CHAPTER 2
Sssisssterrr . . .
Whore . . . !
With Satan’s evil incubus growing inside you . . . !
The voice rasped against Laura’s brain again. She flinched and nearly stumbled as she thrust up the mental wall against him again on her way to surgery to check on Conrad’s condition. But her worst fears were confirmed: it was Justice.
And he knew she was pregnant??? How?
The frisson that shivered down her spine was an old friend. She’d felt it before many times, but not since Justice Turnbull had been captured, convicted, and locked away. Not like this. Not with this harsh hammering into her thoughts.
Outside the doors to the surgical ward she glanced around, always a bit uncertain that someone else couldn’t hear him as well, though she knew from experience she was the only one. She could block him from digging into her thoughts and feelings, but she could not prevent her own mental receptors from hearing him.
He was a devil. A scourge. A sickness that frightened them all. He was—
“Laura?” Her ex, Byron Adderley, broke into her thoughts, causing her to jerk as if goosed. “What’s wrong with you?” he demanded instantly. Frowning, he stripped a pair of surgical gloves from his hands and tossed them into a trash receptacle. His eyebrows rose, as if he were waiting for her to answer.
Like an obedient puppy, she thought sourly.
He’d just come from surgery, she realized. Of course she would run into him. Of course. Murphy’s Law. Pulling herself together, she ignored his question. “How’s Conrad? Do you know?”
“Who? Oh. That security guard?” He shoved a thinning shock of coffee-dark hair from his eyes. “We drilled into his head to relieve the pressure in case of a subdural hematoma. Hope he has a brain left. Someone beat him half to death.” He actually smiled, as if he’d said something clever. “That what you wanted to know?”
“I was just concerned.”
His smile fell away and Byron gazed at her hard. “You like him?”
“I barely know him,” she shot back. “I just want to make sure he’s okay.”
“Yeah, well. ‘Okay’ is maybe not the word for it.” Byron yawned. He stretched his arms over his head in a move she remembered, one she’d once thought was sexy. No longer. “God, I gotta get some sleep,” he admitted. “I was out late last night, and this morning came early.”
Like she cared.
“What about Dr. Zellman?” Being a floor nurse, and not part of the surgical team, Laura was forced to get information secondhand.
“Jesus. He’s lucky to be alive! That fuckin’ psychotic stabbed Zellman, too. Got his voice box but good.” Byron actually sounded a little concerned. “Could be, Zellman never speaks again.”
“Oh, I hope you’re wrong.” She glanced past him toward the double doors that led into surgery. “That’s what they’re saying?” she asked.
He shrugged. “Too early to tell.”
“The psychotic who did this . . . ?”
“No surprise there. You remember the one. Justice Turnbull.” Byron shook his head, his unruly forelock falling forward again. “A whole new kind of crazy.” He stifled another yawn. “Think Turnbull’ll come back to his old stomping grounds and go after those cult freaks again?”
Laura went completely still. Tried not to look as if his remark had hit a nerve. “The sheriff’s department will find him,” she said with an effort.
“Oh, yeah.” He barked out a laugh. “Count on them.”
Ever the cynic.
Laura had heard enough. “I’ve gotta get back to work.” She turned on her heel.
“Hey. Laura.” She didn’t so much as look over her shoulder and set her jaw. How had she ever found him attractive, and why the hell had she married him? Her thoughts strayed to the child growing within her, his child, the baby that Justice seemed to sense, and her insides went numb. “When are you going to stop dyeing your hair?” Byron called after.
She ground her teeth together, angry at him and herself for ever thinking they could build a life together. She’d known he wasn’t her kind of man from the get-go, hadn’t she? She’d suspected he was self-centered and narcissistic. How had she let him convince her to leave Portland for this stretch of coastline and Ocean Park Hospital, when she’d known it might not be safe? God, she’d been a fool to let him talk her into anything so idiotic. She hadn’t wanted to move. She certainly hadn’t wanted to relocate here, of all places. The house they’d rented together in Deception Bay, about six miles down Highway 101, until he’d moved out wasn’t much to write home about, and the apartment he’d subsequently moved into was even less impressive, but that was just icing on the cake of her unhappiness.
Why did you marry him?
At a corner, she hazarded a quick glance over her shoulder, but Byron had already turned away. He couldn’t really care less about the horrific events that had taken place at Halo Valley. If he wasn’t the center of the universe, then the universe itself didn’t matter.
Because I wanted to believe someone loved me.
And she’d been stupid enough to buy into his good looks, his easy charm, his success . . . what a fool she’d been and now . . . Automatically her hand strayed to her abdomen and the life beginning to pulse within her. She couldn’t keep this baby. Byron’s baby. She couldn’t. Yet, it was a child . . . her child. . . .
