8
The major cuisines of China were brought into
being for different purposes, and for different kinds of diners.
Beijing food was the cuisine of officials and rulers, up to the
Emperor. Shanghai food was created for the wealthy traders and
merchants. From Sichuan came the food of the common people, for, as
we all know, some of the best-known Sichuan dishes originated in
street stalls. Then there is Hangzhou, whence came the cuisine of
the literati. This is food that takes poetry as its principal
inspiration. From commemorating great poems of the past to dining
on candlelit barges afloat upon West Lake where wine is drunk and
new poems are created, Hangzhou cuisine strives always to delight
men of letters. The aesthetic symmetry between food and literature
is a pattern without end.
— LIAN G WEI, The Last Chinese Chef
Sam had told her Hangzhou centered on a
magnificent man-made lake, and that if she wanted to spend the
night downtown while he stayed at his uncle’s, he could book her at
a hotel with a room facing the water. It sounded nice, but so far
nothing Maggie had seen of the crowded gray city into which their
bus disgorged them even hinted at such a fairyland. The streets,
crawling with cars, were narrow canyons of glass-and-steel
buildings. Sam waved over a taxi, explaining that the DHL office
was outside town. She climbed in beside him, grateful. The rain had
stopped, and everything was wet and washed clean.
They soared on a half-empty freeway along a river,
past farm fields and intermittent housing developments, to an
enormous and newly built business park. In this labyrinth the
driver somehow found his way to the DHL office with its fleet of
red-and-yellow trucks, and with Sam translating she signed forms
and paid and dispatched the package. Done. She walked out feeling
oddly numb. Her steps seemed heavy, the building and the parking
lot unreal. It was finished. It was sent. She climbed back into the
car, not quite believing it.
She stole a glance and saw him giving her a hopeful
look. “Are you hungry?” he asked. “Because I have to eat
immediately.”
“Starved.” She had already decided she would eat as
soon as he dropped her off, but it would be so much better to eat
with him; he knew where to go, what to have, and how to tell her
about it. Every meal here had been a breakthrough into the
unexpected, but the food she had eaten in his company had been
something more. With him, this world of cuisine seemed not only
intricate but coherently beautiful. It did what art did, refracted
civilization. “I’d love to have lunch with you,” she said. “But I
absolutely don’t want to keep you. You need to get to your
uncle’s.”
“It’s past one o’clock, I have to eat. I’m Chinese
that way. Or I’ve gotten that way.”
“Meaning?”
“Nobody delays meals here. Everybody eats by the
clock. Meetings in offices stop at twelve sharp even if they’re
only ten minutes from concluding. By now, too, lunch will be over
at my uncle’s house, and I don’t want to arrive hungry. It’s part
of my job as a family member to think ahead and avoid
inconveniencing the people I care about.”
“Kind of like Southerners in America.”
“Yes,” he said, brows lifting in surprise at her,
“you’re right. As opposed to say, New Yorkers, who just throw out
their requests and expect you to be the one to say no, sorry, it’s
an inconvenience.”
“Exactly.”
“So you do want to eat,” he said.
“I do.”
“Good.” He laid a hand over his midsection, as if
to reassure himself food was coming. He had a long waist anyway,
the Chinese part of his body. Her eye followed his hand to that
part of him.
He gave instructions to the driver. “Where are you
taking me?” she said.
“Lou Wai Lou. Might as well go to the
quintessential Hangzhou restaurant. It’s been around forever, and
they’re still bragging about the Qianlong Emperor coming down to
eat in Hangzhou in the eighteenth century. Through its history it’s
had a close connection with the Seal Engraving Society, which was a
gathering place for the scholar crowd. Classic Hangzhou cuisine. If
a person like you eats in only one place, it should be this.”
“I was just thinking about this world of food
you’ve been showing me,” she said, “and why I never knew about it
before. Why do you think haute Chinese hasn’t made it in the West?
Haute Japanese has. Haute Italian has.”
“You’re right. Every year the lists of the world’s
fifty greatest restaurants come out, and not one of them mentions a
single Chinese place. I think it’s because people don’t know it.
Chinese-American food is so different.”
“But that was true once of Italian,” she protested.
“Spaghetti, pizza? We got past that. Why not Chinese?”
He considered. “Could it be the money?” he said.
“People value what’s expensive. It’s instinctive. They see Chinese
as a low-cost food, so they think it can’t be high-end. It can be
totally high-end, and it can also be expensive, which they’re not
used to. Of course, no more expensive than any other high-end
cuisine, but still. It’s Chinese. The funny thing is, actually,
that what drives up the price of high-end Chinese cuisine is often
the rarity of the ingredients. If you order high-end but forgo
those dishes, it’s not always that pricey.”
“So what are the ingredients that are so
expensive?”
“Exotic parts of exotic creatures. Chinese love
them. It is a constant push against the envelope to wring delicious
taste and texture out of the unexpected. These are the dishes,
along with ones that are ridiculously labor-intensive, that make
the high-end cuisine stand out. But let’s say you go to one of the
world’s greatest Chinese restaurants — ”
“One of the ones the list makers never heard
of.”
