CHAPTER 17
They took a taxi to the pension, and
Rosalie led Rogan up to the room she’d had while she was alone in
Munich. It was a comfortable place, half bedroom, half living room,
with a small green sofa curved into its middle. There was a vase of
wilted roses on the table; some of their scent still hung in the
air. Rogan reached out for Rosalie as soon as they had locked the
door behind them. They quickly undressed and went to bed, but their
love-making was too frantic, too filled with tension.
They smoked a cigarette together in the darkness,
and then Rosalie began to weep. “Why can’t you stop now?” she
whispered. “Why can’t you just stop?”
Rogan didn’t answer. He knew what she meant. That
if he let Klaus von Osteen go free, his life, and hers, could start
again. They would stay alive. If he went after von Osteen the
chances of his escaping were small. Rogan sighed. He could never
tell another human being what von Osteen had done to him in the
Munich Palace of Justice; it was too shameful. Shameful in the same
way that their attempt to kill him had been shameful. He knew only
one thing! He could never live on earth as long as von Osteen was
alive. He could never sleep a night through without nightmares as
long as von Osteen was alive. To balance his own private world he
had to kill the seventh and last man.
And yet, in a strange way, he dreaded the moment
when he would see von Osteen again. He had to remind himself that
now von Osteen would be the victim, von Osteen would shriek with
fear, von Osteen would collapse in terror. But it was hard to
imagine all this. For back in those terrible days when the seven
men had tortured him in the Munich Palace of Justice, in those
nightmare days when Christine’s screams from the next room had set
his body trembling with anguish, Rogan had come to regard Klaus von
Osteen finally as God, had almost come fearfully to love him.
Rosalie had fallen sleep, her face still wet with
tears. Rogan lit another cigarette. His mind, his invincible
memory, and all the agonies of remembrance imprisoned him once
again in the high-domed room of the Munich Palace of Justice.
In the early morning hours the jail guards would
come into his cell with small rubber clubs and a battered tin
bucket for his vomit. They would use the rubber clubs to beat his
stomach, his thighs, his groin. Pinned helplessly against the iron
bars of his cell, Rogan felt the black bile gush into his mouth,
and he’d retch. One of the guards would skillfully catch the vomit
in the tin bucket. They never asked any questions. They beat him
automatically, just to set the proper tone for the day.
Another guard wheeled in a breakfast tray on which
stood a chunk of black bread and a bowl of grayish, lumpy gruel
they called oatmeal. They made Rogan eat, and since he was always
hungry, he gobbled the oatmeal and gnawed at the bread, which was
rubbery stale. After he had eaten, the guards would stand around in
a circle as if they were going to beat him again. Rogan’s physical
fear, his body organs weakened by malnutrition and torture, made it
impossible for him to control his bowels at this moment. They
opened against his will: He could feel the seat of his pants
becoming sticky as the oatmeal oozed out of him.
As the foul stench filled the cell the guards
dragged him out of his prison and through the halls of the Munich
Palace of Justice. The marble halls were deserted this early in the
morning, but Rogan would be ashamed of the trail of the tiny brown
dots he left behind him. His bowels were still open, and though he
keyed up all his nervous energy to close them, he could feel both
pant legs go damp. The stench followed him down the halls. But now
the swelling bruises on his body blotted out his shame until he had
to sit down before his seven interrogators, and then the sticky
mess plastered against the length of his lower back.
The guards shackled his arms and legs to a heavy
wooden chair and put the keys on the long mahogany table. As soon
as one of the seven interrogators arrived to begin the day’s work,
the guards left. Then the other members of the interrogation team
would saunter in, some of them holding their breakfast coffee cups
in their hands. During the first week, Klaus von Osteen always
arrived last. This was the week that “normal” physical torture was
used on Rogan.
Because of the complicated nature of the
information Rogan had to give, the intricate codes and the mental
energy required to recall his memorized digital patterns, physical
torture proved to be too shattering to the thought process. After
torture Rogan could not have given them the codes even if he had
wanted to. It was Klaus von Osteen who first understood this and
ordered all physical persuasion held to a “gentle” minimum.
Afterward von Osteen was always the first member of the
interrogation team to arrive in the morning.
In the early morning hours, von Osteen’s
beautifully chiseled aristocratic face was pale with shaving
talcum, his eyes still gentle with sleep. Older than Rogan by a
generation, he was the father every young man would like to have:
distinguished-looking, without being foppish; sincere, without
being oily or unctuous; grave, yet with a touch of humor; fair, yet
stern. And in the weeks that followed, Rogan, worn down by physical
fatigue, lack of proper food and rest, the constant torturing of
his nerves, came to feel about von Osteen as if he were a
protective father figure who was punishing him for his own good.
His intellect rejected this attitude as ridiculous. The man was the
chief of his torturers, responsible for all his pain. And yet
emotionally, schizophrenically, he waited for von Osteen each
morning as a child awaits his father.
