SOME DAYS, NOTHING HAPPENS. OTHER DAYS, EVENTS ASSAULT relentlessly from all sides, nonstop. Thursday was one of those days. It began in the dark, before dawn. susan called at six, hysterical for a change.
“she misses work for months, and then she gives me two weeks’ notice? I’ve got a trial next week. What am I going to do?”
“Bonita quit?” I yawned, trying to wake up.
“I can’t blame her, in a way. she’s scared. A lot of them are quitting, even some of the live-ins. I gave her the whistle and a can of Mace. I told her I’d bought the gun and was getting her a permit. But she won’t have any of it. she quit.”
“Damn. I mean, I can understand—”
“Of course. But what am I going to do? Tell the judge I can’t defend my client because the babysitter quit?”
“The girls can come to my house. Angela’s still on the job.” “How are they going to get there?” “It’s only about a mile. Walk?”
My doorbell rang. I checked the clock again. It was barely six-fifteen. Who the hell was ringing the bell? It was too early, couldn’t be Angela; besides, she had a key. Maybe Charlie? Was he feverish again?
“Mom? somebody’s at the door.” Molly’s feet thumped down the hallway. “I’ll get it!” I heard her bounding down the steps.
“Molly, no! Wait—you know the rule. susan, can you believe somebody’s at my door?”
“At this hour?” she was appalled. Calling me at this hour, however, had been acceptable.
“I’ll call you back.”
“No, don’t. I gotta get to work. It’s round the clock for me these days. And thanks for your offer. But, fact is, with all their music lessons and swim team and all, it wouldn’t work. I might have to ask Tim’s mother to stay with us. Can you imagine? It could come to that. Dear Lord—look, I’ll see you tonight, the moms’ meeting, right?”
“Right.”
The bell rang again. Molly called, “Mommy. Hurry up!” I dashed down the steps to the door and peered out the peephole.
“Who is it, Mom?”
“Nobody,” I said. “Go ahead, you can open it.” Carefully, she undid the bolt and turned the handle. “Greetings.”
Good Lord, he was growing a mustache. The thing looked alive, as if it had crawled onto his face.
“Jeez, Michael. What are you doing here? Do you know what time it is?”
“No, no, Zoe. You’re supposed to say, ‘Michael—how nice to see you! Michael—what a nice surprise. How sweet of you to bring doughnuts. Won’t you come in?’ “ He stepped around me, carrying a bakery box.
Molly stood by my side, blinking coyly.
“And who’s this pretty young lady?” Michael stooped to her level. “I’m uncle Mike. What’s your name?”
“Molly,” she muttered.
He shook her hand. “Nice to meet you, Molly. How are—”
“Listen, Uncle Mike,” I cut him off, “we have to get ourselves dressed here, so—”
“You have time. I came early so we’d have time to talk. Aren’t you going to offer me a cup of coffee? Decaf if you have it.” He was already helping himself, taking a mug out of the cabinet, reaching for the coffee grinder. “You know, this thing’s the best investment we ever made. Nothing like waking up to fresh brew.”
“so you came to visit the coffee grinder?”
“I came to see you, Zoe. Here. Let me fix us a cup.”
“What’s in that box?” Molly was clearly baffled. She hadn’t processed my night with Nick yet, and now Michael’d shown up, bearing gifts.
“A surprise.” He opened it, revealing assorted doughnuts. “Ask your mom if you can have one.”
“Can I?”
Before I could answer, Uncle Mike had poured Molly a glass of milk and given her a wad of pink-iced dough, and the two of them were sitting together, chattering and laughing like a pair of happy old hens. What was going on? I’d barely opened my eyes, and already events had sped past me. I couldn’t catch up, much less rein them in. When had I lost control? And how was I going to get rid of Michael? How many times in one lifetime did I have to throw the man out?
Calm down, I told myself. The coffee was brewing and smelled warm and toasty. And I was hungry. What difference would it make if I ate a doughnut. I could exercise away the calories. On my stairMaster. Besides, doughnuts were a basic food group, weren’t they? Like gnocchi. Again, without wanting to, I thought of Nick. How his hand had felt on mine. Oh, the hell with Nick. I bit into chocolate icing and, in a few bites, devoured the whole doughnut. Then, unable to contain myself, I burst into their happy conversation.
“Molly,” I told her, “Uncle Mike and I have to talk.” she was unimpressed. “I’m not done with my doughnut,” she said.
