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‘Mama.’
‘What is it, my darling?’
‘You don’t need to sit here all night.’
‘Shh, sleep now.’
‘I’m okay, you know.’
‘Of course you are. So shut your eyes and dream
sweet dreams.’
Valentina was seated on a low chair beside Lydia’s
bed, her elbows on the quilt and her chin propped on her hands,
gaze fixed on her daughter’s face. She looked tired, grey lines in
a fine web around her eyes and mouth. For the first time Lydia
could see what she’d look like when she was old and white-haired.
She gave her mother a fleeting smile. They both knew the dreams
were anything but sweet. In the hospital the doctors had kept her
drugged with something that numbed the pain and the brain but let
in the nightmares, so now that she was home she refused all tablets
and instead remained awake.
Three nights her mother had stayed at her bedside,
three nights of being there each time Lydia opened her eyes. When
she heard Valentina softly humming the overture from Romeo and
Juliet in the early hours of one morning, it made her
cry.
‘Where is he, Mama?’
‘Who?’
Lydia put out a hand and cupped it around her
mother’s. ‘You know who.’
The green lamp was on in the corner of the room,
but Valentina had draped a ruby scarf over it, so that the light
was muted to the colours of a winter’s sunset. Enough to see her
mother’s eyes.
Valentina turned Lydia’s hand over in her own and
with one slender finger slowly traced the lifeline on her palm
right down to her wrist. ‘He’s a prisoner.’
‘Where?’
‘How should I know, dochenka?’
‘Who has him?’
‘The Chinese, of course. You know what they’re
like, always at each other’s throats.’
‘Do you mean the Kuomintang?’
‘Yes, I suppose so, the ones in those dreadful
peasant uniforms. ’
‘Is he alive?’
Valentina sighed elaborately and her mouth
softened. ‘Yes. Your wretched Communist is still alive.’
‘How do you know?’
‘I made Alfred make inquiries. Don’t look so happy,
Lydia. He’s not for you. You must forget him.’
‘I will forget him the day I forget to
breathe.’
‘Dochenka! You’ve been through enough. Stop
this madness.’
‘I love him, Mama.’
‘So you must unlove him.’
‘I can’t. More than ever now.’
Valentina sat up straight, placed Lydia’s hand
gently down on the quilt, pulled her kimono tightly around herself,
and folded her arms.
‘Very well, darling. So. Tell me. What is it that
your stubborn little soul wants? What plans have you hatched in
that convoluted head of yours?’
There was a long silence. Downstairs the
grandfather clock chimed three. Lydia could hear her mother’s
breathing.
‘Mama, I nearly died in that Box.’ She spoke
softly.
‘Don’t, sweetheart. Don’t.’
‘I’d always thought survival was enough. But it’s
not.’
It was seven-thirty and the sky was just growing
light when Lydia went downstairs. Valentina was in the bathroom and
likely to remain there for some time judging by the scent of bath
oil wafting under the door, so Lydia knew Alfred would be alone and
unprotected.
‘Hello.’
‘Good heavens, Lydia, you startled me.’ He was
sitting at the breakfast table engrossed in the newspaper, a bowl
of steaming porridge oats in front of him. ‘Shouldn’t you be in
bed, my dear?’
She slipped into the chair opposite him. ‘I need
your advice.’
Alfred put down his paper and gave her his full
attention. ‘Anything I can do to help, just say the word.’
‘Mama said you made inquiries about Chang An
Lo.’
‘I did.’
‘I have to go to him. So . . .’
‘No, Lydia.’
‘Alfred, if it hadn’t been for him, I’d be
dead.’
‘Well, really I think it’s that young Russian
gentleman who . . .’
‘No. It was Chang An Lo. He was the one who got the
Chinese troops searching for me. That’s what Alexei Serov himself
told me in the woods. So you see, I do need to speak with
him.’
Alfred looked uncomfortable. He picked up his spoon
and stirred his porridge, added a sprinkling of sugar to it, then
shook his head sadly. ‘I’m so sorry, Lydia, I can’t help you. Chang
An Lo is not allowed visitors.’
‘Where is he?’
‘In Chou Dong Prison. It’s down by the river. But
listen to me.’ He pushed a rack of toast toward her and she took a
piece because she knew he was trying to help. ‘This whole business
of your kidnapping has caused a bit of a stink, what with the
police looking into Feng Po Chu’s death and everything.’
Her head jerked up. ‘I thought they said I was in
the clear. It was self-defence.’
‘That’s true.’ He reached out and patted her hand,
but she could tell his sense of order was dislocated. ‘You see, Sir
Edward Carlisle feels that the sooner it all dies down the better
because, to be honest, it has created a lot of tension between the
Chinese and ourselves. If you go around complaining and making a
fuss about this Communist down at the prison, well, it’ll just stir
things up even worse. So if you want my advice, I suggest you keep
well clear. Get back to bed and stay there until this is all done
with. I’m very sorry, Lydia, I know it’s hard, but it’s for the
best, my dear.’
Lydia spread butter on her toast. Drizzled honey on
it. Snapped it in two.
‘Best for who?’ she asked.
‘Best for you.’
She looked at him. Behind his spectacles his eyes
were full of concern.
‘Will you drive me to the Serov villa on your way
to the office today, please?’
‘There’s no need.’
‘What do you mean?’
