18
HE KNEW HE was dying because faces were coming
toward him and all of them were faces he recognized. They came in a
long stream, unending, ones and twos together, and there were no
strangers among them. He had heard it would be like this. Your life
was supposed to flash before your eyes. Everybody said so. And now
it was happening. So he was dying.
He guessed when the faces stopped, that was it. He
wondered who the last one would be. There were a number of
candidates. He wondered who chose the order. Whose decision was it?
He felt mildly irritated he wasn’t allowed to specify. And what
would happen next? When the last face was gone, what then?
But something was going seriously wrong. A face
loomed up who he didn’t know. It was then he realized the Army was
in charge of the parade. It had to be. Only the Army could
accidentally include someone he had never seen before. A complete
stranger, in the wrong place at the wrong time. He supposed it was
fitting. He had lived most of his life under the control of the
Army. He supposed it was pretty natural they would take charge of
organizing this final part. And one mistake was tolerable. Normal,
even acceptable, for the Army.
But this guy was touching him. Hitting him. Hurting
him. He suddenly realized the parade had finished before
this guy. This guy wasn’t in the parade at all. He came
after it. Maybe this guy was there to finish him off. Yes,
that was it. Had to be that way. This guy was here to make sure he
died on schedule. The parade was over, and the Army couldn’t let
him survive it. Why should they go to all the trouble of putting it
on and then have him survive it? That would be no good. No good at
all. That would be a serious lapse in procedure. He tried to recall
who had come before this guy. The second-to-last person, who was
really the last person. He didn’t remember. He hadn’t paid
attention. He slipped away and died without remembering who had
been the last face in his parade.
HE WAS DEAD, but he was still thinking. Was that
OK? Was this the afterlife? That would be a hell of a thing. He had
lived nearly thirty-nine years assuming there was no afterlife.
Some people had agreed with him, others had argued with him. But
he’d always been adamant about it. Now he was right there in it.
Somebody was going to come sneering up to him and say told
you so. He would, if the boot was on the other foot. He
wouldn’t let somebody get away with being absolutely wrong about
something, not without a little friendly ribbing at least.
He saw Jodie Garber. She was going to tell him. No,
that wasn’t possible. She wasn’t dead. Only a dead person could
yell at you in the afterlife, surely. A live person couldn’t do it.
That was pretty obvious. A live person wasn’t in the afterlife. And
Jodie Garber was a live person. He’d made certain of it. That had
been the whole damn point. And anyway, he was pretty sure he had
never discussed the afterlife with Jodie Garber. Or had he? Maybe
many years ago, when she was still a kid? But it was Jodie
Garber. And she was going to speak to him. She sat down in
front of him and pushed her hair behind her ears. Long blond hair,
small ears.
“Hi, Reacher,” she said.
It was her voice. No doubt about it. No mistake. So
maybe she was dead. Maybe it had been an automobile accident. That
would be a hell of an irony. Maybe she was hit by a speeding truck
on lower Broadway, on her way home from the World Trade
Center.
“Hey, Jodie,” he said.
She smiled. There was communication. So she was
dead. Only a dead person could hear another dead person speak,
surely. But he had to know.
“Where are we?” he asked.
“St. Vincent’s,” she said.
Saint Peter he had heard of. He was the guy at the
gates. He had seen pictures. Well, not really pictures, but
cartoons, at least. He was an old guy in a robe, with a beard. He
stood at a lectern and asked questions about why you should be let
in. But he didn’t remember Saint Peter asking him any questions.
Maybe that came later. Maybe you had to go out again, and then try
to get back in.
But who was Saint Vincent? Maybe he was the guy who
ran the place you stayed while you were waiting for Saint Peter’s
questions. Like the boot camp part. Maybe old Vincent ran the Fort
Dix equivalent. Well, that would be no problem. He’d murdered boot
camp. Easiest time he’d ever done. He could do it again. But he was
annoyed about it. He’d finished up a major, for God’s sake. He’d
been a star. He had medals. Why the hell should he do boot camp all
over again?
And why was Jodie here? She was supposed to be
alive. He realized his left hand was clenching. He was intensely
irritated. He’d saved her life, because he loved her. So why was
she dead now? What the hell was going on? He tried to struggle
upright. Something was tying him down. What the hell? He was going
to get some answers or he was going to knock some heads
together.
“Take it easy,” Jodie said to him.
“I want to see Saint Vincent,” he said. “And I want
to see him right now. Tell him to get his sorry ass in this room
inside five minutes or I’m going to be seriously pissed off.”
She looked at him and nodded.
“OK,” she said.
Then she looked away and stood up. She disappeared
from his sight and he lay back down. This wasn’t any kind of a boot
camp. It was too quiet, and the pillows were soft.
