CHAPTER 2

Sunday, May 28, 2006

I come from a line of strong women—smart, independent, plainspoken women. When my mother learned that President Bush was going to nominate me to be Treasury secretary and that I had agreed to take the job, she didn’t mince words.

“You started with Nixon and you’re going to end with Bush?” she moaned. “Why would you do such a thing?”

It was the Sunday of Memorial Day weekend in 2006. My mother and I were in the kitchen of my boyhood home in Barrington, Illinois. My wife, Wendy, and I owned a home just down a shared driveway and we had flown in for the weekend to think things through—and to tell my mother.

The president was set to announce his intent to nominate me on Tuesday. I was scheduled to return to New York later that day to talk to the Goldman Sachs board and to meet with Lloyd Blankfein, my successor as CEO, on Memorial Day. That morning I had made the mistake of telling a good friend in church my news, but I forgot to tell her that I hadn’t yet told my mother. By the time I walked up to Mom’s house, she was in tears.

“You’re going to do what you’re going to do,” she said. “But I hope you don’t get confirmed.”

It was just after noon, and Mom was sitting in a wooden chair at the table in the breakfast room, staring through the window at a beautiful white oak in her sunlit yard. I couldn’t remember the last time I had seen her cry. Her harsh criticism was also a first—usually she was a loyal, adoring mother who supported my decisions unstintingly.

My mother’s feelings marked a dramatic shift from my youth. Staunch Republicans, she and my father had been delighted when, in my first job after business school, I went to work at the Pentagon and later in Richard Nixon’s White House. But after Watergate, and as she got older—and especially after my dad passed away in 1995—my mother had become a lot more liberal, particularly in her views about women’s and environmental issues. Republicans irritated her on the subject of abortion. She began to support various Democratic candidates, hated the war in Iraq, and was very anti–George W. Bush.

She wasn’t alone in my family. Wendy, a college classmate and supporter of Hillary Clinton’s, vehemently opposed my taking the job, as did our son, Merritt. Only our daughter, Amanda, the most liberal member of the family, understood and supported my decision.

“Mom, I’ve been asked to serve my country,” I said, doing my best to calm her down. “And that’s what I am going to do.”

“Well,” she replied, unconsoled, “you’ll be jumping onto a sinking ship.”

I returned to New York on an afternoon flight. Wendy stayed behind to comfort my mom, then flew back a couple of days later. She remembers standing in front of a television monitor in O’Hare airport and watching in anguish as the president announced my appointment in the Rose Garden, with me by his side.

My mother did not take calls for 24 hours. Then, on Wednesday, when the press was filled with largely favorable coverage, Mom finally started answering the phone. It helped that the callers weren’t saying, “How could your idiot son do this?” They were calling to congratulate her.

My mother inherited her grit and determination from her own mother, Kathryn Schmidt, who graduated from Wellesley College in 1914 and supported her family through the Depression with a catering business. She died when I was just six months old.

My mom, Marianna Gallauer, followed her to Wellesley, graduating in 1944. An athletic woman, she has remained active throughout her life—in community matters and in sports. She continued to downhill-ski at age 86 and, during baseball season, she drives herself into Chicago to watch the Cubs play at Wrigley Field.

She and my father, Henry Merritt Paulson, were married in 1944. I am the oldest of three children, followed by my brother and best friend, Dick, who is two years younger and worked as a bond salesman at Lehman Brothers before moving to Barclays. My sister, Kay, who is five years younger, is a residential real estate broker in Colorado.

My father also came from the Midwest. His mother, Rosina Merritt, grew up on a Wisconsin farm, a descendant of Wesley Merritt, the Civil War general and onetime superintendent of West Point. After receiving a master’s degree in psychology from New York’s Columbia University, she returned to Wisconsin to teach. My grandfather Henry Paulson attended school only through the eighth grade, but this son of a Norwegian immigrant farmer was a driven, self-taught man. He founded and ran Henry Paulson & Company, a successful wholesale watch supply and repair business in Chicago that, at its height, supported a prosperous lifestyle: my grandparents lived in Evanston, outside of Chicago, and had a modest winter home in Palm Beach, Florida.

My dad wanted to be a farmer. He loved the outdoors, the land, and the wildlife, birds in particular. I inherited from him my interest in birds of prey. After graduating from Principia College in southern Illinois, Dad persuaded my grandfather to buy land in Stuart, Florida, and started a ranch with Brahma bulls down there just after World War II. My mom hated it. I was born in 1946 in Palm Beach while my parents were living on that ranch.