‘Alexei Serov calls here every morning. Nine-thirty
sharp he’s been arriving on our doorstep to ask after your
health.’
‘Chyort! Why did no one tell me?’
‘Come on, Lydia, you know what your mother thinks
of him. She’ll probably give me hell just for telling you.’
Lydia allowed herself a little bright window of
hope.
‘Alexei, tell me what happened. Please. I need to
know.’
The tall Russian looked relieved, and Lydia
realised he’d been expecting a more difficult question. He was
seated on the leather sofa, legs crossed, his gloves placed tidily
beside him, his body as relaxed as ever in a dark well-cut suit,
but his expression was tense.
‘You’re looking much better, Miss Ivanova,’ he’d
said.
It was a lie but a nice one, so she let it pass.
Their exchanges so far had been peppered with awkward silences. The
usual words of polite conversation did not seem to be enough
between them. Not anymore.
‘Tell me,’ she repeated, ‘how you found me.’
‘It wasn’t hard. But,’ he gave an easy laugh,
‘don’t tell Sir Edward that. He thinks I’m a hero.’
She smiled. ‘So do I.’
‘No. I just used my contacts. No heroics.’
‘But why did Chang come to you of all
people?’
He leaned forward, green eyes suddenly very hard,
and she could see the military man in him. ‘He learned of the split
between Feng and Po Chu, heard a whisper that Po Chu was siding
with the Kuomintang against his father. That meant their spies
would know exactly where he was hiding out. So your Communist used
his brains. Who was the one person who knew you but also had
influence over the Chinese?’ He shrugged and spread his hands.
‘Myself. And the only way he knew of finding me quickly was through
the Kuomintang.’
‘But now Chang An Lo is in prison.’
His long face studied hers intently. ‘Yes.’
‘Can’t you do something? Please. To get him
out.’
‘Lydia, don’t be foolish, this isn’t a game. Chiang
Kai-shek and the Kuomintang army are at war with the Communists.
They slaughter each other every day, sometimes hundreds at a time.
Chang knew that when he walked into Captain Wah’s arms. So no, I
can’t get him out.’
‘But Alexei, he stuck up a few posters, that’s all.
Surely not enough to . . .’
He barked out a scornful laugh. ‘Don’t be absurd.
He’s a trained code breaker. One of their best. That’s why the
Kuomintang are interrogating him now before . . .’ He
stopped.
There was a silence in the room so crystal clear
that Valentina’s soft footsteps could be heard pacing up and down
outside the door. It had taken a lot of ‘discussion’ to convince
Valentina that Lydia owed the Russian this courtesy.
‘Alexei.’
‘Whatever it is you want, Miss Ivanova, the answer
is no.’
‘You are in a powerful position, Alexei.’
He stood up quickly and gathered his gloves to him.
‘Time for me to leave.’
The walls of Alexei Serov’s office were painted
bright yellow on the top half and a drab olive green on the bottom
half. His desk was gunmetal grey and the floor just bare boards.
Lydia regarded it with distaste as she sat silently on a bentwood
chair in a corner and watched Alexei plough through a pile of
paperwork. She noticed the way his brown hair, though still short,
was starting to curl again behind his ear and the speed with which
he scanned each document in front of him. But she was irritated by
him. How could he sit there so calmly when elsewhere in the
building Chang An Lo was . . . ? Was what?
In pain? On a rack? In chains?
Dead?
Twice she interrupted him. ‘Is he coming?’
Twice Alexei had sighed, lifted his head, and
looked at her with disapproval.
‘I’ve given the order for him to be brought to my
office. That’s overstepping my mark as it is. I can do no more.
This is China. Be patient.’
She sat there for two hours and forty minutes. Then
the door opened.
Lydia’s face made Chang An Lo’s heart burst into
life again inside his chest. Her smile filled the drab little room.
Her hair. It set the air itself on fire. He ought to have known
she’d come, that somehow she’d reach him. He should have
believed.
She leaped to her feet, but the Russian at the desk
gave her a warning look. So she stood quietly in the corner, her
tawny eyes focused on Chang’s face, her fingers tugging at her coat
buttons as if she would tear off her clothes if she could. Behind
him two Chinese soldiers stood at attention and he knew that if he
gave the yellow-bellied worms the slightest excuse, they would
delight in joining the imprints of their rifle butts to the marks
already on his back. But he was certain their farm brains would
know no English.
‘Chang An Lo,’ the Russian said formally, ‘I have
summoned you here to answer some questions.’
Chang kept his gaze firmly on the Russian. In
English he said, ‘The sight of you brings joy to my heart and makes
my blood thunder in my veins.’
The Russian blinked. A small sound escaped from
Lydia but the guards behind him stood silent.
‘I know not how long I will be allowed to stand
here. So there are words I must say. That you are the moon and the
stars to me, and the air I breathe. To love you is to live. So if I
die . . . ,’ another raw sound from Lydia, ‘ . . . I will still
live in you.’
The Russian could take no more. ‘For God’s sake,
that’s enough,’ he snapped.
But Chang was barely aware of anyone other than
Lydia in the room. He let his eyes move to the corner. Her gaze met
his and he felt such a surge of desire for her that he knew he was
not ready to die yet.
Abruptly the Russian was ordering the guards out of
the room and following them through the door himself.
‘You have two minutes, no more,’ he said
briskly.
Chang An Lo moved toward Lydia. He opened his arms
and she stepped into them.