“Right, and you refrain from ordering the exotica.
You will still have unbelievable food, and yet some of it at least
will not be priced in the stratosphere.”
“I don’t know,” she demurred. “Those animal parts
might be hard to pass up.”
“I could put you to the test on that,” he
said.
She smiled. She knew that if he cooked it, and if
he said it was good — bear paws, camel humps, dried sea slug,
whatever — she would eat it.
Traffic slowed as they reentered the city, and soon
they were in the urban knot again, crawling through dense fumes of
exhaust between buildings that towered on each side. Once again she
wondered when she was going to see this lake.
Then their street ended at a T intersection, beyond
which stretched a dreamy blue mirror of water dotted by islands and
double-reflected pagodas. Hills covered with timeless green forest
ringed the opposite shore. Small, one-man passenger boats sculled
the surface, their black canopies making them seem from a distance
to be random, slow-moving water bugs. As far as she could see
around the lake, between the boulevard and the shore, there
stretched a shady park filled with promenading people. The noises
of the city swallowed themselves somehow into silence behind her.
She felt a sense of calm spreading inside, blue, like the water.
She glanced at him. He was smiling with the same kind of pleasure.
“What’s on those islands?” she asked.
“Pavilions. Zigzag bridges. Paths.”
“You know what? Maybe you should just stop and let
me out. I’ll stay right here. Get old here. Never leave.”
“And you will stay here tonight — lucky you. If you
want me to get you a room on the lake. Don’t you? Yes. That’s what
I would do in your position. But first, lunch.”
Lou Wai Lou was a stately old building on a broad,
crescent-shaped peninsula hugging the shore of the lake. They got
off at the main road and walked down the causeway to the
restaurant. The water’s edge was clotted with luxuriant patches of
floating, round-leafed lotus. Sheltering trees rustled in the
wind.
The restaurant was a stone building with huge
windows and grand dining rooms. Sam showed her the building for the
Seal Engraving Society next door. “The society members, the
calligraphers who created the chops and seals used by educated men,
were Lou Wai Lou’s original meishijia, their gourmets. Some
say that’s how it got started that Hangzhou cuisine was about
literature.”
“Literature?” she repeated, not sure she was
hearing right.
“This is the literary cuisine.”
They sat down. “You mean what, writers eating
together?”
“No, the opposite — eaters writing together. Poetry
would be written in groups. People would get together and dine and
play drinking games and write poetry — like a slam. So here, food
and poetry developed side by side. Always modifying each
other.”
“You mean this is the food of the literati.”
“Yes. Even today, dishes quote from the poets.
You’ll see! We’ll order dongpo rou.” And he called for a
waiter. “It was named for Su Dongpo. Famous poet who wrote some of
his gems here. Oh,” he said to the waiter, “and another dish,” and
he asked for sliced sautéed lotus root with sharp-scented yellow
celery, garlic shoots, and Chinese sausage. Finally he ordered
beggar’s chicken, because it was a famous local dish and he said
she must have it at the source.
Sam Liang sat back after that, and stopped himself.
Three dishes were enough. Uncle Xie would have him cooking the
moment he arrived at the house, driving him, insisting he do
better, teaching him something he needed for the banquet, which was
now in five days. He would work hard, prepare a huge meal for
everyone tonight. Better to eat lightly. Qi fen bao. Seven
parts of ten. He knew that. And nice to have one more hour in this
woman’s company.
Admit it, he thought, you like being with her. Hour
after hour it was the same, and this was the second day — unusual
for him. He usually didn’t do well when he took trips with women.
Of course, that was usually because they were lovers and not
friends, and it had always been hard for him to be with his lovers
around the clock. This woman was not his lover; maybe that was why
he got along with her so well. An acquaintance. Maybe a friend.
Sometimes — the evening before, for instance, when they had said
good night in the hallway — he thought he saw a sexual woman in
there, waiting for someone to come in and find her. Other times he
wasn’t sure. That’s a question for some other man to answer. Not
you.
Yet he had been impressed with her today. She had
handled herself perfectly in the meeting, waiting to speak until
all the pleasantries had been exchanged, then offering herself as
exactly what they might hope for, the widow wanting nothing but to
support her husband’s child — if she was her husband’s child. That
was her only sine qua non and she held fast to it, at the same time
making it seem utterly reasonable. He himself had spoken in support
of her, in English, only once, and it had been enough. She had
taken a message that was essentially metaphor, the Sword-Grinding
Rain story, internalized it, and played it back as strategy. He
hadn’t expected that.
“I really don’t know much about you,” he said now.
“I know about your husband and this claim and the things that
brought you here. But not about your life.”
She thought. “One of the things about writing a
column for twelve years is that you have to build a sort of
persona. I’ve done that. I have a public self. That person would
answer, I have no home. My home is the road, the passageway between
the tents at the state fair, the alley where the oyster place is,
you get the idea. And I do live like that, about ten days a
month.”
“And the rest?”
“I spend the rest of the time at home. Writing,
mostly.”