“Molly,” I handed her a napkin, “go watch television. Please.” scowling, she gulped the last of her milk and took off. “What’s going on, Michael?” “she’s a nice kid, Zoe.” “Cut the crap.”
“I stopped by to see you. To catch up. And find out if you’d decided to give back my nana’s ring. Christmas is getting close—”
“Dammit, Michael. You’ve got balls—”
“As I recall, you once liked my balls—”
“I have a life here. You can’t harass me like this, dropping in at all hours as if you’re some long-lost relative—”
“But that’s what I am. A lost relative. A relative who lost everything—even the coffee grinder.”
“You can’t keep doing this, Michael. Every few months, you want something else. The bonds. The silver. The sofa. Now my ring. I guess you’ll want the coffee grinder, too, right? Enough. The divorce is over, and you agreed to the settlement—”
“And that’s my point. I agreed. I made everything easy for you. Now, I’m asking you for something, and so far I’m asking nicely—”
“What’s that supposed to mean?”
“Just what I said. I’ve asked you nicely for property that should have been mine to begin with. The only reason my nana wanted you to have that ring was because you were my wife—”
“Enough is enough, Michael. The ring’s been mine for years. For decades.”
“Yours? How can you say that?” His eyes bulged.
“How can you ask that? You gave it to me yourself.”
“Because you were my fiancee. My wife.”
“That’s right.”
“Amazing. You do grasp the situation.”
“Why do you want it? You don’t wear it.”
“Not now. I might someday, though, if I have it reset.”
“You wouldn’t—that setting’s antique. It’s exquisite—look. What if I buy it from you? How much?”
Why was I being so stubborn? The ring meant more to him than to me. Much more. But I had to draw the line somewhere. If I wanted him to back off and stop wangling, I’d have to be firm. “Michael. You have to go. I have to get dressed.”
He stood still, fuming. Refusing to leave, “Dammit, Zoe,” he growled. “I’ve been civil. I even brought you fucking doughnuts. That’s it. I’m done with the nice guy bit.”
Was that a threat? From Michael? I heard Charlie whisper, “Trust nobody. Evil is all around.” But surely he didn’t mean Michael. Michael was selfish, superficial, egotistical, two-faced, immature, and asinine, but he wasn’t evil. Was he?
“I thought you’d do this one little thing for me, for old times’ sake. We had some good times, didn’t we?”
Did we? What was he talking about? As usual, Michael and I were on different planets. I closed my eyes, saw Charlie gesturing from his car, Tamara’s hands reaching for help, a finger lying in the street.
When I didn’t answer, he stuck out his lower lip, a protrusion of wet flesh under a wad of wiry hair. Michael was pouting.
“Please, Zoe?” He made his little-boy face. A mistake. It didn’t work with the mustache.
“I told you I’d think about it, and I will. I promise. G’bye, Michael.” I moved toward the door, telling myself not to feel guilty.
“When, exactly?”
“I don’t know. When I get a chance.” When hell freezes over. “soon.”
“Nothing’s on TV, Mommy.” Molly was back. Probably she’d never left. Probably she’d been listening in the hall.
“Uncle Mike has to go,” I said. “He’s just saying good-bye.”
She stared at him, her fingers in her mouth. “Are you really my uncle?”
Michael said, “sure,” and I said, “No,” at the same time. Our eyes met, sparkling with animosity.
“I want it by Christmas, Zoe,” Michael’s tone had become nasty. “I’ve promised it to Margaret, and she’ll get it. One way or another.”
How dare he bully me? Or promise her my ring before I’d agreed to return it? I went to the door and opened it.
“G’bye, Michael.” I held the door for him, just as I had five years ago.
“I’ll be in touch,” he promised. “Bye, Molly.” He winked and shot her with his finger. Then, finally, he was gone.
I stood at the window, watching him negotiate the icy sidewalk to get to his car. I turned off the coffeemaker and rinsed out Michael’s cup, my hands recalling the hundreds of times they’d done that. The dozens of simple tasks they’d performed as part of a marriage. Lord. Why had I let Molly open the door? Michael was part of the past. We were over, finished, done. Trying to deal with him now was an anachronism. It was like raising the dead. I went to the door and bolted it, making the house mine again. Locked and secure, I was still standing there, leaning against the door, when the doorbell rang again.