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“maybe the problem is that
walker only sees you as the big boss, the owner of the Bar M, a
coworker. Maybe he doesn’t see you as a woman.”
Jolene cocked her head to the side and stared at
Valerie. “Huh?”
Brea nodded, studying her. “I see what she’s
saying. Look at you, Jo.”
Jolene looked down at her jeans, her workboots, and
held out her arms. Plain blue work shirt, same thing she wore every
damn day. “What’s wrong with what I’m wearing?”
Valerie sighed and shook her head. They were
sitting in Jolene’s bedroom talking about the annual town picnic
tomorrow, and Jolene had filled them in about her concerns with
Walker.
“The problem is you look like every other cowboy
Walker works with.”
Jolene rolled her eyes. “So?”
“So he can’t separate the work you from the woman
you because they’re one and the same.” Valerie pointed to her.
“That’s all he sees. Ever.”
“Trust me. Walker knows what’s underneath these
clothes. He’s seen me naked. We’ve had sex.”
“Too much information, little sister,” Brea said,
holding her hand out, palm facing Jolene. “Don’t need to hear about
your sex life.”
“Then I don’t get it. How does what I wear have
anything to do with Walker’s problem?”
Valerie opened the door to Jolene’s closet. In it
were blue jeans, work shirts and some tank tops, and a few skirts
and dresses she rarely wore.
Jolene put her hands on her hips. “So?”
“So maybe he’d stop thinking of you as the boss of
the Bar M—his boss—if you’d stop looking
like it all the damn time.” Valerie closed the closet door. “What
were you planning to wear to the picnic?”
Jolene shrugged. “Jeans and a tank top. My
boots.”
Valerie rolled her eyes. “See? That’s exactly what
I’m talking about. Tomorrow is a perfect time to let your hair
down, literally. Get a manicure and pedicure. Wear sandals. A
dress.”
“I get pedicures in town on occasion. Manicures are
wasted on me since I work with my hands all day. And a dress?”
Jolene wrinkled her nose. “Can’t win the potato sack race in a
dress.”
“Then don’t enter the potato sack race this year.
Gah, Jolene, how old are you anyway?”
“Hey, I like that race.” So did all the kids. And
she loved running it with the kids, dammit.
Brea laughed. “This year maybe you could win a man
instead.”
Jolene sighed and flopped onto her bed, twining her
fingers together and pulling her hands behind her head. “You might
have a point. He’s never seen me in anything but jeans and boots.
It might be fun to . . . dress up for him.”
But did she even know how to wear a dress? She only
did that for special occasions. It wasn’t required for ranchers,
and that included her.
Brea’s eyes twinkled and her grin was a mile wide.
“Trust me, there’s nothing a man likes more than a woman wearing a
dress. The things you can do in a dress . . . the things a man can
do to you when you’re wearing a dress . . .”
Jolene shot Brea a look. “Now who’s giving too much
information?”
Brea shrugged and continued to smile like the
getting-sex-all-the-damn-time, contented, happy woman she
was.
Jolene stared into her closet, wrinkling her nose
as she scanned the skimpy choice of skirts and dresses she had
available. “Okay. So who’s got a picnic-type dress to loan
me?”
“Oh no,” Valerie said, hopping to her feet. “We’re
going into town today. You’re getting a manicure and a pedicure,
and a spray tan to cover up the farmer’s tan lines you’ve got. And
then we’re going shopping.”
“I’ve got too many things to do today.”
“You can afford to take a day off. Tell Mason to
assign whatever it is you have to do to someone else,” Brea said,
sliding off the bed and dragging Jolene with her. “You’re spending
the day with your sisters.”
by noon the next day, jolene
was sitting in the SUV with Mason, Valerie, Gage and Brea, her
heart lodged firmly in her throat.
Her body was tan—all over. That was an experience
she didn’t care to repeat anytime soon. Standing near naked in a
booth while someone sprayed you with cold . . . stuff. The things
women did in the name of beauty were beyond her. But she had to
admit the end result was excellent.