Nurse Baransky, middle-aged, brusque, was coming down the hall toward her. “Are you checking on Mrs. Shields?” she asked.
“I’m on my way to her room now.” Laura tried not to appear like she was hurrying, but inside she was running, running, running. From Byron, from her marriage, from the strangeness of her childhood, from Justice . . . from the truth . . .
“Were you at the ER?” Baransky asked.
“Just coming from outside surgery. No word yet on Conrad or Dr. Zellman.”
Baransky nodded. “It was that madman who escaped, wasn’t it? The one they captured in the shootout at the motel a few years back? Can’t think of his name. Justin something?”
“Justice,” Laura reminded carefully, the taste of his name on her tongue bitter, the sound of it striking a chord of terror that shuddered through her. Sssiissssttterrr. His hiss echoed through her brain. Dear God.
“They were bringing him here for testing because he was complaining of stomach pain off and on, apparently.”
“He was faking,” Laura said automatically.
“They told you that?”
Laura nearly bit her tongue trying to take the words back and was instantly sorry that she’d blurted out something she didn’t really want to discuss. “I’m just going on an assumption,” she backtracked as a patient, a thick-in-the-middle woman with a wan expression, walked tentatively down the hall. Her plump fingers were clenched tight around the pole of a rolling IV stand.
“You need help?” Baransky said, and the woman offered the ghost of a smile as she shook her head, determined to walk on her own. “You said that Justice Turnbull was faking his illness?” Baransky asked, turning her attention back to Laura.
She didn’t know how to answer that she knew Justice was faking. She sure as hell wouldn’t be able to explain that Justice had started banging against her brain, something that had begun when she was young, though its strength had waxed and waned over the years, and had practically been nonexistent since he’d been incarcerated, had come back with a vengeance. That she still could manage to hold him out, but there was always a tiny iota of time before she could effectively throw up her mental wall, an infinitesimal moment where he left traces of his own thoughts, scraps that were available to her. So, yes, she knew he’d faked the stomach pain because, in effect, he’d told her as much. More like an overall realization than the needle-sharp words he sent to her.
And she also knew he’d been planning this escape a long time.
And she knew that he was hunting her now. . . .
How does he know about the baby?
“Laura?” Baransky suddenly demanded, eyeing her closely. She had a big voice and little or no tolerance for anything she deemed to be nonsense.
Laura could tell her face had lost color. “I’m just overly tired. Didn’t get good sleep last night.”
“Maybe you should sit down. I can check on Mrs. Shields.”
“No, no. I’m okay.”
Laura forced out a smile as she walked past her. She was feeling nauseous, but it was less about the pregnancy and more about the realization that Justice Turnbull had escaped. When the events of his rampage had taken place a few years earlier, she’d kept the wall against his thoughts up solidly high. Before then, he’d never been seen as a serious threat to her and the others he’d targeted by either herself or her family. But then suddenly he was after them all! Threatening the very foundation of her family, her ancestors, anyone even remotely related to her, all those who lived at the huge lodge shielded from the world by massive iron gates. Her sisters.
Sissterr . . . How he’d given the word a horrid sound. Her flesh crawled as she remembered the sibilant sound of his voice, a hiss that grated, like talons running down a blackboard.
Justice was bent on destruction and chaos and killing, and though she hadn’t been before, Laura, within the sterile hospital walls, sensed she was definitely in his sights now.
Mrs. Shields was sitting up in bed, her beady, dark eyes regarding Laura with avid curiosity as she walked into the room. She was in her fifties and had been through knee replacement surgery. “How many times do I have to push this button?” she demanded. “I need painkillers, Nurse Adderley. Where’s your husband?”
“My ex-husband,” Laura said for about the tenth time.
“I need more pain medication. I’m supposed to keep ‘on top of the pain,’ that’s what I was told, to not be at a ‘ten on the chart,’ right?” She was referring to the pain management chart that had been pinned to her wall, a row of smiley faces where the smile disintegrated to a frown as the level of pain increased. Zero was pain free; ten was excruciating, the face on the chart twisted in serious agony, a far cry from Mrs. Shields’s primarily ticked-off expression. “Right now, I’m at about a level twenty!” she insisted and, when Laura didn’t respond quickly enough, added, “I need Dr. Adderley . . . stat!”
“You’re on the medication levels he prescribed,” Laura said calmly as she tried to take the woman’s temperature.
“It’s not enough!” Mrs. Sheilds said, around the thermometer.
