
Chapter 27
First name of Portland: The Clearing. A
convenient stopping place on the river route from Ft. Vancouver to
Oregon City.
I SHOULD HANG OUT WITH Blackberry
and Salal. They hardly know how to brush their teeth or use the
microwave, or anything.
At least their time at High Desert Con taught them
the necessity of toilets. Otherwise, I think they’d just go squat
behind a bush outside.
It’s getting kind of cold and damp for that to be
comfortable. I’ve sworn off cold ever since Mum kicked me out of
the freeze-dried garbage dump of the Universe.
I left the Chinese food for Tess when she gets
home. MSG works wonders to counter my lactose intolerance, but when
I’ve had a fight and tasted blood, I need mold, mold, mold, and
more mold. A little beer and OJ doesn’t hurt either.
So, now that I’ve restored myself with the mold in
the air-conditioning unit on the roof of the café down the street,
(there is never a lack of mold in the Pacific Northwet) I grab my
black and silver boa—evening wear don’t ya know—and insert myself
on the dash of Gollum’s new car. I suppose his rattletrap van had
to die sometime, or he needed something classier and more reliable
now that he has the infamous Julia to drive around, but it was a
glorious source of mold and mildew.
For the first time in like evah, dahling, Gollum
drives slowly. He’s lost in thought, looking deep inside
himself.
What is this? He observes stop signs even when
there isn’t another car in sight. He stays below the speed limit
and uses his turn signals. Not once does he drift out of his
lane.
I hope he’s not sick.
Just after he crosses the Sellwood Bridge, he pulls
off into the parking lot of a convenience store and calls home on
his cell phone.
“Sorry I’m late, hon. Hope everything is okay and
you’re just asleep. You probably took a pill, right? Call me if you
get this message before I get home. See you in about fifteen
minutes.”
Isn’t voice mail wonderful?
Now he’s worried. He speeds up a bit, but he still
drives carefully.
How boring. Maybe my babe is right in moving on. I
never thought I’d say that suddenly Sean looks like a better
partner for her. At least he can patch her up after she
tumbles.
But can he heal her heart?

Blackberry and Salal seemed strangely subdued
compared to Sean’s manic euphoria. I guessed he’d never witnessed a
fight before. Certainly he’d patched up the wounded afterward, but
never been close to the chaos and mayhem. He reminded me of a first
grader who’d just had the light bulb turn on inside his head when
patterns of letters became words became sentences and paragraphs
and suddenly made sense.
I let him carry the conversation while keeping an
eye on my girls.
My daughters. I still couldn’t believe I’d pulled
off adopting them and getting them out of their father’s violent
environment. My heart swelled with dozens of emotions every time I
contemplated them.
The girls succumbed first to full tummies and the
listlessness of adrenaline depletion.
At around midnight, I guided them through showers
and teeth brushing and the necessity of wearing pajamas or
nightgowns. They got the queen-sized bed in the bedroom.
Then I pulled out the single malt.
We sat on the sofa, Allie and Sean on the ends, me
in the middle pressed up close to Sean with his arm around my
shoulders.
I watched Sean as he gently sniffed the heady brew.
With eyes closed he took a small sip, rolling it around his mouth.
His Adam’s apple bobbed as he swallowed and let out a contented
sigh. “Uisge beatha, whiskey, the water of life. The only
English word acknowledged to have come from the Gaelic.”
“I could learn to love a man who knows how to
appreciate the good stuff,” I said and repeated the ritual. Sweet
flowers and bitter heat burst upon my tongue and warmed me all the
way down to my stomach. Well-being spread outward. Muscles I didn’t
know had tensed unknotted and relaxed. The fist of God wrapped in
velvet. “And I know about the origin of uisge beatha and
whiskey and English. But I’m holding out for quaff as a derivative
of the Gaelic as well.”
Allie stared at her glass of amber whiskey. “Never
learned to appreciate the hard stuff. And I don’t want to argue
word origins with you two. You two can share this, I’ll settle for
wine. Did you leave any of the Riesling?” She set her tumbler on
the coffee table and ambled back toward the kitchen.
“I’ve been thinking it might be a good idea to look
for ways to totally separate the girls from their origins,” Sean
said, keeping his eyes on the magic elixir in his glass.
“I’d just as soon they forget their upbringing,” I
agreed.