“And you live in L.A.”
“In Marina del Rey. Actually on a boat. I live on a
boat.”
“Seriously?” His awareness went up.
“It sounds cool and minimalistic, but it’s not.
It’s kind of screwed up, to tell you the truth.”
“You moved there after your husband died?”
She nodded.
“You can’t cook on a boat,” he said.
“Sure you can. But I don’t. I never cook.”
“Never? And you’re a food writer?”
“Not if I can help it. On this, I can tell you, my
husband and I were in perfect accord. Neither of us knew how to
cook. My mother was a wonderful woman but terrible in the kitchen;
his mother could cook but refused to show anybody how. So we kept a
refrigerator that looked like a forest of takeout containers, his
and hers. Matt loved to eat, but he had no interest in
cooking.”
“Opposite man from me,” said Sam.
“What about you? I know you studied with your
uncles, but where’d you learn before that?”
“My mom. Not Chinese, of course. Jewish food. The
basics. Comfort food. Here.” He flipped up his phone and touched
the buttons and flipped it around to show her the corded grin of a
pleasant-looking gray-haired woman. “Judy Liang,” he said, his love
evident. “My childhood home cook.”
“She looks nice,” Maggie said, which was the
truth.
“She is.” He put the phone away. The food came.
Dongpo rou was a geometrically precise square of fat-topped
pork braised for hours in a dark sauce. Maggie lifted the fat layer
delicately away with her chopsticks and plucked the lean, tender
meat from underneath.
“Ah, you’re so American,” he said. “The Chinese
diner is in it for the fat.”
“Let me see you eat it.”
He scooped up a piece and popped it in his mouth.
Then he said, “Truth is, I don’t like the fat much either.”
She laughed. She couldn’t stop eating the pork,
which was succulent and delicious. “Would you say this is high food
or low food?”
“Both. That’s like so many things here. It’s low in
that it’s one of the most common dishes in this city. They cook it
everywhere. It’s high in the sense that to make it right — with
tender, succulent meat and fat like light, fragrant custard — is a
rare feat.”
“Will you put it in your banquet?”
“I will,” he said, surprising her. “But I think in
a different form.”
“Good,” she said, “because I love it.” She turned
to the second platter, which held lotus root and crisp,
strong-tasting yellow celery and sausage. Also delicious. Then the
beggar’s chicken. It looked at first like a foil-wrapped whole
bird, but he undid it, folded back layers of crinkly baking bags,
and broke the seal on a tight molded wrap of lotus leaves. A
magnificently herbed chicken aroma rushed into the air.
Maggie couldn’t wait. She picked up a mouthful of
chicken that fell away from the carcass and into her chopsticks at
a touch. It was moist and dense with profound flavor, the good
nourishment of chicken, first marinated, then spiked with the bits
of aromatic vegetable and salt-cured ham which had been stuffed in
the cavity and were now all over the bird. Shot through everything
was the pungent musk of the lotus leaf.
At once she knew she should write about this place.
She should give the recipe for this dish, catch the glorious bustle
of this restaurant, describe these tall windows looking over the
majesty of the lake and the virgin green hills beyond. Her one
column was inadequate — inadequate even to tell the story of Sam
Liang, which was so much richer than anything she could contain in
a brief piece. And in addition to him she had so many moments, like
this one, this lunch at Lou Wai Lou.
After they ate they walked outside and stood on the
steps to look out at the lake. “The thing I can’t believe is that
behind me” — she waved back over her left shoulder — “is that gray,
honking city. While over there” — she pointed across the water — “I
see nothing but trees and hills. No development. In this day and
age that’s amazing! What’s over there?”
“Monasteries and stuff,” he said. “Temples.” Then
she looked around and saw that his attention was focused away from
her and the lake, trained on the bottom of the steps, where an
older man used a bucket of water and a brush as long as a mop,
which he dipped in the water and swirled on the wide smooth
pavement.
“What’s he writing?” she whispered.
“A poem. Unless it’s a short one, the beginning
will be gone by the time he gets to the end. It will evaporate
away. That’s the idea. It’s like a recitation.”
“But who is he?”
“Just a guy out enjoying the day.”
“Can you read the poem?”
“Me? No! Impossible.” He looked at Maggie. If she
stayed here, in time she would understand more. Only half the
beauty of what the man was doing was the poem, beyond doubt some
beloved classic. The other half was his calligraphy, which rendered
each character into something like an abstract painting, beautiful,
but all the more indecipherable to Sam. “Elder Born,” he said in
polite Mandarin, “may I trouble you as to the author of this
poem?”
“Su Dongpo!” the man cried up the steps,
delighted.
“It’s the guy the pork dish was named after,” Sam
said to her.
