CHAPTER ONE
Sitting in my kitchen, I’m humming along with a favorite old bluesy Pearl Bailey tune, “Easy Street,” while Ruby fixes my roots by applying the color I’ve whipped up.
“Hold still, darling,” Ruby instructs me. “Good heavens, no wonder you used to charge your clients an arm and a leg to do this. Applying hair color is such a bloody mess!” Only a true Brit could put it that way.
I chuckle. “Until Howard puts the finishing touches on our in-cottage salon, this is all we have. Now did you get the nape of my neck?” I ask and bend lower on the rickety stool.
“You’d better be planning on a big tip for me,” she threatens. “I can’t believe how gray you are, poor dear.”
“Me!” I move to the sink in order to slide the shutters open. Warm sunshine pours in. “Do you have any idea how gray your roots are?” We put our cigarettes out in the fish-shaped ashtray.
“No, darling, and do let’s keep it that way. Now, how long until we can rinse—Rocky and I have laundry to attend to.” Ruby has slung Rocky, our fluffy gray cat, over her arm and is heading down the stairs.
“Not too long.” I follow her.
The wooden steps creak like mad; cool, damp basement air sends a shiver down my spine as we head down. I click on lights to illuminate the enormous room as we move over to our trusty Maytag that’s busy making a major racket. Spin cycle needs some adjusting, I think.
“I simply can’t get over,” Ruby says, while sorting through our clothes, “how quickly that Mary Jo of yours found her. Such a marvel.”
“No kidding.” I scoot Rocky over and join him on top of the dryer. “I wonder if she’ll call or write or…” I haven’t been sleeping since I popped my letter to her in the mail; what if she’s gotten it and ripped it into a thousand…I’m going crazy here. I know, I know—short trip, Eve!
“Of course she will, darling. Why—when I was a little girl in England, I used to dream of a princess-mother coming to my rescue.”
“Rescue? From what? I thought you lived a perfect life in that little fishing village. Thatched-roof cottage, grew your own food…” She is a real storyteller, but I have to admit, I get such a kick out of her ramblings.
“Oh, I think everyone fantasizes of being rescued—don’t you, darling? I mean not that what’s in front of you is horrible, hopefully not, but to imagine something different is all. Something being a bit more magical than trotting off to elementary school.”
“I guess, sure, but I’m not doing that to Amy—I mean Helen.” I think for a moment. “I’m filling in the blanks, I guess. Not just for her either. Let’s be honest here—she’s never tried to find me, so maybe she doesn’t…”
“Eve—you’ve done all you can and now we’ve got to hope that perhaps she’ll ring you. It’s possible she simply wasn’t able to do the looking. We’ve…”
Just then, the wine cellar door swings open and out steps—Johnny. In his tight jeans and torn-just-so sweatshirt, he’s the picture of health. Howard’s a lucky fellow. Together they live in the cottage right next door to us. They’re among our very dearest friends, not to mention business partners, too.
“Eve!” he blurts out, panting. He hands me a piece of paper. “This just came in from your website’s e-mail. I thought it was another order for more aprons but—read it!”
I read out loud, “Thank you for your recent Borders book order, enclosed please find the—”
“The other side!” We recycle and I’m a book junkie.
I should explain a few things first, though. Ruby and I live in this huge rambling log cottage on ten acres of land on Madeline Island, which sits off the shore from a smart little port town in Northern Wisconsin, called Bayfield. Ruby’s my best, best-est friend. Her age is this major secret but the gal’s gotta be around seventy—she’d swear she’s not a day over fifty-eight, maybe fifty-nine, it depends. Me, I’m forty-seven, single and NOT looking.
I do as I’m told and read aloud, “‘Dear Eve, I’ve had your note for some time now and…’” I slide down, off the dryer, and continue—my heart is pounding. “‘After reading it about a hundred times, I came to the conclusion it would be so much simpler to respond via e-mail. I love Ruby’s Aprons website, by the way. You may find this as unbelievable as I did, but I live close by, in Duluth, to be exact. I honestly would love to meet you. Could we get together for lunch? I have to admit that I’m a little nervous, too. Okay, a lot. But I think it would be great to finally meet you, face-to-face. Maybe you could suggest a restaurant in Bayfield, as I’ve not had the opportunity to get over there in a long time. Hope to hear from you soon. Your daughter, Helen Williams.’”
“Good heavens!” Ruby proclaims and throws her arms around me. Then so does Johnny.
Rocky meows from inside the dryer and I let him out. Must have kicked the door closed when I hopped off it.
“Oh man,” I say as tears slide down my cheek. “We were just talking about my note to—”
“Just,” Ruby mutters. “It’s all we’ve been talking about for…oh darling, there there.” Ruby pats my eyes with a tissue she always has tucked in her sleeve.