That year, during the severe postwar economic downturn, my grandfather’s company fell on hard times. My father had to sell the ranch for next to nothing and return to Illinois to help his father manage a dying business. We lived in a small garage apartment in Winnetka for a few years before moving to a 75-acre farm in Barrington, a small town of some 3,500 people 40 or so miles from downtown Chicago. It was about as far as you could get from the city back then and still commute comfortably.

We always had horses, hogs, cows, sheep, and chickens, not to mention my pet raccoon and crow. I spent a lot of time doing chores—milking cows, mucking out stalls, baling hay. We churned cream for butter, drank milk from our cows. We put up food for the winter, butchering the chickens, hogs, and sheep. Mom froze vegetables from the garden.

My father had a fierce work ethic; he was industrious and thrifty. From the time I was very young, I understood that you didn’t lie around in bed in the morning. You didn’t stay in the shower for more than a couple of minutes. You got up; you worked; you were useful.

At one point, when I was nine or ten years old and the family was barely scraping by, Dad decided he’d cut our hair himself and mail-ordered a pair of clippers. He did such a bad job that he left bare patches on our scalps, then he filled in the bald spots with pencil and said no one would notice. It took several haircuts until Dad became proficient. These traumatized my brother, but I was largely indifferent to my physical appearance and to what I wore—a lack of fashion sense that I have not outgrown.

Real happiness, my father liked to say, came not from anything that was given to you, or that was easy to get. It came from striving to accomplish things and then accomplishing them. You had to do things right. If you left grass tufts sticking up when you mowed the lawn, you had to do it again.

But my father wasn’t all work and no play. He helped set up an extensive network of riding trails in the village, convincing farmers in the neighborhood to put up gates on their fields to let us go through on our horses. My parents took up skiing when they thought that my brother and sister and I might have an interest in it. I lived for the outdoors—and especially for fishing. My parents indulged this passion by taking us on wilderness canoe trips with difficult portages through Canada’s Quetico Provincial Park, just above Ely, Minnesota. (Not that this meant extravagance: my father once told me proudly that we spent less on our annual two-week trip than it would have cost to live at home.) Wendy joined us the summer before we were married, and later we brought our kids along on the canoe trips with Mom and Dad.

In 1958, just before I started seventh grade, my parents decided we were land rich but cash poor, so they sold the farm and moved us to a smaller place a little farther out of town. On our 15 acres, we had a barn, seven horses, and a big vegetable garden, but no more livestock. We had to buy our chickens and beef and milk in the supermarket like everyone else, though we still ate the vegetables that we grew.

I went to local town schools and then Barrington High. As a boy, I was very goal oriented. It’s what Wendy calls my gold-star mentality. I no sooner became a Boy Scout than I made up my mind to become an Eagle Scout, which I did, at 14. I switched my focus to school and excelled in football, wrestling, and my studies.

The idea of heading east to college came from my mom, who wanted me to go to Amherst. Its students wore coats and ties back then. Dartmouth College seemed uncouth to her, but I was recruited to play football there.

I loved Dartmouth. I made good friends on and off the football team—and my professors challenged me. I majored in English because I loved literature, and though I didn’t like economics, I took several courses in it, as well as lots of math and some physics.

I did well in football, despite my size: I was a six-foot-two-inch, 198-pound offensive lineman, often outweighed by 50 or more pounds by opposing tackles. Our coach, Bob Blackman, was a superb teacher who trained many other coaches. We won the Lambert trophy as the top Division 1-A team in the East in 1965 not because we had the finest athletes but because we were the best coached. As a senior I won the award for outstanding lineman in New England.

During two of the summers I was at Dartmouth, I worked at a Christian Science camp in Buena Vista, Colorado, called Adventure Unlimited. We climbed in the mountains, took float trips down the Arkansas River, and rode horses—I couldn’t have been happier. It was also terrific preparation for the future. The first year I was a camp counselor and the next year a unit leader, responsible for the oldest boys, up to 17 and 18 years old, as well as counselors who were older than I. It was a chance to manage and to lead.

Christian Science has always been a big influence on me. It is a religion based on a loving God, not a fearsome one. An authentic confidence comes out of this. You understand that you have great capacity to accomplish good that comes from God. Humility is at the core of the religion. As the evangelist John writes: “I can of mine own self do nothing.”

Christian Science is known to the public mostly for one aspect, physical healing, especially as an alternative to modern medicine and its drugs. There is, in fact, no prohibition against medical treatment. But I am comfortable relying on prayer because it has proven to be consistently effective for physical healing, for dealing with challenges in my career, and for spiritual growth.

