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       Daintry turned gloomily into St James's Street, and as he passed White's on the way to his flat a voice hailed him from the steps. He looked up from the gutter in which his thoughts had lain. He recognised the face, but he couldn't for the moment put a name to it, nor even remember in what circumstances he had seen it before. Boffin occurred to him. Buffer?

       'Got any Maltesers, old man?'

       Then the scene of their encounter came back to him with a sense of embarrassment.

       'What about a spot of lunch, Colonel?'

       'Buffy was the absurd name. Of course, the fellow must certainly possess another, but Daintry had never learnt it. He said, ' I'm sorry. I've got lunch waiting for me at home.' This was not exactly a lie. He had put out a tin of sardines before he went to Hanover Square, and there remained some bread and cheese from yesterday's lunch.

       'Come and have a drink then. Meals at home can always wait,' Buffy said, 'and Daintry could think of no excuse not to join him.

       As it was still early only two people were in the bar. They seemed to know Buffy a thought too well, for they greeted him without enthusiasm. Buffy didn't seem to mind. He waved his hand in a wide gesture that included the barman. 'This is the Colonel.' Both of them grunted at Daintry with weary politeness. Never caught your name,' Buffy said, 'at that shoot.'

       'I never caught yours.'

       'We met,' Buffy explained, at Hargreaves' place. The Colonel is one of the hush-hush boys. James Bond and all that.'

       One of the two said, 'I never could read those books by Ian.'

       'Too sexy for me,' the other one said. ‘Exaggerated. I like a good screw as much as the next man, but it's not all that important, is it? Not the way you do it, I mean.'

       'What'll you have?' Buffy asked.

       'A dry martini,' Colonel Daintry said, 'and, remembering his meeting with Doctor Percival, he added, ' very dry.'

       'One large very dry, Joe, and one large pink. Really large, old chap. Don't be stingy.'

       A deep silence fell over the little bar as though each one was thinking of something different—of a novel by Ian Fleming, of a shooting party, or a funeral. Buffy said, 'The Colonel and I have a taste in common Maltesers.'

       One of the men emerged from his private thoughts and said, 'Maltesers? I prefer Smarties.'

       'What the hell are Smarties, Dicky?'

       'Little chocolate things all different colours. They taste much the same, but, I don't know why, I prefer the red and yellow ones. I don't like the mauve.'

       Buffy said, ' I saw you coming down the street, Colonel. You seemed to be having quite a talk with yourself, if you don't mind my saying so. State secrets? Where were you off to?'

       'Only home,' Daintry said. ‘I live near here.'

       'You looked properly browned off. I said to myself, the country must be in serious trouble. The hush-hush boys know more than we do.'

       'I've come from a funeral.'

       'No one close, I hope?'

       'No. Someone from the office.'

       'Oh well, a funeral's always better to my mind than a wedding. I can't bear weddings. A funeral's final. A wedding well, it's only an unfortunate stage to something else. I'd rather celebrate a divorce—but then that's often a stage too, to just another wedding. People get into the habit.'

       'Come off it, Buffy,' said Dicky, the man who liked Smarties, 'you thought of it once yourself. We know all about that marriage bureau of yours. You were damned lucky to escape. Joe, give the Colonel another martini.'

       Daintry, with a feeling of being lost among strangers, drank the first down. He said, 'like a man picking a sentence from a phrase book in a language he doesn't know, ' I was at a wedding too. Not long ago.'

       'Hush-hush again? I mean, one of your lot?'

       'No. It was my daughter. She got married.'

       'Good God,' Buffy said, 'I never thought you were one of those I mean one of those married fellows.'

       'It doesn't necessarily follow,' Dicky said.

       The third man, who had hardly spoken up till then, said, 'You needn't be so damned superior, Buffy. I was one of those too once, though it seems the hell of a long time ago. As a matter of fact it was my wife who introduced Dicky to Smarties. You remember that afternoon, Dicky? We'd had a pretty gloomy lunch, because we sort of knew we were breaking up the old home. Then she said, "Smarties," just like that, "Smarties"... I don't know why. I suppose she thought we had to talk about something. She was a great one for appearances.'

