12
Jenna-Jane was right about the value of an early
night. Standing outside Super-Self at half past one in the morning,
asleep on my feet, I asked myself for the hundredth time what the
hell I was doing here when my bed was five miles north and two
east.
But then the answer came stalking down the
street towards me, the cynosure of all eyes - I counted six,
including mine, the other sets belonging to a homeless guy and a
roosting pigeon on a window ledge. All the same, she walked like a
queen in procession, the night unrolling its monochrome carpet
before her.
I detached myself from the doorway and waved,
but Juliet had seen me already. Of course she had: her eyes were
adapted for much darker places than this. They had the same faint
glow to them that I’d noticed back at the Gaumont. More
unsettlingly, the proportions of her body looked subtly different.
She was taller, leaner, longer-limbed, without being any less
beautiful, any less perfect. She was dressed in red rather than her
usual black, and it was shocking to look at, the leather jacket
shining with a liquid gloss, as vivid as an open wound, the pleated
skirt infolded like labia.
‘Thanks for coming,’ I said when she was in
earshot.
‘You piqued my curiosity,’ she answered. ‘Show
me this thing. But you’d better not let me down, Castor. I don’t
like men who make promises and can’t deliver.’ The shape of her
face had changed too. It had elongated and thinned, the cheekbones
becoming higher and sharper. The overall effect was to make her
look less human, or rather to make her humanity seem like more of a
conscious affectation. Her body had become an ironic quote.
‘I’m as good as my word,’ I promised her, trying
to make my voice resonate with a confidence I really didn’t feel.
‘I said I’d show you something new, and I’m going to. But anyway,
you’re still on my payroll, right? Still on demon watch. I was
hoping you could give me an update on that.’
Juliet tilted her head back very slightly, her
red eyes fixed on me like rangefinders. ‘You want to make sure
you’re getting your money’s worth?’ she translated, with a
dangerous edge of anger in her voice.
‘I want to make sure nothing happened to Pen
while I was away,’ I said. ‘Or to you. That’s all.’
‘I haven’t seen Asmodeus, or felt him. If he’s
watching your house, or the woman, he’s doing it from a distance.
Circumspectly. Patiently. Does that sound like Asmodeus to
you?’
It didn’t, I had to admit. On the other hand,
he’s the kind of devious bastard who gives devious bastards a bad
name. ‘You know what they say about barn owls?’ I asked her.
Juliet stared at me as though I was something
she’d found crawling in her armpit. ‘No, Castor. I don’t know what
they say about barn owls.’
‘They call twice when they’re hunting - the
first time loud, the second time soft. It puts the prey off its
guard. Makes it sound like they’re heading away from you when
they’re about to drop out of the sky and put their claws through
your eye sockets.’
‘The “you” in this sentence being a mouse or a
rabbit,’ Juliet observed with cold amusement. ‘I don’t find it easy
to identify with prey, Castor. It’s interesting that you do. Now,
given that you could have asked me these questions by phone and not
disturbed my sleep, why am I here?’
There was a pause - barely perceptible - before
the word ‘sleep’. It made me hope that relations between Juliet and
Sue might have improved somewhat, but since I’ve got a
well-developed sense of self-preservation I didn’t ask. ‘Come and
see,’ I said.
The invitation had an unintentionally biblical
ring. Wasn’t that what the angel said to John when the Book of
Revelation was opened? Thinking of apocalypses, I unlocked
Super-Self’s front door and stood aside for Juliet to enter.
Super-Self felt different tonight. Juliet
stepped inside, casting her gaze to right and left. She opened her
mouth and stuck out her tongue to taste the air.
‘Nothing,’ she said at last, her vivid red eyes
narrowing slightly.
‘We’re not there yet,’ I said.
I walked past her to the stairs, expecting to
hear after a moment or two the clack of her
heels as she fell in behind me. Nothing. Despite the stiletto heels
of her blood-red shoes, she walked as silently as a cat. I knew she
was there, because she was a radarblip in my awakened death-sense,
and the back of my neck prickled from the near-physical pressure of
her stare. Otherwise I would have felt like Orpheus. Orpheus on the
downward leg of the journey, heading into Hades on a busker’s
prayer.
The reception area was silent and pitch black. I
went to turn on the lights, but Juliet’s hand blocked mine. ‘Hurts
my eyes,’ she murmured absently.
‘I can’t see in the dark,’ I pointed out.