In my senior year, several weeks before graduation, I met Wendy Judge, a junior at Wellesley, on a blind date set up by a friend. I was immature and behaved badly. We went to a Boston Pops concert, and she was not impressed when I folded my program into a paper airplane and sailed it off the balcony at Arthur Fiedler, the conductor. Wendy asked to be taken home early, and I thought I’d never hear from her again. But she called me up later and invited my roommate and me to come down for Tree Day, a Wellesley celebration of spring. So I had reason to think there was hope.

I graduated from Dartmouth in 1968, in the midst of the Vietnam War. As a member of the Naval ROTC program, I spent the summer before Harvard Business School on the campus of Purdue University in West Lafayette, Indiana. It was a strange place for the Naval ROTC—surrounded by cornfields with no water in sight.

Wendy and I started dating regularly my first fall at Harvard Business School. I did well enough there without studying too hard, and I spent much of my time at Wellesley. I was 22 and she was 21, awfully young, but we’d come to know each other very well. She was engaging and athletic, determined and competitive. We shared similar values and interests. Her dad was a Marine colonel, and she was on scholarship. A Phi Beta Kappa English major who loved the outdoors, she wore secondhand clothes, rowed stroke on the crew team, and was an excellent squash player. She earned all her expense money delivering linens and newspapers, and working as a tutor and a night watchman. She was extraordinarily trustworthy and knew her mind.

Wendy and Hillary Rodham Clinton were in the same class. They were friendly from student activities: Wendy served as senior class president, while Hillary was president of the student government. They stayed in touch over the years, and Wendy hosted one of the first fund-raisers in New York City for Hillary’s Senate campaign in 2000.

My earliest exposure to official Washington came between my first and second years at Harvard Business School. Like all Naval ROTC cadets, I was meant to go on a sea cruise in the summer. Wendy was going to spend the summer after her graduation teaching sailing and swimming in Quantico, Virginia. I was very much in love and wanted to be near her, so I cold-called the office of the secretary of the Navy and ended up talking to a captain named Stansfield Turner, who later became CIA director under President Jimmy Carter. I proposed doing a study on the issue of the ROTC on Ivy League campuses. At the time antiwar protesters were burning down ROTC headquarters at schools across America. Turner agreed, and my sea cruise turned into a berth at the Pentagon. My big achievement that summer was proposing to Wendy and getting married eight weeks later, before beginning my second year of business school. I moved quickly even then!

I finished Harvard the following spring, and we moved to Washington, where I started my first job, also at the Pentagon. I worked for a unit called the Analysis Group, a small team that undertook special projects for an assistant secretary of Defense. It was quite a team. I worked with John Spratt, now chairman of the House Committee on the Budget, and Walt Minnick, who would be elected to the House from Idaho in 2008. Bill George, who later ran Med-tronic, preceded us; Stephen Hadley, President Bush’s national security adviser, followed.

One project—ironic when you consider my tenure at Treasury—involved analyzing the controversial loan guarantee for Lockheed Corporation, the big defense contractor, which had run into trouble developing the L-1011 TriStar commercial jet. John Spratt and I were working directly for deputy Defense secretary David Packard, the legendary co-founder of technology pioneer Hewlett-Packard. Driving to work one day, I was so focused on my first presentation for him that I ran out of gas on the George Washington Parkway. I left my car beside the road and hitched a ride to the Pentagon, only to discover that I’d left my suit coat at home. Spratt scrambled to borrow something that fit me. When I finally got my opportunity to brief Packard about Lockheed, he responded as I would today—with great impatience. He took off his glasses, looked out the window, and twirled them, while I went on and on. He didn’t say anything. Wendy would say I still haven’t learned the lesson. I like others to be brief, but brevity is not one of my virtues.

Packard left Defense in December 1971. Not long after, I landed a spot at the White House on the Domestic Council, which was headed by John Ehrlichman. I joined in April 1972. It was an extraordinary time. The Vietnam War was winding down, but the country remained polarized. The economy was under great strain—Nixon had taken the U.S. off the gold standard the previous year.

I hit the ground running, working on a variety of matters such as tax policy, minority and small-business issues, and the minimum wage. I worked directly for a smart lawyer named Lew Engman, who was a great mentor. When he went off to run the Federal Trade Commission after the 1972 election, I took his place—a big promotion.