       'I can't say I do remember, Willie. Smarties seem to me to date back a long time in my life. Thought I'd discovered them for myself. Give the Colonel another dry, Joe.'

       'No, if you don't mind... I've really got to get home.'

       'It's my turn,' the man called Dicky said. ‘Top up his glass, Joe. He's come from a funeral. He needs cheering up.

       'I got used to funerals very early,' Daintry said to his own surprise after he had taken a swig of the third dry martini. He realised he was talking more freely than he usually did with strangers and most of the world to him were strangers. He would have liked to pay for a round himself, but of course it was their club. He felt very friendly towards them, but he remained—he was sure of it in their eyes a stranger still. He wanted to interest them, but so many subjects were barred to him.

       'Why? Were there a lot of deaths in your family?' Dicky asked with alcoholic curiosity.

       'No, it wasn't exactly that,' Daintry said, 'his shyness drowning in the third martini. For some reason he remembered a country railway station where he had arrived with his platoon more than thirty years ago—the signs naming the place had all been removed after Dunkirk against a possible German invasion. It was as though once again he were delivering himself of a heavy pack, which he let drop resoundingly on the floor of White's. 'You see,' he said, 'my father was a clergyman, so I went to a lot of funerals when I was a child.'

       'I would never have guessed it,' Buffy said. ‘Thought you'd come from a military family—son of a general, the old regiment, and all that cock. Joe, my glass is crying to be refilled. But, of course, when you come to think of it, your father being a clergyman does explain quite a lot.'

       'What does it explain?' Dicky asked. For some reason he seemed to be annoyed and in the mood to question everything. The Maltesers?'

       'No, no, the Maltesers are a different story. I can't tell you about them now. It would take too long. What I meant was the Colonel belongs to the hush-hush boys, and so in a way does a clergyman, when you come to think of it... You know, the secrets of the confessional and all that, they are in the hush-hush business too.'

       'My father wasn't a Roman Catholic. He wasn't even High Church. He was a naval chaplain. In the first war.'

       'The first war,' said the morose man called Willie who had once been married, was the one between Cain and Abel.' He made his statement flatly as though he wanted to close an unnecessary conversation.

       'Willie's father was a clergyman too,' Buffy explained. 'A big shot. A bishop against a naval chaplain. Trumps.'

       'My father was in the Battle of Jutland,' Daintry told them. He didn't mean to challenge anyone, to set up Jutland against a bishopric. It was just another memory which had returned.

       'As a non-combatant, though. That hardly counts, does it?' Buffy said. ‘Not against Cain and Abel.'

       'You don't look all that old,' Dicky said. ‘He spoke with an air of suspicion, sucking at his glass.

       'My father wasn't married then. He married my mother after the war. In the twenties.' Daintry realised the conversation was becoming absurd. The gin was acting like a truth drug. He knew he was talking too much.

       'He married your mother?' Dicky asked sharply like an interrogator.

       'Of course he married her. In the twenties.'

       'She's still alive?'

       'They've both been dead a long time. I really must be getting home. My meal will be spoilt,' Daintry added, thinking of the sardines drying on a plate. The sense of being among friendly strangers left him. The conversation threatened to turn ugly.

       'And what has all this to do with a funeral? What funeral?'

       'Don't mind Dicky,' Buffy said. 'He likes interrogating. He was in MI5 during the war. More gins, Joe. He's already told us, Dicky. It was some poor bugger in the office.'

       'Did you see him properly into the ground?'

       'No, no. I just went to the service. In Hanover Square.'

       'That would be St George's,' said the son of the bishop. He held his glass out to Joe as though it were a communion cup.

       It took quite a time for Daintry to detach himself from the bar at White's. Buffy even conducted him as far as the steps. A taxi passed. You see what I mean,' Buffy said. 'Buses in St James's. No one was safe.' Daintry had no idea what he meant. As he walked down the street towards the palace he was aware that he had drunk more than he had drunk for years at this hour of the day. They were nice fellows, but one had to be careful. He had spoken far too much. About his father, his mother. He walked past Lock's hat shop; past Overton's Restaurant; he halted on the pavement at the corner of Pall Mall. He had overshot the mark he realised that in time. He turned on his heel and retraced his steps to the door of the flat where his lunch awaited him.

