CHAPTER 20
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Feeling drowsy and entirely satisfied, Mari
woke to find herself wrapped in Ken’s arms. His body was tight up
against hers, his erection pressed against her buttocks. She
couldn’t believe he could possibly be hard again and ready, but the
thought excited her. He had ridden her throughout the night, over
and over, his voice growling rough orders in her ear, his hands
every bit as demanding as his mouth and body, as if he could never
get enough of her. She didn’t want him to ever get enough. Before
she could move, stroke her palm over his tempting hard-on, his soft
laughter tickled her ear.
“Get the hell out of here, Briony. You’re such a
brat. We’re sleeping.”
“You’ve been sleeping for hours. I want to meet my
sister.”
Mari’s heart pounded, but she couldn’t look up,
didn’t dare. Her mouth went dry and her stomach rolled.
“Jack! Damn it. I’m naked in here and this is just
wrong. Your woman has no sense of propriety.”
“Stop being a baby. I’m just looking at my sister,
not you, so don’t flatter yourself.”
Ken laughed and the sound ripped through Mari like
a tidal wave, knotting her stomach with something all too close to
jealousy. She recognized the emotion although she’d never
experienced it before. Ken didn’t laugh that often, but she could
hear the easy affection in his voice. He genuinely cared for
Briony, and Ken didn’t care for that many people. It had never
occurred to Mari that she might be jealous of another
woman—especially when that woman was her pregnant sister.
Ashamed, she took a deep breath to calm herself.
Life was happening too fast for her. She had wanted to see Briony
her entire life, yet now, faced with the reality, she was
frightened. Mari forced herself to look up, to smile, to pretend
her heart wasn’t thudding in her chest and that one wrong word, one
look of disappointment wouldn’t crush her—destroy her.
Briony was short, with platinum and gold hair. She
wore it a little longer than Mari, a little softer style. It framed
her face and called attention to her large, dark eyes. She had an
obviously rounded tummy, but the rest of her remained slim. Mari
stared at her sister, astonished at how much they looked alike, yet
how different at the same time. Briony was everything she was not.
Soft. Feminine. It really showed. Even her body was subtly
different, and it had nothing to do with the pregnancy. She had
softer curves, where Mari’s muscles were small, but defined.
Briony seemed to be having trouble looking at her,
keeping her concentration on Ken. “You’re so lazy. Get out of bed,
Ken. I waited and waited.”
He threw a pillow at Briony. “You didn’t wait long
enough. And look at you! Your tummy is bigger than a beach
ball.”
Briony threw the pillow back at him. “That’s not
what a pregnant woman wants to hear. Get up and bring my sister out
to me now!” Her gaze shifted to Mari, tears swimming in her
eyes. She choked back a sob and turned and ran from the room.
Ken shifted Mari so she was facing him, her breasts
pressed tightly against his chest, his thigh flung carelessly over
hers, pinning her beneath him. “You’re trembling, sweetheart. You
didn’t say a word to her and she said nothing to you. Talk to
me.”
She shook her head. “She’s perfect. You know she
is. She’s so feminine.”
Ken bit back his first reaction and bent his head
to her breasts. His teeth tugged and teased, tongue sliding over
her creamy flesh. “You’re the most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen,
Mari. Surely you can’t think she won’t like you?”
She shivered and cradled his head to her. He made
her feel beautiful and wanted. Staying in bed with him seemed her
only recourse. “I’ve never been so scared of meeting anyone in my
life.”
His mouth burrowed between her breasts, blazed a
trail of fire up her throat and chin to the corner of her lips.
“You’ll do fine. Take a quick shower and we’ll go together. I’ll be
right there with you.”
Her body was deliciously sore. She stretched
languidly, sliding against him, skin to skin, loving the feel of
him against her. He gave her the courage she needed to take ahold
of life, and this was her most important day. Briony had been so
important to her. Mari had made her into a fantasy. Everything she
had ever wanted to be—everything she wanted to have, to do—Mari had
imagined it all for Briony. Mari had nothing but a stark, cold,
much disciplined life, and she wanted the world for Briony.
Her arms slipped around Ken and she held him to her
ferociously. She felt almost desperate, wanting to fit into his
world but knowing she didn’t. Briony fit. Seeing her just made that
clearer. Mari was a soldier. It was her way of life. Ken didn’t see
her as a soldier; he saw her as soft and gentle, and the reality
was so very far from that image.
Ultimately, Briony was a stranger to her. If Briony
couldn’t accept her with all of her shortcomings, it was going to
hurt, but it would be okay. Her sisters were the women who had been
forged in fire, just as she had been. They knew discipline and duty
and what it was like to be held prisoner, vulnerable and helpless.
