9
When the incoming TIE fighters were only a handful of kilometers away, Wedge announced, “S-foils to attack position. Break by pairs, choose your targets, make it fast.” He suited action to words by rolling out, a smooth maneuver that carried him directly toward the enemy force.
Lara followed suit, with Face Loran a split second late but equally sure-handed. The sound of someone’s breathing, harsh and ragged, filled her ears, then she realized she was listening to herself. She forced her breathing to slow, forced herself to concentrate.
The first part would be a head-on confrontation between TIEs and X-wings, the two forces approaching at maximum speed, firing as they came. Once the lines crossed, the more maneuverable TIE fighters would whip around to try to get on the slower X-wings’ tails—simple strategy. And the X-wing pilots would be doing everything they could, using all their combined experience, to shake this deadly pursuit.
She put all shield power to her bow shields for the head-to-head approach. Wedge and Face had to have done the same by now.
That was an interesting thought. Wedge Antilles, flying mere meters ahead of her with no power to his stern shields. She could put a quad-linked laser blast into his engines and erase his name, so hated by Imperial pilots, from the roster of New Republic warriors.
Rebel warriors, that is. Then—what? Take out Face Loran with an identical shot, transmit a surrender to the Lavisar forces, get an escort down to the planet’s surface … and live the rest of her life in the fame that belonged to the pilot who shot down Wedge Antilles.
Such an odd feeling. Wedge Antilles was under her guns, yet he trusted her with his life.
He had no reason not to, of course. But he did. No one had in—how long? Forever.
She could eliminate him with a twitch of the finger.
It should have been tempting. Yet, somehow, it wasn’t.
Such an attack would be treacherous.
She laughed. Listen to yourself. There’s no such thing as treachery. Only efficiency. That was one of the basic tenets of Imperial Intelligence, and she had lived by those words.
But at a certain point she had decided that Admiral Apwar Trigit was treacherous. He’d chosen to sacrifice a shipload of dedicated servicemen so their vessel would not fall into the hands of the New Republic, and she had engineered his destruction because of that decision. She had taken revenge on him for a concept as simple, and as out of place for an Intelligence officer, as personal honor.
Tonin beeped a warning. The range meter dropped to two kilometers, the distance at which New Republic targeting systems could begin to place shots in an almost accurate fashion. The numbers continued to drop, and Wedge and Face both fired, their red laser blasts, quad-linked beams of pure destruction, lashing out toward Lavisar’s defenders.
Her breath became ragged again as something, a fog that thoughts couldn’t quite penetrate, closed down over her brain. Defend your wingman. Can’t kill Imperial pilots. The price on Wedge Antilles’s head means years of security. Zsinj is the same as Trigit.
She switched her lasers to single fire, fast cycle, which would allow her to fire an almost continuous stream of low-powered blasts, and brought up her targeting computer. Immediately the system’s yellow brackets settled in a jittery fashion around one of the oncoming TIE fighters and turned green, indicating a lock. The cockpit audio system howled in confirmation.
Reflexively, she fired. Her red laser streaked past the oncoming TIE fighter, but she held the stick down and the system cycled, blast after blast emerging. She shook the yoke in her hand, spraying fire around as though using a nozzle to water a patch of grass, and saw one of the beams strike home, charring a hole in the starfighter’s port solar array wing.
It was so close—she tried to keep her spray of fire concentrated on it, and then there was a tremendous bang and her X-wing shook from bow to stern. The module holding the S-foil configuration switch popped out of its housing and dropped before her eyes, swaying there, held to the upper bank of controls by wires.
She swatted it out of the way, tried to look out the viewports, at the diagnostic display, at the sensor display all at the same time. The viewport snowed Wedge rolling out up and to port. She gave up on the viewscreens and followed. “Tonin, give me a loud beep if we’re badly hit.”
No beep.
“Good job, Thirteen.” That was Three, she thought. “That’s a confirmed kill.”