“Listen,” Johnny butts in. “Would you mind if I read this to Howard? This is big news—you know.” He snatches the note from me and scoots upstairs before I can reply.
Seconds later we hear them both whooping it up and head upstairs, back into the kitchen, to investigate. Rocky follows, fussing all the way about shutting him into the dryer. “Meow” this and “Meow” that.
“Eve—you must be so happy!” Howard, who stands at least six-two, grabs me with his strong arms and twirls me around in the kitchen.
He eventually plops me down in one of the wicker bar stools that surround our enormous kitchen table, which is actually a gigantic white pine tree stump—it must weigh a ton, or two. It’s varnished to an amber luster. There’s a metal pot-and-pan holder suspended above it, packed solid since Ruby is a major chef. I’m the official pot-scrubber and stir-this queen.
“I don’t know what…” I give my head a good scratching and then look at my finger. “Oh hell—I forgot about the color—Ruby and I need to go and rinse the cat out of our—I mean wash the cat so our hair color—God—I’m a mess.” Ruby and I head upstairs to rinse out our hair. “Put the coffee on, we’ll be right back,” I say over my shoulder.
Hair color left on too long can make you many shades too dark and I just want my, ahem, natural red color to be, well, natural looking. My bedroom is at the top of the stairs and Ruby’s is a ways down the hallway. The living room, I guess you could call it a great room; it’s open to the second floor, which looks down into it since one side of the hallway up here is just a banister. I love coming out of my bedroom in the morning and looking out the huge windows to Lake Superior. It’s really something up here.
Rocky zooms in and hops onto my bed just as I’m zinging the door closed. Before you can say “Helen lives!” I’m tossing my clothes at Rocky and pulling the shower curtains around my claw-foot tub. The curtains are see-through plastic with lady-bugs plastered all over.
As the dye washes down the drain, I suds up my newly revived “naturally colored” red curls. Even though I am overweight (and overly endowed), I’d say I’m voluptuous. I’ve even been referred to as “beautiful.” What does she look like? I look down at my nakedness, rinse off, and quickly wrap my body in a huge, soft towel. Sure hope she doesn’t have my—heft. I slather on lavender-scented lotion and, after that, powder on some foundation, a touch of lipstick, and a few strokes of mascara. I sigh, and then regard my reflection in the cracked mirror; Rocky’s meowing, so I let him in. He jumps up on the toilet seat, regarding me with his perfectly eye-lined green eyes.
“What’d ya think there, Rocky—will she take one look and run?”
I spray some lemon-grass-smelling stuff on my hair, give my damp curls a pat, and wonder. Why can’t I kick the habit of wearing makeup way up here? Does make me feel—well—better, more feminine, I guess. Why not? I need to repair the nails, though; I look at them and shrug. We head back into the bedroom. Rummaging around in my enormous wardrobe, which takes up practically one entire wall, I finally come up with a decent “let’s talk about Helen—some more” outfit. Tan slacks, a frilly yellow top, and green Keds. “Smashing,” as Ruby would say. I fling open my door and lean over the banister to see what’s going on down in the living room.
“Look at you.” Johnny waves up toward me.
He and Howard are snuggled together on the red sofa, which is grouped with the eclectic furniture collection positioned just so facing the river-rock fireplace. Its chimney soars two stories up the wall and then disappears into the rafters.
“What took you so long, darling?” Ruby asks as I slowly descend the staircase. It’s made of pine logs that were split in half, then polished to a sheen—you have to be careful in order not to slip.
Ruby’s carrying in a round serving tray loaded with filled coffee mugs, a plate of some gooey goodies, and a vase of daisies. How does she manage?
“Thought you’d fallen in up there.” She’s dressed in one of her stylish “walking” outfits, a burst of gems spray across the front. I’m sure it cost a fortune. Her newly amber-brown-colored bob looks wonderful; I am a pro.
“Who has the…” Before I can finish, Howard is shaking a sheet of paper in the air. I snatch it from him and reread it.
“I printed it on fresh paper,” Johnny says. “Thought we could splurge, just this once, and NO, we haven’t called Sam and Lilly. You can tell them tomorrow—of course, Sam probably already knows.”
I thump down into a cushy chair and put my feet up on the sparkly green coffee table. “Sam can’t help being a psychic, she calls it her gift, and besides, she promised not to help—too much. I really wanted to do this on my own. I still can’t get over it.” I hold the note up for proof. My God, my life will never be the same. Is it ever, though? I mean, some changes come along and WHAM—everything shifts a bit.
“Here, darling, drink this.” Ruby hands me a steaming mug.
I take a whiff and smile, coffee laden with chocolate—yum! Lifting my mug, I say, “To my family.”
“Helen’s your family now, too, darling,” Ruby adds. “I mean she’s blood-family and we’re—”
“All the family a girl needs,” I reply. We clink our mugs—for good measure.
