Epilogue
When Bob, leaning on a stick, limped into his
cottage just after midday on Sunday 22 January, it was
immaculate.
‘Have you had cleaners in here?’ Sarah asked
him.
‘Yes. We both work hard enough. I fixed up some
springcleaning through someone at the office.’
‘Well they did a good job, whoever they were.
Could we get them for Edinburgh?’
Bob laughed a strange laugh. ‘You never know what
people’ll turn their hands to when they retire. But I think this
was a one-off.’
Sarah and Bob were married, under an awning in
their garden in Gullane on the sunny afternoon of 21 April.
Sarah was given in marriage by her father. Alex
and Andy were brides-maid and best man. Among the guests were Chief
Constable and Mrs James Proud, Detective Inspector Brian Mackie,
Detective Sergeant Maggie Rose and Mario McGuire, and Detective
Constable Neil Mcllhenney.
Not one of them, not even Andy Martin, had ever
asked Skinner what had happened on that explosive night — after he
and Allingham had driven off in the dark towards Gullane.
Only Sarah knew of the weight that he was
carrying. Long after his leg had begun to heal, she felt him toss
and turn in the night. Occasionally he would awaken in a lather of
sweat, and once or twice with a scream dying on his lips. But she
never asked. She waited for the shrapnel buried in his soul to work
its own way to the surface.
Three nights into their honeymoon, they sat over
dinner, gazing at the stars above L’Escala. Until then, Bob had
been bright, happy and never more attentive, but now Sarah sensed a
tension in him, stretched to burst ing point.
‘Love, I think you should tell me now. I’m your
wife, and if something makes you wake up trembling in the night, I
want to know what it is.’
And so he told her. He told her the whole story
of the night that he had finally discovered that there was a world
where Skinner’s rules of honesty, fairness and mercy did not apply;
the night when he had been forced to look into his own character
and learn the depth of the ruthless streak that lay within
him.
‘Do you know what Maitland said? He told me that
I’d be a sensation in his line of work. And d’you know what? The
fact that we’re sat here, and he’s buried in an unmarked hole in
the ground somewhere, proves just how right he was. What sort of a
guy am I, Sarah?
‘That was an awful man, a terrible creature. But
he finished the job he was sent out to do. Al-Saddi died, and the
Day of Deliverance went with him. There was a clear, warped logic
to everything he did. All the victims — he saw them as casualties,
necessary to his success. There are two million people alive in
Israel who would agree, if they knew the story. But ask Iain Mac
Vicar’s mother. What would she say?’
‘And you, Bob. Do you think you’re a casualty
too? Is that what’s eating you?’
‘Probably. I got into this job because I believed
that I knew the difference between the good guys and the bad guys,
and I knew what I was. Now I don’t know that any more, not for
sure. All I do know for sure is what I’m capable of.
‘Skinner’s Rules! I broke them along the way, and
in the end I broke the biggest commandment of all. I was warned
off, but ignored it because I never doubted that what I was doing
was right. Then I found that I was in a place where right and wrong
were immaterial, and where only results mattered. And the really
terrible thing is, I survived there. I took Maitland on, on his own
terms, on his own turf, and I won. That makes me just like him,
doesn’t it?’
Sarah answered the question in his eyes, as she
took his hand and entwined his fingers in hers.
‘Bob, if you had lost, and Maitland had come for
me, and we were both in Dirleton Cemetery instead of sitting under
that big full moon up there if that was how it had turned out,
would Maitland have been sitting somewhere agonising about
it?
‘The hell he would!
‘When good faces evil, it doesn’t win through
being nice all the time. It wins by being brave, and it wins by
being right.
‘And take it from me, Skinner. The good guy
won.’