“Thanks, Three.” His words hovered outside the shield of stray thoughts that seemed to be insulating her brain.
Behind—the enemy would be coming up behind. She looked back, saw only the top of Tonin’s dome head, and checked the sensors again. Yes, two TIE fighters were coming around fast, trying to take up positions behind her. But they were making a broad loop to do it, perhaps intimidated by the firepower they’d just come through. She could try to cut hard to starboard and might be in position for another head-to-head by the time they got their guns fixed on her—
No. Her job was to follow her wingman. Protect him.
Wedge cut hard to starboard. She followed, her turn not quite as precise. The maneuver was too much for the X-wing’s inertial compensator and the metal box holding the S-foil configuration switch swung on its wires, slamming into the side of her helmet. She ignored it, tried to stay with her leader, and held to his port rear quarter, though space opened up between them. A glance out her own port viewport showed Face there, struggling to maintain formation.
A green laser blast appeared, blindingly bright, between her and Face. Wedge finished his maneuver, firing already at the two oncoming TIE fighters. Lara tried to place her targeting brackets on one of the two, couldn’t manage it—the starfighter was too maneuverable, jittering out of the way. She fired anyway, her spray of single-shot lasers slicing through vacuum near the TIE fighter’s starboard wing.
The TIE pilot jerked away from the bombardment of red fire, drifted to port … straight into Wedge Antilles’s quad-linked blast. The quartet of lasers sliced cleanly through the fighter’s spherical cockpit. The TIE fighter disappeared in a glorious explosion of red, orange, and yellow, and Lara heard clanks and pings as her X-wing sliced through the cloud.
There were also the echoes of a scream. Lara shook her head. She couldn’t have heard the pilot.
Unless he was transmitting. “Tonin, cut my reception of Imperial comm traffic at once.”
DONE.
“Two for Leader, one for Thirteen.” That was Two again. Lara swatted at his intrusive voice as though it were that damned configuration switch. She tried to find the other TIE fighter on her sensors, but the closest enemy was outbound, head toward the cloud of red blips representing the two full squadrons from Lavisar’s surface.
In fact, all the remaining TIE fighters—five of them—were outbound.
“Wraiths, Leader. Form up. Twelve, make your calculations and get us out of here. I make it less than a minute before they overtake us. Give me status reports by number.”
“This is Three. No kills. Minor damage to port topside fuzial engine. I’m shutting it down.”
“Four. Two kills. No damage.”
It was there, battering at her head as insistently as the switch housing swinging into her helmet, a thought that wouldn’t let her go. Zsinj is the same as Trigit. Why had she thought that?
Because it was true. Raptor forces had not risen against the Wraiths. Had this been a Zsinj-controlled planet, Raptors would have been the first forces up—they had to maintain their reputation for brutality and efficiency. So this world was independent and the intercepted Raptor transmission a false lead, as the Wraiths had said.
And since the forces of Lavisar weren’t set up for the Wraiths—else there would have been a lot more of them—this was just what Commander Antilles had said: a plan by Zsinj to have New Republic—
Rebel.
—Rebel forces hurt the planet’s defenses, maybe knock them down. So Zsinj could move in, either as a conqueror or a defending hero. Those two choices were the same: Zsinj in control.
She wanted to admire the plan, especially as it extended to the other worlds Mon Remonda had been assaulting. It was clever, efficient.
But those pilots, who’d just been sacrificed, who’d died to satisfy Zsinj’s sense of efficiency. It was like Admiral Trigit. And it wasn’t—
“Thirteen.”
—honorable. There was no honor in it.
And the last fifteen years of Gara Petothel’s life closed in around Lara Notsil like a coffin. Her parents’ work for Imperial Intelligence. Their arrest and execution for unspecified treason. How Gara had hated them, missed them. How she’d learned, so eagerly, and demonstrated such loyalty, so that nothing like that would ever happen to her.
“Thirteen.”
All her life, she’d known not to believe the Rebels and their simplistically optimistic propaganda. Now she could no longer put her faith in the forces that had taken her, trained her, shaped her. There was nothing for her.