He knew how strange the connection between food and
poetry seemed at first; he remembered his Uncle Xie explaining it
to him. “The number-one relationship is between the chef and the
gourmet, my son. The chef must give the meishijia what he
wants. Here in Hangzhou, for a thousand years, the meishijia
have been the literati, so we give them dishes named for poets. We
create carvings and presentations to evoke famous poetry and
calligraphy parties throughout history. We strive for dishes of
artifice which inspire poetic musings. The highest reward for any
Hangzhou chef is to hear poetry being created and applauded by his
diners out in the dining room — oh! Nothing else in my life has
given me such a good feeling, except my wife and my son and my
daughters — and you, my son, of course. This is what you must
understand if you are to be a true Chinese chef. Eating is only the
beginning of cuisine! Only the start! Listen. Flavor and texture
and aroma and all the pleasure — this is no more than the portal.
Really great cooking goes beyond this to engage the mind and the
spirit — to reflect on art, on nature, on philosophy. To sustain
the mind and elevate the spirit of the meishijia. Never cook
food just to be eaten, Nephew!”
Sam had tried, but here he truly was held back by
being a foreigner. He had been born, raised, and educated in
America. He lacked the dizzying welter of references and
touchpoints that would have been his if he had grown up here. He
had only his uncles. They had done their best to fill him in on
five thousand years of culture, starting the moment he arrived. For
this he not only accepted their abuse, he was grateful for
it.
In another taxi they sailed back up the road toward
the lake and the hotels. It was time now. He needed to get on to
his uncle’s.
He had called. He was told Xie had been carried
down to the kitchen and was waiting for him. His wife, Wang Ling,
was there beside him, and since yesterday all four children had
been home — three daughters and a son. Only one of the daughters,
Songling, still lived in Hangzhou; she managed another venerable
restaurant called Shan Wai Shan. She was the only one of the Xie
children who had followed her father into the world of cuisine. The
other two daughters, Songan and Songzhe, and the son, Songzhao, all
had professional careers and families in Shanghai. They were Sam’s
generation, and he thought of them as one thinks of far-off
cousins, rarely seen but always spoken of with fondness. When they
were born, their father had insisted upon using the traditional
generation name, so that their given names all shared the same
first syllable. By then, in the 1950s, this was hardly ever done —
but that was Third Uncle, a stubborn reprobate, still using the
generation name even after his own father had died in prison for
being an imperial cook.
The old man had used the same iron will on Sam. No
one was harder on Sam than Xie. None had used harsher names. Xie
had called him a worthless lump of mud and a motherless turtle. He
told him he didn’t deserve to be a Liang. More times than Sam could
bear to remember he had taken away what Sam was in the middle of
cooking and dumped it out. “Zai kaishi yixia,” Uncle would
order, slamming the clean wok back down in front of him, Start
again. And Sam would swallow back the humiliation and know that
Uncle would not be teaching him if he didn’t believe he could learn
it, could do it. Each time Sam would resolve to keep trying.
And now Uncle was slipping away from the earth, and
all Sam wanted was to get to him, quickly, and be with him once
again, while he lived.
She turned to him in the back seat. “If you can
just tell me a good place to eat tonight. Near my hotel.”
“By yourself ?”
“Of course by myself.”
“You can’t eat alone,” he said, and even as he
spoke he asked himself what he was doing. Why not just say goodbye?
It was time for him to go to Uncle’s. “I told you, that’s one of
the important things about Chinese food. Maybe the most
important thing. It’s about community.”
“I’m okay eating by myself. I always eat alone on
the road, and always always since Matt died.”
“That’s bad luck. I might have to try and change
you.”
“You can’t change me,” she informed him.
“But to eat alone is anti-Chinese.”
“I’m not Chinese. Look, Sam, you’re being so nice
and you really don’t have to be. It’s just, I’m here. I don’t want
to waste a meal. Tonight I want to go someplace good. Just tell me.
That’s all.”
“I could easily give you a place. But the thing you
should really do is come with me. Eat with the Xie family. Then I
will bring you back here.”
“I don’t want to get in between you and your
family.”
“You won’t. You’ll be watching a lot. I’ll be the
only person you can talk to, and I might be occupied. You okay with
that?”
“Yes,” she said. “I’m a writer. I love to observe.
But this is your family. It’s a sensitive time.”
“But I would like you to come.”
“Okay,” she said after a minute.
He felt himself smile. He was relaxed with her,
which he hadn’t felt in so long. She was a friend. Nothing wrong
with it.
They had reached her hotel parking lot. She slid
out the door and pulled her bag behind her. “Will you wait for me a
moment? Just let me put this stuff in the room. I’ll be right
back.”
“Okay,” he said.
Maggie closed the door and trotted away from him to
the entrance. She was aware that he was watching her from behind.
When she was younger she would have worried about whether her shape
was pleasing or not, but not now. She was old, forty, and besides,
he was not interested. Still, she was glad she was going along. She
felt a pull to him. Maybe they’d be friends after all.
She ran upstairs and put her things in the room and
then came back down. Another thing: it would be a blessing to have
company tonight, not to be alone. She had done it, got the sample,
sent it off, and there was always that sense of letdown when a
difficult task was finished. There was also the sadness, the
finality; if Shuying wasn’t Matt’s, then she, Maggie, would never
see his face in any living form, ever again. In time she might even
forget his face. She would remember it only the way it had been
captured in pictures. She was going to see herself get old in the
mirror, and never remember him any other way but young.
