CHAPTER 15
TAMARA AMALIAT JORVI
KARUSHAN stood atop the monastery’s eastern battlement, letting
the dawning sun’s rays bathe her with their warmth. It had been her
habit to do this often in her twenty years. The ritual’s regularity
instilled a sense of order. The sun’s presence reminded her that
forces more titanic than she ruled the world. And yet, at the same
time, she felt she was a critical part of it, made whole by it as
she, in turn, helped make it whole.
As the sun cleared the horizon, she bowed to it,
then began her morning exercises. Her years of training as a monk
had made her an expert in a variety of combat arts. Primarily
unarmed, but she was not unacquainted with a bow or a knife. While
she recognized them as useful tools, and diligently studied until
she had mastered their uses, she preferred unarmed forms. Knives
and arrows, after all, could do serious harm even without the
intention to do so. As the saying went, “a falling knife has no
handle.” Arms and legs, however, feet and fists, could be used to
help even more easily than they could be used to hurt.
So, in the early morning, Tamara’s slender body
moved from one form to another. Her flowing robes easily
accommodated her movements. Her long hair had been gathered back
and tied with a band. It delicately brushed her shoulders as her
exercises continued. As she did each morning, she battled a
succession of shadow warriors, turning their attacks back on
themselves, using their force and hatred to destroy them.
The simple flowing motion rooted her in the world.
Life itself was energy. She recognized it, moved with it. Just as
she would use another’s energy against them, so she used the
world’s energy to help her. This was, after all, her role. By doing
what she did, she established order in what would otherwise be a
chaotic world, fostering peace where there would otherwise be an
ocean of misery.
A young novitiate paused at the head of the stairs,
then dropped to her knees. She bowed her head, not looking up,
unmoving, while Tamara’s exercises continued. Tamara had noticed
her immediately, more because she had disrupted her routine than
because of any inherent interest the girl may have possessed. She
hastened to complete her exercises—an action that left her slightly
unsettled.
“Yes, sister, of what assistance may I be?”
The novitiate kept her eyes downcast. “Master
Fassir, he has summoned you.”
“Where?”
“The Pool of Visions.”
A thrill ran through Tamara. Master Fassir opened
the pool chamber on an irregular schedule. He and his advisers
regularly consulted charts of the heavens, drawing lines between
planets and stars. They measured the angles and performed complex
calculations, which they then compared to horoscopes and
prophecies. Most often Fassir walked the chamber’s precincts alone,
but on rare occasions other monks would be summoned to hear a
pronouncement of grave import.
“Thank you, sister.” Tamara bowed to her, then flew
down the stairs and to the cell she shared with another monk. From
a chest in the corner she drew a clean white robe. She fitted a
square cap on her head, then draped a gauzy veil over her head and
shoulders. Keeping her eyes modestly downcast and steps hobbled by
humility, she made all allowable haste to the chamber.
Several other monks, all female and similarly
attired, knelt at the long sides of a rectangular granite basin.
Sunlight streamed into the room from an open eastern door, but the
pool’s rippling water reflected none of the light on the opposite
wall. At one short end sat Master Fassir, hooded in a white robe,
drawing slowly on a pipe. He exhaled fragrant smoke slowly, so it
drifted upward like a curtain that further hid his face.
Tamara knelt opposite him and stared down into the
shallow pool. She could see nothing but golden tile work at the
bottom. She had not expected to see anything, for the pool shared
its wisdom with those far older and wiser than she—yet she dared
hope that, someday, she would be in Fassir’s place.
She felt Fassir’s gaze upon her. She looked up into
her mentor’s face. He had always been old in her sight, but aside
from the deepening of lines around his eyes and the corners of his
mouth, he had not changed much. True, time had leached his hair and
beard of all color, but his eyes retained their kindness. He smiled
as he was wont to do, then glanced down into the pool and exhaled
more smoke.
“There comes a man, Tamara. I do not see him
clearly—he is not yet close enough. There is a journey, sea and
sand to be crossed.”
“His journey, Master, or mine?”
The old man smiled. “Yes and yes. Two journeys
become one. This man . . .”
“Is he a knight?”
Fassir’s eyes tightened. “A warrior. A man of
destiny. As with your journeys, so shall your destinies
merge.”
Tamara frowned. My destiny is
to be here. Am I to seek this man and bring him among us? “What
destiny, Master?”
Fassir shook his head, his brow furrowing. “Not
what, but which, Tamara. Often there is so little to be seen, but
here there is so much, one does not know what to ignore.”
Tamara studied him. “Is that all, Master?”
Fassir set the pipe down and rubbed a hand over his
forehead. “I fear it is. Things shift faster than expected.” He
clapped his hands. “Off with you all, to your duties. All save you,
Tamara.”
The other monks rose and noiselessly exited the
dimly lit chamber. Fassir stood and wordlessly led Tamara out
through the eastern door. They came out onto a veranda overlooking
the monastery’s courtyard and gate beyond. The other monks moved
about, carefree, attending to their duties.
“You will walk with me, Tamara.”
She took up her position two steps behind him and
one to the left, as befit her position and his, but he beckoned her
forward. “You know well how people come to join us, don’t you,
Tamara?”
“Of course, Master. Some are born here. Some we
seek out as we travel in the world. Some, the most innocent, are
able to wander through the wards which keep us hidden. We bring
them here and teach them, keeping them safe.” She cocked her head
slightly. “Is that it, Master? Do you wish me to seek out this man
from your vision and bring him hence?”