Tonin’s irritable beeping finally caught her attention. LEADER WANTS TO KNOW IF YOU’RE HURT.
“Oh. Uh …” She keyed her comlink. “Sorry, Leader. Thirteen reporting—” She finally scanned her diagnostic board. “Forward shields down to forty-seven percent but climbing. I think I took a hit in that first head-to-head. Some gauges out.” She grabbed the S-foil switch where it hung and switched it. Her S-foils did not close up into cruise configuration. “S-foil actuator seems to be out. And I think I hit my head.”
“Drop your shield, you don’t need it. Don’t worry about your S-foils. Just acknowledge receipt of the new course and prepare to enter it on my mark.”
“Understood, Leader. Um, I’ve received the course and it checks out.”
“Three, I want you to engage hyperdrive five seconds after the rest of the squad launches, in case battle damage has knocked out anyone’s drive.”
“Got it, One.”
“On my mark, three, two, one … Jump.”
They returned to Mon Remonda’s port hangar much as they’d left it, a little more battered, with Piggy’s fuselage scored by a laser graze, with Lara’s S-foils unable to assume cruise position, but otherwise unhurt.
Lara climbed out into a chaotic sea of backslaps and embraces, handshakes and congratulations.
Everyone seemed to move in slow motion. Words were slowed, almost incomprehensible, and sounds were muted. Tyria’s blond ponytail swayed with the sinuous motion of a snake. Piggy’s reserved arm motions, as he described some complicated maneuver or another, seemed to be those of a Gamorrean in low gravity.
Yet the one thing Lara understood was the expressions turned on her. They were the eyes of a group to whom she belonged.
Not since her parents’ loss had she seen that expression.
And the Wraiths and Rogues weren’t saying it, weren’t deliberately expressing the thought, “You are one of us.” No, it was implicit, a backdrop to whatever else they were saying. Good job noticing that backup squad. Nice shot; how’d you manage it with your lasers on single fire? Your first kill silhouette, congratulations and condolences.
One of us.
She worked her way out from the midst of the crowd and walked, still somehow insulated from the words and physical sensations of the world around her, to the pilots’ quarters she now shared with Tyria.
Maybe she could do it. Maybe she could just be Lara Notsil, forever, with Lieutenant Gara Petothel, that poor, unhappy creature, truly among the dead of the Star Destroyer Implacable.
One of us.
She slept, and in her dreams Gara and Lara argued with one another, speaking words she could barely hear and couldn’t understand, exchanging thoughts that would make no sense when she awoke, and she did not know which of the two wore her face.
When the Wraiths returned to Hawk-bat Station, with their new member in tow, they found that the other members of the squadron had not been idle. On his own initiative, Kell Tainer had plotted and led two missions, all because of Runt.
“We determined that they, the people of Halmad, had made a mistake,” the long-faced alien said, pride in his voice. He stood at the head of the cargo module that served as the Wraiths’ conference room; the pilots were packed in around its narrow oval table. “They had installed a new set of sensor stations on the west coast of Hullis’s continent and decommissioned the older sensor stations out in the western islands. But when we examined the specifications of those new sensors, we discovered that their effective range was a couple of hundred kilometers short of the area they were supposed to cover. Meaning that we now possessed a narrow corridor of airspace we could drop into without any real likelihood of detection. After that, with terrain-following flying to make other sensor tracking difficult, we were able to stage raids on ground emplacements.”
“Raid number one,” Kell said, “was on a port warehouse district in the city of Fellon. Not much booty there, I’m afraid. We picked up a large stock of recreational holos being produced by the Imperials, propaganda dramas to make Face blush—”
“That’d take some doing,” Face said. “I’m shameless.”
“True. But also, in taking off, we strafed the marina where the recreational water vessels of the city’s wealthy—and other people, including the wealthy of the city of Hullis and the officers of Victory Base there—were docked. Did a few dozen million credits’ worth of damage to some very pretty vessels.