“You okay?” said Sam when she got in the car.
“I am,” she said, and she closed the door behind
her.
Xie must have fallen asleep because he awoke to
the sound of the car door. Then a second door. Voices. A woman. His
shaggy brows lifted. Finally, after all this time, the boy had
brought a woman here! An instant web of thoughts bloomed and
branched out in his mind as he heard their steps coming up to the
door.
“Men kai-de!” he called. Door’s open!
The door pushed open and in came Nephew, smiling,
wet-eyed, and behind him an outside woman with large, dark eyes and
unruly hair.
Nephew dropped beside him and held him in the
Western way as he murmured to him in Chinese. Then he said, “Uncle,
this is Maggie McElroy,” and raised a hand to the girl. Xie did his
best to give her a smile. She was pleasing in spite of her face,
which was too sharp. Of course she could have looked like a dog and
he would have been happy, considering that she was a woman and
Nephew was bringing her. “Huanying, huanying,” Xie
said.
“He says welcome.”
“My pleasure to meet you,” said Maggie.
“Ta hen gaoxing renshi ni,” said Sam.
Xie had been watching her eyes. He could always
tell when someone understood. “She can’t talk?” he said abruptly in
Chinese.
“No, Uncle, not a word.”
“Too bad.”
“No! No, Uncle, it’s not like that. She’s not my
girlfriend. She’s a writer, she’s doing an article about the
competition. It’s no more than that.”
“Did I say something?” Xie demanded. “Did
this worthless old lump say anything to her but welcome?”
“No. Sorry. Anyway, I’ll run her back to her hotel
after dinner.”
“She is your good friend, she is welcome.”
“She’s not — oh, never mind.” Besides, she was his
friend, in a way.
Uncle Xie was looking sternly at him. “Enough.” The
old voice was imperious. “Show me your wrists!”
Sam unbuttoned his cuffs and rolled them back. He
knew he wasn’t going to have enough new scars to please Uncle.
Serious Chinese cooks always had a signature pattern of
mottle-burns. These burns could extend past the wrists all the way
up the forearms. Just reaching across the stove, a chef could be
burned by spattering oil, and the burns left their own special
marks. Even American immigration officers checking incoming Chinese
chefs with work visas knew to check the wrists and forearms for the
spatter-pattern of scars.
Xie craned his neck. “Closer!” he rasped, and then
when he got a look he let out a weak snort. “What do you do all
day, lie about? Do you ignore your prayers to your calling? When
are you going to rush to clasp the Buddha’s foot — the day of the
banquet? Don’t you know by then it will be too late?”
“Uncle, I have been thinking, and trying dishes —
”
“Flush your thinking! It is the American in you
that thinks somehow everything you need will arise by magic inside
you! Wrong! You have to learn! To learn you have to work!”
“But Uncle — ”
“If you were working you would be burned!”
Behind them Maggie stared. Though she didn’t
understand their Chinese, it was obvious that, as sick and weak as
the old man was, he was hitting hard. Yet Sam didn’t seem to mind.
He could feel her watching and turned around. “Don’t worry. It’s
his way of saying I matter to him.”
“It’s fine,” she said.
Then Uncle Xie cut back in with his rasping
Mandarin. “I’m waiting! And since you did not bring this foreign
female here to tell me you had a special feeling for her, why are
you talking to her? Lump! Dogmeat! Do you think I have so much time
left? Wash your hands! Tie back your hair! You should cut it. It
looks terrible. Prepare!”
“We’re going to be cooking now,” Sam told Maggie.
“You’ll have to forgive me.”
“Nothing to forgive. I’ll watch. That’s why I’m
here.” She crept to the side and sat down. “You’re fun to
watch.”
“See, that’s why I wanted you here. You’re nice to
me. I get nothing but tough love from my relatives. Ah, here’s Wang
Ling, Uncle Xie’s wife.” And he bent to hug a small, white-haired
bird of a woman.
He spoke in Chinese to the old lady, introducing
Maggie, after which she took Maggie’s elbow with a surprisingly
strong little hand. She sat beside Xie and soothed him while Maggie
settled on her small worn stool against the wall.
First there was soaking of lotus leaves, which
Maggie gradually saw were meant to wrap short ribs. She watched as
Sam followed instructions from Uncle Xie and mixed a marinade of
soy sauce, scallions, ginger, sugar, peanut oil, and sesame oil,
plus a spoonful of something. “Bean paste,” he shot back at her
over his shoulder. Her notebook crept out of her purse practically
of its own accord, and she started writing things down.
The ribs and the marinade went back in the
refrigerator. “They have to steep,” said Sam. Then he lifted the
lotus leaves out, wet and limp like elephant ears. He stared at
them for a second. “I see my mistake,” he said to Maggie in
English. “I should have cut them with scissors when they were
dry.”
“Worthless,” sniffed Xie.
“Completely,” Sam agreed, and started sawing on
them with a serrated knife.