In early 1973, I became liaison to the Treasury Department, which was then run by George Shultz. Then the effects of Watergate crashed down on us. I had worked well with Ehrlichman. He was an impressive, dedicated person who cared deeply about policy issues. He gave me good advice, too. I remember him telling me that it was important not only to do the right things, but also to be perceived to be doing them.

Ehrlichman warned me off certain people in the White House, particularly Chuck Colson, the president’s special counsel.

“Nixon is a very complex guy,” Ehrlichman explained before the 1972 election. “He’s got a liberal side to him. That’s Len Garment. He’s got an intellectual side and that’s Henry Kissinger.” But, he went on, Nixon was also paranoid. “He’s never had an election that was easy. He thinks the presidency was stolen from him by the Kennedys in 1960, and that in ’68, if the campaign had lasted a couple more days, he would have lost. So he does not want to go into this election without a derringer strapped to his ankle. And that derringer is Chuck Colson.”

I ended up, of course, being disappointed in Ehrlichman, who served time in prison for perjury, conspiracy, and obstruction of justice; Colson was convicted of obstruction of justice. Seeing men who were one day on top of the world and in jail the next taught me an enduring life lesson: never be awed by title or position. Later, I would frequently caution young professionals never to do something they believed was wrong just because a boss had ordered it.

I didn’t spend a lot of time with Nixon, but I got along fine with him when I did. He liked athletes and enjoyed working with young people. I was not smooth, and I occasionally interrupted him out of eagerness to get my point in, but he didn’t take offense.

When I was getting ready to leave my post in December 1973, I was called in to see the president. I went into the Oval Office, and Nixon and I had a brief chat. I’d had this idea to improve the quality of education by replacing property taxes in inner-city and blighted neighborhoods with a value-added tax, essentially a national sales tax, and using the proceeds to fund a voucher system. “Let me tell you about this VAT,” Nixon said. “I liked the idea, but the reason I didn’t go along with it is because the liberals will say it’s regressive, which it is, but if they ever got their hands on it, they’d love it so much they’d never let it go, because it raises so much money so painlessly it would fund all these Great Society programs.”

The repercussions of Watergate had given me plenty of time to look for a job. I chose Goldman Sachs because I wanted to work in the Midwest, and investment banking would give me the chance to work on a number of different projects at once. Goldman had a strong Chicago presence, and I was impressed by its people: Jim Gorter, the senior partner in Chicago, and Bob Rubin and Steve Friedman, who were young partners in New York. My time in government had taught me that whom you work with is as important as what you do.

Goldman wasn’t on top of the heap then. It was not the leading underwriter or merger adviser that it would become; in fact, it was doing few deals. I spent a year training in New York before being placed in the so-called investment banking services unit: we were a group of generalists who learned all areas of finance and managed client relationships.

After that year, Wendy and I moved to Barrington, and we bought five of my father’s 15 acres from him. Then we each borrowed from our parents to build the house we still call home today. It’s a rustic house, nestled at the edge of a woodland on a hill looking out over a grassland. I cut the path for the driveway with a chain saw, built the retaining walls, and split most of the boulders for our stone fireplace. Wendy, who is mechanically inclined, installed the central vacuum system and built a large play area for the children.

Maybe it was because I was already balding and looked older than my 28 years that Goldman had me calling on clients early in my career, which was unusual. My experience in the White House interacting with Cabinet secretaries and the president gave me the confidence to deal directly with the chief executives of companies. Gorter, who ran Goldman’s Midwest business, was very helpful. He told me that if I were patient and always put the client first, I’d come out ahead in the long run.

He was right, but it was very difficult, and I felt a lot of stress. Before, it had been enough to be smart and work hard—success would follow. Now I also had to convince other people to trust me, and every potential client was already someone else’s. But I worked hard and built a big stable of Midwestern clients. I had to fight doggedly for each one. For example, Sara Lee, then known as Consolidated Foods, was a longtime Morgan Stanley client, but I called on the company with one idea after another, building our relationship through small transactions. Eventually we worked on more significant things. Along the way, I became close to the CEO, John Bryan, an extraordinary man whom I admired as an executive, as well as for his values: he had an active philanthropic life away from the office, and he became a friend and mentor to me. When Goldman went public, I convinced him to join our board of directors.

There are different ways to build relationships. It helps to socialize, but I liked to sell substance. I had a very direct approach that clients needed time to get used to. I wanted people to feel they’d learned something from me each time we met. I advised my clients on all kinds of things that, strictly speaking, had nothing to do with investment banking: from help with business strategies to advice on foreign competition and even insights on the quality of their executives. It was the beginning of the era of hostile takeovers and leveraged buyouts, and we advised many companies in the 1980s on how to defend themselves from unwanted overtures.