They knew her. They understood her, and they loved her. They were
willing to risk everything with her. She belonged with them.
Choking on tears, heart aching, she kissed Ken,
nibbled at his lips and licked the scar that split his mouth into
two soft segments. She’d fallen in love with that scar. “Come with
me to the shower.”
Ken made love to her, taking his time, with the
water spraying down on them, doing his best to be as gentle as he
could as he held her in his arms. It didn’t seem possible to have
her with him in his home, that life could really be so good. In the
end, no matter how he tried, the only way for him to be stimulated
enough to gain relief was rough penetration. He heard the sound of
their flesh meeting, like the slap of a hand, his body pounding
into hers when she was already sore from a long night of his
demands.
His fingers dug into her hips, taking her to the
floor where there was no give, where the penetration was deep and
her tight sheath gripped him the way he needed. The rougher he was,
the more swollen and tight she became and the more pleasure he
felt. He looked down at her, the water pouring over them, his
fingerprints standing out on her soft skin, and he hated his body,
hated who he was.
She wanted him, her body responded to everything he
gave her, pushing her ability to accept pleasure and pain mingled
together in order to accommodate his lusts, but how could she ever
love him when he was so depraved and driven? When a monster lurked
inside of him, one she’d caught glimpses of. Mari was not a stupid
woman, and she had lived her entire lifetime with violence. She
knew he was capable of making her life hell, and in spite of loving
her with his body—worshiping her—he could feel her moving away from
him. He turned up toward the spray, letting it pour over his face
and wash away the burn of tears.
Mari said nothing as he helped her from the floor,
but he noticed she looked as if she had been crying too. She
pressed a kiss to his chest and stepped out of the shower to dry
off. Ken stayed for a longer time, wishing the water could make him
clean again. He watched it run into the drain and wished the small
stream could take his sins with it.
Briony waited in the kitchen, pacing restlessly in
front of Jack. He swung around as Mari and Ken entered, frowning a
little in reprimand.
About damn time. She’s going to have a nervous
breakdown.
Ken flicked his brother a quick warning glance.
So is Mari. She’s terrified. Don’t say anything to upset
her.
Jack flashed him a small grin. Papa bear is
getting all growly over his little cub. All the same he
positioned his body so he could protect Briony should there be
need.
Ken kept his hand on the nape of Mari’s neck,
wanting to give her support. He could feel the tremors running
through her slender body. The woman had enough courage for ten
people, but facing her twin for the first time in years was
traumatic.
“Briony,” Ken said softly. “Jack and I promised you
we’d bring your sister to you and we have. This is
Marigold—Mari.”
Briony’s eyes filled with tears. “I’m sorry. I
can’t stop crying. I’m sure it’s the pregnancy. I’m so happy you’ve
come at last.”
Mari simply stared at her, drank her in, could
barely believe they were in the same room. “Look at you. You look
so happy.”
“I am happy.” Briony wiped at the flowing tears.
“Whitney did something to my memory, and I couldn’t think about my
past without feeling pain. I couldn’t remember anything, but as
soon as I did, I tried to find you.” She took two steps closer but
stopped again, afraid of rejection.
Mari took a step toward her. “Whitney did that to
anyone leaving the compound. He liked to tell me he knew where you
were, and what he could do to you if I didn’t cooperate.”
Briony ducked her head. “I’m sorry. It must have
been terrible for you.”
“No,” Mari said quickly. “It wasn’t. Not really.”
She took another step toward her sister. “I didn’t know any other
way of life, and as a child, it was rather exciting. I missed you
every single day.”
A fresh flood of tears turned Briony’s face bright
red. Jack started across the room, but Mari got there first. She
gathered her sister into her arms and held her. Jack stilled,
halfway to his wife, his throat working convulsively. If there was
one thing he couldn’t take, it was Briony’s tears.
Ken handed him a cup of coffee, and they sat at the
kitchen table while their women went off together, arms around each
other, into the great room.
Jack scrubbed his hand over his face. “Briony’s
killing me with her tears. I’m hoping Mari can get her to
stop.”
Ken flashed him a small grin. “You’re looking a
little pale, bro. What are you going to do when she goes into
labor?”
“I’m contemplating shooting myself.” He tapped the
table restlessly. “What about you? How are things going?”
The grin faded, and for a moment Jack glimpsed pain
sliding into the shadows in Ken’s eyes. “She isn’t going to
stay.”
“You sure?”