‘You’ll adjust.’
She was right. There was a little light
filtering down the stairs - the street lamps shining in through
Super-Self’s open doors. It wasn’t much, but it was enough to show
me the outlines of objects. Paradoxically, despite the vivid
scarlet tones of her outfit, now Juliet was darker than the
darkness, a silhouette against solid black. Even her eyes had
stopped glowing, as though their light had shifted into a part of
the spectrum I couldn’t see.
‘Show me this thing,’ she said again. The
playfulness in her tone was the most terrifying thing I’d ever
heard.
Moving slowly to avoid falling over any
low-lying items of furniture, I crossed the dark space to the far
door, which opened not onto the pool but onto its anteroom.
I put my hand to the door, bracing myself for
what was on the other side. I was a little surprised that I hadn’t
felt it already, but perhaps this was how it worked: sitting like a
spider in a web, dormant, almost asleep, until something touched
one of the threads and woke it.
Juliet pushed me aside impatiently and walked
into the anteroom ahead of me. There was more light here: the
phosphorescence from the pool beyond cast shifting blue highlights
onto the walls. Juliet tilted her head back, seeming to listen, but
there was no sound except the arrhythmic lapping of the water
against the tiles.
‘If we go a little closer—’ I began. Juliet made
a brusque gesture, silencing me.
‘Yes,’ she murmured at last, her voice husky.
Her lips peeled back from her teeth in a feral grin. ‘That’s what
it wants. Go on, Castor. Move in closer.’
I hesitated. Juliet’s mood was hard to read, but
those bared teeth were unsettling. I was suddenly more afraid of
her than I was of the thing in the swimming pool beyond.
‘Closer,’ she said again. ‘It won’t show itself
until you do. It’s hidden itself, used the souls of the dead to
break up its outline. I won’t see it clearly until it moves, and it
won’t move unless we throw out some bait. I’ll be right behind
you.’
Yeah, that was very reassuring.
I went on through the arch to the water’s edge.
The moving lights below me resolved themselves again into human
shapes - became men and women in the depths of the water, circling
and gesturing in an endless dumb show. At that moment I felt an
aching solidarity with them. They’d lived and breathed once, been
fully human, unlike either the thing that crouched invisible in the
darkness above me or the siren at my back.
I leaned forward to see better. There were fewer
figures in the pool than I remembered from the night before - seven
or eight, where my confused memories had conjured up a crowd of
several dozen. The two men in togas were arguing - one calmly, the
other with a lot of emphatic gestures and striding back and forth.
Another, older man watched them, majestically detached, while two
women stood off to one side with their faces averted, looking sad
and afraid. Two Roman soldiers with breastplates and helmets stared
straight ahead, patient and impassive.
One of the women put her hand to her face.
Something clutched in her fist caught my eye, and I leaned forward
to see it more clearly. That was when the fear-thing fell on me
like the giant foot in a Monty Python sketch. The last time I was
here the process had been more gradual: an inexplicable sense of
unease in the hall above, creeping paranoia on the stairs, pure,
pants-wetting terror at the poolside. This was different. It was
like having my brain ripped out of my skull and dropped into liquid
nitrogen while it was still bleeding and pulsating.
Thought was impossible. So was movement. Fuck,
so was breathing. My chest locked up as though all my ribs had
twanged free and got tangled up together like one of Trudie’s cat’s
cradles.
Poleaxed, and already off balance, I toppled
forward into the water. I didn’t hear the splash even, but my eyes
were open and I could still see as I sank down among the ghosts.
They ignored me completely, playing out their pantomime around and
through me in the blue-white spotlight created by their own
phosphorescence.
For a moment I was staring into the face of the
woman I’d been watching from above. It was a tragic face, eyes
pleading and haunted, mouth tensed in a just-about-to-lose-it
grimace. But I kept on sinking down and down. Now I was level with
her shoulders, her chest, her arms. Her hand clutched tight around
the flimsy thing she’d drawn out from the voluminous folds of her
gown. It was a lace handkerchief, embroidered with the letters EC
in elegant - if slightly over-elaborate - needlepoint.
Water was starting to trickle into my mouth,
down my throat. Since I wasn’t breathing, it hadn’t found my airway
yet, but it wouldn’t be long.