“In our second mission, we struck at Hullis herself. We put Castin on the ground the day before to do what he could with security systems, and then Phanan and I flew in, blew a hole in the side of a building, and flew out with as much cargo as we could load without sacrificing the flying speed of our TIE fighters.”
“What cargo?” Wedge asked.
“Imperial credit notes, coin, gems. We hit one of the official money-exchange sites used by the Imperial base.”
Wedge gaped. “You robbed a bank.”
“We did. It was fun, too. Getting clear was a little tricky—that close in, it’s impossible to elude their sensors—but we just took off straight for space, suffered their antiaerial-invasion gun barrage, and outflew the TIEs they sent in pursuit. End result, a few dings and pits in Phanan’s starfighter.”
“To match,” Phanan said, “the few dings and pits in its pilot.”
“Tell them what I did,” Castin said.
“Oh, that’s right. In the day or so he had before his extraction, Castin managed to forge us a high-level account on their global information service. We’re now being bounced visual and sensor data from their planetary defense satellite network. It’s not being beamed straight at us, don’t worry—we’ve set up a relay near one of the existing satellite-belt mining colonies. If it’s detected, we can detonate the retransmitter before they’re likely to get it open. Anyway, we’ve picked up signs that they’re constructing a couple of small starfighter bases, possibly as a counter against our ground missions. One of them is near Fellon, the other way out east of Hullis in a region that doesn’t seem to need the extra protection, so now we have to wonder what is out there.” Kell smiled, his expression reflecting a simple pride in the Wraiths’ accomplishments while most of the officers were gone. “Castin has also modified the comm systems in all our TIEs so they distort our voices more effectively—the new computer-controlled distortion actually modifies accents and changes genders, making it even harder for listeners to identify our voices.”
“That’s good work,” Wedge said. “But on this pirate activity, I just wish you all didn’t look as though you’d enjoyed yourselves so much.”
Phanan snorted. “A happy worker is a productive worker.”
Wedge nodded. “But a happy pirate is a career pirate. You do remember that the Hawk-bats are a front, a sham?”
Kell and Phanan exchanged looks suggesting that this was news to them.
“That’s what I thought. Anything else?”
Runt said, “Yes. We have also identified the regular schedule and course of a refueling tanker that leaves Halmad, takes a tour of government mining operations in the asteroid belt, and returns to the city of Hullis. It is now escorted by a couple of TIE fighters, but I think that with the proper surprise we could take them before a distress signal is sent. If we capture the tanker but fly it along its regular course, that gives us one opportunity to drop our entire squadron and perhaps Sungrass as well down on Hullis, should we ever need to mount a larger-scale mission there … or just capture a refueling tanker should we ever need one.”
“Good to know. All right, Wraiths—”
“Hawk-bats,” corrected Kell, absently.
Wedge gave him a stern look. “Wraiths, make sure your pirates’ take is logged to the last credit for your report to Coruscant. Now, with the good work you did while we were gone, you’ve added quite a lot to the sting the government of Halmad has to be feeling.” He began counting items off on his fingers. “We’ve hurt them militarily with the theft of the interceptors and then of the replacement parts. We’ve put civilian pressure on them with that water-vehicle raid. We’ve hurt them economically with the money changers’ strike, and that will also result in more civilian pressure. And we’ve demonstrated that we can enter their airspace and leave at will, no casualties, no apparent effort that they can discern, and that’s the most important thing. They’ve lived at a relative level of peace for too long and don’t know how to cope with a unit like the Wraiths. With any luck, that will put them in the camp of Zsinj and his protection—”
“So Zsinj can come and squash us,” said Face.
Wedge smiled. “If you’re as tough to squash as you are to predict, he’ll be in for an unpleasant surprise.
“All right. Let’s keep the pressure up on them. I want those two starfighter bases eliminated—a clear message to the Imperial forces on Halmad that anything they can construct, the Hawk-bats can knock down. And I think, to demonstrate our superiority and their helplessness, we ought to stage those two eliminations simultaneously. So let’s settle in and do some planning.”