Long hours at the office can cause problems at home, and this was a period of great stress in my marriage. I’d come home too tired to want to do much with the children when they were very young. We couldn’t afford to finish our bedroom, so we were living in an open loft, with the kids in rooms right next to us. I sometimes locked myself in the bathroom with Sports Illustrated to relax in quiet. Wendy made it clear I had to help out and get home earlier to give the kids baths, read a story, and put them to bed.

With Gorter’s support, I began a pattern where I’d leave the office at 4:30 p.m., run for the 4:42 p.m. train, and be home at 5:25 p.m. After supper, I’d read to the kids. I had them trained so I could zip through a bedtime story very quickly. One night Wendy came in and urged, “Slow down and read with expression.” I tried, but as soon as I did, both kids started crying: “No, no! Read like a daddy, not like a mommy.” Once they were asleep, I’d get on the phone and start talking to clients, who’d say, “Good Lord, you’re still in the office working?”

When I tell this story about work-life balance, people say: “Paulson, you SOB, you worked people harder than anybody at Goldman Sachs.” Fair enough. But I always told folks at Goldman: It’s not your boss’s job to figure out your life. You spend so much time planning your work schedule and your career, you need to make that kind of effort to manage your private life, too. Learn how to say no. Remember, you are not going to get ahead, in any case, being a grunt.

These days, Amanda is the Midwestern bureau chief for the Christian Science Monitor in Chicago, and she and her husband, Josh, have two children. Merritt owns and runs the Portland Beavers Triple-A baseball team and the Portland Timbers soccer team. He and his wife, Heather, have a daughter.

Over the years I developed an interest in management. When Gorter moved up to run investment banking for Goldman, he prodded me to take over the Midwestern region. I chaired a couple of strategic planning committees, and in 1990, when John Weinberg retired as head of the firm, his successors, Steve Friedman and Bob Rubin, picked me to run investment banking with Bob Hurst and Mike Overlock. I was also asked to put together a strategy for growing our private-equity business and to oversee it. We had also decided to expand in Asia, and my New York colleagues said to me: “Chicago is closer to Asia than New York. Why don’t you take that?”

I welcomed the challenge. Asia, and China in particular, was on the verge of the incredible boom we have seen in recent years, but we did almost nothing on the mainland then. My first meeting with China’s senior leaders came in 1992, when Tung Chee-hwa, who was then running his own company and later became chief executive of the Hong Kong Special Administrative Region, took me to meet President Jiang Zemin. We were talking about economic reform, and Jiang told me that he had been reading about the U.S. economy, ticking off the names of companies he knew, like General Electric, Boeing, and IBM. Then he looked me right in the eye and said, “Assets equal liabilities plus equity.”

I’m not sure that our country’s leaders could have summed up a balance sheet as succinctly as this born-and-bred Communist. I flew back and told Rubin and Friedman that there was a huge opportunity in China and that I thought we should expand aggressively. From having virtually no presence there at all in 1992, we went to having perhaps 1,500 people in the country when I left Goldman in 2006. In that time I made about 70 trips to China.

The effort paid off in many ways—including some I couldn’t have imagined before. It made Goldman the leading banking adviser in the world’s fastest-growing economy, and it gave me a range of close relationships and contacts with the most senior Chinese leaders. These would help us enormously when I was at Treasury, especially during the financial crisis. Because of the high-profile nature of the work—generally privatizations of state-owned companies—I got very involved in our early efforts. These deals required a terrific amount of strategic and technical work as we prepared China’s often bloated and creaky state-run companies for the demands of Western investors, who expected world-class business operations and sound corporate governance. The Chinese, for their part, were eager to adopt the best practices from the West.

During this time Goldman was growing rapidly all over the world and prospering handsomely. But we also had two big scares that made me reexamine my views on risk. Both episodes led me to take a greater role in the management of the firm.

The first came in 1994, when Goldman had a very difficult year, with big trading problems. The firm lost more than a hundred million dollars every month for a number of months. Our capital structure was also a big problem. When partners left, they took half of their money and left the rest in the firm, earning interest on it. That year, spooked by the trading losses, far more partners than usual decided to leave and “go limited,” putting our capital under great strain. As long as we could keep the partners, the firm’s viability was never in question. Even though the size of our balance sheet had grown dramatically, Goldman’s leadership had always understood that if you were relying on wholesale funding, like an investment bank does, you had better have great amounts of excess liquidity—in layman’s terms, more than enough cash on hand at all times to pay off any immediate demands from creditors.