She’d loved the manicure and pedicure, though, had
enjoyed sitting in the salon and relaxing with her sisters, being
pampered while someone buffed and polished her nails. She now
sported a pretty pink color on her fingernails and toenails, and
even had a white flower painted on each of her big toes. Very
cute.
And with a begrudging nod to her sisters, she had
to admit the dress was comfortable enough. The last color in the
world she ever thought she’d wear was pink.
Yet here she was, decked out with pink toenails and
pink fingernails. A pale pink dress with yellow flowers hugged her
upper body from the bust to her waist, then billowed out past her
hips so it swirled around her when she twirled. And okay, she might
have twirled when she saw herself in the mirror. And Valerie
insisted she buy sandals that had a little bit of a heel on them,
even though Jolene figured she’d fall on her ass as soon as she
tried to walk in them. But they looked cute with the dress, so what
the hell. If she fell, she’d be the first to laugh at
herself.
Her sisters were equally as beautiful. Valerie wore
a red sundress that crisscrossed in the back and showed off her
slender figure, and Brea looked stunning in a copper-colored dress
that made her auburn hair sparkle like it was on fire. Gage
couldn’t take his eyes off her. It was a good thing Jolene had sat
in the back with them to keep her eye on them, or the way the two
of them were gaping at each other there might have been some action
going on back there.
They’d made potato salad and pies for the town
picnic. Okay, Lila had done most of the pie baking, but she’d
allowed Valerie, Brea and Jolene to take over the kitchen to make
potato salad.
Jolene liked having her sisters back. She loved
Lila, couldn’t have survived all those years after her mom died
without Lila’s loving support. She was as close to a mother as
Jolene could remember having.
But there was something about having her sisters
around, sharing secrets, getting close to them again, that made her
heart clench. She hadn’t realized until they came back how much
she’d missed them. How much she needed them. How lonely and empty
her life had been without them.
Tears sprang up and she blinked in rapid
succession. Valerie would kill her if she smeared the makeup she’d
insisted Jolene wear.
“Are you crying?” Brea reached over and slid her
hand in Jolene’s.
“No.”
Valerie turned around and looked over the front
seat. “Jolene. There are tears in your eyes. What’s wrong?”
Dammit. She looked to Valerie, then Brea. “I was
just thinking how awesome it is to have both of you here. I hadn’t
realized how much I needed you both until you came back.”
There was a dead silence for several seconds, then
a lot of sniffling.
“Well, goddamn,” Mason said, shaking his head.
“Pass around the Kleenex box.”
“No one told me it was going to get all hormonal in
here,” Gage said. “I’d have taken the truck.”
Brea elbowed him and laughed, then sniffed and
grabbed a tissue. “Shut up.” She leaned over and put her arm around
Jolene. “I missed you. And Valerie. I didn’t realize how much I
needed the two of you, either, until I came back to the
ranch.”
Valerie dabbed her eyes. “Ditto. I love both of you
and can’t imagine my life anywhere but with my family.”
“I’m going to pull over and let all three of you
out to walk the rest of the way if you don’t knock it off,” Mason
said, shaking his head.
Gage made a mocking sniffle. “Now I might cry,
too.”
Jolene laughed then. “Okay, sorry. Waterworks
over.”
They pulled onto one of the side streets and found
a place to park near the main street. It was still early, but the
lines of traffic were already starting to get longer as people from
all the neighboring ranches and surrounding towns filed in. Food,
carnival rides and games abounded as the main street in town was
closed off for the annual picnic. Booths were set up from various
vendors offering food and craft items, rides had been brought in
for the daring and those with strong stomachs, and there’d be
entertainment on one of the stages set up at the end of the street.
Clowns wandered in and out of the throng, making up balloon animals
for the kids.
“I’m heading for the beer tent,” Mason said as soon
as they reached the main street.
“I’m with you,” Gage said.
Valerie rolled her eyes. “I’ll meet you there as
soon as we drop off the food.”