One of the base’s inhabitable cargo modules had been equipped to serve as the squadron’s cafeteria, with an adjoining module serving as the galley. While most of the Wraiths had been away on Mon Remonda, Kell and mechanic Cubber Daine had used laser cutters to open a large portion of the wall facing the Trench, giving it the aspect of a large viewport minus transparisteel, and had improvised additional chairs and tables out there. Now the Wraiths had a dining choice of “inside” or “outside on the patio.” Face had seen Wedge shaking his head over these minute decorative differences, but the squadron commander had never stepped in to regiment the Wraiths on such matters.
Tonight, after the last long planning session before Operation Groundquake—as Tyria had nicknamed the plan to knock down two Imperial bases—Face ate at a table “on the patio.” Usually he shared a table with Phanan, a platform from which the two of them could harangue the other diners, but tonight his wingman was at an inside table with Lara Notsil. Face couldn’t fault Phanan his choice of companions; Lara was attractive, quick-witted, good company. He saw her laugh at one of Phanan’s jokes.
There was a little tension in her body language. She probably still didn’t feel that she fit in with the Wraiths. It was likely that she wouldn’t for a while.
Lara spoke a few words to Phanan, good cheer still evident in her expression, then policed her tray and left. Phanan remained behind.
And Face saw his partner do something uncharacteristic. Phanan slowly settled into an attitude of stillness so profound that it would have been difficult for an observer to tell whether he was alive or dead, had he not been breathing. Other than the slow rise and fall of his chest, nothing moved; his one human eye was closed, and his posture gradually slumped into an attitude of profound resignation, of complete defeat.
Face rose and approached him, stepping over the low lip of the new opening. “Ton?”
Phanan jerked upright, and his expression was suddenly merry. “Face! Just the man. Polish my boots, would you, son? I have a mission tomorrow.”
Face gestured at his own lieutenant’s insignia.
“Oh, that’s right. In spite of my superior intellect, you figured out who to bribe first. My loss.” Phanan rose and quickly cleaned off his tray, stowing it in the rack set aside for that purpose.
“Are you all right?”
Phanan looked at him, evidently confused. “Of course. Oh, the boots thing is a disappointment, of course. Maybe I can get Wedge to clean them.”
Face snorted. “You’re angling to get in some laser targeting practice, aren’t you? As the target.”
“No, I’ve been there. No desire to repeat the experience.” Phanan stretched and yawned. “I’d better hit my bunk. Mission tomorrow.”
“That’s right.”
Phanan breezed past him with a final smile and headed up the Trench toward the flight officers’ quarters. Face let him go, but felt unsettled, as though he’d seen some sort of simulacrum of Phanan walk by, with the real Phanan missing and unaccounted for.
An hour later, after doing a last simulation run against Fellon Base, Face stopped by the quarters Phanan shared with Piggy. His initial rap at the door elicited no answer, so he knocked again.
“Go away. Or, if you’re at lieutenant rank or higher, go away, sir.”
“I need to speak to you, Ton.”
“Tomorrow.”
“Right now.”
“I’m with somebody.”
“I know. Piggy said you’d asked him to bunk out for the evening. This will only take a moment.”
The door into the modified cargo module opened with a hiss. It wasn’t a mechanical hiss; the modules didn’t have hydraulic doors. The noise was a sound of exasperation, and Phanan made it. The cybernetically enhanced pilot wore a loose robe of scarlet silk and an irritated expression. “What?”
Face squeezed past him into the module’s first chamber. These modules were divided into three chambers, the largest for socializing, the next largest containing two bunks, the smallest acting as a refresher. Face saw that the terminal here in the main chamber was alive but with nothing on it. “There’s no one here.”
“Keep your voice down. She’s back in the bunkroom.”
“There’s no one there, either.”
“Are you calling me a liar?” There was no anger in Phanan’s tone, just curiosity.