“Why would she? She’s got everything going for her.
I’m not exactly normal. And unlike Briony, she isn’t going to be
accepting of me telling her what to do all time.”
Jack nearly snorted coffee through his nose. “Is
that what you think? Briony pretty much tells me how it’s going to
be, except maybe in the bedroom, and even then, she likes what I do
to her or she wouldn’t be doing it. Don’t kid yourself, bro, my
woman makes up the rules and yours will too.”
“Maybe.” Ken couldn’t very well tell his brother
just what it took to feel with his skin sliced to pieces—although
maybe Jack already had guessed. More than once he’d repaired damage
when Ken had been unable to feel the blade of a saw slicing through
his hand until it was too late. He didn’t want to go there and see
pity in Jack’s eyes. “You hear anything about the senator?”
“He’s being guarded at an undisclosed location. No
one is saying how badly he’s hurt. Nothing on the news. Not a
single thing about him being shot and nothing in the media about
Whitney’s laboratory. The general sent in a team, but the place is
abandoned and all data appears to be destroyed. Of course they’ll
take weeks to comb through everything. Whitney’s moved on.” Jack
frowned. “Logan radioed last night to warn us that Sean was last
seen getting off a plane in Montana. He’s heading here. You know he
is.”
Ken nodded. “I was certain he’d follow her, but I
didn’t think he’d come so quickly. Take the women and get out of
here, Jack. I’ll deal with him.”
Jack grunted. “Like that’s going to happen. I’ve
already called Logan. He’ll be here in an hour, and he’ll protect
the women. I’m going to be backing you up just the way we always do
it.”
“Sean isn’t going to stop until he has her or he’s
dead. Whatever Whitney does to these men makes them believe they’re
entitled to the women. They don’t care whether the woman wants them
or not; she’s a possession.”
“We’ll get him.” Jack’s fingers drummed against the
tabletop. “You realize Whitney isn’t alone in this? Senator
Freeman’s father is involved, and Mari dropped the name of a
banker. She’s seen at least two of the others, and that means the
other women probably have as well.”
“Which increases the risk to them. Whitney and the
others are going to want them back for many reasons. I should have
realized when Mari didn’t really talk about them or let me see what
they looked like when she was thinking about them, that they
planned to strike out on their own.”
“You can’t really blame them for not trusting
anyone,” Jack said.
“No, but I’m a little upset with Mari. If she’d
warned me, I could have tried to persuade them that there was help
out there for them.” He kept his face averted from his brother.
Mari was thinking of leaving him. She was going to join her sisters
and follow through with their original plan. He was desperate to
cage her—but how?
“She trusted you with her life, just not with the
other women’s.”
“She did at that,” Ken agreed, and stared out the
window as he sipped at his coffee.
An hour later, Logan arrived, grim-faced and
angry.
“I spotted Sean, or what I’m fairly sure was him,”
he said. “He ducked into the trees and he’s too careful to make the
same mistake twice. I didn’t have a clear identification so I
couldn’t take him out.”
“How close is he?”
“Close, Ken. He’s moving fast. Tell me what you
want and I’ll get it done.”
“You’re going to stay and protect Mari and Briony.
Jack’s going to climb the mountain and let Sean get a real good
look at him. Hopefully he’ll think it’s me. I’ll try to look like
Mari and go for a little walk, lead him away from the house to the
spring that runs along the bluff. I’m guessing he’ll make his try
for Mari. If not, he’ll go after Jack. Either way, Jack will be
waiting or I will.”
“And I babysit.”
“You’ve got the most important job, Logan,” Jack
said, coming up behind them. “Anything happens to Briony and I’m no
good to anyone anymore.”
“I feel the same way about Mari,” Ken added. “If he
gets by us, you have to kill him. No matter what, he has to
die.”
Logan nodded and glanced at the two women as they
entered the room.
“Why the grim faces?” Briony asked.
Jack took her hand and tugged until her smaller
body was up against his. “You’re going to have go down into the
tunnel, Bri. We have a nasty visitor and we can’t take any chances.
Get your emergency pack and go with Mari and Logan.”
Mari frowned and shook her head. “It’s Sean, isn’t
it? He’s found us.”
“That’s right, honey, and you’ve got to get
moving,” Ken said. “Go with your sister and Logan. We’ll take care
of this.”
“What? You think I’m going to go hide while you and
your brother put your lives on the line for me? Think again,” Mari
snapped, her dark eyes flashing. She looked furious. “Sean is my
responsibility, not yours.”
