CHAPTER NINETEEN
Hades the place is not Hell, and Hades the god is
not Lucifer, but he holds the black fire that withers souls in his
keeping. It burned hot in his eyes as he crossed the
threshold.
“You’re mine,” he said, letting the flame of his
gaze fall on Persephone so that she flinched. A sob escaped her
lips.
The heat touched me next as hot agony burned along
the line that connected our eyes. I saw hate there, and fury, and a
terrible, devouring sort of lust.
“She’s mine. And you will be. Forever. Death I will
bring you, and as Death I will collect you, and though heat will
bake you and flames burn you, never will Lethe’s sweet waters pass
your parched lips. You will envy Prometheus.”
As he spoke I could feel the fire of his will
eating away at my soul, pushing me already toward death, and fear
filled me. Persephone stood then and stepped between us, breaking
the link, and I sagged against the desk, my chin coming to rest
inches from Shara’s laptop shape. I noticed words on the
screen.
Type: “Escapee. Execute.”
There was a cursor prompt right after a big chunk
of the programming language that Cerice had written for her
dissertation.
Why? I typed. Neither Cerice nor I ever used
the “Execute” command anymore, preferring “Please,” which allowed
the webgoblin freedom of choice in the question of a program
run.
Trust me.
I did. Escapee. Execute. Then I hit
return.
Data flashed across Shara’s screen too fast for me
to follow. It looked like a complete read-off of her memory, but I
couldn’t tell for sure. Out of the corner of my eye, I caught a
flickering and realized that whatever was happening within Shara
was being mirrored on Hades’ monitor. But I didn’t have time to
think about that, not with Hades himself on the spot.
Catching the edge of the desk, I pulled myself to
my feet. Hades had crossed deeper into the room, coming to stand
only a few feet from Persephone. The weight of his gaze had bowed
her down, pushing her own eyes floor-ward. It was the first chance
I had to really look at him.
He was dark, with black flame in his eyes, and
thick black hair like billowing smoke. His frame was long and lean,
and he looked hungry, with his bones too visible under his skin, a
skeleton playing at being a man. If Zeus is thunder and lightning,
bluster and brawn, Hades, his older brother, is smoke and shadow, a
fire burning underground. He smiled as he took another step, then
backhanded Persephone with a crack that suggested a broken
cheekbone.
Without so much as a whimper, she crumpled to the
ground. Now only a desk stood between me and the Lord of the Dead.
Hades raised his hand. Dark flames streamed from his fingertips,
reaching for that last shield. Where they touched, decay ate into
the rich mahogany, points of dry rot racing outward like ants
escaping a shattered hill. It was mesmerizing, and I watched as one
long line of rot slid under the now blank monitor, making it sink
and tilt. Only then did I think of Shara, reaching to catch her up.
Halfway there, my hand stopped as suddenly as if I’d run it into a
wall.
Her screen was black and empty, off and more than
off. Her case had lost its shine, fading from true purple to mauve
as it had when she’d been killed. I didn’t know what “Escapee” was
supposed to do, but it was clear that Shara was no longer at
home. Whether that meant I’d finally finished the task I’d set out
to perform on my first trip here was something only time would
tell. While I was still trying to decide what to do next, her
mortal shell fell into the collapsing desk and vanished from sight.
Dust puffed outward as the last bits of wood lost their structural
integrity. Hades stepped forward, smiling still, his eyes level
with my own.
The darkness within leaped between us, driving me
to my knees. I might be a power now, but the Raven was no match for
Death. I could feel my inner strength fading. I wouldn’t last long,
and I knew it. But I refused to look away from his gaze. I would
meet my own personal death eye to eye despite the terror in my
heart, even if it hastened the outcome. Shadows closed in around
the edge of my vision again, narrowing my view till all I could see
was the dark fire. Soon, even that began to fade. I was dying.
Blackness and . . .
Discontinuity.
The world rolled under me like the deck of a ship
in strong winds. I realized I was lying facedown. Something had
changed, though I had only the haziest idea of what. There had been
a sound, a wild, wonderful, totally unexpected sound, and Hades had
released me. What had it been?
Laughter?
That was it. The light ringing tones of pure living
joy, a sound utterly alien to this land of dust and ashes. I didn’t
understand. But I was alive still, and that meant I had to go on
trying. My arms felt as heavy and dead as old logs, but I forced
them to move, dragging my hands up beside my chest and pushing
myself onto my knees again. What had become of Hades?
There he was, standing over Persephone, and the
fires engulfed him now, a continuous sheet of black flame that
wrapped around him like a shroud. But Persephone didn’t seem
afraid. Didn’t even seem to notice him, looking through Hades
rather than at him, and her eyes held . . . joy? That couldn’t be
right, but it was. The pain was still there, would always be there,
but it had been pushed down into the depths and Persephone was
laughing. Laughing in a bright clear voice like a stream foaming
over polished rocks on a sunny morning high in the mountains.
