the back of Trickle Street with his Harbour Men. They’d taken Lilissa and now they were taunting him. Come and get her if you can.
He clenched his fists. What he ought to do was wait. Wait until Master Sy came back from wherever he was under Reeper Hill, and show him what they’d done. They’d be dead. No doubts about that. One-Thumb, Sticks, Waddler, Hair, the mudlark boy, whoever he was. Probably Hatchet and every one of his dung-boys. The thief-taker had shown what he could do today, what was lurking behind his manners and his quiet talk. He was a murderer, a snuffer, the best and the worst of them. For a moment, as Berren thought of Master Sy’s fury, he almost laughed. Jerrin hadn’t the first idea what he’d done.
Or maybe he did. Berren’s laughter faded. Jerrin in The Maze last night had been no accident. Maybe he knew where the thief-taker was. Or maybe he thought Master Sy was dead. Maybe, maybe, maybe . . .
He stood up. He understood well enough what he had to do. The sign scratched into the wall was for him, for him and no one else. That was Jerrin’s challenge. Come on, thief-taker boy. I’ve got your girl. Take her back if you think you’re a man. A bitter laugh escaped him, because Lilissa wasn’t his at all. Until yesterday she’d belonged to some fishmonger’s son he couldn’t even name. And even that didn’t make the slightest bit of difference. He had to do what he had to do. He wasn’t a boy any more. Not now.
He scurried back to Master Sy’s house and let himself in through the back. There he took one of the thief-taker’s coats from the peg by the door and wrapped it around him. It didn’t fit, was much too big, but it hid the crossbow. That was what mattered. Bad enough walking up the Godsway carrying it, but around the docks . . . Around the docks, that would mark him as a snuffer, and the worst sort at that.
He thought about waiting until hours after nightfall, but what would Jerrin do if he thought no one was coming? What would he do to Lilissa if he got bored of waiting? What if something happened to her because he didn’t come? So he didn’t wait; instead he ran, out of the house, up the long straight climb to the top of the hill and down the other side into Market Square. The flower-seller and his bodyguards were still there; Berren barely noticed. He ran on, across the square, oblivious to the twilight crowds still teeming there. Braziers were lighting up and with them the first night-time smells of smoke and coal and burned fish, but all Berren could smell was lavender. In the edges of The Maze, he ran straight past the Barrow of Beer.
No, wait! He stopped. Out of breath, he walked slowly back up to the Barrow and peered inside. The tavern was full, its tiny shutters open wide, flooding the street around it with the noise of talk and the smell of stale beer and a whiff of Moongrass. Cautiously, Berren left the crossbow in the shadows and pushed his way inside. Men stopped what they were saying and watched; they didn’t stare, but they followed him with their eyes nonetheless. This time Berren didn’t care. He pushed his way to where Kasmin was standing with some of his customers, chuckling at some joke one of them had made. They stopped when they saw Berren. The old man’s eyes narrowed and his lips drew back to show his teeth. Kasmin made more sense now. He, too, knew what the thief-taker could do. That was why he’d been so scared.
Berren bowed. A perfect bow, exactly as Master Sy had taught him. ‘Sir. I need your help.’
‘If Syannis wants something more, tell him to come and ask for it himself.’ He glanced left and right at the men beside him. ‘At another time.’
‘My master didn’t send me, sir. I am asking your help for me, sir.’
‘You?’ Kasmin sneered half-heartedly. It was a show, Berren realised. For the men who were with him. He set himself firm.
‘I need a blade, sir. A sword.’
The men around Kasmin roared with laughter. Kasmin didn’t even blink. ‘I have no swords here, boy, and even if I did they wouldn’t be for you.’
‘I need—!’ he started to shout, but a cuff round the face knocked him to the floor.
‘What you need is manners,’ snarled Kasmin. He grabbed Berren by the shirt and hauled him to his feet; then lifted him up into the air and carried him through the bar and threw him out the door. He stared as Berren shakily got back to his feet.
‘Sir . . .’ However much it hurt, he couldn’t give up. He couldn’t face Jerrin and his gang alone. Not if he hoped to win.
‘Now piss off!’ Kasmin roared, and he turned and strode back into his tavern to a chorus of raucous shouting. Berren made a series of angry gestures at the men staring at him through the windows and hurried away. A minute later he was back, though, this time in the yard behind the tavern, skulking in the shadows. Kasmin had to have a sword in there somewhere, he just had to, and one way or another, Berren needed it. He watched the door to the back of the tavern. He’d been this way already once.
