When the gentle winds come rolling in off the sea, early in the morning, a sweet breeze blows through Billy’s. Helen brought Walter the usual, a plate of scrambled eggs and toast. Of course, he drank a Diet Coke. The New York Times was waiting for him. When the paper arrived on St. John, brought over on the early ferry from St. Thomas, the first place they took it was across the square to Billy’s. It’s a small island. Everyone knows everyone else and everyone knows Walter Sherman liked to read The New York Times with his breakfast.
Helen was playing with the CDs. Billy needed to hear music. He was the kind of man who turns on a radio when he enters a bathroom, and when he walks into the kitchen first thing in the morning. He hadn’t been in a car without music playing since he was a teenager. He had the place wired for sound. In the back, in a small office behind the kitchen, he had a whole bookcase stacked with CDs. Usually, he brought a dozen or so out to the bar. He’d play them, one after another, until he went through them all. Then he would get a new batch. Neither Walter nor Ike ever intruded on Billy’s selection. His taste covered all kinds of music and they rather liked the element of surprise. Who knew what Billy would play next? Van Morrison, Rosemary Clooney, Monk or Miles Davis. These days Helen shared this part of Billy’s life as well. It was just as likely what you heard was her choice as his. Walter watched her tinker with the machinery. When she finished and walked away, the plaintive cry of James Brown, The Godfather of Soul, The Hardest Working Man in Show Business, called out to him, demanding and receiving Walter’s complete and willing agreement. Isn’t that the truth, he thought.
“It’s a man’s world. It’s a man’s world.
But it wouldn’t be nothing. Nothing
Without a woman or a girl.”
“You ever drink coffee?” Helen asked him.
“I used to,” Walter said. “Sometimes I still do, as a sort of dessert with dinner. But hardly ever in the morning. Not anymore.” She shook her head and made her way back to the kitchen. Billy was already back there, busy checking the fresh fish—red snapper, grouper, tuna—that had come in less than fifteen minutes before.
No one was at the bar. Ike had yet to show up. Walter’s cell phone rang. He reached into his shirt pocket, flipped it open and said, “Yes.”
“He called me, Walter. I just spoke to him. I gave him your name, but he wouldn’t tell me where he is. He’s not in London anymore. He said that. But where he is, I don’t know. Go, find him, please! Where can he be?”
“Chita, calm down now. I think I know where he may be. Don’t worry. I’ll find him.” Walter found it very strange and unsettling saying this to a client, even Conchita Crystal. Reassurance was not part of the deal. Sympathy and concern were not included with his services. Personal involvement was the worst of all sins. Caring for either the target or the client frightened Walter. Detachment was essential to his success, or so he believed for forty years. Nevertheless, he said, “I’m going to go get him. It’ll be all right. I promise you.”
“When will you leave?” she asked.
“Soon,” he said. “Soon as possible. I have to start earning my twenty-five dollars a day, don’t I?” He thought he heard a small sob on the other end of the phone.
“What twenty-five . . . ?” she said, clearing her throat and sniffling. She was crying, thought Walter.
“I rented it. We can do that, even here, in the middle of . . .”
“Nowhere?”
“Middle of nowhere, that’s right. The Big Sleep. I’m taller than Bogart, you know. Have a better tan too. And you don’t look a thing like Lauren Bacall.”
“Oh, now you hurt my feelings, Walter.” He knew it couldn’t be done, but he was thrilled to hear her say so.
“You’re more beautiful than she was,” he blurted out, instantly feeling a flush on the back of his neck, a heat rash that ran at breakneck speed all across his face. Was I out of line? he worried.
“Muchos gracias, señor.”
“De nada.”
“You still talking with that Chita Crystal,” said Ike. Walter looked up to see the old man sitting at his regular table. Grandson Johnson had dropped him off at the curb. It wasn’t a question Ike asked, even though it may have sounded like one. And Ike pronounced her last name like it was just another piece of glass. His grandson Johnson—called Sonny by just about everyone who knew him—helped Ike make the short walk from Sonny’s jeep to the table in Billy’s that was as much the old man’s home as the house he slept in. When Ike was settled in, Sonny kissed him on the top of his bald head, smiled and saluted in Walter’s direction, then took off. “Nice boy,” Ike said. “Real nice boy.”