Jolene laughed. “I’ll take it. You go on
ahead.”
“You sure?”
She nodded and grabbed the bags containing the pies
and potato salad. The food table was only a block away, so she got
there in no time at all, dropped off the food and stopped to talk
to one of the neighboring ranch owners’ wives who was in charge of
setting out the food.
Melinda Carson was well into her sixties, and still
fit and trim from all the time she spent working the ranch. No
doubt her three grandchildren under the age of five and running
circles around her accounted for burning a lot of calories,
too.
“Is Bob here?”
Melinda nodded. “Beer tent.”
Jolene laughed. “I think that’s where all the guys
are hiding.”
“At least until the band fires up. Hopefully the
men will have enough beer in them by then to want to take us out
for a twirl to the music.”
“Mmm, let’s hope so.” She’d like to dance with
Walker tonight. In front of the whole town. Make their relationship
public, finally.
She finished her conversation with Melinda and
started down the street to the beer tent, waylaid a few times by
vendors hawking their wares. Jolene was a sucker for crafts,
couldn’t resist looking at the jewelry, artwork, pottery and
everything else on display. By the time she found the beer tent,
nearly an hour had passed and the place was packed. After the big
rain, the heat had rolled in, leaving the weather less humid and
hot as blazes. No wonder the beer tent was such a popular
place.
Jolene found her family and sat at the table. Mason
passed a beer to her.
“Did you get lost?”
She shook her head. “Vendor booths.”
“Oooh, find anything good?” Brea asked.
“Lots. Too many things. I’m going back later to
gawk.”
“I’ll go with you.”
“Me, too. I can never resist the pottery booth.
It’s my weakness,” Valerie said.
Jolene sipped her beer, visited with her sisters
and couldn’t help but look around for Walker. He’d promised her
he’d be here. She wondered if he’d ignore her like the last time
they’d been together in public. She hoped not. It would be the
final straw if he did. She wouldn’t go through that again.
The band started up, so everyone headed outside to
listen to the music, a few couples getting out in front of the
grandstand to start dancing. Gage and Brea and Valerie and Mason
got up to dance, while Jolene watched them twirl around, laughing
at the guys’ attempts at two-stepping.
“Care to dance?”
Her head shot up, expecting to see Walker standing
there. It was Larry, one of the cowboys from a neighboring
ranch.
She was about to say no, but since she hadn’t yet
spotted Walker, she figured dancing was better than looking like a
wallflower, so she smiled up at Larry and offered her hand.
“Sure.”
walker headed into the beer
tent to search out Jolene, but didn’t see her in there.
The whole town seemed to be crowded into the narrow
main street, making it feel even hotter and more humid than the
midafternoon heat bearing down on the cement walkway as he made his
way out of the tent and toward where the band played. People
crowded the street in front of the band, couples dancing and
twirling to a fast country rock beat. He scanned the people,
looking for Jolene, but didn’t see her, so he moved off and
searched the tables set in front of the dance floor, thinking he’d
find her there, but he didn’t.
The song ended so he stopped while people moved
past him. Only then did he spot Mason and Gage along with Valerie
and Brea, talking and laughing with another couple. It took him a
few seconds to register the gorgeous blonde in the pink dress, her
arm linked with a tall cowboy he didn’t recognize.
That gorgeous blonde was Jolene.
He couldn’t recall ever seeing her dressed like
that. He sucked in a breath, gut-punched as she turned around and
lifted her head, smiling up at the cowboy.
Her hair spilled over her shoulders like soft
waving wheat. She was tan from her face to her legs. And wow, those
legs, peeking out under that pretty pink dress, all the way down to
her slender ankles and painted toenails. The dress billowed in the
slight breeze as she turned to greet another tall, dark and
irritating cowboy Walker didn’t know, who swept her onto the dance
floor as the band started up again.
