4
David Bohlen, building a dam of wet soil at
the end of his family’s vegetable garden under the hot midafternoon
Martian sun, saw the UN police ‘copter settle down and land before
the Steiners’ house, and he knew instantly that something was going
on.
A UN policeman in his blue uniform and shiny
helmet stepped from the ‘copter and walked up the path to the
Steiners’ front door, and when two of the little girls appeared the
policeman greeted them. He then spoke to Mrs. Steiner and then he
disappeared on inside, and the door shut after him.
David got to his feet and hurried from the
garden, across the stretch of sand to the ditch; he leaped the
ditch and crossed the patch of flat soil where Mrs. Steiner had
tried unsuccessfully to raise pansies, and at the corner of the
house he suddenly came upon one of the Steiner girls; she was
standing inertly, picking apart a stalk of wur-weed, her face
white. She looked as if she were going to be sick.
“Hey, what’s wrong?” he asked her. “Why’s
the policeman talking to your mom?”
The Steiner girl glanced at him and then
bolted off, leaving him.
I’ll bet I know what it is, David thought.
Mr. Steiner has been arrested because he did something illegal. He
felt excited and he jumped up and down. I wonder what he did.
Turning, he ran back the way he had come, hopped once more across
the ditch of water, and at last threw open the door to his own
house.
“Mom!” he shouted, running from room to
room. “Hey, you know how you and Dad always are talking about Mr.
Steiner being outside the law, I mean in his work? Well, you know
what?”
His mother was nowhere to be found; she must
have gone visiting, he realized. For instance, Mrs. Henessy who
lived within walking distance north along the ditch; often his mom
was gone most of the day visiting other ladies, drinking coffee
with them and exchanging gossip. Well, they’re really missing out,
David declared to himself. He ran to the window and looked out, to
be sure of not missing anything.
The policeman and Mrs. Steiner had gone
outside, now, and both were walking slowly to the police ‘copter.
Mrs. Steiner held a big handkerchief to her face, and the policeman
had hold of her shoulder, as if he was a relative or something.
Fascinated, David watched the two of them get into the ‘copter. The
Steiner girls stood together in a small group, their faces
peculiar. The policeman went over and spoke to them, and then he
returned to the ‘copter--and then he noticed David. He beckoned to
him to come outdoors, and David, feeling fright, did so; he emerged
from the house, blinking in the sunlight, and step by step
approached the policeman with his shining helmet and his armband
and the gun at his waist.
“What’s your name, son?” the policeman
asked, with an accent.
“David Bohlen.” His knees shook.
“Is Mother or Father home, David?”
“No,” he said, “just me.”
“When your parents return, you tell them to
keep watch on the Steiner children until Mrs. Steiner is back.” The
policeman started up the motor of the ‘copter, and the blades began
to turn. “You do that, David? Do you understand?”
“Yes, sir,” David said, noticing that the
policeman had on the blue stripe which meant he was Swedish. The
boy knew all the identifying marks which the different UN units
wore. He wondered how fast the police ‘copter could go; it looked
like a special fast job, and he wished he could ride in it: he was
no longer frightened of the policeman and he wished they could talk
more. But the policeman was leaving; the ‘copter rose from the
ground, and torrents of wind and sand blew around David, forcing
him to turn away and put his arm across his face.
The four Steiner girls still stood gathered
together, none of them speaking. One, the oldest, was crying; tears
ran down her cheeks but she made no sound. The smallest, who was
only three, smiled shyly at David.
“You want to help me with my dam?” David
called to them. “You can come over; the policeman told me it was
O.K.”
After a moment the youngest Steiner girl
came toward him, and then the others followed.
“What did your dad do?” David asked the
oldest girl. She was twelve, older than he. “The policeman said you
could say,” he added.
There was no answer; the girl merely stared
at him.
“If you tell me,” David said, “I won’t tell
anyone. I promise to keep it a secret.”
Sunbathing out on June Henessy’s fenced,
envined patio, sipping iced tea and drowsily conversing, Silvia
Bohlen heard the radio from within the Henessy house give the late
afternoon news.
Beside her, June raised herself up and said,
“Say, isn’t he the man who lives next door to you?”