The first morning von Osteen arrived before the
others he put a cigarette in Rogan’s mouth and lit it. Then he
spoke, not questioning, but explaining his own position. He, von
Osteen, was doing his duty for the Fatherland by interrogating
Rogan. Rogan was not to think it was a personal thing. He had an
affection for Rogan. Rogan was almost young enough to be the son he
never had. It distressed him that Rogan was being stubborn. What
possible purpose could such childish defiance have? The secret
codes in Rogan’s brain would no longer be used by the Allies, that
was certain. A sufficient time had elapsed to render useless any
information he gave them. Why could not Rogan end this foolishness
and save them all suffering? For the torturers suffered with the
tortured. Did he think they did not?
Then he reassured Rogan. The questioning would end.
The war would end. Rogan and his wife Christine would be together
again and happy again. The fever of war and murder would be over,
and human beings would not have to fear each other any longer.
Rogan was not to despair. And von Osteen would pat Rogan’s shoulder
comfortingly.
But when the other interrogators sauntered into the
room von Osteen’s manner would change. Again he became the chief
interrogator. His deep-set eyes bored into Rogan’s eyes. His
melodious voice became harsh, strident. Yet curiously enough it was
the harshness of a strict father with a note of love for his
wayward child. There was something so magnetic, so powerful in von
Osteen’s personality that Rogan believed the role von Osteen
played: that the interrogation was just; that he, Rogan, had
brought the physical pain upon himself.
Then had come the days when he heard Christine’s
screams from the next room. On those days von Osteen had not
arrived early in the morning, had always arrived last. And then
there was that terrible day when they had let him into the next
room and showed him the phonograph and the spinning record that
preserved Christine’s agony. Von Osteen had said smilingly, “She
died on the first day of torture. We’ve tricked you.” And Rogan,
hating him at that moment with such intensity, had become ill, bile
spilling out of his mouth onto his prison clothing.
Von Osteen had lied even then. Genco Bari said that
Christine had died during childbirth, and Rogan believed Bari. But
why did von Osteen lie? Why did he wish his people to seem more
evil than they actually were? And then Rogan, remembering, realized
the brilliant psychology behind von Osteen’s every word and
deed.
The hatred he felt for those who had killed his
wife had made him want to stay alive. He wanted to stay alive so
that he could kill them all and smile down at their own tortured
bodies. And it was this hatred, this hope for revenge, that had
crumbled his resistance and in the following months made him start
giving his interrogators all the secret codes he could
remember.
Von Osteen started coming early again, the first
one in the interrogation room. Again he began to console Rogan, his
voice magnetic with understanding. After the first few days he
always unshackled Rogan’s arms and legs and brought him coffee and
cigarettes for breakfast. He kept assuring Rogan that he would be
set free as soon as the codes were completed. And then one morning
he came in very early, closed and locked the door of the high-domed
room behind him, and said to Rogan, “I must tell you a secret which
you must promise not to reveal.” Rogan nodded. Von Osteen, his face
grave and friendly, said, “Your wife is still alive. Yesterday she
gave birth to a baby boy. They are both doing well, they are both
being well cared for. And I give you my solemn word of honor that
the three of you will be united when you have finished giving us
all the information we need. But you must not breathe a word of
this to the others. They may cause trouble, since I am exceeding
the bounds of my authority by making you this promise.”
Rogan was stunned. He searched von Osteen’s face to
see if the man was lying. But there was no doubting the kind
sincerity in the German’s eyes, the gentle goodness that seemed to
be the very essence of his facial bones. Rogan believed. And the
thought that Christine was alive, that he would see her beautiful
face again, that he would hold her soft slender body in his arms
again, that she was not dead and under the earth—all this made him
break down and weep. Von Osteen patted him on the shoulder, saying
softly in his hypnotic voice, “I know, I know. I am sorry I could
not tell you sooner. It was all a trick, you see, part of my job.
But now it’s no longer necessary and I wanted to make you
happy.”
He made Rogan dry his tears, and then he unlocked
the door to the interrogation room. The other six men were waiting
outside, coffee cups in their hands. They seemed angry at being
shut out, angry that their leader was in some way allied to their
victim.
That night in his cell Rogan dreamed of Christine
and the baby son he had never seen. Oddly enough the baby’s face
was very clear in his dream, fat and pink-cheeked, but Christine’s
face was hidden in shadows. When he called to her she came out of
the shadows, and he could see her, see that she was happy. He
dreamed of them every night.
Five days later it was Rosenmontag, and when
von Osteen came into the room he was carrying an armful of civilian
clothing. He smiled a genuinely happy smile and said to Rogan,
“Today is the day I keep my promise to you.” And then the other six
men crowded into the room. They congratulated Rogan as if they were
professors who had helped him graduate from school with honors.
Rogan started putting on the clothes. Genco Bari helped to knot his
tie, but Rogan kept his eyes on von Osteen, asking a mute question
with his eyes, asking if he would see his wife and child. And von
Osteen understood and nodded his head, secretively, reassuringly.
Someone clapped the fedora on Rogan’s head.