Complicating matters, Steve Friedman, a mentor and friend who had been running the firm alone—Bob Rubin had joined the Clinton administration—decided to retire in September because of concerns about his health. Jon Corzine was named chairman, with me as vice chairman and chief operating officer. Out of our near disaster, we set up new oversight committees and installed far better systems, processes, and controls for managing risk.

The next scare came in 1998. That spring the partners voted to become a public company. A number of investment banks were making big bets on Russia, which defaulted. As these firms lost money, they raced to raise cash. They couldn’t sell their Russian holdings, which had become worthless, so they started selling other investments, like mortgage securities, which drove down their value.

Even if you had a conservatively managed mortgage business, as Goldman did, you lost heavily. The markets began to seize up, and securities that had been very liquid suddenly became illiquid. The biggest victim of this was the hedge fund Long-Term Capital Management, whose failure, it was feared, might lead to a broad collapse of the markets. The investment banking industry, prodded by the Federal Reserve, banded together to bail out LTCM, but the pain was broader. I remember watching some of our competitors struggling for survival because they had relied on short-term funding that they couldn’t roll over. Goldman made money—I think we ended up earning 12 percent on capital for the year—but we were hemorrhaging for a month or two, and it was frightening. We had to postpone our initial public offering, which had been scheduled for the fall.

Meantime, tension was growing between Jon Corzine and me. I had been named co-chairman and co-CEO that June, and, frankly, the pairing was never right. The structure wouldn’t work for a public company, and I concluded I could not continue to work with Jon as co-CEO. I secured the support of our management committee, and in early January 1999, Corzine’s friend and protégé John Thain, then our CFO, went to talk with him. Then I followed and told Jon that he would need to step aside.

“Hank,” I remember him saying, “I underestimated you. I didn’t know you were such a tough guy.”

But it wasn’t about being tough. It was about what I thought was the right thing for Goldman. Corzine stepped down immediately as CEO and left in May 1999, when Goldman went public, ending 130 years of partnership.

Like many Goldman executives, I worried about what it would mean to the culture and ethos of the firm to be a public company. We worked hard to maintain the cohesiveness and the frankness of the old partnership culture. I was determined to properly align my interests with those of our shareholders. During my final three years as CEO, my bonus was paid entirely in stock. With the exception of charitable giving (including donations to our family foundation), I decided that as long as I remained CEO, I would not sell a single share of the stock I had received in exchange for my partnership interest when we went public, nor would I sell those shares I received for my annual compensation. This emulated the pre-public Goldman Sachs, whose leaders were long-term owners with the vast majority of their net worth invested in the firm.

Those first years were trying ones. We had to contend with the end of the dot-com boom and the subsequent recession, the effects of the 9/11 terror attacks, and the onset of a bear market for stocks. But I think it fair to say that by any measure, we were successful. In the seven years between May 1999 and May 2006, just before I left, the number of Goldman employees (including affiliates) grew from nearly 15,000 to about 24,000. Net earnings of $5.6 billion for 2005 were more than double the pro forma net earnings of $2.6 billion of 1999.

Success notwithstanding, the financial industry had plenty of problems, and we had our share. Much of Wall Street, including Goldman Sachs, got tarred with the scandal over tainted securities research that came to light in 2002. I was concerned about such lapses in judgment, particularly at Goldman Sachs. I knew we could all do better, and I began to speak out.

I soon earned a bit of a reputation as a crusader or at least as a moralist. I wasn’t a wild-eyed reformer, and I had never wanted a microphone. For me the issue was simple: in business, as in life, we should do not just what is legal but what is right. I hadn’t heard anybody state this obvious point, which was what I tried to do when I gave a well-covered speech at the National Press Club in June 2002.

“In my lifetime, American business has never been under such scrutiny,” I said. “And to be blunt, much of it is deserved.”

I was later told that my speech was helpful in passing the Sarbanes-Oxley legislation. These reforms were enacted after a rash of corporate and accounting scandals, most notoriously the collapse of Enron, and created tougher standards for public accounting firms and the management and boards of public companies.

Every now and then I’d chide my colleagues about the dangers of the ostentatious lifestyles I saw among Goldman bankers. I’d get in front of the partners—I was never scripted—and say things like: “You have got to remember something. No one likes investment bankers. You make your life more difficult when you build a 15,000-square-foot house.” Of course I also recognized that for some of our people, the desire to make money was what kept them working so hard and kept Goldman Sachs doing well.