Wasn’t she popular? Put the
owner of the Bar M in a dress and suddenly every prick within a
hundred miles notices she’s a woman. He’d damn well noticed long
before she put on a party dress. He’d noticed her in jeans, work
boots and a long-sleeved shirt, with her hair hanging in a braid
down her back, covered up with a cowboy hat. He’d noticed her
covered up to her neck in dirt and smelling like cow shit. He’d
noticed her when she was cussing like any of the men, when she was
sweating and stank and when she was unpleasant. Not cleaned up and
beautiful like she was now, looking like the sweetest thing this
side of the Red River. Sure, she looked gorgeous today, but to him,
she looked just as beautiful knee-deep in mud, too.
Where the hell were those guys when she was
straining to hold a screaming calf, when she was branding and
tagging and roping and doing all the things he admired so much
about her? Those guys weren’t around. They hadn’t noticed Jolene
then.
But Walker had. Though he had to admit she sure
cleaned up good. And whether in blue jeans or a pretty pink dress,
that was his woman those guys were passing
around on the dance floor.
And he didn’t like it one damn bit. The problem
was, he couldn’t do anything about it. Not without letting the
whole town know how he felt about her. And that would stir up a
hornets’ nest he wasn’t interested in messing with. It had taken
years for him to even be able to show his face in town without the
accusatory stares. He wasn’t going down that road again with
Jolene, no matter how much he loved her.
Today just wasn’t a good day to go public. Too many
people around who knew his history.
But he’d be letting Jolene down. Again. He didn’t
want to hurt her, but if she found out the truth about him, if word
got out that he was seeing her, she’d be hurt anyway.
No-win situation.
Shit.
He stopped off at the beer tent and bought a
bottle, then headed down to the park to think.
an hour had passed and
jolene’s head was spinning. She’d danced so much with guys from
the neighboring ranches, her feet were killing her, and she had no
idea why she was suddenly so popular.
“Put you in a dress and suddenly all the men from a
hundred miles figure out you have breasts and legs,” Brea said with
a wry smile.
“Uh huh. How come they couldn’t figure out I was a
woman before?”
Valerie slid into the chair on the other side of
Jolene. “Some are dumber than others. And some like their women to
actually look like women.”
Jolene took a long swallow of her bottled water.
“And some noticed I was a woman no matter what I was
wearing.”
“Walker, you mean,” Valerie said.
“Yes. Who I haven’t seen yet.”
“Saw him headed west about a half hour ago,” Mason
said, carefully balancing a plate overloaded with barbecued ribs,
potato salad and corn on the cob.
Jolene turned to Mason. “He was here?”
“Yeah. I spotted him watching everyone dance. Then
he took off. Not sure why he didn’t come over when he saw
us.”
Jolene had a pretty good idea. She scooted her
chair back and stood. “I’ll be back.”
West, Mason had said. The park was west of the main
street. Other than that, there wasn’t anything but more streets
with businesses, then the residential areas, a school and the
church. She decided to try the park.
Normally on a hot Saturday afternoon the park would
be filled with parents toting their kids to the playground and
having picnics under the dense canopy of trees. Rusty redwood
tables were haphazardly spread throughout the lush green hills
there. It was at one of the empty tables she found Walker, staring
out at a small lake where geese paddled along the still
waters.
He turned and smiled as she approached and sat next
to him. “Kind of quiet here,” she said.
He nodded and stared off at the lake. “I like it
quiet.”
“Why didn’t you come and find me?”
“I did find you. You were busy.”
She snorted. “Yeah, put a dress on me and suddenly
half the guys in the county start noticing. Dickheads.”
He turned his head her way. “Looked to me like you
were enjoying it.”
“Just passing the time until you got here. What I
enjoy is a man who noticed me before I put on a dress.” She reached
for his hand, twined her fingers with his.
“You look beautiful.”
It was funny, but lots of guys had told her that
today. It hadn’t meant a thing to her until she’d heard it from
Walker. Butterflies danced happily around in her stomach. “Thank
you.”
He leaned over and brushed his lips across hers, a
kiss demanding nothing, but giving her so much.