In the meantime, as my shoulder bumped against
the bottom of the pool, I’d noticed that the woman’s shoes were
wrong too: they were low boots made of leather, with scrimshaw
buttons up the side. God damn it, she was even wearing socks.
Still unable to move a voluntary muscle, I
turned slowly in the water, rolling over onto my back. The trickle
of water became a torrent, and I cursed my luck silently as I
prepared to say goodbye to the world.
Then something locked hard onto my ankle and
hauled me upward like a hooked fish. I exploded out of the water
into the cool night air, and the shock of the cold and the sudden
movement started me breathing again. Okay, I was breathing water: a
small detail, easily adjusted once I’d coughed and hacked and
vomited myself back into equilibrium.
Juliet dumped me on the tiles without ceremony
and left me to it. When I was in a state to take notice of her
again, she was staring up into the light well above the pool, her
knees slightly bent as though she was ready to spring. But the fear
had gone - gone completely, in an instant, just as it had arrived.
I was about to listen in through my death-sense to confirm my
conviction that we were alone, but I stopped myself just in time.
That was how the damn thing worked. That was what it responded
to.
Yesterday, when I’d come here with Trudie, the
pair of us had come through the door on a hair trigger, knowing -
because we’d been told - that this was a woodshed with something
nasty in it. We were tuned into the psychic wavelengths, using the
sensitivities that made us exorcists, and the fear-thing had woken
up instantly. We’d started to feel it as soon as we crossed the
threshold.
Tonight, I’d let Juliet take the lead and make
the running, wanting her to see for herself. My death-sense hadn’t
stirred until I looked down into the pool and focused on the ghosts
and what they were doing. That was when the fear-thing had
pounced.
And that was why the bad shit just kept on
escalating. The more exorcists Jenna-Jane sent in here, the harder
she poked this thing, the harder it hit back.
I came up on one knee, groggy and hurting.
Juliet hadn’t put me down any too gently, and there was an ache all
the way up my right forearm and shoulder, but it felt great just to
be able to think straight.
‘Did you see it?’ I asked her.
She looked down at me, seeming slightly
surprised that I was still there. ‘Of course I saw it.’
‘So tell me what it is,’ I persisted.
‘Tartharuch,’ Juliet growled, her mouth twisting
around the gutturals. ‘From Tartarus. Tartharuch Gader’el.’ She was
still staring at me, her eyes hot coals in the darkness.
‘So it’s a demon.’
‘Yes. It’s a demon.’
‘And how do we kill it?’
‘Kill it?’ Juliet’s flawless brow furrowed. ‘Why
would I want to kill it? It smells of home.’
Something in the set of her mouth rang alarm
bells in my mind. They were still vibrating anyway from my second
round with the fear-thing, the Gader’el, so it didn’t take much to
set them off. I started to climb to my feet.
I didn’t even see Juliet move. Something - her
fist or her foot, I couldn’t be sure - hit me in the middle of my
chest and knocked me sprawling. Then she was on top of me, her face
about an inch from mine. She licked her lips and my heart surged,
clamouring like a monkey in a cage. Her sex scent filled me in a
second to bursting point, the way a water balloon held against a
running tap is filled, distends and then explodes.
I tried to speak. ‘This . . . this is . . .’ Her
parted lips, impossibly full and dark, were descending towards
mine. It seemed like a waste of time talking when I could just give
myself up to those lips and the terrible release they promised. But
I’d been here once before, on Juliet’s event horizon, and survived.
Clawing for purchase on that memory, some part of me was able to
grab a microscopic distance from the agonising, all-consuming lust
and remind me that I was about to die. ‘Bad idea,’ I forced out.
‘Sue . . .’
Juliet hesitated. A wave of some very human
emotion - irritation, impatience, something like that - passed
across her face, displacing for a moment the wanton mask she wore
when she was hunting. I have no idea what had risen in her mind:
the echo of an old argument maybe, a domestic quarrel between her
and her human lover in the early, honeymoon days, about the ethics
of devouring the odd guy on the side when you’re in a monogamous
relationship.
Whatever it was, it gave me a window. I whistled
into it: whistled Juliet. It was desperate improvisation. I
couldn’t think around her, couldn’t pull myself out of her orbit,
but as an exorcist I could put what I was feeling to good use. It
was the summoning, the first phase of an exorcism, when you make
the spirit you’re binding stand to attention and pay heed to you. I
called Juliet back into herself, as I’d done for her once before
after she fought Moloch at the Mount Grace Crematorium, and as I’d
tried and failed to do for Lisa Probert.