“Shh,” Silvia said, intently listening to
the announcer. But there was no more, only the brief mention:
Norbert Steiner, a dealer in health foods, had committed suicide on
a downtown New Israel street by throwing himself in the path of a
bus. It was the same Steiner, all right; it was their neighbor, she
knew it at once.
“How dreadful,” June said, sitting up and
fastening the straps of her polka-dot cotton halter. “I only saw
him a couple of times, but--“
“He was a dreadful little man,” Silvia said.
“I’m not surprised he did it.” And yet she felt horrified. She
could not believe it. She got to her feet, saying, “With four
children-- he left her to take care of four children! Isn’t that
dreadful? What’s going to happen to them? They’re so helpless
anyhow.”
“I heard,”June said, “that he deals on the
black market. Had you heard that? Maybe they were closing in on
him.”
Silvia said, “I better go right home and see
if there’s anything I can do for Mrs. Steiner. Maybe I can take the
children for a while.” Could it have been my fault? she asked
herself. Could he have done it because I refused them that water,
this morning? It could be, because he was there; he had not gone to
work yet.
So maybe it is our fault, she thought. The
way we treated them--which of us has ever been really nice to them
and accepted them? But they are such dreadful whining people,
always asking for help, begging and borrowing . . . who could
respect them?
Going into the house she changed, in the
bedroom, to her slacks and T-shirt. June Henessy followed along
with her.
“Yes,” June said, “you’re right--we all have
to pitch in and help where we can. I wonder if she’ll stay on or if
she’ll go back to Earth. I’d go back--I’m practically ready to go
back anyhow, it’s so dull here.”
Getting her purse and cigarettes, Silvia
said goodbye to June and set out on the walk back down the ditch to
her own home. Breathless, she arrived in time to see the police
‘copter disappearing into the sky. That was them notifying her, she
decided. In the backyard she found David with the four Steiner
girls; they were busy playing.
“Did they take Mrs. Steiner with them?” she
called to David.
The boy scrambled at once to his feet and
came up to her excitedly. “Mom, she went along with him. I’m taking
care of the girls.”
That’s what I was afraid of, Silvia thought.
The four girls still sat at the dam, playing a slow-motion,
apathetic game with the mud and water, none of them looking up or
greeting her; they seemed inert, no doubt from the shock of
learning about their father’s death. Only the smallest one showed
any signs of reviving, and she probably had not comprehended the
news in the first place. Already, Silvia thought, that little man’s
death has reached out and touched others, and the coldness is
spreading. She felt the chill in her own heart. And I did not even
like him, she thought.
The sight of the four Steiner girls made her
quake. Am I going to have to take on these pudding-y, plump, vapid,
low-class children? she asked herself. The answering thought thrust
its way up, tossing every other consideration aside: I don’t want to! She felt panic, because it was
obvious that she had no choice; even now they were playing on her
land, in her garden--she had them already.
Hopefully, the smallest girl asked, “Miz
Bohlen, could we have some more water for our dam?”
Water, always wanting water, Silvia thought.
Always leeching on us, as if it was a trait born into them. She
ignored the child and said instead to her son, “Come into the
house--I want to talk to you.”
Together, they went indoors, where the girls
could not overhear.
“David,” she said, “their father is dead, it
came over the radio. That’s why the police came and took her. We’ll
have to help out for a while.” She tried to smile, but it was
impossible. “However much we may dislike the Steiners--“
David burst out--“I don’t dislike them, Mom.
How come he died? Did he have a heart attack? Was he set on by wild
Bleekmen, could that be?”
“It doesn’t matter how he happened to die;
what we have to think of now is what we can do for those girls.”
Her mind was empty; she could think of nothing. All she knew was
that she did not want to have the girls near her. “What should we
do?” she asked David.
“Maybe fix them lunch. They told me they
didn’t have any; she was just about to fix it.”
Silvia went out from the house and down the
path. “I’m going to fix lunch, girls, for any of you who want it.
Over at your house.” She waited a moment and then started toward
the Steiner house. When she looked back she saw that only the
smallest child was following.
The oldest girl said in a tear-choked voice,
“No, thank you.”