“Like hell. Get in the damned tunnel, Mari, where I
don’t have to worry about you while I take care of this
bastard.”
“I’m going to stay with you.”
Strobes went off in the house. A soft alarm buzzed.
Jack and Ken sent Logan a quick, hard look. “An hour?” Jack
said.
“I don’t have time for this,” Ken snapped, his
voice icy cold. “You’ll do what I say. This is about safety, and
when it comes to safety, you get in line, no arguments.”
“No one controls me. No one. Whitney
couldn’t control me and I’ll be damned if you do. I’m not hiding
while you take the risks.”
Ken stepped closer to her, his eyes glacier-cold.
“You’ll do exactly what I say when I say it, Mari. I’m not fucking
around here. I’m not about to let you get shot so that you can
prove a point. This isn’t about freedom or whatever else you think
it is. Sean wants you any way he can have you. He’s got to go
through me to get to you. If I fail, and Jack fails and Logan
fails, you’re welcome to blow him away.”
Mari’s face paled and she took a step back.
“Don’t you dare look at me like you’re afraid I’ll
hit you!” Ken caught her arm and jerked her toward him.
Mari’s hands came up in a defensive fighting
position. “Get off of me.”
“That was really sensitive of you,” Jack declared.
“Sheesh, Ken, can you be any dumber?”
Ken ignored his brother and pulled Mari tight
against his body. “Last night I was so deep inside you we were
sharing the same skin. And today you’re going to look at me like
I’m some kind of fucking monster.” He looked down at his fingers
biting deep into her arm, abruptly let go, and looked to his
brother for help.
Jack took great care not to glance at Briony.
Baby, you’re the brains of the outfit. Do something
fast.
Without hesitation, Briony made a small sound of
distress. Instantly everyone looked at her. She wrapped her arms
protectively around her large stomach. “Jack. I’m so afraid. Last
time . . .” She trailed off.
Instinctively Mari went to her. “Sean isn’t going
to get close to you. There’s no way that will happen.”
“They came last time, Mari, with helicopters, and
we barely escaped. I can’t climb the cliff now. I can’t run. The
doctor put me on bed rest because I’ve had a few contractions. I
can’t fight this time.”
“Mari’s a damn good soldier, Briony,” Ken said.
“She’s a hell of a shot and I’ve seen her fight. She isn’t about to
allow anyone to get near you.”
Mari shot him a quelling look, but smiled with
reassurance at her sister. “I won’t let anything happen to you or
the babies. I promise. Why don’t you lead the way to the
tunnel?”
“Mari . . .” Ken had no idea what he was going to
say, but he didn’t want to leave it like this. She was wavering
about her decision to stay with him, and ever since he’d brought
her into the house she’d been different.
“Go. Get it done. I need another gun and a couple
of clips of ammo, just to be on the safe side.”
“I can show you where everything is,” Briony said,
slipping her hand into Mari’s.
Ken shook his head and followed Jack out of the
house, checking his rifle and guns automatically as they cached
weapons throughout the yard.
“Keep your mind on what’s going on here,” Jack
said. “Otherwise you’re a dead man. She’s not going
anywhere.”
“How would you know?”
“I see the way she looks at you. Any fool can
see.”
“She isn’t like Briony, Jack. No matter how you cut
it, in the bedroom or out of it, I’m going to be rough on her.
Sooner or later she’s going to hightail it out of here fast. I
don’t know what the hell I’ll do then.” And he didn’t. He couldn’t
think about her leaving him because he knew she was contemplating
just that. His mind went numb—blank.
“Ken.” Jack put his hand on his brother’s shoulder.
“Sean is a trained killer. This isn’t going to be easy. You have to
keep your mind on what you’re doing. Why don’t you let me switch
places with you? He won’t know the difference.”
Ken shook his head. “I’ll be fine. This is my war,
Jack. You just watch yourself up there. If he sees you climbing and
thinks you’re me, he could very well go after you or try to take
you out with a nice, well-placed shot.”
Jack shrugged. “Then you’d better be in position
covering me.”
Ken nodded and went into the shop, emerging a few
minutes later with a blond wig on his head. He hunched, trying to
make himself smaller, staying to the thicker foliage so anyone
watching would only catch glimpses of him. Sean needed to see Jack,
to believe it was Ken climbing the rock face. It would further the
illusion that Mari was hiking in the woods by herself. Ken took up
a position, sitting on a boulder near the spring, lacy fern fronds
covering most of his body as he waited for Sean to spot him. All
the while his gaze searched the ridges to make certain the enemy
wasn’t lying in wait to get a shot off at Jack.