As he stood there looking at their smiling faces he
realized one of them was missing. Then he felt the cold muzzle of
the gun against the back of his neck and the hat tilted forward
over his eyes. In that one-millionth of a second he understood
everything and sent a last despairing look at von Osteen, crying
out in his mind, “Father, Father, I believed. Father, I forgave all
your torture, your treachery. I forgive you for murdering my wife
and giving me hope. Save me now. Save me now.” And the last thing
he saw before the back of his skull exploded was von Osteen’s
gentle face contorting into a devil’s mocking laugh.
Now lying in bed beside Rosalie, Rogan knew that
killing von Osteen just once would not be enough to satisfy him.
There should be a way of bringing him back to life and killing him
over and over again. For von Osteen had searched out the very
essence of the humanity in both of them, and for no more than a
joke, betrayed it.
When Rogan awoke the next morning Rosalie already
had breakfast waiting for him. The room had no kitchen, but she
used a hot plate to make coffee and had brought some rolls. While
they ate she told him that Klaus von Osteen was not sitting in
court that day but would be sentencing a convicted prisoner the
next morning. They reviewed everything she knew about von
Osteen—what she’d told Rogan before he’d gone to Sicily and what
she’d learned later. Von Osteen was a powerful political figure in
Munich and had the backing of the U.S. State Department for a
higher climb to power. As a judge, von Osteen had a twenty-four-
hour guard at his home and when he went outside. He was without
personal guards only in the Munich Palace of Justice, which swarmed
with its own complement of security police. Rosalie also told Rogan
about her job as a nurse’s aide in the Munich Palace of
Justice.
Rogan smiled at her. “Can you get me in there
without my being seen?”
Rosalie nodded. “If you must go there,” she
said.
Rogan didn’t answer for a moment. Then he said,
“Tomorrow morning.”
After she had gone off to work, Rogan went out to
do his own errands. He bought the gun-cleaning packet he needed to
disassemble and oil the Walther pistol. Then he rented a Mercedes
and parked it a block away from the pension. He went back up to the
room and wrote some letters, one to his lawyer in the States,
another to his business partners. He put the letters in his pocket
to post after Rosalie came home from work. Then he took apart the
Walther pistol, cleaned it thoroughly, and put it back together
again. He put the silencer in a bureau drawer. He wanted to be
absolutely accurate this last time, and he was not sure he could
get close enough to compensate for the loss of accuracy the
silencer caused.
When Rosalie came home he asked, “Is von Osteen
sitting tomorrow for sure?”
“Yes.” She paused a moment, then asked, “Shall we
go out to eat, or do you want me to bring something into the
room?”
“Let’s go out,” Rogan said. He dropped his letters
into the first post box they passed.
They had dinner at the famous Brauhaus,
where the beer steins never held less than a quart and twenty kinds
of sausages were served as appetizers. The evening paper,
Tagenblatt, had a story about the killing of Wenta Pajerski
in Budapest. The democratic underground believed responsible for
the murder had been smashed by a series of secret police raids, the
paper reported. Fortunately, the bomb had injured no one but the
intended victim.
“Did you plan it that way?” Rosalie asked.
Rogan shrugged. “I did my best when I booby-trapped
the chess piece. But you can never tell. I was worried one of those
waitresses might get a stray fragment. A lucky thing Pajerski was a
big guy. He soaked it all up.”
“And now there is only von Osteen,” Rosalie said.
“Would it make any difference if I told you that he seems like a
good man?”
Rogan laughed harshly. “It wouldn’t surprise me,”
he said. “And it doesn’t make any difference.”
They didn’t speak about it, but they both knew it
could well be their last evening together. They didn’t want to go
back to their room with its green sofa and narrow bed. So they
drifted from one great barnlike beer hall to another, drinking
schnapps, listening to the happy Germans singing, watching them
gulp countless quarts of beer at long wooden tables. The huge
Bavarians wolfed links of fat little sausages and washed them down
with towering, frothy steins of golden beer. Those who were
momentarily sated fought their way through thick, malt-reeking
crowds to the marbled bathrooms, to make use of the special
vomiting bowls big enough to drown in. They vomited up all they had
consumed, then fought their way back to the wooden tables and
clamored for more sausages and beer, only to return to the
bathrooms and get rid of it once again.
They were disgusting, but they were alive and warm,
so warm their heat made the huge beer halls hot as ovens. Rogan
kept drinking schnapps while Rosalie switched to beer. Finally,
having drunk enough to be sleepy, they started walking to their
pension.
When they passed the parked Mercedes, Rogan told
Rosalie, “That’s the car I rented. We’ll take it to the courthouse
tomorrow morning and park it near your entrance. If I don’t come
out you just drive away and leave Munich. Don’t come looking for
me. OK?”
“OK,” she said. Her voice was tremulous, so he held
her hand to keep her from crying. She pulled her hand away, but it
was only to take the key from her purse. They entered the pension,
and as they mounted the stairs she took his hand again. She
released it only to unlock the door to their room. She entered and
switched on the lights. Behind her, Rogan heard her gasp of fright.
Seated on the green sofa was the Intelligence agent Arthur Bailey;
closing the door behind them was Stefan Vrostk. Vrostk held a gun
in his right hand. Both men were smiling a little.
“Welcome home,” Bailey said to Rogan. “Welcome back
to Munich.”