“You’d better eat,” Silvia said, but she was
relieved. “Come along,” she said to the little girl. “What’s your
name?”
“Betty,” the little girl said shyly. “Could
I have a egg sandwich? And cocoa?”
“We’ll see what there is,” Silvia
said.
Later, while the child ate her egg sandwich
and drank her cocoa, Silvia took the opportunity to explore the
Steiner house. In the bedroom she came upon something which
interested her: a picture of a small boy with dark, enormous,
luminous eyes and curly hair; he looked, Silvia thought, like a
despairing creature from some other world, some divine and yet
dreadful place beyond their own.
Carrying the picture into the kitchen she
asked little Betty who the boy was.
“That’s my brother Manfred,” Betty answered,
her mouth full of egg and bread. Then she began to giggle. Between
the giggles a few hesitant words emerged, and Silvia caught the
fact that the girls were not supposed to mention their brother to
anyone.
“Why doesn’t he live with you?” Silvia
asked, full of curiosity.
“He’s at camp,” Betty said. “Because he
can’t talk.”
“What a shame,” Silvia said, and she
thought, At that camp in New Israel, no doubt. No wonder the girls
aren’t supposed to mention him; he’s one of those anomalous
children you hear of but never see. The thought made her sad.
Unglimpsed tragedy in the Steiner household; she had never guessed.
And it was in New Israel that Mr. Steiner had taken his life.
Undoubtedly he had been visiting his son.
Then it has nothing to do with us, she
decided as she returned the picture to its place in the bedroom.
Mr. Steiner’s decision was based on a personal matter. So she felt
relieved.
Strange, she thought, how one has the
immediate reaction of guilt and responsibility when one hears of a
suicide. If only I hadn’t done this, or had done that. . . I could
have averted it. I’m at fault. And it was not so in this situation,
not at all; she was a total outsider to the Steiners, sharing no
part of their actual life, only imagining, in a fit of neurotic
guilt, that she did so.
“Do you ever see your brother?” she asked
Betty.
“I think I saw him last year,” Betty said
hesitantly. “He was playing tag, and there were a lot of other boys
bigger than me.”
Now, silently, the three older Steiner girls
filed into the kitchen and stood by the table. At last the eldest
burst out, “We changed our mind, we would like lunch.”
“All right,” Silvia said. “You can help me
crack the eggs and peel them. Why don’t you go and get David, and
I’ll feed him at the same time? Wouldn’t that be fun, to all eat
together?”
They nodded mutely.
Walking up the main street of New Israel,
Arnie Kott saw a crowd ahead and cars pulled to a halt at the curb,
and he paused momentarily before turning in the direction of Anne
Esterhazy’s Contemporary Arts Gift Shop. Something up, he said to
himself. Robbery? Street brawl?
However, he did not have time to
investigate. He continued on his way and arrived presently at the
small modern shop which his ex-wife ran; hands in his trouser
pockets, he sauntered in.
“Anybody home?” he called jovially.
No one there. She must have taken off to see
the excitement, Arnie said to himself. Some business sense; didn’t
even lock up the store.
A moment later Anne came hurrying
breathlessly back into the store. “Arnie,” she said in surprise,
seeing him. “Oh my God, do you know what happened? I was just
talking to him, just talking, not more than an hour ago. And now
he’s dead.” Tears filled her eyes. She collapsed onto a chair,
found a Kleenex, and blew her nose. “It’s just terrible,” she said
in a muffled voice. “And it wasn’t an accident; he did it
deliberately.”
“Oh, so that’s what’s going on,” Arnie said,
wishing now that he had gone on and taken a look. “Who do you
mean?”
“You wouldn’t know him. He has a child at
the camp; that’s how I met him.” She rubbed her eyes and sat for a
time, while Arnie meandered about the store. “Well,” she said at
last, “what can I do for you? It’s nice to see you.”
“My goddamn encoder broke down,” Arnie said.
“You know how hard it is to get decent repair service. What could I
do but come by? What do you say to having lunch with me? Lock up
the store a little while.”
“Of course,” she said distractedly. “Just
let me go wash my face. I feel as if it was me. I saw him, Arnie.