Minutes passed. Fifteen. He could see Jack moving
up the sheer face of the rock to his favorite lookout spot. To an
outsider he appeared to be engaging in a little recreational rock
climbing. Ken knew that once Jack was at the top, he would slide
into the shadow of the cliff, right into a neat little depression
where no one could spot him, and he would have a bird’s-eye view of
the surrounding region.
Twenty minutes. Ken bent, picked up a few small
pebbles, and idly tossed them into the spring. The back of his neck
prickled. He felt an itch between his shoulder blades. There was
the whisper of leaves brushing against clothing. It would all be on
instinct now, and Ken had survival instincts honed from his
childhood, when his father entered the house drunk, intent on
inflicting as much pain and damage as he could on his sons. He knew
when he was in danger. He was being stalked.
Ken bent down again as though picking up more
pebbles. He stayed low, sweeping the area with a casual glance
around. He made a great show of selecting flat stones for throwing.
A twig snapped off to his left on the narrow deer trail that
crisscrossed the hills. The deer had a favorite spot to lie in the
shade near the spring. Ken glanced toward the area where the
grasses were perpetually trampled and saw part of a pant leg. He
palmed the knife in his boot as he straightened, taking care to
stay in the middle of the overgrown ferns.
“Hello Mari,” Sean greeted. “If you stay very, very
quiet, I might let everyone but your lover live. If you give me
trouble, the first person I kill is your whoring sister.”
Ken turned slowly, concealing the knife along his
wrist. “Watch your mouth when you talk about my
sister-in-law.”
“You!” Sean scowled, anger flitting across his
face; then his mouth pulled tight in a snarling grin. “Just the
bastard I wanted to meet.”
“You’re not very smart, are you?” Ken asked, taking
a step to his right to see if Sean would follow. “Did you think I
wouldn’t protect her?”
Sean circled Ken, eyes restlessly searching the
area around them, measuring the distance separating them. “I saw
you on the mountain, climbing,” he said conversationally. “How the
hell could you be up here?”
“My brother, Jack,” Ken replied without emotion.
All rage had disappeared, and he felt the inevitable ice flowing in
his veins, slowing down time, tunneling so that all he saw was a
man with targets painted on his body.
“You can’t have her. I know you took her from
me.”
“She was never yours. She’s her own person, Sean.
You can’t treat her like a possession. She has her own mind and her
own will.” Even as Ken said the words aloud, his heart sank. He was
as bad as Sean, trying to hold her to him when he knew she needed
to fly free. He couldn’t change his nature any more than Sean could
undo whatever he had allowed Whitney to do to him.
Sean palmed his knife. “It’s going to be a pleasure
to kill you.”
“Do you really think it’s going to be that easy?
You sold out, asshole, and you didn’t even do it gracefully. You
must have loved her once, loved her enough to decide you could just
take her—own her.”
“Like you? I saw what you did to her.”
Ken backed away from the spring, luring Sean toward
open ground where Jack could get a clear shot at him. “You loved
her so much you let those bastards strip her naked and photograph
her. You let the doctor stick his fingers inside her, touch her
when you knew how much she hated it. You don’t deserve her.”
Sean tossed the knife back and forth between his
hands, all the while circling, forcing Ken to continue to give
ground. His smile never wavered, a small, evil grin, his gaze hard
as he compelled Ken to back a few more feet. Ken was aware that he
was close to the crumbling edge of the bluff. He shifted on the
balls of his feet—waiting.
Sean feigned an attack. Ken didn’t respond. The
smirk faded just a little. “She was always meant for me. Whitney
promised her to me.”
“In return for betrayal? Did you report the women’s
conversations? Their plans for escape? You were the one who told
him Mari was going to try to talk to the senator about Whitney’s
disgusting baby factory. He was really angry over that one, wasn’t
he? He gave you the heavier dose of Zenith, and you injected it in
her like the good little toad you are.”
Sean hissed a breath out, feigning another attack,
moving forward with incredible speed and striking with a flowing
roundhouse punch. Ken just managed to jerk his head out of the way
and pull in his belly enough to avoid the slice of the knife.
“I had no idea it would kill her. He said if she
got hurt it would heal her. I wouldn’t ever let him harm
Mari.”
“No, you’d just let a perverted doctor touch her
and take pictures to plaster all over his wall so he could jack off
at night.” Ken glided forward, a blurring figure, his wrist
flicking several times, as he moved on past Sean. He was now only a
few feet from the edge of the bluff. “You’d just beat her bloody
and rape her. You sick, twisted fuck.”