After half an hour his uncle said, “All right. Take
the ribs out. First, take all the pieces out of the marinade, the
scallions and ginger — throw them away. Leave some of the marinade
on the meat. You’re going to put two bite-sized ribs in each lotus
leaf. First roll them in the five-spice rice powder — get a lot,
now, make a paste. Get some larger rice crumbles. Large enough for
the mouth to feel. That’s it, now roll them. You have the plate
ready? Line them up. No! Turtle! Smooth side down! You’re going to
turn them over to serve, remember? Just witness your
stupidity!”
“He doesn’t seem happy,” said Maggie.
“It’s not as bad as it sounds,” Sam said.
Now Wang Ling was bending over the old man, telling
him it was time to go up and nap. “Yes, Auntie,” Sam agreed. “You
are right. Uncle, I’ll carry you up. We’ll awaken you in two hours
when the ribs are finished steaming. Would you like that?”
“Like it!” said Xie. “I’ll swat your worthless head
if you don’t!” Then he broke apart, coughing.
“Come, Uncle,” Sam said, and he lifted the thin old
figure in his arms like a child and bore him gently toward the
stairs. Wang Ling bent to take the empty rattan chair.
“Oh, no,” Maggie said quickly, “let me.” And she
scooped up the chair, which was light, and followed Sam into a
central hallway and then up a straight single flight of stairs
between whitewashed walls. At the top they turned into the second
bedroom.
It was warm with the sweet vinegar of old people,
the books, the glasses, the cups of tea, the medicines. Sam laid
Xie on the flowered bed. Curtains lifted in the breeze. “Thank you,
my son,” Xie said to him, voice flickering, exhausted.
Now, Maggie thought, he did look sick. His skin was
yellow parchment, his hands weak and palsied. His chest rose and
fell with effort. He was trying to talk to Sam.
“Guolai,” he whispered, Come here.
Sam bent close.
“I don’t suppose you have any miserable idea for a
menu, do you?”
“Not yet, Uncle.”
“I have written one out for you, my son. Songling
helped me. Songzhe, Songan, and Songzhao are bringing back all the
food you will need for it. You are to prepare it for tonight. When
you are done, even if you do not use any of the dishes from it, you
will understand the classical progression.”
“Yes, Uncle. I’ll start when they get here.”
“Awaken me the moment the ribs are ready.” He
lifted his head off the pillow, the only thing left he could move.
“Don’t make me come after you!”
“No, Uncle,” Nephew said, tenderly tucking the
cover. Xie watched as he and the curly-headed foreign woman slipped
out. He himself could feel the soft bath of sleep coming on. Sleep
was his comfort now, sleep and memories, along with the kind gaze
and gentle hands of his old wife. And his children. And Nephew, now
that he was here.
The injections his wife gave him took away the
pain, even as they made his mind as clear as glass. Everything
around him was like a dream. What had been far away was near. The
days of his youth, particularly, seemed as pure and immediate as if
they had just occurred.
Hangzhou was a food lover’s dream then, and had
been for a thousand years. Even the most ancient texts recorded its
“abundance of rice and fish.” By the time of the Southern Song in
the twelfth century, restaurants and teahouses were two-thirds of
the city’s establishments. In order to outdo one another, Hangzhou
chefs turned to the lavish use of ingredients, even rare ones, not
even to eat, but simply to flavor the others — prawns used as a
seasoning, crab roe as fat. And then there was decorative cooking.
He must remember to bring this up with Nephew. At certain points in
Hangzhou’s history, presentation had reached virtuosic, garish
heights, with elaborate mosaics of brightly hued hors d’oeuvres and
the cutting of main-dish ingredients into floral and animal shapes.
Oh, and there were the local delicacies: the Zhenjiang black
vinegar and the Shaoxing wine.
It was right that Nephew should have his final
lesson here in Hangzhou. Nowhere else in China were the people so
occupied with gastronomy. Oh, he thought, shivering with delight,
for so many centuries cultivated men had thought nothing of
spending long hours over wine and poetry, debating which was
better: the fresh pink shrimp flavored with imperial-grade green
tea leaves, or the skinned shad wrapped in caul fat and steamed
with wine.
Diners such as these deserved flattery, and so in
Hangzhou a new element of Chinese cuisine was born — the pleasure
of the compliment, made by the chef, delivered to the diner. This
in turn gave rise to a whole sub-school of dishes characterized by
surpassing subtlety, dishes that would be apprehended only by those
with genuine taste.
Into this food fairyland had been born the young
Xie, with his best friend and sworn brother, Jiang Wanli. The two
families lived in adjacent compounds, and the little boys seemed
joined to each other in all things.
They waited on private banquets together at the
restaurant, not serving, just watching from the side in their gray
silk gowns and black overtunics, ready to refill wine cups or
change plates. Here they learned the esoteric lessons of cuisine.
Food was not just to eat. It was a language. It was a regulator. It
set the ladder of power. Each time the boys served, they observed
this. Each meal was art, was a delight, but also a revelation of
hierarchy.