“We could start with changing their names,” Allie
said plunking down beside me. She gulped half a glass of white wine
and laid her head on the sofa back. “I see it in kids adopted out
of abusive situations all the time. First thing they ask for is a
new name.”
“Blackberry and Salal do sound rather like they’ve
been living in a hippie commune,” Sean said on a half laugh as he
took a bigger sip of scotch.
“My Aunt MoonFeather would give them names like
that until they grew into their personalities and they selected
something that fit them better.” I couldn’t remember the rather
mundane name my father’s sister had rejected when she joined Wicca
and took a craft name. I’d seen her dance nude, as light as a
feather graced by moonlight on the night of the summer solstice.
She had selected her new name appropriately.
Allie giggled as she downed the rest of her drink.
“When I think Blackberry, all I can see is a fancy cell
phone.”
We all laughed at that.
“Blackberry. Cell phone ...” I played with the
sounds of the words. “Phonetia!”
“Good one.” Allie and I high-fived.
I took another swallow of scotch. The top of my
head felt a little separate from the rest of me. A gale of giggles
erupted from my toes, running upward in waves of good feelings.
“Kids today seem to have their phones surgically implanted. Texting
their friends is like breathing.”
“Remove a teen from her phone and she feels like
her arm’s been cut off. But they rarely phone home,” Allie
added.
Sean nearly doubled over with laughter. “Phone
home. Phone home!”
“Huh?”
“Didn’t you see the movie E.T.?” he asked
incredulously.
“E.T. phone home,” I replied, my mouth threatening
to gape. “Of course, Phonetia and E.T.! That’s what we call my
girls.”
“What does E.T. stand for?” Allie asked, a little
more sober than either Sean or I.
“Anything she wants.”

Shortly thereafter, I kissed Sean good night and
sent him on his way in a cab. We’d all had too much to drink to
trust him driving. We’d worry about his car in the morning.
Allie took the sofa, and I stretched out on the cot
in the office.
I promised myself this overcrowding would only last
a short time. Allie was due to fly back to Cape Cod next week to
wind up her duties with the police force and finalize plans for her
wedding. Maybe I should just set up a real bed in the office and
consolidate the computer desk and bookcases to make room for a
dresser. The file cabinet in the closet could go into the dining
area.
Or I should make the living and dining area one big
office and schoolroom and give the office over to the girls so I
could take back my bedroom.
“This could work, Scrap.”
Buy you some time until the financial markets
improve.
“My, aren’t you erudite and succinct. What’s the
matter?” I looked up from massaging moisturizer into my feet.
I don’t like the tattoos on the gang bangers. We
don’t know who authorized the protection. Takes some big bucks,
some sneaky runarounds, or clout with the Powers That Be to put
those tats on mundanes. He sat on the desk fading in and out of
the monitor.
I shuddered. “Don’t remind me of the Powers That
Be. I can’t imagine anyone voluntarily asking them for
favors.”
You did.
“Out of desperation.” Unconsciously I rubbed my
scar. “I needed protection for Dad and Bill. No one else could
guarantee it.” The scar burned and pulsed, almost as if there was a
demon in the room.
There wasn’t. It was just nerve memory of the deal
I’d made and signed in my own blood. The onyx pen stained with my
blood lay buried in the back of the side drawer on the desk.
“Could Donovan have done it?” I asked.
Why would he?
“I don’t know. But then I don’t truly know why he
wants to create a home world for Kajiri demons. I don’t understand
his obsession with me. I don’t understand ...”
A tentative knock on the closed door almost slid
beneath my awareness.
“Come in,” I said, almost as hesitant as the
knock.
The door crept open a few inches. I saw a single
green-brown eye peek in.
“Come in, Blackberry.”
“How’d you know it was me?” She pushed open the
door another few inches and slid in, closing it behind her.
“You’re taller than your sister and Allie’s eyes
are brown. “What do you need? You should be asleep.”
“I ... Are we really supposed to call you ‘Mom’
now?”
I gulped. Mom. I’d begun to think I’d never have
the privilege of hearing another person call me that.
“I’d like that if you are comfortable with
it.”
“Gollum ... I mean Dad said we should. It shows
respect. What’s respect?”
Oh, boy, was I in trouble. I had to start at square
one with a teenager. The dictionary definition would probably go
over her head.