Her voice had risen, and it brought Nurse Nina Perez to the doorway. Nina, an attractive woman in her forties, was Laura’s immediate boss, and she was fiercely devoted to her job. She also was fair and could assess a situation quickly. “Everything all right in here?”
“No!” Mrs. Shields had been scheduled to leave earlier in the day, but she was one of those rare patients who wanted to stay in the hospital as long as possible. She was an attention seeker who had bullied her husband for so long that he seemed to have no identity and no ability to make decisions.
“I need more painkillers,” Mrs. Shields declared as Laura removed the thermometer and noted a reading of 98.6. Perfectly normal. “And here. Fill this up.” Mrs. Shields thrust her water glass at Laura, who took it from her hand. Laura’s fingers brushed hers, and a tingle fled up Laura’s nerves to her brain.
Pancreas.
The word pulsed across her mind. Vivid. Red.
She nearly dropped the glass.
Laura knew, with certainty, that Mrs. Shields would contract pancreatic cancer at some future point and that the disease would ultimately lead to her death. Laura received these messages from time to time when she touched another human’s flesh, and it was this odd ability that had first steered her toward a career in medicine. She couldn’t tell anyone about it, just as she couldn’t tell anyone about her private communication with Justice Turnbull, but she trusted it implicitly.
“Let me see,” Nurse Perez said. She turned toward the woman’s IV and examined the drip. Laura suspected that it was all an act for the bristling Mrs. Shields. The woman was being given the proper amount of medication.
Laura asked her casually, “Does cancer run in your family?”
“No. Why?” She was suspicious.
“I thought I saw it in your medical file.” She poured water into the glass from a near empty pitcher on Mrs. Shields’s tray near her bed, then noted how much fluid the patient was taking in.
The older woman harrumphed, then admitted, “My father had cancer of the pancreas. Killed him in his fifties.”
Nina Perez gave Laura a searching look; it wasn’t usual for the floor nurses to pore over their patients’ medical history. The doctors ordered the protocol, and the nurses followed through.
Laura, offering a smile she didn’t really feel, said, “With all the tests you’ve had for this surgery, I’m sure you’ve checked that, too.”
“I’m not sure of anything!” Mrs. Shields declared. Her nostrils flared slightly, and there was a definite purse to her lips. “Tell your husband to check on that, too!”
My ex, Laura thought, but nodded on her way out. She was grateful to Nina Perez for not questioning her too closely, but now that she’d “heard” this information, she wanted to follow through. So thinking, she had to search out Byron, catching him coming out of the staff room. That boyish smile she’d once found charming curved his lips, and his eyes definitely sparked as he joked with one of the nurse’s aides—a girl with round doe eyes, pert nose, and was probably just into her twenties. Her face was bright and flushed as she looked up at him with an adoration she didn’t bother to hide.
Laura didn’t know whether she was disgusted or amused.
Byron’s latest woman—definitely not this girl—wasn’t the kind to take his flirting with a forgiving attitude.
Spying his ex-wife out of the corner of his eye, Byron stopped short, as if caught in a nefarious act.
Serves you right, Laura thought as the clueless aide wandered away, gazing back at Byron longingly and even waving her fingers coquettishly before catching a glimpse of Laura, frowning slightly, then rounding the corner to disappear.
A ninny, Laura thought, but bit her tongue. Who cared?
It was surprising to find that she didn’t.
But you’re pregnant. With his child.
Ignoring that persistent and irritating voice in her head, she said, “I was checking on Mrs. Shields. She told me her father died of pancreatic cancer in his fifties, about the age she is now.”
“I know her history,” he bit out, obviously irritated. “Why?”
“I don’t know. I just thought maybe it was something to recheck.”
“What? Why?” he demanded, affronted.
“Due diligence.”
“So now you’re the doctor?”
She wasn’t going there, wasn’t going to be drawn into a no-win discussion, and Byron’s pager erupted, anyway, and he stormed off. Fortunately, in the direction of Mrs. Shields’s room. Good. He could deal with her.
She walked the other direction but felt him glance over his shoulder and give her an assessing look. The way he always did when she became a puzzle, something he couldn’t begin to understand. His ex-wife just wasn’t a square peg that fit snugly into the square hole he’d wanted to force her into.
Not that it mattered any longer.
Laura pushed aside all thoughts of him and, for now, her unexpected pregnancy. For now, she concentrated on doing her job and keeping Justice, the monster, at bay.
Thankfully, the rest of her shift was uneventful, but as she was driving to her house, her senses were on high alert. She hoped to hell they’d caught Justice already, but she suspected that hope was unlikely. If he were captured, she believed he would blast out a raging message to her, and since that last sibilant ssssisterrrr, he’d been quiet.