LOOKING BACK, IT should have been a shock. But it
wasn’t. The room just swam into focus and he saw the decor and the
shiny equipment and he thought hospital. He changed from
being dead to being alive with the same little mental shrug a busy
man gives when he realizes he’s wrong about what day it is.
The room was bright with sun. He moved his head and
saw he had a window. Jodie was sitting in a chair next to it,
reading. He kept his breathing low and watched her. Her hair was
washed and shiny. It fell past her shoulders, and she was twirling
a strand between her finger and thumb. She was wearing a yellow
sleeveless dress. Her shoulders were brown with summer. He could
see the little knobs of bone on top. Her arms were long and lean.
Her legs were crossed. She was wearing tan penny loafers that
matched the dress. Her ankles glowed brown in the sun.
“Hey, Jodie,” he said.
She turned her head and looked at him. Searched his
face for something and when she found it she smiled.
“Hey yourself,” she said. She dropped the book and
stood up. Walked three paces and bent and kissed him gently on the
lips.
“St. Vincent’s,” he said. “You told me, but I was
confused.”
She nodded.
“You were full of morphine,” she said. “They were
pumping it in like crazy. Your bloodstream would have kept all the
addicts in New York happy.”
He nodded. Glanced at the sun in the window. It
looked like afternoon.
“What day is it?”
“It’s July. You’ve been out three weeks.”
“Christ, I ought to feel hungry.”
She moved around the foot of the bed and came up on
his left. Laid her hand on his forearm. It was turned palm-up and
there were tubes running into the veins of his elbow.
“They’ve been feeding you,” she said. “I made sure
you got what you like. You know, lots of glucose and saline.”
He nodded.
“Can’t beat saline,” he said.
She went quiet.
“What?” he asked.
“Do you remember?”
He nodded again.
“Everything,” he said.
She swallowed.
“I don’t know what to say,” she whispered. “You
took a bullet for me.”
“My fault,” he said. “I was too slow, is all. I was
supposed to trick him and get him first. But apparently I survived
it. So don’t say anything. I mean it. Don’t ever mention it.”
“But I have to say thank you,” she whispered.
“Maybe I should say thank you,” he said. “Feels
good to know somebody worth taking a bullet for.”
She nodded, but not because she was agreeing. It
was just random physical motion designed to keep her from
crying.
“So how am I?” he asked.
She paused for a long moment.
“I’ll get the doctor,” she said quietly. “He can
tell you better than me.”
She went out and a guy in a white coat came in.
Reacher smiled. It was the guy the Army had sent to finish him off
at the end of his parade. He was a small, wide, hairy man who could
have found work wrestling.
“You know anything about computers?” he
asked.
Reacher shrugged and started worrying this was a
coded lead-in to bad news about a brain injury, impairment, loss of
memory, loss of function.
“Computers?” he said. “Not really.”
“OK, try this,” the doctor said. “Imagine a big
Cray supercomputer humming away. We feed it everything we know
about human physiology and everything we know about gunshot wounds
and then we ask it to design us a male person best equipped to
survive a thirty-eight in the chest. Suppose it hums away for a
week. What does it come up with?”
Reacher shrugged again. “I don’t know.”
“A picture of you, my friend,” the doctor said.
“That’s what. The damn bullet didn’t even make it into your chest.
Your pectoral muscle is so thick and so dense it stopped it dead.
Like a three-inch kevlar vest. It popped out the other side of the
muscle wall and smashed a rib, but it went no farther.”
“So why was I out three weeks?” Reacher asked
immediately. “Not for a muscle wound or a broken rib, that’s for
damn sure. Is my head OK?”
The doctor did a weird thing. He clapped his hands
and punched the air. Then he stepped closer, beaming all over his
face.
“I was worried about it,” he said. “Real worried
about it. Bad wound. I would have figured it for a nail gun, until
they told me it was shotgun debris from manufactured furniture. It
penetrated your skull and was about an eighth inch into your brain.
Frontal lobe, my friend, bad place to have a nail. If I had to have
a nail in my skull, the frontal lobe would definitely not be my
first choice. But if I had to see a nail in anybody else’s
frontal lobe I’d pick yours, I guess, because you’ve got a skull
thicker than Neanderthal man’s. Anybody normal, that nail would
have been all the way in, and that would have been thank you and
good night.”
“So am I OK?” Reacher asked again.
“You just saved us ten thousand dollars in tests,”
the doctor said happily. “I told you the news about the chest, and
what did you do? Analytically? You compared it with your own
internal database, realized it wasn’t a very serious wound,
realized it couldn’t have needed three weeks of coma, remembered
your other injury, put two and two together and asked the question
you asked. Immediately. No hesitation. Fast, logical thinking,
assembly of pertinent information, rapid conclusion, lucid
questioning of the source of a possible answer. Nothing wrong with
your head, my friend. Take that as a professional opinion.”