Hades tried to strike her again. But his hand
passed through her face without touching it, and I realized that
she was fading. Or perhaps clarifying would be a better
word. I could see through her, but she didn’t look one iota less
bright. Rather it was as though she were being transformed from
flesh into light in a process that was accelerating steadily.
She turned to look at me then and paused in her
laughter. “Thank you,” she said. And, “freedom,” though I could not
hear that last word, only see the movement of her lips.
Then the light filled her, and she was the most
beautiful thing in the world, perhaps in all the worlds. This is
how she must have looked in the beginning, before her long
imprisonment, and I cried for the joy of seeing her so. But the
vision lasted only for an instant. Then she was gone, leaving me
alone with Hades, who now turned his wrathful gaze full upon
me.
But I was no longer afraid. Somehow, with Shara’s
help and against the longest of odds, I had righted one of the
oldest and harshest of wrongs in a universe full of them.
Persephone was free. What better epitaph could anyone ask for? Now
I could, and would, face Death with a smile. After all, I had
triumphed over him once, and in a way that would echo down the long
years into eternity. Even if I was doomed to fail, Hades would know
he’d been in a fight.
The black fires shot from his fingertips. My
clothes rotted around me, my blades rusted, and I actually felt my
hair going gray. But this time I did more than stand and take it. I
reached deep into the chaos at my core and reshaped myself,
changing my hair back and clothing myself once again. Not with the
court garb my grandmother demanded, but in the leathers of my own
choosing. I had broken the chains that bound Persephone. I was the
Raven and master of my own House, a child of Fate no longer.
But the fires fell on me again. This time the gray
hair burned completely away and took some of my suddenly wrinkled
skin with it. Arthritis blossomed in my joints, and my bones
creaked as microscopic fractures raced through them like threads of
lightning. I reached inward to tap chaos again, but the response
was weaker now in my premature dotage. I knew, even as I started to
renew myself, that the next round would kill me. This was not a
battle I could win. Not this way, and probably not at all.
Then, as the old do more often than the young, I
thought of those who had passed into Hades before me, and
especially of those I had sent here. Laric, the cousin that I had
loved as a brother. Moric, the cousin I had hated but would not
have killed had I any choice at all. I wondered if Moric were here
still, and whether I might meet him again and apologize. His death
in the fires of chaos haunted me yet. Suddenly, on the edge of
death, it also gave me an idea. It was a bad idea, and one that
probably wouldn’t work, but as Melchior would have pointed out were
he there to remind me, that wasn’t a big surprise.
The Primal Chaos, Xαos, is the source of all
things and the matrix in which reality is embedded. The Titans
formed themselves from the stuff using nothing more than an act of
will, and it flows in the blood of their children and their
children’s children unto the last generation. For any child of the
Titans the Primal Chaos is no farther away than a moment’s thought,
or a heartbeat, or a razor’s edge. For the Raven it lay even
closer. With a flick of thought I opened a door in my soul and let
the stuff of creation roar through it.
I felt it fill me to the brim and beyond. It was
hotter than the plasma that fuels the sun and colder than the
liquid helium that rains out of an outer planet’s skies. It was
pain and pleasure and sheer condensed sensation. I was baked and
boiled and frozen and fractured, all from within. Then it
overflowed. Mad, swirling, impossible colors shot from my eyes and
mouth, from the pores in my hands and follicles on my scalp. A
great tumbling ball of the stuff built around me and rolled
outward, an ever-expanding sphere of destruction. It burst over
Hades like a wave, knocking him down and tumbling him as easily as
a twig in a tidal bore.
He tried to get to his feet, but the flow never
stopped or slowed, just kept building and building. Where it
touched, things melted, the walls, the floor, the very substance of
reality. I was no exception. This was not a process I could control
or—realistically—survive. The chaos that ate away the building
housing Hades’ office and even the bedrock on which it stood would
also devour me. I had become the Raven, a creature of chaos, and
more resistant to its extremes because of that. But resistant is
not immune. Even as I watched the stuff of creation destroy the
heart of Hades’ domain and burn and bite the god himself, I could
feel the thread of my own existence unraveling away into
nothingness.
I was hurting Hades terribly, but I would not,
could not win. Just as I was thinking that thought, the chaos ate
through a final wall, the one between the universe and the sea that
surrounds it. In the blink of an eye, here became there, the stuff
of Hades poured into the Primal Chaos and vice versa. There, in the
heart of creation and destruction, I felt my flesh fail and my soul
fray, then nothing at all.
Nevermore.