The bus rolled right over him; they have such mass, they just can’t
stop. I would like some lunch--I want to get out of here.” She
hurried into the washroom--and closed the door.
Soon afterwards the two of them were walking
up the sidewalk together.
“Why do people take their own lives?” Anne
asked. “I keep thinking I could have prevented it. I sold him a
flute for his boy. He still had the flute; I saw it with his
suitcases on the curb--he never gave it to his son. Is that the
reason, something to do with the flute? I debated between the flute
and--“
“Cut it out,” Arnie said. “It’s not your
fault. Listen, if a man is going to take his life nothing can stop
him. And you can’t cause a person to do it; it’s in his
bloodstream, it’s his destiny. They work themselves up to doing it
years in advance, and then it’s just like a sudden inspiration; all
of a sudden-- wham. They do it, see?” He wrapped his arm around her
and patted her.
She nodded.
“Now, I mean, we’ve
got a kid there at Camp B-G, but it doesn’t get us down,” Arnie
went on. “It’s not the end of the world, right? We go on. Where do
you want to eat? How’s that place across the street, that Red Fox?
Any good? I’d like some fried prawns, but hell, it’s been almost a
year since I saw them. This transportation problem has got to be
licked or nobody is emigrating.”
“Not the Red Fox,” Anne said. “I loathe the
man who runs it. Let’s try that place on the corner; it’s new, I
haven’t ever eaten in there. I hear it’s supposed to be
good.”
As they sat at a table in the restaurant,
waiting for their food to come, Arnie went on and developed his
point. “One thing, when you hear about a suicide, you can be sure
the guy knows this: he knows he’s not a useful member of society.
That’s the real truth he’s facing about himself, that’s what does
it, knowing you’re not important to anybody. If there’s one thing
I’m sure of it’s that. It’s nature’s way--the expendable are
removed, by their own hand, too. So I don’t lose any sleep when I
hear of a suicide, and you’d be surprised how many so-called
natural deaths here on Mars are actually suicides; I mean, this is
a harsh environment. This place weeds out the fit from the
unfit.”
Anne Esterhazy nodded but did not seem
cheered up.
“Now this guy--“ Arnie continued.
“Steiner,” Anne said.
“Steiner!” He stared at her. “Norbert
Steiner, the blackmarket operator?” His voice rose.
“He sold health foods.”
“That’s the guy!” He was flabbergasted. “Oh,
no, not Steiner.” Good grief, he got all his goodies from Steiner;
he was utterly dependent on the man.
The waiter appeared with their food.
“This is awful,” Arnie said, “I mean, really
awful. What am I going to do?” Every party he threw, every time he
had a cozy two-person dinner arranged for himself and some girl,
for instance Marty or especially of late Doreen . . . It was just
too goddamn much in one day, this and his encoder, both
together.
“Don’t you think,” Anne said, “it might have
something to do with him being German? There’s been so much sorrow
in Germans since that drug plague, those children born with
flippers. I’ve talked to some who’ve said openly they thought it
was God’s punishment on them for what was done during the Nazi
period. And these weren’t religious men, these were businessmen,
one here on Mars, the other at Home.”
“That damn stupid Steiner,” Arnie said.
“That cabbage head.”
“Eat your food, Arnie.” She began to unfold
her napkin. “The soup looks good.”
“I can’t eat,” he said. “I don’t want this
siop.” He pushed his soup bowl away.
“You’re still just like a big baby,” Anne
said. “Still having your tantrums.” Her voice was soft and
compassionate.
“Hell,” he said, “sometimes I feel like I’ve
got the weight of the entire planet on me, and you call me a baby!”
He glared at her in baffled outrage.
“I didn’t know that Norbert Steiner was
involved in the black market,” Anne said.
“Naturally you wouldn’t, you and your
lady-committees. What do you know about the world around you?
That’s why I’m here--I read that last ad you had in the Times and it stank. You have to stop giving out
that crap like you do; it repels intelligent people--it’s just for
other cranks like yourself.”
“Please,” Anne said. “Eat your food. Calm
down.”
“I’m going to assign a man from my Hall to
look over your material before you distribute it. A
professional.”
“Are you?” she said mildly.