“You don’t drink when you’re entertaining. And I can smell the booze in the air.”
Phanan shrugged negligently and pulled a bottle from his robe pocket. The label identified it as Halmad Prime, doubtless a diverted part of the shipment the “Hawk-bats” had seized off Barderia. Phanan held it out. “Care for some?”
“No. What’s the matter, Ton?”
Phanan shut the module door and sat—slouched, rather—on the chamber’s inflatable sofa. “I get drunk faster these days.”
“No.” Phanan shook his head. “There’s less of me for the alcohol to pollute. Every year, less meat, more machine. So the alcohol goes to work faster.”
Face pulled the terminal chair around and sat wrongways in it so he could lean forward against its back. “I’m not sure I understand.”
“She wasn’t interested, Face. In me.”
“Lara?”
“Yes, Lara. Well, actually, at various times, Falynn, Tyria, various ladies on Folor, Borleias, and Coruscant, then Shalla, Dia, and most recently Lara.” He tipped the bottle up and took a long pull from it.
Face snorted. “Maybe you need to work on your technique. What sort of invitation did you make her?”
“Ah, that’s just it. I didn’t make any sort of invitation. I just sat with her, and talked with her, and read her eyes. She thought my jokes were funny. She was interested in my stories about the campaign we waged with Admiral Trigit. She liked me, I think she did. But … other than that … nothing. I held no other appeal for her. And that’s the way it’s been for quite some time.”
“Look, Ton, being at war kind of limits all our social lives. I’m sure you’ll find someone—”
“Finish that idiotic gesture of reassurance and I’ll be obliged to put your face through this wall,” Phanan said. His tone was mild, but there was no mistaking the seriousness in his words. He wasn’t even looking at Face, he hadn’t moved or tensed, yet something in his tone made his threat very real. “You don’t understand.”
“Make me understand.”
Phanan looked up at the low ceiling of the cargo module as if seeing through it, as if staring at a starry sky in the hope that it could provide inspiration. “A long time ago, back at the Battle of Endor, the frigate I was working on as a doctor was hit by an Imperial barrage. Blew out whole sections of the hull, sucked crewmen out into hard vacuum. I was hit by a falling beam superheated by laser fire. One minute I’m helping a pilot with a concussion, the next minute that pilot’s been dead for two weeks and I’m just waking up with a mechanical half a face and a mechanical leg.
“Ever since then, no woman has looked at me with any sort of serious interest.”
“It’s not the leg or the face, Ton.”
“I know that, you moronic nerf.” Phanan glared at him, the glowing optic that served him as a left eye making the expression malevolent. “But something died when I was hit in that medical ward, and I think it was my future. I think people, maybe only women, can just look at me and say, ‘There’s no future in him.’ ”
“That’s ridiculous.”
“There’s no mechanical replacement for a future, Face. And every time I take a hit, and they have to cut away another part of me and replace it with machinery because I’m allergic to bacta, every time that happens I seem to be a little further away from the young doctor who had a future. He can’t come back, Face. Not all of him is here anymore.”
“Ton …”
“Don’t give me some line about my not knowing what I’m talking about because I’m drunk and morose. I know I’m drunk and morose. But the truth of what I’m telling you is around me all the time, even when I’m not drunk. Even when I’m enjoying everything about my life. No future, and no one in my future.”
“You have your friends, Ton.”
Phanan nodded. “Yes, I do. And I’m grateful for them. But my friends are my present. And when I try to look from where they are to where my future is, there’s just no one there. No future.”
“I don’t know what to tell you. I wish you didn’t feel this way.”
“Me either.”
“Give me the bottle.”
“I know. Mission tomorrow.” Phanan handed over the bottle, two-thirds of its contents gone.
“If you’re not right for the mission tomorrow morning, I want you to tell me.”
“Yes, Lieutenant.”
Face wanted to say more, but the sudden formality of Phanan’s last reply had somehow propelled him out of the conversation. He just shook his head and left.