The door opened. Kasmin rolled out an empty barrel into the yard. Then he looked straight at where Berren was hiding. He stood still, then let out a long breath. ‘Whoever you are, I can smell you. So who’s there?’
Other times Berren might have run, but not tonight. If it came to that then he was closer to the gate than Kasmin. He stepped out into the evening gloom.
‘Sir, I need a sword.’
Kasmin shook his head and laughed. ‘You’re one persistent stable-mucker, aren’t you? Khrozus!’ he shrugged. ‘I meant what I said. I don’t have a sword and I wouldn’t give it to you if I did. And no matter what Syannis and I used to be, if you come into my tavern again like that, I’ll do more than throw you out onto the street. You’re a thief-taker, boy. Whatever was once between your master and me, you’re not welcome here.’
‘I need . . .’
Kasmin rolled his eyes to the sky. ‘What bit of no don’t you understand?’
‘Then will you at least hold a message for me, for Master Sy?’
‘Fine. Make it quick.’
‘If I don’t come back, tell him I went looking for Lilissa. She’s a friend to Master Sy.’
‘Well her mother was at least,’ muttered Kasmin. ‘Heard that much.’
‘Tell him Jerrin One-Thumb took her and I went after him. Tell him . . .’ And then it all came out, about what he’d found when he’d gone looking for her, about One-Thumb and the Harbour Men and The Maze and the harbour-master’s snuffers. Kasmin just stood there. Didn’t move, didn’t blink. Just stood.
‘Bit long,’ he said, when Berren finally finished. ‘Don’t know if I’ll remember all that. But I suppose I got the bits that matter.’ He took a long look at Berren and sighed. ‘How many of these “Harbour Men” are there?’
Berren shrugged. ‘At least five. Probably seven or eight.’ Yeh. Might even be that, he mused to himself. Jerrin had had friends outside Master Hatchet’s gang.
‘Then a sword won’t help you, boy, not when you don’t know how to use it and I ain’t got one anyway. Go home. Wait for Syannis.’
‘I know Jerrin. He’ll . . .’ He couldn’t bring himself to say it. ‘He might hurt her.’
‘He might just hurt her anyway. After he’s done with killing you.’
Berren said nothing, just stuck out his jaw. He was going. Right now. No matter what. If Stealer and a crossbow with one bolt were all he had, then Stealer and a crossbow with one bolt would just have to do.
Kasmin tipped his head back and swore loudly at the sky. ‘Ah, for the love of . . .’ He sighed and threw up his hands in despair. ‘Look, boy. If I pass your message on to Syannis, he’s going to know you were here. And then he’s going to ask me why I didn’t stop you.’
Berren took a step towards the street. ‘Because you couldn’t catch me.’
‘Fine. Reckon that might even be true. Wait there.’ Without pausing for an answer, Kasmin turned and strode into his tavern. When he came out again, he was holding a long knife in a sheath. He tossed it at Berren’s feet. ‘Better for you than a sword. Anyone ever tell you anything about how to fight? At all?’
Master Sy’s words were there in his head, just as the thief-taker had spoken them. ‘Run. If you can’t run, stick them good and hard and watch it all the way.’
‘Good advice as any.’ The old man shook his head. ‘You know you’re fighting too many, don’t you? You know you’re going to get yourself killed, right?’
Berren shrugged. He hadn’t really given it much thought, truth be told. It was a thing that needed to be done and that was all there was.
‘Going to do it anyway, eh? Well you bring me my knife back, boy. My lucky blade, that is. Saved my life twice since I gave up soldiering and came to this godsforsaken hole of a city. Hold it close, boy. Pick them off one by one. Don’t play fair. Don’t let them see you coming. Kill ’em from a distance with that crossbow. Ach,’ he waved Berren away. ‘Why am I wasting my breath on you. You’ll be dumb and you’ll get yourself killed or else you’ll get lucky and learn something. That’s pretty much how it goes. I could feel that mail you’ve got on under your shirt. Make the most of it. Now piss off. I got customers.’ He turned and stamped back inside. Berren watched him go.
‘Thank you,’ he called. He tucked the knife and its sheath into his trousers. Picking up his crossbow and wrapping Master Sy’s coat around him, he set off once more for Trickle Street. Strange thing was, even though he knew Kasmin was probably right, he didn’t feel scared at all.