Tomorrow. Or rather later today. I’d deal with
their education in the morning.
“Respect is an attitude of careful listening and
going along with their suggestions because you’ve learned they are
usually right. It’s treating that person as if you value
them.”
“Oh.” She looked puzzled. Then her eyes brightened.
“Oh!”
I patted the place beside me on the cot, urging her
to sit, get comfortable; put her in a sharing mood.
She sat slowly, careful not to touch me
directly.
“And because I respect you, I’m going to ask your
approval for changing your name.” Part of me wanted to drape my arm
around her shoulders. I needed to respect her need to avoid
physical contact. “I’d like to call you Phonetia.” I explained
about the mobile phone that carried her real name.
“That sounds good. I like that. Can I have one of
those phones?” She flashed me a huge smile that nearly melted my
heart.
“We’ll talk about that when you’ve earned the
responsibility of an expensive phone.”
“Oh. What about Salal?”
“We thought E.T. would be a good name. But that’s
more a joke than a name.” I explained the line in the movie.
“I like that. I think she will too. We can think up
new words to fit the initials for each occasion.”
That sounded like mischief in the making. At least
these two troubled girls could find something to laugh about.
“So what can I do for you this late at
night?”
“I ... uh ... Salal—We should have said something
earlier. We know the guys with the tattoos.” She hung her
head.
“You do?” Did I ever say that I don’t believe in
coincidences?
“We don’t really know them. I mean we’ve never
talked to them. And I don’t know if they recognized us, they only
ever saw me in the dark when Father sent them to my bed. But they
do business with Father ... with that man ... with ...”
Cold invaded my bones.
Phonetia shuddered too. I put my arm around her
shoulder and drew her close. A morsel of warm steadiness grew
between us.
“I know who you mean. And he is your father,
biologically. Let’s just call him the dark elf for now. What kind
of business?”
“They grow something strange. Fa—the dark elf lets
them use certain clearings in our forest, and he blurs the paths so
the ... the law won’t find the plants and destroy them.”
“Marijuana?”
“I think that’s what they call it. It’s not native
to us. It doesn’t belong in our forest. Our duty is to keep the
forests healthy. Nonnative invasive plants need to be cut out and
burned, not carefully cultivated and protected.”
“You are right. Marijuana is a dangerous plant. So
is the dark elf. He hails from a different land, a different
environment. He’s as invasive as the marijuana. But you and E.T.
and your brothers are all native. You belong here.”
She mulled over the new and frightening idea. But
one that might save her sanity.
Last month three hikers on Mt. Jefferson had been
shot at and chased mercilessly for days until they found their car
and raced away; all for stumbling off the trail into a ten-acre
marijuana patch. A SWAT team went in and cleared out the patch.
They lost two members to the growers’ booby traps. Hidden pits
filled with poisoned stakes. Tactics straight out of Vietnam.
Big money came from those marijuana farms.
“What does the dark elf get from the growers in
return for land and protection?” I asked.
“I ... I don’t know for sure what Fa ... the dark
elf gains.” She looked at her hands.
“Did your father demonize the tattoos?
“Is that what you call it?”
“I guess. I’ve never run into it before. Scrap gave
me hints. I watched them glow. Not just anyone can do it. He’d have
to have help, or permission, or something.”
“He never talked to Salal—E.T. and me about his
business. He talked to the boys. We only know what we
overheard.”
“Your brothers got the names of majestic trees. He
named you two for lowly vines that need to be curbed and heavily
pruned to control them.”
“He doesn’t respect us.”
“No, he doesn’t. I think you both have a lot of
reasons to respect yourselves though. It’s my job to help you do
that.”
“I don’t know that anyone can do that.” She stood
up and made as if to go—reluctantly.
“I have to try.”
“I respect you for the trying.”
I knew she wasn’t telling me everything. She might
respect me, but she didn’t trust me yet.
I reached for the phone on the desk. I knew someone
who might fill in some of the blank spots. It wasn’t too late to
call Las Vegas. Lady Lucia kept vampire hours. I owed her a bunch
of favors.
She owed me some explanations.
A clap of thunder made us both jump. Lightning
right on top of it lit the entire room as bright as noon.
“It’s Father!” Phonetia screamed as she dived under
the cot. “He’s really pissed.”