“We’ve got a real problem--we’re not getting
the skilled people to come over from Earth any more, the people we
need. We’re rotting--everybody knows that. We’re falling
apart.”
Smiling, Anne said, “Somebody will take Mr.
Steiner’s place; there must be other black-market operators.”
Arnie said, “You’re deliberately
misunderstanding me so as to make me look greedy and small, whereas
actually I’m one of the most responsible members of the entire
colonization attempt here on Mars, and that’s why our marriage
broke down, because of your belittling me out of jealousy and
competitiveness. I don’t know why I came over here today--it’s
impossible for you to work things out on a rational basis, you have
to inflict personalities into everything.”
“Did you know there’s a bill before the UN
to shut Camp B-G?” Anne said calmly.
“No,” Arnie said.
“Does it distress you to think of B-G being
closed?”
“Hell, we’ll give Sam private individual
care.”
“What about the other children there?”
“You changed the subject,” Arnie said.
“Listen, Anne, you have to knuckle down to what you call masculine
domination and let my people edit what you write. Honest to God, it
does more harm than good--I hate to say this to your face but it’s
the truth. You’re a worse friend than you would be an enemy, the
way you go about things. You’re a dabbler! Like most women.
You’re--irresponsible.” He wheezed with wrath. Her face showed no
reaction; what he said had no effect on her.
“Can you bring any pressure to bear to help
keep B-G open?” she asked. “Maybe we can make a deal. I want to see
it kept open.”
“A cause,” Arnie
said ferociously.
“Yes.”
“You want my blunt answer?”
She nodded, facing him coolly.
“I’ve been sorry ever since those Jews
opened that camp.”
Anne said, “Bless you, honest blunt Arnie
Kott, mankind’s friend.”
“It tells the entire world we’ve got nuts
here on Mars, that if you travel across space to get here you’re
apt to damage your sexual organs and give birth to a monster that
would make those German flipper-people look like your next-door
neighbor.”
“You and the gentleman who runs the Red
Fox.”
“I’m just being hard-headedly realistic.
We’re in a struggle for our life; we’ve got to keep people
emigrating here or we’re dead on the vine, Anne. You know that. If
we didn’t have Camp B-G we could advertise that away from Earth’s
H-bomb-testing, contaminated atmosphere there are no abnormal
births. I hoped to see that, but B-G spoils it.”
“Not B-G. The births themselves.”
“No one would be able to check up and show
our abnormal births,” Arnie said, “without B-G.”
“You’d say it, knowing it’s not true, if you
could get away with it, telling them back Home that they’re safer
here--“
“Sure.” He nodded.
“That’s--immoral.”
“No. Listen. You’re the immoral one, you and
those other ladies. By keeping Camp B-G open you’re--“
“Let’s not argue, we’ll never agree. Let’s
eat, and then you go on back to Lewistown. I can’t take any
more.”
They ate their meal in silence.
Dr. Milton Glaub, member of the psychiatric
pool at Camp B-G, on loan from the Interplan Truckers’ Union
settlement, sat by himself in his own office once more, back from
B-G, his stint there over for today. In his hands he held a bill
for roof repairs done on his home the month before. He had put off
the work--it involved the use of the scraper which kept the sand
from piling up--but finally the settlement building inspector had
mailed him a thirty-day condemnation notice. So he had contacted
the Roofing Maintenance workers, knowing that he could not pay, but
seeing no alternative. He was broke. This had been the worst month
so far.
If only Jean, his wife, could spend less.
But the solution did not lie there, anyhow; the solution was to
acquire more patients. The ITU paid him a monthly salary, but for
every patient he received an additional fifty-dollar bonus:
incentive, it was called. In actuality it meant the difference
between debt and solvency. Nobody with a wife and children could
possibly live on the salary offered to psychiatrists, and the ITU,
as everyone knew, was especially parsimonious.
And yet, Dr. Glaub continued to live in the
ITU settlement; it was an orderly community, in some respects much
like Earth. New Israel, like the other national settlements, had a
charged, explosive quality.