Sean stared down at the blood dripping from his
arm, belly, and chest. Thin lines stretched across his skin. He
swore and lunged again, this time, blade up, going for the softer
parts of the body. At the last second Ken pivoted, allowing Sean’s
forward momentum to carry him past, the wrist flicking again. This
time Sean’s left cheek, neck, hip, and thigh sported long
wicked-looking cuts.
Sean screamed, fury burning in his eyes. He danced
in, a big man, light on his feet, snapping a quick thrust and
following it with a hard forward snap kick to Ken’s thigh. The
second kick took Ken in exactly the same spot, deadening his leg.
Before Sean could retract the leg, Ken drove the point of his knife
deep into the man’s calf, twisted, and jumped back, precariously
near the edge of the cliff.
It was a particularly brutal injury. Blood sprayed
in wide arcs, and Sean yelled obscenities, desperation creeping
into his eyes. “You fucking freak. You really think Mari could want
a man like you? Maybe if you wear a mask to cover the horror of
your face.” He spat at Ken, reached down as if to pull the knife
from his calf, but snapped upright, throwing his own knife at Ken’s
chest.
Ken moved with blurring speed, tucking his shoulder
and rolling to the side to avoid the weapon. It burned across his
right bicep, shaving skin. Sean followed the knife, rushing Ken,
certain his heavier body would send Ken over the edge. Ken gripped
Sean with two hands, one at his throat, the other on his upper arm,
superhuman strength, a vise steadily closing, crushing. Sheer
terror swept through Sean. He had been counting on his own enhanced
strength and his hatred of this man, but he never expected the
enormous strength in Ken’s body.
Sean fought like a wild animal, desperately
attempting to knock the legs out from under Ken, twice more finding
the spot on the thigh he’d kicked. Ken seemed inhuman, a monster!
Nothing affected him, that grip relentlessly tightening. Choking,
coughing, Sean flung himself backward with all his weight, his feet
scraping for a purchase as the earth crumbled and gave way beneath
him.
The weight of Sean’s body suddenly was a deadweight
on the end of Ken’s arm. His grip on Sean’s throat was the only
thing preventing the man from falling. They stared at each other,
Ken on his knees, trying to find a way to dig his toes into the
soft dirt for a purchase, to prevent himself from going over the
edge with his enemy. Sean gripped Ken’s arm, determined that if he
went crashing to the rocks below, he would take Ken with him. Blood
made his grip slippery, but desperation gave him added strength. He
dug his fingers into Ken’s skin. The edge crumbled more, sent dirt
skittering down the cliff face. Ken opened his hand to allow Sean
to fall, but the man clamped on his wrist with both hands.
“I go, you go,” he snarled. “Pull me up, damn
you.”
“Not in this lifetime, you son of bitch. You’re out
of her life forever.”
“So are you then.” Sean’s teeth clenched, his grip
tightening like a vise.
The edge was giving way, more dirt and rock
tumbling down, Ken sliding with the weight of Sean’s body pulling
him. He had no leverage to fight, nothing to hang onto, and the
earth around him was shifting and sliding.
Don’t move. Jack’s voice was utterly
calm.
Hell. Ken swore at his brother, trying to
stay absolutely still. He was moving, sliding down the cliff
while Sean hung on like a terrier.
A hole blossomed suddenly in the middle of Sean’s
forehead, and then Ken heard the crack of the shot. The bullet had
passed close to the top of his head, shaving off a few hairs as it
whistled past. Sean’s grip loosened abruptly, his fingers sliding
away as the body fell to the rocks below.
Ken threw his body backward, rolled over, and
stared up at the blue sky, his arm feeling as though it had been
torn out of its socket. He was drenched in perspiration, and his
leg, where Sean had landed several kicks, felt as if a sledgehammer
had been taken to it. He dragged air into his lungs and waited
there, knowing Jack would come.
Clouds spun across the sky, casting shadows over
the ground. Ken closed his eyes and felt exhaustion roll over him.
He was sick inside, his body and mind fatigued. His scars throbbed
painfully, too tight for his skin, reminding him that Sean was
right. He could no longer hide what he was from the world. Mari
knew. Mari saw him for what he was. He couldn’t hide behind a
handsome face anymore.
And she would always have the contrast staring at
her every morning if she did stay. How could she look at Jack and
not be ashamed to be with Ken? Even so, it didn’t matter. He was as
pathetic as Sean. He wanted her to stay. To love him. He
needed her, when he’d never allowed himself to need anything
or anyone. Ken reached out to brush his mind against hers, needing
the touch almost more than he needed the air he was fighting
for.