Before a banquet they would wait for their guests
at the entry, its pond and arched bridge and feathery trees laid
out in the style of ornate containment which had long been the
region’s signature. As they led the arrivals back to their private
dining room, ready-set with cold dishes, they were already trading
calculations silently, through no more than glances. Who would sit
in the shangzuo, the seat of honor facing the door? Who
would sit in the lowest seat, with his back to the door? What
dishes were selected? Who served food to whom? What toasts were
proposed, in what order? Which prestige foods would be served?
These were the parts of the banquet language which had meaning. The
conversation, the words that were said at table, meant next to
nothing. It was through etiquette that the verdict was passed. The
boys saw subordinates demoted, successors selected, the revelation
of a traitor in the group. Sometimes they saw the bland manners
that meant the banquet with its formal mix of supplication and
magnanimity was just a show, the successful candidate having
already been secretly agreed upon via the age-old back door.
Ah, Xie thought in an agony of hope, the boy’s meal
had to be brilliant — in every way, on every level. All the right
messages had to be sent out through the dishes, all the right
resonances struck. He watched the long-pointed fronds of the bamboo
outside the window and wondered once again what it was that made
their movement so odd now, so brittle in the breeze. This was the
last thought he had before he slept.
Down in the kitchen Maggie and Sam found the four
Xie children, all in their forties, all with the crosscut Xie
cheekbones of the patriarch. None of them looked like the delicate,
narrow-faced mother, not even the son. Sam introduced them:
Songling, the oldest, Songan and Songzhe, the other two girls, and
Songzhao, the son.
Sam had told her they spoke a bit of English, but
she didn’t hear any. All were talking in Chinese at once.
Cornucopia-stuffed string bags of food spilled onto the counters.
Gourds and herbs and cabbages and all manner of flowering chives
were spread out, tubs of rosy-fresh roe, a great live fish slapping
in a plastic bucket, and two live chickens, caged.
“These you’re going to kill?” said Maggie.
“Not in here,” he said. “There’s a place outside
the kitchen door for that. Don’t worry. It won’t be when you’re
around.”
“Give me some warning. I’ll take a walk.”
“Come to think of it, maybe you should watch.” The
thought made him smile. “You’re in China. Actually, Maggie, the
sisters have a plan for you, if you like. They’re all going to get
a massage. They want you to go with them.”
“A massage?” she said.
“They always do this together when they come home.”
He was making separate piles of the vegetables, the sliced-in-place
pads of fresh pasta, the eggs.
“Women shunbian qu,” one of the sisters
offered.
“They’re going anyway,” he translated.
“To a massage parlor?” she said.
He laughed. “It’s not that kind. Oh, there are
those here too, believe me — just not this place.”
“I wondered,” she said. “I saw girls in
Beijing.”
“Wonder no longer,” Sam told her. “It’s
everywhere.” Indeed, prostitution had sprung back to life alongside
the restaurant business in the 1990s. It took all forms and went
through every kind of channel, one of them being massage
establishments whose true purpose was immediately made obvious by
low lights, bed-furnished cubicles, and so-called masseuses clad in
skintight gowns slit to their pale hipbones.
In the dim lights, the girls who worked there were
usually pretty. By Western standards they were inexpensive, too.
Added to that was the fact that prostitution here was not hidden
away in secret, seedy places the way it was in the West. It was
forthright, visible. Sexual services in token guises were openly
offered in the best hotels and business centers. Outcall services
supplied whatever was desired in more private settings. At the
highest caste level were all the women who were kept in apartments
and on retainers for their sexual services: contract mistresses. If
what you wanted was paid sex — and Sam didn’t, personally, not
because he was ashamed but because for him paying seemed to knock
the whole point out of it — then China was a great place to be.
Plenty of Chinese men were into it. Some laowai men too,
though they mostly stuck to the bar-girls and masseuses.
“I won’t lie to you,” he said to Maggie now.
“Massage parlors of that kind are everywhere. Very big here, with
Chinese and with foreigners too. But so is the other kind, the
legitimate kind, where the workers are trained and it’s totally
therapeutic and they just do massage, on men and women alike. It
feels great. You should go. The sisters want you to.”
They spoke up now, chorusing in Chinese, obviously
saying yes, yes, she should go.
“We can’t really talk to each other,” said
Maggie.
“That doesn’t matter. You’re getting a
massage.”
“I think I could use that,” Maggie admitted. Except
for hugs and handshakes, she hadn’t really been touched by anyone
this past year. Everyone was kind to her, but their kindness was in
the heart. She had not felt anyone’s hands on her. No one held her.
So often she had lain on the boat and wrapped her arms around
herself, even in the daytime, the curtains tight against the bright
light and the faint slap of the lines in the wind.
Sam said something in Chinese, and Songling linked
her arm through Maggie’s. “Come,” she said, and led her
outside.
“Bye,” Maggie called back to Sam, and he just
looked at her with a smile, one that seemed to penetrate through
her shell to the inside of her, one that said, You’re about to
feel good.