As a matter of fact, Dr. Glaub had once
lived in another national colony, the United Arab Republic one, a
particularly opulent region in which much vegetation, imported from
Home, had been induced to grow. But, to him, the settlers’ constant
animosity toward neighboring colonies had been first irritating and
then appalling. Men, at their daily jobs, brooded over wrongs
committed. The most charming individuals blew up when certain
topics were mentioned. And at night the hostility took practical
shape; the national colonies lived for the night. Then, the
research labs, which were scenes of scientific experimentation and
development during the day, were thrown open to the public, and
infernal machines were turned out--it was all done with much
excitement and glee, and of course national pride.
The hell with them, Dr. Glaub thought. Their
lives were wasted; they had simply carried over the old quarrels
from Earth--and the purpose of colonization had been forgotten. For
instance, in the UN newspaper that morning he had read about a
fracas in the streets of the electrical workers’ settlement; the
newspaper account implied that the nearby Italian colony was
responsible, since several of the aggressors had been wearing the
long waxed mustaches popular in the Italian colony. . . .
A knock at his office door broke his line of
thought. “Yes,” he said, putting the roofing bill away in a desk
drawer.
“Are you ready for Goodmember Purdy?” his
wife asked, opening the door in the professional manner that he had
taught her.
“Send Goodmember Purdy in,” Dr. Glaub said.
“Wait a couple of minutes, though, so I can read over his case
history.”
“Did you eat lunch?” Jean asked.
“Of course. Everybody eats lunch.”
“You look wan,” she said.
That’s bad, Dr. Glaub thought. He went from
his office into the bathroom, where he carefully darkened his face
with the caramel-colored powder currently in fashion. It did
improve his looks, although not his state of mind. The theory
behind the powder was that the ruling circles in the ITU were of
Spanish and Puerto Rican ancestry, and they were apt to feel
intimidated if a hired person had skin lighter than their own. Of
course the ads did not put it like that; the ads merely pointed out
to hired men in the settlement that “the Martian climate tends to
allow natural skin tone to fade to unsightly white.”
It was now time to see his patient.
“Good afternoon, Goodmember Purdy.”
“Afternoon, Doc.”
“I see from your file that you’re a
baker.”
“Yeah, that’s right.”
A pause. “What did you wish to consult with
me about?”
Goodmember Purdy, staring at the floor and
fooling with his cap, said, “I never been to a psychiatrist
before.”
“No, I can see here that you haven’t.”
“There’s this party my brother-in-law’s
giving . . . I’m not much on going to parties.”
“Are you compelled to attend?” Dr. Glaub had
quietly set the clock on his desk; it ticked away the goodmember’s
half-hour.
“They’re sort of throwing it for me. They,
uh, want me to take on my nephew as an apprentice so he’ll be in
the union eventually.” Purdy droned on. “. . . And I been lying
awake at night trying to figure out how to get out of it--I mean,
these are my relatives, and I can’t hardly come out and tell them
no. But I just can’t go, I don’t feel good enough to. So that’s why
I’m here.”
“I see,” Dr. Glaub said. “Well, you’d better
give me the particulars on this party, when and where it is, the
names of the persons involved, so I can do a right bang-up job
while I’m there.”
With relief, Purdy dug into his coat pocket
and brought out a neatly typed document. “I sure appreciate your
going in my place, Doc. You psychiatrists really take a load off a
man’s back; I’m not joking when I say I been losing sleep over
this.” He gazed with grateful awe at the man before him, skilled in
the social graces, capable of treading the narrow, hazardous path
of complex interpersonal relations which had defeated so many union
members over the years.
“Don’t worry any further about it,” Dr.
Glaub said. For after all, he thought, what’s a little
schizophrenia? That is, you know, what you’re suffering from. I’ll
take the social pressure from you, and you can continue in your
chronic maladaptive state, at least for another few months. Until
the next overpowering social demand is made on your limited
capabilities. . . .
As Goodmember Purdy left the office, Dr.
Glaub reflected that this certainly was a practical form of
psychotherapy which had evolved here on Mars. Instead of curing the
patient of his phobias, one became in the manner of a lawyer the
actual advocate in the man’s place at--
Jean called into the office, “Milt, there’s
a call for you from New Israel. It’s Bosley Touvim.”