The older man laughed. “No. Such a man as I saw
would not take well to our life. As much as we seek order, he is
chaos incarnate. Or, barring that, one who establishes a different
kind of order. I doubt you could bring him here, and I am certain
he could never find his way on his own.”
“I would do all I could, Master.”
“This I do not doubt, Tamara. But I did not begin
this line of inquiry to elicit a pledge of fidelity to any task I
might give you.”
“Then why?”
Fassir opened his arms to take in the whole of the
monastery. “Why is it that you, of all the monks here, have never
inquired about how you came to be here? We all do it. I was but
twelve when I did. Others have discussed this with you, of this I
am certain. But why have you never asked?”
Tamara frowned. “I have never felt the need to
know, Master. I have always felt I was meant to be here. I supposed
I must have come from elsewhere, but it did not matter to me.
Should it have? Should I have asked?”
“That it is your sense that you belong here speaks
great volumes on the propriety of the actions which brought you
here.”
She looked at him curiously. “You make it sound as
if I was stolen from my parents.”
Fassir stopped. “You know our purpose here, the
purpose of our sister monastery in Hyrkania.”
“To maintain order in the world so it does not fall
completely to chaos.”
“Which we do admirably. And you know that there are
times when we send some of our number into the world beyond the
wards to further this mission.” He sighed, clasping his hands at
the small of his back. “I know some of the other monks suggest you
are my favorite. It’s true, of course, because you are the most
dedicated and intelligent of my students. But there is more and
here is the razored edge I must walk. Were I to reveal all to you, I could trigger a disaster. And yet, to
reveal nothing could guarantee disaster. So, I shall tell you as
much as I think you need to know. I ask that you trust me, and
trust even more in your training and your heart. Between the two,
you will find the means and wherewithal to continue your
mission.”
Tamara shivered. “You are scaring me,
Master.”
Fassir laughed easily. “It’s not a faery tale to
frighten children, Tamara. Out there in the world, chaos warps many
minds. Men see patterns where none exist. They seek power which is
illusory, and their frustration causes them to do things which
would curdle a normal man’s soul. Just as we might see the first
buds on a branch as an augury of spring’s arrival, so another man
might see a redheaded child as the herald of a dynasty, or a
crooked scar twisting flesh as some secret sign of an ancient god’s
favor. Delusions, all, certainly; but delusions that make men act
in ways that do incalculable damage to the world.”
He sat the edge of a low wall and bid her to settle
beside him. “So you were born into a madman’s delusions. You were
then and are now quite innocent of any
connection with him, but my master had a
vision, much as I did today. He sent me forth to find you. The man
who sought you had sent agents far and wide. Some found you and
stole you from your parents. Before they could place you in their
master’s hands, I intervened. I brought you here.”
She blinked. “And of my parents?”
“I do not know.”
“Did you not seek them out? Did you not tell them I
lived?”
Fassir glanced down at his empty hands. “For your
sake, it was believed best that they and any who knew you believed
you had perished. Yes, I am certain that if your parents lived,
this meant great anguish to them—but how much greater the anguish
to know that you had become a pawn in the schemes of a madman? And
if it were known that you lived, they and any kinsmen you had known
could be used as a weapon against you. Here, in the monastery, here
with training, we could protect you and prepare you to protect
yourself.”
Cold trickled down her spine. Part of her knew she
should feel anger and outrage, but years of training held an
emotional reaction at bay. She had been, and felt as if she
always had been, part of this world. If she
were to hold that belief as valid, then everything leading up to it
likewise became valid. Her place here, her purpose, was to prevent
whatever havoc the madman intended.
“This man you saw in your vision . . . Is he the
madman who is searching for me?”
“No, little Tamara, he is not. He has been touched
by the madman, of that I know.” Fassir reached out and took her
hand. “And I do not see how this will end. What I do know is that
your safety is the safety of countless people.”
She smiled. “And this is why you have trained me to
defend myself and to defend others.”
He patted her hand, then let it drop as he stood.
Fassir looked out at the courtyard. “Decisions will have to be
made, Tamara. Part of me wishes to send you this very moment to
Hyrkania. I do feel this is a journey you shall make soon. You must
promise me that when I send you forth, you will make it.”
“Of course, Master.” Tamara nodded solemnly. “I
shall even guide this warrior there if that is your desire.”
“I fear it is not my desire which will determine
the direction of his footsteps, Tamara. It would be fascinating to
see which wins out: his will or yours.” The older man shook his
head. “You will find him a most challenging companion, my
dear.”
Tamara nodded, then looked up. “And of the madman,
Master?”
Fassir shook his head. “As the wards hide you from
him, so they obscure him from me. Were he dead, I would know. He is
not, so danger still lurks.”
“And the paths of my warrior and this madman, they
will cross?”
Fassir hesitated for a moment, then looked at her
with joy blossoming on his face. With a finger he traced invisible
sigils in the air. “You are brilliant, child.”
“Yes, Master?”
“Yes. I can see your warrior’s path clearly, save
in two places. One, in the past, where the madman’s path overlays
it, hiding it.”
“And the other . . . the future?”
Fassir nodded. “I see nothing beyond where they
might intersect.”
Tamara stood. “You must see something.”
“I wish I did, Tamara.” The old man, his eyes
glistening, reached up and stroked her hair. “I wish I did.”