Dumb luck counts for a lot in my business. Doing
that gave me my second big insight of the night, the first one
being when I looked at the lace handkerchief in the Roman matron’s
hand and realised she wasn’t Roman at all. What I realised now was
that Juliet was all wrong. There was a mismatch, a discord, between
what I was playing and what I was feeling - between the Juliet I
knew, whose soul-music I’d memorised by heart, and the Juliet who
was crouched above me now preparing to devour me. They weren’t the
same being. They overlapped, but they weren’t the same.
If I’d had time to think about the implications
of that, I might have got the answer there and then, and everything
that happened later might have played out differently. But the
moment wasn’t really conducive to calm reflection. Juliet’s
pheromones still saturated the air, my heart was still trying to
start up a new career as a road drill, and it took all my effort,
all my concentration, just to keep forcing that tune out between my
pursed lips.
We must have stayed like that for the best part
of a minute, a tableau from a Benny Hill sketch. Then Juliet leaned
back, shifting her weight, and made a gesture with her right hand:
stop. Seeing her hand from so close up, I noticed again that it was
too long, the fingers impossibly tapered. Physically as well as
psychically, Juliet was in a state of flux.
She climbed off me. It hurt to be released from
that weight, to feel her attention pass over me and shift away. I’d
survived her attack again, and just like the first time it was
agonising. My maddened hormones threshed in my innards like waves
against a breakwater, and a fevered tremor went through me, leaving
me breathless and weak. My teeth chattered out a crazy, Morse code
lament. It was like the alcohol craving all over again, but
worse.
Juliet hauled me to my feet without apparent
effort even though I wasn’t able to contribute much to the process.
She propped me against the side of the arch, looking me up and down
with an abstracted frown, inspecting me for damage maybe.
‘Told you . . . a long time ago . . .’ I panted,
‘I wasn’t that kind of boy.’
‘Shut up, Castor.’ Juliet seemed to be her old
self again, or something close to her old self, but it hadn’t
improved her mood. Still, it shortened the odds on a meaningful
dialogue.
‘Tell me what happened,’ I threw at her.
‘Explain to me what just happened.’
She took her hand away from my shoulder to see
if I’d fall down again. I didn’t. Satisfied, she walked back to the
edge of the pool and stared up into the grey void of the light
well.
‘I lost control,’ she said at last.
‘You seem to have been doing that a lot
lately.’
‘Yes.’
‘Any idea why?’
She took on that attentive stance again,
shoulders rigid, head tilted slightly back. She was feeling for the
presence of the fear-thing. Bearing in mind what had happened when
she made contact a few minutes ago, I wasn’t thrilled with the idea
of sitting around and letting the two of them cuddle up some
more.
‘Juliet,’ I called.
With visible reluctance, she turned and faced
me.
‘Did this thing - this Tartarus whatever-it-is -
do something to your mind?’
She gave a brief, harsh laugh. ‘The Gader’el?
No, Castor. It’s just an animal.’
‘An animal?’
‘An animal from Hell. It’s dangerous, to the
unwary, and hard to eradicate, but it can’t think. Its repertoire
is just what you see here: it hides itself, and it strikes while
your back is turned. It feeds on fear, in the same way that I feed
on lust or the Shedim feed on the souls of murderers.’
I rubbed my bruised shoulder. ‘Then what?’ I
said. ‘What the fuck is happening to you?’
She stared at me in silence. She was just a
silhouette now, because the ghosts in the pool had gone and the
blue light had died, but the red fires in Juliet’s eyes told me I
had her attention and that she wasn’t entirely the Juliet I knew
and sexually obsessed about, even now.
‘I don’t know,’ she admitted. She seemed to pull
herself together. ‘We should leave. I startled the Gader’el, and
interrupted its feeding. If it comes back again, it will be
bolder.’
‘Why should it come back?’ I asked.
Juliet smiled a bleak, humourless smile.
‘Because you’re scared of me, Castor. Why else?’
On the pavement outside she made to walk away,
but I reached out and caught her shoulder. It was a symbolic thing:
light and slender as she was, she was as strong as ever, and she
could have broken my grip without trying. She half-turned, waiting
for me to speak.
‘Go home,’ I said. ‘Promise me you’ll go
home.’
Silence.
‘Juliet, you can’t hunt tonight. I can’t let
you.’