Songzhe sat beside her in the back of the car, and
Songan rode up in front with Songling. They curved down through a
green pelt of trees rich with bamboo. When they passed an entrance
gate with a sign in English and Chinese she saw they had been
driving through the Hangzhou Botanical Garden. The sisters batted
back and forth like birds, happy to see each other, and Songzhe
kept leaning over to squeeze Maggie’s arm. Everyone was so physical
here, Maggie thought. That was one reason she liked it. That and
the fact that people went around in groups. Sam, for example; even
though she had mostly been with Sam alone, he seemed to have a herd
of family members supporting him in the background. They were
quarrelsome, but they were there. It was a form of sustenance. It
was not Maggie’s life, never had been, but she liked it.
When they drove up in front of the massage place,
she saw that it did indeed look like a clinic. Chinese women in
white coats and flat shoes checked them in and led them to a room
with eight leather recliners separated by side tables for drinks
and reading matter. A wall-mounted TV was blaring a Chinese
travelogue. The Xie sisters chattered and laughed. They soaked
their feet in plastic-lined wooden tubs of hot water with herbs.
She could feel how happy they were to be together, even if it was
for their father’s final illness, even if their eyes were brimming
at the same time they talked and laughed. Each had gossip and
revelations and new digital photos on their cell phones, which they
made Maggie look at and admire. Maggie knew how they felt. She
understood happiness, and she understood grief. Many times during
the last year she had been pulled between the two, the way they
were now.
“He shenmo?” said one of the white-coated
women, standing next to her, and Songzhe translated, “Something to
drink?”
“Water,” said Maggie. “Please. And could we turn
that off ?” She indicated the TV, now showing footage of mountain
peaks set to tinny music.
At once all three sisters waved dismissively at it,
chattering; they didn’t like it, they hadn’t been watching it, they
didn’t care. Maggie received a water bottle, took a drink from it,
lay back, and submitted to the hands of the girl who took her feet
out, dried them, balanced them on the stool, and began to massage
them. The woman was confident and strong-fingered. Maggie felt her
anchor lift, her beleaguered self finally rise and float and start
to spin downstream. The world fell away. In time she saw only
disconnected images and scattered, luminous thoughts.
Likewise the conversation between the sisters gave
way to the silence of pleasure as the masseuses released the legs
and feet and then moved around to each woman’s head, neck,
shoulders, and arms. Maggie drifted. In a half-dream she saw Matt’s
face. How far did you go with her? What did you do? Were there
others? But he didn’t answer. A glass wall seemed to separate
them. She could see the humorous light in his eyes and the stubble
on his chin. See his Welsh face, sheepish and brave.
Is she your daughter or not?
She floated with the woman’s strong fingers
kneading up her shoulders and her neck to her scalp, then dropping
to her upper spine and starting again. Maggie’s muscles were hard
and tense. As their outer layers relaxed and released, images of
Matt rose like bubbles, burst, and vanished. Maggie felt the
Chinese woman’s hands now on her neck. She remembered Matt two
years ago, taking her to a birthday party for his friend Kenny’s
little son. She remembered complaining on the way over that people
shouldn’t invite grown-up friends to a party for a three-year-old,
but Matt broke through her crust, as he usually did. He was the
gracious one. He was the reason their relationship had manners.
“You know what?” he said. “Kenny’s more proud of this little guy
than of anything else he’s ever done. So it’s fine.”
At the party she knew hardly anyone, except Kenny’s
wife, so she stood with her in the kitchen to help. They chatted
and cut melons and pineapples, bananas and grapes, for fruit salad.
On the other side of the pass-through, guests buzzed at the food
table and formed a laughing circle around Kenny and Matt as they
played with little William on the floor. Both men lay on their
backs on the floor with their knees up, whooping and hollering,
riding the boy on their knees and passing him aloft from one to the
other while he shrieked with joy.
“Look at Matt,” said Valerie, Kenny’s wife. “He
loves it.”
It was true. Matt’s face was alight. His eyes were
dizzy with pleasure. So tender, the way he held the boy. He
wants one. Look at him. Look. It was so undeniable that Maggie
thought her heart would crack. “You’re right,” she said softly. “He
does.”
Valerie put the last fruit on the platter and wiped
it once around the edges. “So when are you two going to have
one?”
Now, years later, on her back with a Chinese
woman’s fingers working their way down her arm, spreading her hand,
massaging it, Maggie remembered the way she had fished for an
answer, how Valerie had seen her discomfort and kindly retreated.
She remembered the silent thud inside her that told her Matt would
never rest, never be content, until he had one of his own. She knew
this wish would now define their life together. As it did, in the
short time left to them.
It’s no use thinking about him. He’s never
coming back. She felt the old sadness. One of the sisters
murmured softly in Chinese; the sister next to her released a
little laugh. Maggie made an involuntary half-smile in response.
She didn’t understand. It didn’t matter. They were happy here
together, and they made her part of it. It was guanxi, the
deep kind, family. She thought she was beginning to understand it.
Make this the start, then. Go on from here. The thought was
soft and clear in her mind. The room grew still, just the sound of
their breathing, soft, like falling snow. She let go of the world
and slept.