Reacher nodded slowly. “So when can I get out of
here?”
The doctor took the medical chart off the foot of
the bed. There was a mass of paper clipped to a metal board. He
riffed it through. “Well, your health is excellent in general, but
we better watch you a while. Couple more days, maybe.”
“Nuts to that,” Reacher said. “I’m leaving
tonight.”
The doctor nodded. “Well, see how you feel in an
hour.”
He stepped close and stretched up to a valve on the
bottom of one of the IV bags. Clicked it a notch and tapped a tube
with his finger. Watched carefully and nodded and walked back out
of the room. He passed Jodie in the doorway. She was walking in
with a guy in a seersucker jacket. He was about fifty, pale, short
gray hair. Reacher watched him and thought a buck gets ten this
is the Pentagon guy.
“Reacher, this is General Mead,” Jodie said.
“Department of the Army,” Reacher said.
The guy in the jacket looked at him, surprised.
“Have we met?”
Reacher shook his head. “No, but I knew one of you
would be sniffing around, soon as I was up and running.”
Mead smiled. “We’ve been practically camped out
here. To put it bluntly, we’d like you to keep quiet about the Carl
Allen situation.”
“Not a chance,” Reacher said.
Mead smiled again and waited. He was enough of an
Army bureaucrat to know the steps. Leon used to say something
for nothing, that’s a foreign language.
“The Hobies,” Reacher said. “Fly them down to D.C.
first class, put them up in a five-star hotel, show them their
boy’s name on the Wall and make sure there’s a shitload of brass in
full-dress uniform saluting like crazy the whole time they’re doing
it. Then I’ll keep quiet.”
Mead nodded.
“It’ll be done,” he said. He got up unbidden and
went back outside. Jodie sat down on the foot of the bed.
“Tell me about the police,” Reacher said. “Have I
got questions to answer?”
She shook her head.
“Allen was a cop killer,” she said. “You stick
around NYPD territory and you’ll never get another ticket in your
life. It was self-defense, everybody’s cool.”
“What about my gun? It was stolen.”
“No, it was Allen’s gun. You wrestled it away from
him. Roomful of witnesses saw you do it.”
He nodded slowly. Saw the spray of blood and brains
all over again as he shot him. A pretty good shot, he thought. Dark
room, stress, a nail in his head, a .38 slug in his chest,
bull’s-eye. Pretty damn close to the perfect shot. Then he saw the
hook again, up at Jodie’s face, hard steel against the honey of her
skin.
“You OK?” he asked her.
“I’m fine,” she said.
“You sure? No bad dreams?”
“No bad dreams. I’m a big girl now.”
He nodded again. Recalled their first night
together. A big girl. Seemed like a million years ago.
“But are you OK?” she asked him back.
“The doctor thinks so. He called me Neanderthal
man.”
“No, seriously.”
“How do I look?”
“I’ll show you,” she said.
She ducked away to the bathroom and came back with
the mirror from the wall. It was a round thing, framed in plastic.
She propped it on his legs and he steadied it with his right hand
and looked. He still had a fearsome tan. Blue eyes. White teeth.
His head had been shaved. The hair had grown back an eighth of an
inch. On the left of his face was a peppering of scars. The nail
hole in his forehead was lost among the debris of a long and
violent life. He could make it out because it was redder and newer
than the rest, but it was no bigger than the mark a half-inch away
where his brother, Joe, had caught him with a shard of glass in
some long-forgotten childhood dispute over nothing, in the same
exact year Hobie’s Huey went down. He tilted the mirror and saw
broad strapping over his chest, snowy white against the tan. He
figured he had lost maybe thirty pounds. Back to 220, his normal
weight. He handed the mirror back to Jodie and tried to sit up. He
was suddenly dizzy.
“I want to get out of here,” he said.
“You sure?” she asked.
He nodded. He was sure, but he felt very sleepy. He
put his head back on the pillow, just temporarily. He was warm and
the pillow was soft. His head weighed a ton and his neck muscles
were powerless to move it. The room was darkening. He swiveled his
eyes upward and saw the IV bags hanging in the far distance above
him. He saw the valve the doctor had adjusted. He had clicked it.
He remembered the plastic sound. There was writing on the IV bag.
The writing was upside down. He focused on it. Concentrated hard.
The writing was green. It read Morphine.
“Shit,” he whispered, and the room spun away into
total darkness.
WHEN HE OPENED his eyes again, the sun had moved
backward. It was earlier in the day. Morning, not afternoon. Jodie
was sitting in her chair by the window, reading. The same book. She
was a half-inch farther through it. Her dress was blue, not
yellow.
“It’s tomorrow,” he said.
She closed the book and stood up. Stepped over and
bent and kissed his lips. He kissed her back and clamped his teeth
and pulled the IV needles out of his arm and dropped them over the
side of the bed. They started a steady drip onto the floor. He
hauled himself upright against the pillows and smoothed a hand over
his bristly scalp.