Oh, God, Dr. Glaub thought. Touvim was the
President of New Israel; something was wrong. Hurriedly he picked
up the phone on his desk. “Dr. Glaub here.”
“Doctor,” sounded the dark, stern, powerful
voice, “this is Touvim. We have a death here, a patient of yours, I
understand. Will you kindly fly back here and attend to this? Allow
me to give you a few token details . . . Norbert Steiner, a West
German--“
“He’s not my patient, sir,” Dr. Glaub
interrupted. “However, his son is--a little autistic child at Camp
B-G. What do you mean, Steiner is dead? For heaven’s sake, I was
just talking to him this morning--are you sure it’s the same
Steiner? If it is, I do have a file on him, on the entire family,
because of the nature of the boy’s illness. In child autism we feel
that the family situation must be understood before therapy can
begin. Yes, I’ll be right over.”
Touvim said, “This is evidently a
suicide.”
“I can’t believe it,” Dr. Glaub said.
“For the past half-hour I have been
discussing this with the staff at Camp B-G; they tell me you had a
long conversation with Steiner shortly before he left the camp. At
the inquest our police will want to know what indications if any
Steiner gave of a depressed or morbidly introspective mood, what he
said that might have given you the opportunity to dissuade him or,
barring that, compel him to undergo therapy. I take it the man said
nothing that would alert you to his intentions.”
“Absolutely nothing,” Dr. Glaub said.
“Then if I were you I wouldn’t worry,”
Touvim said. “Merely be prepared to give the clinical background of
the man . . . discuss possible motives which might have led him to
take his life. You understand.”
“Thank you, Mr. Touvim,” Dr. Glaub said
weakly. “I suppose it is possible he was depressed about his son,
but I outlined a new therapy to him; we have very high hopes for
it. However, he did seem cynical and shut in, he did not respond as
I would have expected. But suicide!”
What if I lose the B-G assignment? Doctor
Glaub was asking himself. I just can’t. Working there once a week
added enough to his income so that he could imagine--although not
attain--financial security. The B-G check at least made the goal
plausible.
Didn’t it occur to that idiot Steiner what
effect his death might have on others? Yes, it must have; he did it
to get vengeance on us. Paying us back--but for what? For trying to
heal his child?
This is a very serious matter, he realized.
A suicide, so close on the heels of a doctor-patient interview.
Thank God Mr. Touvim warned me. Even so, the newspapers will pick
it up, and all those who want to see Camp B-G closed will benefit
from this.
Having repaired the refrigeration equipment
at McAuliff’s dairy ranch, Jack Bohlen returned to his ‘copter, put
his tool box behind the seat, and contacted his employer, Mr.
Yee.
“The school,” Mr. Yee said. “You must go
there, Jack; I still have no one else to take that
assignment.”
“O.K., Mr. Yee.” He started up the motor of
the ‘copter, feeling resigned to it.
“A message from your wife, Jack.”
“Oh?” He was surprised; his employer frowned
on wives of his employees phoning in, and Silvia knew that. Maybe
something had happened to David. “Can you tell me what she said?”
he asked.
Mr. Yee said, “Mrs. Bohlen asked our
switchboard girl to inform you that a neighbor of yours, a Mr.
Steiner, has taken his own life. Mrs. Bohlen is caring for the
Steiner children, she wants you to know. She also asked if it was
possible for you to come home tonight, but I told her that although
we regretted it we could not spare you. You must stay available on
call until the end of the week, Jack.”
Steiner dead, Jack said to himself. The poor
ineffectual sap. Well, maybe he’s better off.
“Thank you, Mr. Yee,” he said into the
microphone.
As the ‘copter lifted from the sparse grass
of the pasture, Jack thought, This is going to affect all of us,
and deeply. It was a strong and acute feeling, an intuition. I
don’t believe I ever exchanged more than a dozen words with Steiner
at any one time, and yet--there is something enormous about the
dead. Death itself has such authority. A transformation as awesome
as life itself, and so much harder for us to understand.
He turned the ‘copter in the direction of
the UN headquarters on Mars, on his way to the great self-winding
entity of their lives, the unique artificial organism which was
their Public School, a place he feared more than any other in his
experience away from Home.