I guess it’s fair to say that the excesses of investment bankers were just an extreme example of conspicuous consumption in a disposable age. Wendy groused about this all the time—people buying things they didn’t need, then casually throwing those things away. Wendy is an avid environmentalist: she carries trash off airplanes to recycle it. She still wears clothes from the early ’70s and uses pots and pans that came from my parents’ basement. We even use the same toaster oven we’ve had since we got married 40 years ago. Why wouldn’t we? It works perfectly well.

Wendy and I share a love of natural landscapes and wildlife, which has led to a strong interest in conservation. We have been active in philanthropic activities, devoted to the stewardship of our natural heritage both here in the United States and globally. For me this has meant serving as chairman of the board of the Nature Conservancy, co-chairman of the Asia Pacific Council of the Nature Conservancy (where, among other initiatives, we worked to establish parks in the Yunnan Province of China), and chairman of the board of the Peregrine Fund, which is dedicated to protecting birds of prey around the world.

By the spring of 2006, Goldman Sachs was enjoying record levels of activity and income, its shares were at an all-time high, and I was not looking to make any change in my life when the possibility of my going to Treasury started being discussed. There were rumors that Treasury Secretary John Snow would be leaving, and one Sunday morning I woke to see a New York Times article with a picture of me and the American flag, suggesting that I would be the next Treasury secretary.

Not long after that, I got a call from Josh Bolten, President Bush’s new chief of staff and a former Goldman executive, to gauge my interest in the job. Goldman was clicking, and I wasn’t eager to leave. I told Josh I couldn’t see doing it, and I used Wendy as an excuse: she did not want to go to Washington, and she was a supporter of Hillary Clinton’s. I also wasn’t sure what I’d be able to accomplish at the end of a second term.

Josh was persistent. He knew that I had been invited to an upcoming lunch on April 20 at the White House in honor of Chinese president Hu Jintao, and he invited me to meet with President Bush then. “The president normally only meets with people when they want to accept,” Josh explained. “But he’d like to visit with you privately in his residence the night before the lunch.”

“Fine,” I said. “I’ll be there.”

A day or so before I was scheduled to go down to Washington, John Rogers, my chief of staff at Goldman, asked me whether I was planning to accept the post.

“Probably not. I can’t think of what he could say to persuade me,” I said.

“You shouldn’t meet with him, then,” said John, who was wise in the ways of Washington. “You don’t tell the president no like that.”

I called Josh immediately and explained that I was not going to see the president after all because I had decided against taking the job.

Wendy and I flew to Washington for the Hu Jintao lunch, and I met beforehand with Zhou Xiaochuan, the Chinese central bank governor, at the headquarters of the International Monetary Fund. He asked to see me alone, and we went off to a room where no one could listen in and where there were no note takers.

“I think you should become Treasury secretary,” he said.

“I’m not going to do it,” I said, without going into the details. I was surprised at how well informed he was.

“I think you’ll be sorry,” Zhou replied. “I am someone who’s spent my life in government. You are a public-spirited person, and I think there’s much you could accomplish in the world right now.”

The lunch at the White House was an impressive gathering. Still, I felt the president was cool with me when I saw him, as was Vice President Dick Cheney, with whom I’d had a good relationship. Someone in the receiving line who was well plugged into the administration said to me, “Hank, you’d have been a great Treasury secretary. And you know there may not be a chance for another Republican for years. Do you know what you’re doing turning this down?”

When the lunch was over, Wendy and I walked onto the White House grounds by the entrance to the Treasury. It was a gorgeous day, the magnolias and cherry blossoms in full bloom set dramatically against a crisp blue sky.

I felt awful.

I don’t hide my emotions well, and Wendy could see I was distressed. She said: “Pea”—which is what she likes to call me—“I hope you didn’t turn this down because of me. You know if it was really important to you, I would have agreed.”

At the time, she thought that was a throwaway line.

“No,” I said, “I didn’t.”

Shortly after, I went down to the Yucatán for a Nature Conservancy meeting, and I was in agony wondering whether I’d made a mistake. Almost everyone I’d consulted had advised against it. They would say: “You’re the head of Goldman Sachs. You’re the man; why go to Washington? The president has just two and a half years left. Look how unpopular he is. The Republicans are about to lose Congress. What can you possibly get done?”

And yet part of me knew I owed much to my country, and it troubled me to say no to the president when he was asking for help. My good friend John Bryan reminded me that “there are no dress rehearsals in life. Do you really want to be 75 and telling people ‘I could have been Treasury secretary’?”