She squeezed his hand. “Let’s go dance.”
He pulled on her hand. “I think I’ll sit this one
out.”
She settled herself back on the bench. “Walker, how
long is this going to go on?”
He tipped his hat back and leaned against the
tabletop of the bench, stretching out his legs. “You’d be better
off not being seen with me today, Jolene.”
“So you keep telling me. What you don’t tell me is
why. I’d like to know what you think is so terrible about yourself
that might sully my so-called pristine image.”
“Your image is fine. I don’t want to tarnish
it.”
“Spit it out, Walker. We’ve been dancing around
this too long. It’s time to spill.”
He blew out a breath. “Before I started working for
the Bar M, I was a hand at the Double S Ranch.”
“Sam Woodman’s ranch?”
Walker nodded.
“That’s one of the biggest ranches in all the
counties around here. They hire on hands that never want to leave.
Why did you?”
“I didn’t. I was fired.”
“Because . . .?”
“Celia Woodman decided she was in love with me. And
she wouldn’t take no for an answer.”
Jolene crossed her arms. “Celia Woodman is a
slut.”
“She was sixteen years old at the time.”
“Ah.” Things were starting to fall into place, but
Jolene kept her mouth shut so Walker could talk.
“I didn’t want to have anything to do with her, and
I told her that, nicely at first, then firmly. Then I point-blank
had to tell her to back the hell off.”
“But she didn’t.”
“She didn’t. One night she climbed into my bed
naked, in the middle of the night, woke me up out of a sound sleep.
Scared the shit out of me, too. She said she was in love with me
and wanted me to be her first.”
Jolene snorted. “She’d probably had her first when
she was twelve.”
“Well, I don’t know about that. All I know is that
I scrambled out of bed and climbed into my jeans in a hurry. Then I
told her to get dressed and get out. But she wouldn’t. She held
tight to the sheet, mustered up some tears, said she loved me and
wanted to marry me.”
Jolene shook her head, angry as hell at how Walker
had been manipulated by that scheming bitch.
“I told her I liked her just fine, but I was too
old for her and I wasn’t going to have sex with her. So she started
to cry. And cry even harder, and louder. And then her father walked
in.”
“Oh, shit.”
“Yeah. And Celia’s entire personality changed. She
started wailing, said I’d been after her for months, that I seduced
her. Woodman fired me on the spot, said I was trying to seduce his
daughter so I could sleep my way into a better position at the
ranch.”
“That conniving little heifer. And Sam Woodman is a
blind moron when it comes to Celia. He always has been.”
“No matter how much I tried to tell the truth, no
one believed me. Word got out and everyone took Woodman’s side. By
then Celia was telling everyone how I tried to take her innocence
and how her daddy protected her from a moneygrubbing opportunist.
No ranch would hire me on until Mason did.”
Jolene shifted to face Walker, sliding her fingers
along the nape of his neck. “None of this is your fault. How could
you possibly defend yourself against a devious slut like Celia and
a blind-to-her-faults father like Sam Woodman?”
Walker shrugged. “Wasn’t much I could do about it.
It was their word against mine. And no one was inclined to take my
word as truth.”
“I do. I believe you. You’re not the type to seduce
a young girl. And believe me, I know Celia.
She has never been innocent. Which is why she has the reputation
she has now, five years later. So apparently she hasn’t managed to
snag some unsuspecting cowboy into marrying her.”
“It doesn’t matter. I still have the reputation.
And I won’t ruin yours by having you associate with me. People will
think I’m with you to get my hands on Bar M land.”
Jolene laughed. “Do you think I care what people
think? If they’re that small-minded, then they’re no friends of
mine.” She stood and held out her hand. “Come on.”
He looked up at her, his gaze narrowing.
“Jolene.”
“Don’t argue with me. We’re going to dance. I want
to show you off. It’s time we stopped hiding.”
“I’m fine with seeing you in private.”
“I’m not. I’m in love with you, Walker. And it’s
high time people knew it.”