Howard and Johnny have gone home, to their fancy “cabin” next door. Their place is much more state-of-the-art. It’s ultratasteful, done up in a modern craftsman style with all the trimmings. You know: woodwork galore, stainless steel appliances, granite countertops, stuff like that.
Ruby and I are back in the kitchen, which is a favorite hang of ours—isn’t it everyone’s? She’s busy ladling a sesame-wasabi-maple glaze onto a beautiful salmon fillet that’s headed into the yellow and chrome fifties stove of ours. It matches the yellow muscle-fridge, as I refer to it. It’s one of those that’s curved on the top and has a big chrome circle with the handle in the center—talk about energy unefficient.
I hip the fridge door closed and plunk a chilled bottle of wine down on the waist-high stump table. There’s no label ’cause Ruby and her late husband made it; the wine cellar downstairs is just full of it. Opening the cupboard door to the left of the sink, I marvel at the amazing collection of mismatched wine goblets on the top shelf. Since I’m barely five feet tall and Ruby’s a good two inches shorter, I drag over our all-purpose wooden stool and take down several stems.
“This wine is so…” I pause.
“Perfectly aged—much like myself—now hurry up and pour.” Ruby grabs the stool as I get down, drags it over to the stump table, climbs up a step, and selects a small pot from the rack that’s suspended above. She takes her cooking very seriously. “What say I whip up a nice lemon Parmesan sauce for the steamed broccoli?”
“Sounds, amazing.” I’m in awe of this gal’s cooking skills. “But first…” I hand her a crystal goblet covered with engraved moon and stars—we clink. My goblet’s purple with huge bubbles suspended forever in its sides. “To Helen!”
“We’ve certainly been clinking up a storm, as of late, haven’t we, darling?”
“So many things to be ‘clinky’ about,” I say, then plop down onto a stool and spin around a bit. “God—what will I wear? What do birth moms look like, I mean, should I go for the Chanel suit thing or casual yacht wear—’course I don’t own anything like that so…maybe a black number. Black is so slimming, you know?”
“Good heavens, not something else for you to worry—to death about. Look.” Ruby points her spatula at me for emphasis. “You’re a lovely woman and you dress—with expression—and you mustn’t fuss and fume yourself into a dither over what you look like. Trust me, darling, she’s not going to be focusing on your appearance. It’s YOU she’s interested in.”
I consider this. “I guess. I want to look nice, though—it’s too late for surgery and I can’t imagine a diet that works in less than—”
“It’s never too late for surgery, but diets are fads, and fads come and go. I have a thought.” Ruby clicks the stove off, pops the salmon into the fridge, and unties her apron in one swift move. It swirls onto the cupboard in a mass of bright pink flowers. “Let’s have a decent chat out on the dock and enjoy the sunset properly.”
“Let’s do.”
We’re snuggled in blankets and surrounded by big fluffy pillows, sipping wine and enjoying a smoke. The dock juts out a good twenty feet and has a panoramic view of Lake Superior—our front yard. It’s a special place that brings me such peace. The sound of the waves lapping the shoreline either lulls my mind—or sometimes sends me to the potty! But I do a lot of my finest thinking out here and with winter not too far away—God, I’ll really miss it.
“From the tone of her rather formal note—I bet she’s intelligent,” I offer, as a smoke ring swirls up and away. “I’m going to e-mail her in the morning—I want to muddle over what to say for—”
“Don’t you mean you want to worry and fuss—perhaps chew your nails to the quick?” Ruby admonishes me with a poke on my elbow.
“Hey—I bruise easy.” I slump back onto a pillow. “All those years I’ve spent putting her in the backseat of a station wagon or picturing her in a Girl Scouts uniform, knocking on doors with that ridiculous box of cookies in tow. All those years of wondering.”
“It’s quite possible, darling, she’s been dreaming of you—too.” She punches several pillows up a bit and then lies back, next to me. “Could be, Helen’s been imagining you as the one who will rescue her.”
“I can’t imagine a thirty-year-old woman needing rescuing. I’d settle for a friendship of some sort. Maybe she’s married and has kids—oh no! I’m too young to be a grandma!”
Ruby chuckles and so do I. I’d love it—wouldn’t I?
“You’ll make a lovely gran. Hey—look, an eagle. Simply takes your breath away, doesn’t it, dear?”
“Does—it certainly does.” I sigh all the way to my painted toes.
Burnt orange hues splash across the sky; the sun slowly slides into the lake. Once it’s gone, the air quickly turns chilly so we make our way back up the path. Crossing the verandah, we head into the cottage. I let the screened porch door slap closed behind me; Rocky meows to be let in, too.
“Sorry, buster, didn’t see you there.” I lift him up into my arms.
“Who would like a delicious salmon din-din?” Ruby singsongs from the kitchen.
“We would!” Rocky and I head toward the kitchen to investigate—such a burden.