“How do you feel?” she asked.
He sat still in the bed and concentrated on a slow
survey up his body, starting with his toes and ending with the top
of his head.
“Fine,” he said.
“There are people here to see you,” she said. “They
heard you’d come around.”
He nodded and stretched. He could feel the chest
wound. It was on the left. There was weakness there. He reached up
with his left hand to the IV stand. It was a vertical stainless
steel bar with a spiral curl at the top where the bags slipped on.
He put his hand over the curl and squeezed hard. He felt bruising
in his elbow where the needles had been and sensitivity in his
chest where the bullet had been, but the steel spiral still
flattened from round to oval. He smiled.
“OK, send them in,” he said.
He knew who they were before they got inside. He
could tell by the sound. The wheels on the oxygen cart squeaked.
The old lady stood aside and let her husband enter first. She was
wearing a brand-new dress. He was in the same old blue serge suit.
He wheeled the cart past her and paused. He kept hold of the handle
with his left hand and drew his right up into a trembling salute.
He held it for a long moment and Reacher replied with the same. He
threw his best parade-ground move and held it steady, meaning every
second of it. Then he snapped it down and the old guy wheeled the
cart slowly toward him with his wife fussing behind.
They were changed people. Still old, still feeble,
but serene. Knowing your son is dead is better than not knowing, he
guessed. He tracked back to Newman’s windowless lab in Hawaii and
recalled Allen’s casket with Victor Hobie’s skeleton in it. Victor
Hobie’s old bones. He remembered them pretty well. They were
distinctive. The smooth arch of the brow, the high round cranium.
The even white teeth. The long, clean limbs. It was a noble
skeleton.
“He was a hero, you know.”
The old man nodded.
“He did his duty.”
“Much more than that,” Reacher replied. “I read his
record. I talked with General DeWitt. He was a brave flyer who did
more than his duty. He saved a lot of lives with his courage. If
he’d lived, he’d have three stars now. He’d be General Victor
Truman Hobie, with a big command somewhere, or a big job in the
Pentagon.”
It was what they needed to hear, but it was still
true. The old woman put her thin pale hand over her husband’s and
they sat in silence, eyes moist and focused eleven thousand miles
away. They were telling themselves stories of what might have been.
The past stretched away straight and uncomplicated and now it was
neatly amputated by a noble combat death, leaving only honest
dreams ahead of it. They were recounting those dreams for the first
time, because now they were legitimate. Those dreams were
fortifying them just like the oxygen hissing in and out of the
bottle in time with the old man’s ragged breathing.
“I can die happy now,” he said.
Reacher shook his head.
“Not yet you can’t,” he said. “You have to go see
the Wall. His name will be there. I want you to bring me a
photograph of it.”
The old man nodded and his wife smiled a watery
smile.
“Miss Garber told us you might be living over in
Garrison,” she said. “You might be our neighbor.”
Reacher nodded.
“It’s possible,” he said.
“Miss Garber is a fine young woman.”
“Yes, ma’am, she is.”
“Stop your nonsense,” the old man said to her. Then
they told him they couldn’t stay, because their neighbor had driven
them down and had to get back. Reacher watched them all the way out
to the corridor. Soon as they were gone, Jodie came back in,
smiling.
“The doctor says you can leave.”
“So can you drive me? Did you get a new car
yet?”
She shook her head. “Just a rental. No time for
shopping. Hertz brought me a Mercury. It’s got satellite
navigation.”
He stretched his arms above his head and flexed his
shoulders. They felt OK. Surprisingly good. His ribs were fine. No
pain.
“I need clothes,” he said. “I guess those old ones
got ruined.”
She nodded. “Nurses sliced them off with
scissors.”
“You were here for that?”
“I’ve been here all the time,” she said. “I’m
living in a room down the hall.”
“What about work?”
“Leave of absence,” she said. “I told them, agree
or I quit.”
She ducked down to a laminate cupboard and came out
with a stack of clothes. New jeans, new shirt, new jacket, new
socks and shorts, all folded and piled together, his old shoes
squared on top, Army-style.
“They’re nothing special,” she said. “I didn’t want
to take too much time out. I wanted to be with you when you woke
up.”
“You sat around here for three weeks?”
“Felt like three years,” she said. “You were all
scrunched up. Comatose. You looked awful. In a real bad way.”
“This satellite thing,” he said. “Does it have
Garrison on it?”
“You going up there?”
He shrugged.
“I guess. I need to take it easy, right? Country
air might do me good.”
Then he looked away from her.
“Maybe you could stay with me awhile, you know,
help me recover.”
He threw back the sheet and slid his feet to the
floor. Stood up, slow and unsteady, and started to dress, while she
held his elbow to keep him from falling.