52.

MARSHALL HAD HESITATED ABOUT GIVING HER THE BLUE BERET. But after they returned from the train station, he fetched the berets from his bag upstairs, carrying them behind his back as he entered the kitchen, where she was snipping the ends from thin green beans.

“Something for comic relief,” he said, handing her the blue beret.

She stared at it for a moment, then laughed with pleasure. She wiped her hands on her apron and set the beret on her head, pulling it down to one side. He followed her into the sitting room, where there was a large mirror above a sideboard. She adjusted the beret to a jauntier angle.

“Oh, if only I had had my beret at Koenigsberg! I had the red socks I was wearing when we were arrested. But soon they were thin and faded.”

“I bought myself a beret too, like the one I had in ’44.” He slapped on his black one, and she reached up to position it for him.

“That’s better,” she said, touching the back of her hand gently to his temple.

“Julien Baudouin,” he said, saluting their images in the mirror. “Stonemason, from Blois. Or was I a bricklayer?”

“I’d recognize you anywhere.”

They stared into the mirror together and laughed at themselves.

“I hope this isn’t inappropriate,” he said. “I heard that a fascist youth group wore blue berets. Can that be true?”

“They were not significant,” she said, brushing away the idea. “And the blue beret was only my school hat.”

“I remember in the Pyrenees, the Basques wore their berets laid flat on top of their heads,” he said.

“That’s the Basque way. I think their beret must fly off.” She laughed and removed her beret. She set it on a chair and smiled up at him, maybe remembering the day she guided a young pilot out of the train station.

He felt at ease with her. He wanted to hold her all day. But she awed him. What would she expect of him?

She finished the green beans and led him out to sit on the terrace with the omnipresent Bernard, who seemed to stay closer to her since last evening. Marshall sat in a wicker chair, and she sat in a chaise longue with her feet up, her hands folded.

“I have a proposal,” she said, her smile holding a hint of mischief. “For us.”

“What?”

“Our hike the other day was like an excursion for schoolgirls. We need something more vigorous!”

“Where to?” He shaded his eyes from the sun’s glare.

“A real hike. Across the Pyrenees to Spain!”

He was flabbergasted.

“Mon Dieu, Annette, why would I want to do that again?”

“We could go together.”

“The last place on earth I’d want to take you! It was torture.”

“It would be different now. You had to sneak over at night on smugglers’ paths, while pursued by Germans!” Her hands were moving enthusiastically, like butterflies courting.

“It was an adventure, bien sûr!”

“Didn’t you tell me it was a ‘breeze’?” she asked teasingly.

“I was being macho, I guess. You know—manly.”

“Eh oui,” she said.

“But why would we want to go there now?”

She rose from her chair and leaned close to him, her hand on his shoulder. “My family sent so many boys over the mountains—the aviateurs. And we didn’t know how the crossing went for them.”

“Oh. You want to go through that?”

“Oh, it wouldn’t be the same thing—the trails are very good now—but it is the idea of going to that place.” She ruffled his hair. “We will search for some maps. It will be a breeze.”

“Are you serious? Could you do it? Could I?”

“Dédée de Jongh did it more than thirty times in the war. In the dark! She was young, to be sure, but we must not surrender to age. She followed the route with the roaring river to cross, but we can follow a different way. You know about Dédée, do you not?”

“Yes, I do.” He recalled Nicolas telling him about the Belgian woman who organized one of the first escape lines for airmen. “Won’t we need a clandestine, a passeur—one of those mountain guides?” he joked.

She laughed. “But we don’t have to be smuggled, Marshall! The trails are good now, and well marked. We can join a hiking group. And now is the best time to go. The snows are melted. People will be out on the trails. It will be merry!”

She sat on his knee for a moment and hugged him, then jumped up and stood facing him. Her face glowed in the late-afternoon sunlight.

“We could go to the national park,” she said. “We could even go through Andorra. Or we could take the easiest way, down below Perpignan along the Mediterranean. You see, I have studied this matter.”

“Will there be Coke stands?” He laughed.

She smiled, and in the bright light he could see tiny scars on her chin, faint little zigzags. They did not interrupt her loveliness.

“I’m glad I bought those berets,” he said. “We’ll get cold at night.”

“Ah, bien, I did not doubt your spirit of adventure. This will be a test. And thereafter we can say with pride, ‘We did that!’ ”

“How long have you been thinking of this?”

“About five minutes. When you mentioned the Basques.” Her smile dissolved. “But really, those mountains have been on my mind for years. I do much hiking, but I always avoided the high mountains. All the boys we sent across …” She frowned, then touched his shoulder affectionately. “But with you, I thought suddenly—now is the time. I would like to cross the mountains with you.”

Marshall was pacing the length of the terrace now. The Pyrenees had troubled his sleep for years, dark images of rugged heights and rocky canyons, cold and unforgiving.

“I would worry about you,” he said. “The Pyrenees are dangerous. I don’t want anything to happen to you.”