“You are correct, old man. On both counts. Sonny’s a good boy, and that was the woman herself on the phone.”
“Too bad you ain’t thirty years younger.”
“Thirty years? How old do you think she is? She’s in her forties, Ike.”
“Forties, huh? Well then, it’s too bad I ain’t thirty years younger.” With that pronouncement, he pulled a baseball cap out of the small bag he always carried. This one was a wrinkled, yellow hat, one Walter did not remember seeing before. On the front was a faded logo, a multicolored cartoon drawing Walter quickly recognized as a depiction of the Jackson Five—the Jackson Five when Michael was still Michael.
“Nice hat,” he said.
“1984, Jacksonville, Florida. Victory Tour,” said Ike, adjusting the hat to keep the morning sun out of his eyes.
“Florida? Who’s victory?” asked Billy bursting into the bar from his kitchen, through the swinging door next to the large fan a few feet from where Walter sat on the second to last barstool. Billy carried a large bowl of hard-boiled eggs in one hand and a cup of coffee in the other. The eggs were for customers. The coffee was his. “What about it?” he asked.
“1984,” Ike said. “A good year. A good year, maybe not the best, but a good one. No, not the best.”
“So,” said Billy. “What was the best?”
“1937,” said Ike, without hesitation, lighting up another cigarette with a long wooden match, giving up a little cough, not much of one this time, more like clearing your throat when you’ve swallowed the wrong way than anything serious. “That was the year I noticed Sissy,” he said. “Really noticed her, you know. Of course, we knew each other since we was kids, but 1937—that’s when I first looked at her, saw how beautiful she was. She’d come into a room, a room like this one—of course we didn’t go to no bars or restaurants back then when we were in our teens still—but she’d walk in, wherever it was, and the whole place would light up. It was like the sun broke through the clouds after a hard rain. Like the sky opened up. You know what I’m saying? All bright and clean and good. Sixteen years old. 1937.” He said it one more time. “1937.”
“Well,” Billy spoke up. “I think the best year is this one—right now. You’re damned right that’s what I think. Right now.”
“Here’s to you, Billy,” said Ike. “It’s a lucky man who thinks right now is his best time.” He dragged on his cigarette and it appeared he made no effort to blow the smoke anywhere. It just sort of slithered out of his mouth and nose. As if moved by an unseen hand, the smoke was carried on the wind in the direction where Billy stood behind the bar. It floated to him in big, slow, hazy blue ripples.
“Don’t blow that shit in here!” Billy yelled. Then he looked down the bar to Walter. “Walter. Stop eating. Put down that paper and tell us what year was your best year. Come on.” Ike looked at Walter too. Both he and Billy waited.
“Next year,” Walter said, without putting down either his fork or his newspaper.
“Bullshit!” cried Billy.
“That’s what you hope,” said Ike. “That’s what we all hope. But that don’t count for the purposes of this conversation. We’re talking about a year gone by, and we ain’t quitting till you say one.”
“I can’t . . .”
“Come on, Walter!” demanded Billy.
“You got to have one,” said Ike, although from the sound of Walter’s voice he certainly sensed there might be no response from his friend. Not on this one.
Walter said, “I can’t do it. I can’t.”
“Leave the man alone,” Helen ordered. She had been standing there all along, unnoticed. “Let him be.”
Billy grumbled and Ike may have said something too, under his breath, but whatever it was Walter couldn’t make it out.
“I’m writing it up. I don’t give a shit,” Billy proclaimed. He looked to Ike for approval or encouragement or something. The old man, his upper body now completely covered in smoke that drifted with the changing breeze in a new direction, off into the square, nodded affirmatively. That was all Billy needed. He grabbed the chunk of blue chalk next to the register and scribbled on the blackboard: 1937/Right Now/None.
“None,” he scoffed.
“I vote for ‘Right Now,’” said Helen, giving Billy a pat on his ass as she made her way back to the kitchen, singing, “It’s a man’s world . . .”