Mari. It’s over.
I know. Jack sent word to Briony. There was
a small hesitation. You know I can’t stay. You know I
can’t.
He had known, but he couldn’t accept it. His heart
nearly stopped. Don’t. Don’t do this. I’m coming to you now,
baby.
I don’t want you to. And then there was only
a black void. Emptiness. No soft intimate brush, no echo of
laughter or companionship. Simply emptiness. She was gone, shutting
him out of her life. No more happiness. No more feeling alive. It
was all gone.
His gut clenched, and he rolled to his knees, sick
with the idea of losing her. He retched over and over, knowing
absolutely that she left. He couldn’t blame her. It was the only
smart thing to do, and Mari was smart. He smashed his fist into the
ground. Once. Twice.
“Ken.” Jack was there, kneeling beside him. “I
thought I’d lost you.”
He looked up at Jack, not really seeing him. Ken
realized he was lost—he’d been lost for a long time. Mari had
brought him back to life. “She’s gone.” His gaze jumped to Jack’s
face; he saw a hint of guilt creep into his eyes and fade. “You
knew?”
Jack sat back on his heels, his gaze watchful,
wary. “Briony is crying. She told me Mari hugged her and said she
couldn’t stay—that she belonged with the other women.”
“And you didn’t tell Logan to stop her?”
“Mari is a trained soldier. I didn’t want to risk
Logan or Briony getting hurt. You can’t keep Mari tied up for the
rest of her life; you know you can’t.”
“You son of a bitch.”
“Ken. Be reasonable.”
He didn’t feel reasonable. He felt like his world
was crumbling around him. His mind felt fractured, his head
roaring, thunder crashing in his ears. “How long ago?”
“Take it easy, Ken,” Jack said to soothe him.
“Damn it.” Ken’s fist slammed into the dirt,
although he wanted to smash it into his brother’s face. “How long
ago?”
“She left as soon as she knew Sean was dead.”
Ken surged to his feet, a sudden cold blast
spreading through his body. The knots in his belly tightened to the
point of pain. His mouth went dry, the air in his lungs rushing
out, to leave him gasping. He had time. He had to have time to stop
her.
He shoved past Jack and began to trot down the
mountain. He didn’t dare run full-out; the trail was far too
treacherous and his leg was on fire. His steady, ground-eating trot
would get him there quickly. He tried to keep his mind a merciful
blank, but her image insisted on crowding in. Her smile, her dark
chocolate eyes, the way she tilted her chin. He choked back a sob,
felt his heart exploding, tearing at his chest.
The mountain, the forest, his world, his sanctuary,
was a hostile, unyielding place. He couldn’t see its beauty, didn’t
want its beauty.
Nothing—no one—could take her from him. She was
life. She was happiness. She was his only reason to keep going. He
needed her desperately. Her sisters couldn’t have her. They didn’t
need her the way he did. He had been so alone, so empty. Each day,
he had worked, breathed, lived as an automation, and then she had
come into his life and everything in him had come alive.
They couldn’t take her from him. The universe
couldn’t be that cruel. He wanted to scream his denial, but he
needed to save his strength. He ran through the trees, leapt over
rocks, foliage tearing at his skin. His damaged leg throbbed and
burned right along with his lungs, but the image of her rising up
to taunt him kept him running. Why had he left her? Why had he
allowed them to be separated when she was so uncertain about their
future? He had known she was wavering—feeling uncomfortable and
unsure of herself in a foreign environment. He shouldn’t have been
so arrogant and bossy. He could have asked—not ordered—her to go
into the tunnels.
He wouldn’t let anyone take her from him. She could
understand his turbulent nature, his wild cravings, and he
understood her need for freedom. He recognized strength in her, an
iron will, the same as it was in him. He recognized her loyalty; it
ran deep and pure, the same as it was in him. They fit together,
two halves of the same whole. They belonged.
He burst from the forest and half ran, half slid
down the trail into the yard, his chest heaving with exertion, his
eyes a little wild. He ran across the uneven terrain. Dusk was
falling. The house was dark, forbidding, silent. There were no
lights on in the interior.
He flung open the kitchen door, his heart pounding,
a raw gaping wound growing in his gut. She was gone. He knew it
with such certainty he didn’t need to tear through the house,
running insanely from room to room, screaming her name hoarsely,
but he did it anyway.
“Mari! Damn you, Mari, come back to me.”
He heard his own scream of anguish, thought it
should splinter the windows, but there was only silence.