“Pfft!” she said, flipping her fingers outward. “If I could build an airstrip with my bare hands, I could hike up a mountain!”

“That was long ago,” he said.

“And this is now,” she said.

“AT YOUR AGE? You’ve got to be kidding, Dad.”

“I’ve got new boots.”

“Still, if the airlines won’t let you fly, then what does that say? I never knew you to be an athlete.”

Albert had driven from Manhattan to the house in New Jersey and had arrived just as the telephone rang.

“I’ve done nothing but walk since I got to France,” Marshall said, almost defensively.

“What about altitude sickness?” Albert said. “Oh, sorry, I guess you’ve spent half your life at high altitudes.”

“This is not Mount Everest,” Marshall said. “There are official hiking trails and rest stations along the way. And I won’t take the most strenuous crossing—not like I did in ’44.”

Besides, he was going with a woman who was an experienced hiker, he told Albert.

“Aha!”

Genial banter moved along the edge of accusation. Marshall ignored it. Everything had to be reconsidered now, he thought. He remembered Albert and Mary in Halloween costumes. He was guiding them down the block, and the evening was growing dark. Mary cried because her witch hat kept falling off. Albert dropped his candy in the dirt and kicked it off the curb. Then, in no time at all, it seemed, they were in graduation gowns—Mary’s hat flying up like a Frisbee, Albert flapping bat wings—and then they were gone.

Albert relayed telephone messages from two of the crew: Chick Cochran and Bobby Redburn. Cochran had heard from someone in Hootie Williams’s hometown who would be writing to Marshall in Paris.

“That’s good,” Marshall said. All the crew was accounted for now.

Hootie. He had thought he was free from the memory of Hootie, but Hootie kept coming back, like the soldier in the old story of Martin Guerre, an impostor who returned to a family that wasn’t his.

IN THE WEEK of busy preparation for the hike, Annette told him nothing more about her deportation to the camps. The book seemed to be closed. “I’ve told you enough,” she said. “Now we can go forward.”

Her resilience, her insistent good nature reasserted themselves. She seemed unburdened now. But he knew that she was willing herself to be strong. He could not look at her now without seeing, behind her mature grace, the thin girl working on the airstrip—hungry, latched to her mother, fighting snow and wind. Death all around her, bodies in the snow.

Annette consulted guidebooks, located a hiking club, and reserved a hotel room at the edge of the mountain pass. By driving up to the pass, they could hike across the border in only a day. It would be simple, she said. He did not want to read the guidebooks. He did not want to go trekking across those mountains again, but he wanted to please her.

He fed the animals, gathered the eggs, cleaned out the horse shed. There was more flower deadheading. Lost in the immediacy of the chores, he relaxed and was content. She would not let him help her snip the ends of green beans, because the task had to be done a certain way with the fingers, and his were too large and clumsy. He wondered at himself as he trundled a wheelbarrow of compost to a fenced-off pile. Back home, his aversion to yard work had been notorious.

At meals, he marveled at the everyday calm of her life now, the ease and expertise of her hands in the kitchen. She fed him well. She was generous but not wasteful. She gave him the last stalk of asparagus. Carefully, she stored the leftovers. The bread would go to the chickens. At the end of each meal, she presented three cheeses—a wedge, a flat slice, and a small round—like treasures brought out on special occasions. Marshall was agog—gorging and lounging in a way he didn’t remember ever doing at home.

Every day, to build up their stamina for hiking, they walked for several miles. They walked early before having coffee and again late in the day. On the terrace, Marshall read a Japrisot mystery novel from Annette’s study shelf. And he browsed through her histories. The workmen had finished the stone walk, and the courtyard was quiet, except for the bees in the ivy. Bernard began sitting at his feet when Annette was busy elsewhere. She arranged for her son and daughter to care for the animals and the garden while she was away. They did not ask suspicious questions, and Marshall suspected they would not be surprised even if their mother planned to learn deep-sea diving, or decided to go to Africa to nurse lepers.

Annette promised to invite Marshall for a grand family Sunday after they returned from the mountains. It would be an important occasion, she cautioned. Her mother, impatient to see him again, would come from Saint Lô. He met the daughter, Anne, briefly, the day before he and Annette planned to drive toward the mountains. He had been apprehensive about meeting Anne, for fear he would see in her the young Annette who was sent in a cattle car to Ravensbrück. There was something familiar in her eyes, but Anne had a less delicate face, straighter hair. She seemed to be the new liberated woman, with her hair cut severely short, her manner brisk.

“Maman, I plan to take Bernard home with me,” she said. “We will come every two days, and Georges will come the other days. Don’t worry. Everything will be just as you want.”

“Bernard, you poor thing,” Annette said, bending to hug the dog. “You would insist on going with me over the mountains if you knew. But now Anne needs you.”

“I’m going to give his face a trim,” Anne said, ruffling the dog’s fur. “Maman, he can hardly see through that curtain.”

“Don’t tease him, Anne.”