IT is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the
living God.
But it
is a much more fearful thing to fall out of them.
Did Lucifer fall through
knowledge?
oh then,
pity him, pity him that plunge!
Save me, O God, from falling into the ungodly
knowledge
of myself
as I am without God.
Let me never know, O God
let me never know what I am or should
be
when I have
fallen out of your hands, the hands of the living
God.
That awful and sickening endless sinking,
sinking
through the
slow, corruptive levels of disintegrative knowledge
when the self has fallen from
the hands of God
and
sinks, seething and sinking, corrupt
and sinking still, in depth after depth of
disintegrative con- sciousness
sinking in the endless undoing, the awful
katabolism into the abyss!
even of the soul, fallen from the hands of
God!
Save me from that, O God!
Let me never know myself apart from the living
God!