Back in the kitchen he caught up the keys to the
truck with a vague idea of going after her, but tears were blinding
his vision. He stared, unseeing, at the tabletop, defeated, his
broad shoulders slumped, his torn, dirt-streaked clothing clinging
to his sweat-stained body.
It had to be her choice or he was just as bad as
Sean and Whitney and his father. He refused to let his father’s
legacy consume him. He wasn’t that man, selfish and unable to see
that a woman wasn’t a possession. Mari had to choose him, want to
be with him. She had to accept the flaws in him just as he would
have had to accept the fact that she wasn’t Briony, with her much
more submissive personality.
Love was a choice, and if Mari felt the need to be
with her sisters, if the pull there was stronger than her feelings
for him, he couldn’t—and wouldn’t—force her. He pressed the heel of
his hand between his eyes and made no effort to stop the flow of
tears because he loved her enough to let her go.
He could hear the ticking of the clock. The passage
of time. He couldn’t stop the sobs tearing his chest apart, the
tears that had never come for his lost face and his destroyed
manhood. He could hardly bear the pain this time. He had borne so
much stoically, but losing Mari was losing life and hope all over
again, and his throat burned raw with choking sorrow.
“Ken?” A soft inquiry, a beautiful voice.
He stiffened, not believing, not daring to believe.
He passed a hand over his face, choked down the tight lump in his
throat, and turned very slowly.
Mari was standing in the doorway anxious and very
disheveled. Sweat beaded on her skin; leaves and twigs were caught
in her hair. There were scratches on her arms and a rip in her
shirt. She was the most beautiful sight he’d ever seen.
“I thought you were gone.” His voice was
strangled.
“I ran halfway down the road and then I couldn’t
run anymore. I just stopped and stood there crying. I didn’t want
to go any further. I don’t care if I should be with my sisters. I
love you. I know I do. I can’t leave. I have no idea how to be
anything you want me to be, but I’ll try.”
He took a step toward her, gray eyes moving over
her hungrily. “You’ve never said you love me before.”
She tilted her head to look up at him. “You look
awful, Ken. Did you get hurt?”
He waved the subject aside, gathering her into his
arms. “I don’t want you to be anything but what you are,
Mari.”
“Well, that’s a good thing because I was giving you
a load of crap so you’d want me to stay.” She pressed little kisses
along his throat, over his rough jaw.
The adrenaline surge was gone, leaving him feeling
shaky and sick. His body roared at him, calling him all kinds of
names for the abuse. He didn’t care. Nothing mattered but that she
was in his arms and he could stroke her body, pull her closer, fit
her hips to his. And that he wanted to smile again. She made him
smile again. “I knew that. You’re always going to be a
handful.”
“So true.” Mari linked her hands around his neck,
her body moving enticingly against his. “I’m glad you realize
that.”
His mouth slanted over hers, forcing her lips apart
to feed hungrily.
“What about Sean?” she murmured when he lifted his
head.
“He’s dead.” He said it tersely. “Let that be the
end of it.”
She nodded. “Sit down. Let me look at you.” Already
her hands were sliding over his body, searching for damage. She
touched his face with gentle fingers. “I was afraid for you, Ken,
and I needed to be with you, not stuck down in a tunnel
somewhere.”
“I’m sorry, baby.” He brought her hands to his
mouth. “I know what you’re like, and I should have tried harder to
see your point of view. I swear I want to see your point of view,
but the thought of your life at risk . . .”
“Is how I feel when you risk yours,” she said. “You
have to accept what I really am, Ken. I see you with your need to
keep me close, and to protect me. I love that in you. I can even
accept the fact that you’re going to be an idiot every time a man
looks at me, but you have to accept me for who I am. I was raised
practically since birth as a soldier. That’s who I am and you’re
not going to change that. I’m not going to change that. You’re
going to have to take me on as a partner. Eventually, if you do,
your brother will. All three of us can protect Briony and any
children our two families have.”
“What if I can’t get there, Mari? What if I don’t
have that kind of courage?”
“You do,” she assured him, “or I would have kept
running down that mountain. Come on.” She tugged at his hand. “You
need a shower. Why don’t you let Jack take care of all the details,
and let me take care of you?”
“Say it again.”
“What?” Firmly she closed their door, and began to
peel the ragged shirt from his powerful shoulders.
He caught her in a hard, bruising grip, gave her a
little shake. “Stop teasing me. I’ve waited a long time.”
“We could always compromise,” she offered sweetly.
“You give me what I want, and I’ll give you what you want.”
He lifted her into his arms. “You’re going to say
it a hundred times before we’re done here,” he warned.
And she did.