The house she and Byron had rented was a two-bedroom with white trim and gray shingles. One bathroom. Built in the fifties, renovated in the seventies, left to disintegrate over time. She and Byron had bought a condo in downtown Portland, and then the housing market had tumbled and they’d sold for a small loss. It had soured Byron on real estate; he hated losing anything. So, they’d chosen this rental for its proximity to the hospital and signed a six-month lease, which had turned into month-to-month as time had marched on. Once Byron had moved out, Laura was grateful for the cheap rent, even if it did come with a leaky bathroom faucet.
Pulling up to the back porch, she cut the engine and climbed from her Subaru. Byron drove a black Porsche, but Laura had preferred her dark green Outback. The Porsche was leased and Byron’s affair; Laura owned the Outback in her own name. Another blessing.
Hurrying past the rhododendrons long past blooming, she heard the rumble of the Pacific Ocean and smelled the thick, damp scent of the sea as she walked along the cement walk to her porch. The neighbor’s black cat slid under the porch as she climbed the two steps and unlocked the back door.
Once inside the small kitchen, she snapped on the lights, then dropped her purse and coat on the counter. Its chipped Formica had been scrubbed to a shine when Laura moved in, and she’d repainted all the interior cabinets, trim, and walls herself. Tired it might be, but it was bright and white.
And home.
Her sanctuary.
She’d thought that she might feel a bit of nostalgia, a loss, when Byron had moved out, but all she’d really experienced was relief, a quiet peace.
Until today.
When Justice had reached out to her and reminded her that she was different. Growing up at Siren Song had made her so. Now she was vulnerable . . . so very vulnerable. Sighing, she sat down in one of the two café chairs surrounding the small glass table, put her elbows against the surface, and buried her face in her hands.
The baby . . . a baby . . .
She should go to the lodge and talk to Aunt Catherine, tell her that Cassandra’s prediction had come true. But Justice was out there. Loose. Waiting for someone to make a move. And she, being outside the gates, was the logical choice.
Oh, dear God.
She shuddered. She’d never told Byron about her past. She’d simply said she was estranged from her mother and she’d never known her father. She’d been in her second year of nursing at the hospital where he’d been a resident when they met, and he’d just become a full-fledged osteopath when they’d started dating. She’d been starry-eyed and too eager, and he’d been intrigued by her ability to understand, practically diagnose, underlying problems with his patients that had nothing to do with the broken bones he corrected. He called it her instinct, and they both let it be an understood, and basically untouched, thing between them. Now she knew it was what had set her apart from the other young nurses and medical staff that cast admiring glances in his direction. When he’d casually suggested marriage, she’d jumped at the chance. She’d ignored his selfish traits. She simply hadn’t cared. She’d wanted the whole picture: the house with the picket fence, 2.5 children, a dog, and a husband. She’d suspected Byron wasn’t as deep as she was. The fact that he hadn’t been all that interested in her family had been one clue, but she’d thought it wouldn’t matter if she was more in love than he.
On that, she’d been wrong.
So wrong.
He was not only shallow, but he was unfaithful. And uncaring. And unrepentant. He’d wanted her for his wife. He was intrigued with her “instinct,” but he wasn’t going to be monogamous for anyone. That was simply the way it was. She’d tried to accept the rules but been unable. She’d tried once to make believe they could work their way back together, and that was a complete failure, for which she now was pregnant.
With Byron’s child. For so long she’d wanted a baby, hoped for a child, and now . . . oh, God, now she felt a fierce love for this baby but didn’t kid herself that raising the child—Byron’s child—alone would be easy.
She sat at the table a long time, finally got up and heated water in the microwave and, when the timer dinged, dipped a packet of decaf tea into the steaming cup. As the fragrant tea steeped, she turned on the television and caught breaking news.
Her heart nearly stopped.
The narrow face of Channel Seven’s Pauline Kirby, her short, slick dark hair blowing a bit in the evening breeze, was reporting that Justice Turnbull, a known murderer, had escaped from Halo Valley Security Hospital. Two men had been critically injured. One was fighting for his life.
“Oh, dear God.” Laura stared at the screen.
“A madman is loose,” Pauline was saying, and Laura recognized the redwood and stone facade of the mental hospital in the background, filmed earlier this evening, and shivered to her toes.
Her tea forgotten, she watched the rest of the short report while her heart drummed in her chest and her worst fears were confirmed.
She wished suddenly, mightily, that there was someone out there who could find Justice Turnbull, dig him out from under whatever rock he chose to hide, expose him, and make sure he was locked away so deep that he could never hurt her or the new life growing inside her, a life she was already bonding with.