I called Rogers and said, “John, I can’t believe I’ve done this.”

He said, “Well, you may get another chance. They may come back.”

And they did. I was in Germany on business in May, when Josh called again, and I agreed to meet him in D.C. on my way out to the West Coast for a Microsoft conference. We talked in a private suite at the Willard Hotel about what could be accomplished in the remaining years of the administration. We talked about what it was like to work with the president and about pressing policy matters like the need for entitlement reforms, as well as other areas where he thought I might be helpful, such as with Iran and cracking down on terror financing.

I turned to a number of people for advice. Jim Baker, the former secretary of Treasury and State, who had recommended me to the president and urged me to accept the position, said that I should ask to be the primary adviser and spokesman for all domestic and international economic issues. “That,” as he put it, “really covers everything.”

I was still struggling to decide. My epiphany came while I was flying out to the Microsoft meeting. As I thought through my decision, I recognized that it was simply fear that was causing me such anxiety. Fear of failure, fear of the unknown: the uncertainty of working with a group of people I had never worked with before and managing people I had never managed before.

Once I understood this, I pushed back hard against the fear. I wasn’t going to give in to that. I prayed for the humility to do something not out of a sense of ego, but out of the fundamental understanding that one’s job in life is to express the good that comes from God. I always believed you should run toward problems and challenges; it was what I told the kids in camp when I was a counselor, and I now told myself that again. Fear of failure is ultimately selfish; it reflects a preoccupation with self and overlooks the fact that one’s strength and abilities come from the divine Mind.

I arranged to go back to Washington to see Josh again. As we sat in front of the fireplace in his office, beneath a portrait of Abraham Lincoln, I laid out my “asks.” In addition to being the administration’s primary economic adviser and spokesman, I wanted to be able to replace political appointees and bring in my own team, and to have regular access to the president, on a par with the secretaries of Defense and State. I asked to chair the economic policy lunch held at the White House. Josh rang up Al Hubbard, the National Economic Council (NEC) director, at his home in Indianapolis to be sure he was all right with this, and he was.

After Josh and I worked out these details, I went up to see the president in the residence. I found George Bush to be personable, direct, and very engaged. He was relaxed, having come in from a bike ride that morning, and had his feet up. We talked about a number of issues: how important it would be to address entitlements, and that perhaps having the Treasury secretary as opposed to the president lead this effort might help win support from both sides of the aisle. We talked about using financial sanctions to make a difference with Iran and North Korea. At the end of the hour-long meeting, I told him that I planned to accept.

From there, things went into overdrive. An announcement had to be made before the news leaked. I flew out to Barrington for the weekend to spend some time with Wendy, who was in despair over the impending loss of our privacy as we were fed into the Washington meat grinder, and to tell Mom the news. Then I returned to New York and called Lloyd Blankfein, summoning him back from a weekend with his family to discuss the developments. I asked Lindsay Valdeon, my trusted assistant at Goldman Sachs, to make the move to Washington with me, and she agreed.

I then called the board members and all 17 executives on the management committee to tell them, and asked Lloyd and John Rogers to fly with me to Washington for the ceremony.

Afterward, we flew out to Chicago for a previously scheduled partners’ meeting. I woke up the next morning, and I was on the front page of every newspaper. It took my breath away. Even though the coverage was positive, it was unnerving.

The Senate voted to confirm me before the Fourth of July recess. There was only one hurdle remaining—my mother. I was concerned about what she might say when she met the president. She promised me that she would be on her best behavior.

I was sworn in on July 10, 2006. The ceremony took place in the Treasury Building’s Cash Room, an extraordinary space that was designed in the 1860s to look like an Italian palazzo. It has marble floors and marble-clad walls that soar to an ornate gold-edged ceiling from which massive bronze chandeliers hang. Until it was closed for security reasons in the 1970s, the room had been open to the public: government checks could be cashed there and Treasury bonds purchased. My oath of office was administered by Supreme Court Chief Justice John Roberts with President Bush—and my mother—in attendance.

My mother suffered when Hillary Clinton lost in the 2008 Democratic primaries to Barack Obama; she wants to live to see a woman become president and the Cubs win the World Series. And she voted for Obama. Given the chance again, she probably still would not have voted for George W. Bush in 2000 or 2004. But after watching the way he worked with me, and having heard me report back to her about one issue after another, I can tell you this: she looks at the president a lot differently today than she did when I first went to Washington. So do Wendy, Merritt, and Amanda.