       The cheese was there all right and the bread, and the tin of sardines which after all he had not yet decanted. He was not very clever with his fingers, and the small leaf of the tin broke before the tin was a third open. All the same he managed to fork out half the sardines in bits and pieces. He wasn't hungry—that was enough. He hesitated whether he should drink any more after the dry martinis and then chose a bottle of Tuborg.

       His lunch lasted for less than four minutes, but it seemed to him quite a long time because of his thoughts. His thoughts wobbled like a drunken man's. He thought first of Doctor Percival and Sir John Hargreaves going off together down the street in front of him when the service was over, their heads bent like conspirators. He thought next of Davis. It wasn't that he had any personal liking for Davis, but his death worried him. He said aloud to the only witness, which happened to be a sardine tail balanced on his fork, 'A jury would never convict on that evidence.' Convict? He hadn't any proof that Davis had not died, as the post mortem showed, a natural death—cirrhosis was what one called a natural death. He tried to remember what Doctor Percival had said to him on the night of the shoot. He had drunk too much that night, as he had done this morning, because he was ill at ease with people whom he didn't understand, and Percival had come uninvited to his room and talked about an artist called Nicholson.

       Daintry didn't touch the cheese; he carried it back with the oily plate to the kitchen—or kitchenette as it would be called nowadays there was only room for one person at a time. He remembered the vast spaces of the basement kitchen in that obscure rectory in Suffolk where his father had been washed up after the Battle of Jutland, and he remembered Buffy's careless words about the confessional. His father had never approved of confession nor of the confessional box set up by a High Church celibate in the next parish. Confessions came to him, if they came at all, second-hand, for people did confess sometimes to his mother, who was much loved in the village, and he had heard her filter these confessions to his father, with any grossness, malice or cruelty removed. 'I think you ought to know what Mrs Baines told me yesterday.'

       Daintry spoke aloud the habit was certainly growing on him to the kitchen sink, There was no real evidence against Davis.' He felt guilty of failure a man in late middle age near to retirement retirement from what? He would exchange one loneliness for another. He wanted to be back in the Suffolk rectory. He wanted to walk up the long weedy path lined with laurels that never flowered and enter the front door. Even the hall was larger than his whole flat. A number of hats hung from a stand on the left and on the right a brass shell-case held the umbrellas. He crossed the hall and, very softly opening the door in front of him, he surprised his parents where they sat on the chintz sofa hand in hand because they thought they were alone. Shall I resign,' he asked them, 'or wait for retirement?' He knew quite well that the answer would be 'No' from both of them from his father because the captain of his cruiser had shared in his eyes something of the divine right of kings—his son couldn't possibly know better than his commanding officer the right action to take—and from his mother well, she would always tell a girl in the village who was in trouble with her employer, 'Don't be hasty. It's not so easy to find another situation.' His father, the ex-naval chaplain, who believed in his captain and his God, would have given him what he considered to be the Christian reply, and his mother would have given him the practical and worldly answer. What greater chance had he to find another job if he resigned now than a daily maid would have in the small village where they had lived?

       Colonel Daintry went back into his sitting-room, forgetting the oily fork he carried. For the first time in some years he possessed his daughter's telephone number she had sent it to him after her marriage on a printed card. It was the only link he had with her day-to-day life. Perhaps it would be possible, he thought, to invite himself to dinner. He wouldn't actually suggest it, but if she made an offer...'

       He didn't recognise the voice which answered. He said, 'Is that 6731075?'

       'Yes. Who do you want?' It was a man speaking—a stranger.

       He lost his nerve and his memory for names. He replied, 'Mrs Clutter.'

       'You've got the wrong number.'

       'I'm sorry.' He rang off. Of course he should have said, 'I meant Mrs Clough,' but it was too late now. The stranger, he supposed, was his son-in-law.