‘You can’t stop me,’ she said with dead
finality.
‘I know,’ I acknowledged. ‘So give me a break,
and don’t make me die trying. Go home to Sue. Have a quiet night
in. Remind yourself what you’ve got to lose.’
‘Fuck you, Castor.’
‘Again?’ I made my tone astonished and outraged.
‘Are you insatiable, woman?’
In spite of herself, she laughed. But the feeble
joke was a challenge too, and the word ‘woman’ gave her the benefit
of the doubt.
‘I’ll go home,’ she agreed. ‘But tomorrow . .
.’
‘Tomorrow we’ll figure something out.’
She nodded without conviction. Then she turned
her back and walked away from me down the Strand. A staggering
cluster of drunks on the opposite side of the street shouted out
some sort of sleazy invitation to her, and I tensed, ready to
intervene if necessary. But Juliet didn’t even seem to see them.
Head down and shoulders squared, she marched on into the hot,
breathless night.
Back in Turnpike Lane, paranoia still sitting
like a monkey on my back, I reconnoitred thoroughly before
approaching Pen’s door. Asmodeus had promised to leave me until
last, but I knew exactly how much his word was worth.
I didn’t see or sense any sign of the demon’s
presence, or any clue that he’d been there while I was away. In
another way though, I felt myself surrounded and crowded by him.
What he was doing wasn’t random - I knew that much. Behind the
casual malevolence there was something much more calculating and
purposeful, and much more threatening.
I let myself in quietly. I heard voices from
downstairs, Pen’s basement sanctum, which surprised me, but only
until I heard the laugh track. She’d fallen asleep in front of a
repeat of some ancient sitcom, snoring away on the sofa while Reg
Varney and Michael Robbins traded accusations of sexual dysfunction
without ever using the word ‘penis’. I sat down next to her and
stared at the screen while the flaccid shenanigans played
themselves out. In a way it helped me to think, if only because
thinking distracted me from On the
Buses.
There was a way through this maze. It just meant
figuring out where Asmodeus was going so I could get there first.
Of course, I also had to get myself a secret weapon to use when I
got there, because a tin whistle wasn’t going to do the job. It
hadn’t even been enough to beat the Gader’el, which Juliet had
dismissed as an animal.
The trouble was that you couldn’t get close
enough to the Gader’el to perform an exorcism. I had its pattern
clear in my mind now, but I knew damn well that as soon as I
started to play, it would be on me hard enough and fast enough to
knock the tune right out of my head. Close enough to play meant
close enough to be attacked.
Inspiration came out of nowhere. No, it came out
of thinking about Trudie, and the way she’d bootstrapped her own MO
to create the meta-map of Asmodeus’ movements. The trick was seeing
through the metaphor to the thing itself: distinguishing how your
power actually worked from the interface you’d developed for it. It
could be done. It could be done without risk even.
That solved Jenna-Jane’s problem. Now what about
mine?
‘Fix.’ Pen stirred on the sofa beside me,
rubbing her eyes. ‘What time is it?’
I didn’t bother to check my watch. ‘Later than
you think,’ I said. ‘Like always. How was your day?’
She blinked and shook her head, restoring some
shape to the incendiary mop of her hair. ‘Wonderful,’ she said, her
voice husky and slurred with sleep. ‘Like one of your days.
Alcohol, self-hatred, more alcohol and daytime TV.’
‘I don’t watch that much TV,’ I pointed out.
‘What do you hate yourself for?’
‘Just the obvious.’ She sat up, still groggy but
gradually coming awake. ‘I can’t do this, Fix. I can’t sit here and
wait for you to sort it out. I’m going to start looking for Rafi
again tomorrow.’
‘You won’t find Rafi;’ I reminded her, my voice
hard, ‘you’ll find Asmodeus.’
‘I don’t care. This isn’t any way to
live.’
She was right. We were under siege, and it was
affecting both of us in our different ways. The sense of pressure -
the feeling of being stalked - was throwing me off my stride, so
that I just kept running from one thing to the next instead of
stopping to think about where I was going. Worse, I was letting
Jenna-Jane set the agenda, when I should have been using her as she
was using me: bouncing off her thick, impervious hide in the
direction I most needed to go.
That was going to change.
Right now I was going to get some sleep. And in
the morning, which was only two and a half hours away . . .
In the morning I was taking back the
initiative.