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the funeral was surprisingly
well attended considering how much everyone had hated their
uncle Ronald. But Valerie supposed most people were better bred
than she was and would willingly pay their respects to the mean son
of a bitch even if he’d never had a kind word to say to a single
soul.
Lila said people attended out of respect for the
family. Maybe so. Valerie’s parents’ funeral had been standing room
only. There’d been weeping. Then again, her parents had been kind
people. Maybe someone had left Uncle Ronald in a basket on her
grandparents’ doorstep, and they’d taken pity on him and raised him
as their own. Because no way in hell would Valerie ever believe
Uncle Ronald and her father were of the same blood. Ronald had been
mean as a rattle-snake, always coiled and ready to strike out at
whatever innocent victim was foolish enough to get close. And every
eye at the church and cemetery that day was bone dry. No one cried
over his death. What did that say about a man’s character?
They held a luncheon at the ranch after, and lots
of folks attended, which gave Valerie a chance to catch up with
people she hadn’t seen since she’d left town two years ago. That
was both a good and a bad thing. She loved catching up, but hated
fielding the same old questions about where she’d been, why she
left the ranch, and what was going on with her and Mason.
In that her sisters were her lifesavers, especially
Jolene, who steered people away with talk of cattle and horses and
the exorbitant price of feed. And Lila, who stuffed everyone’s
faces with enough food their mouths were too full to talk.
Fortunately, Mason had begged off attending the luncheon, claiming
he had ranch work to do, so she didn’t have to face him along with
the questioning stares of everyone from town.
According to them, you didn’t leave ranch life. You
were born and bred to it, you married into it and you died doing
it.
Why in hell weren’t they badgering Brea with
questions? Probably because she knew how to hang out in a corner
and resemble a potted plant. No doubt not a single soul even
recognized her behind her scraggly hair and boho outfit. If only
Valerie could be obscure. As the oldest, she was the best known
other than Jolene.
By the time the crowds had left, Valerie was
exhausted. Tension had drilled her shoulders into hard knots. She
was glad this day was over, and she wanted nothing more than to
hide in her room. Brea and Jolene were in the kitchen with Lila.
Valerie stayed in the great room, searching for leftover cups and
spoons and the like.
“Rough day?”
Her shoulders tensed at Mason’s voice. She turned
and managed a smile. “It wasn’t too bad.”
“Sorry I wasn’t here. Bet you had to field a lot of
questions about us.”
“I managed.”
Dirt smudged his face and rained off his jeans as
he moved into the room, his boots tapping on the wood floor. God he
looked good enough to . . . eat.
It had been a long, long dry spell. The last man
she’d been with had been . . . him.
“You look tense.”
She lifted her chin and dropped her shoulders. “I’m
fine, really.”
“I used to know you better than you knew yourself.
You’re not fine. There are dark circles under your eyes. When was
the last time you slept?”
Years ago. “Don’t worry
about me.”
His lips quirked. “Old habits die hard.”
He moved in, his fingertips brushing hers. The
contact was electric, surprising.
What they had was in the past. It should be dead,
buried, along with any feeling she’d had for him. But the whoa of chemistry was still there, undeniably
roaring to the forefront with the simple touch of fingers.
It wasn’t fair that this was happening.
His gaze shot to hers and she was lost in the
darkness of his eyes. Memories swirled around her. Their first
touch, first kiss, and so many moments after that, mingling
together like a movie in fast forward. Despite the self-preserving
need to run, her feet stayed rooted to the floor, curiosity and
need swirling like a tornado inside her, around her.
“Leave me alone, Mason.” She finally found the
strength to take a step back.
“Is that what you really want?”
She’d taken his heart and stomped all over it. Why
didn’t he hate her? Hadn’t he moved on? Why did he look at her with
the same kind of heat he used to, the all-consuming kind that
threatened to drop her to her knees?
She knew she shouldn’t have come, that she wouldn’t
be able to handle this. Handle him.
Shuddering an inhale, she backed up another few
steps, breaking the spell. “It’s exactly what I want.”
The smile never left his face. “I don’t believe
you.”
She skirted around him, unable to meet his knowing
look. He’d always known her better than anyone. “Start believing
it.”
But as she walked away on shaky legs, needing to
grip the railing as she made her way up the stairs, even she didn’t
believe it.
The evidence was in her pounding heart, her
trembling legs, her hard nipples. One look, one touch, and she was
turned on, wanting him, needing him just as much now as she always
had.
She might have divorced him and walked away, but
she’d never really left him.
She could talk a good game, but when faced with the
man she’d loved and left, she was toast.
She couldn’t even convince herself she didn’t want
him anymore. How was she going to convince Mason?
mason tossed his gloves on
the worn table in the main room of his small place just down
the road from the main house. Only a few rooms and one bedroom, it
suited him just fine. It gave him privacy, away from the hands
after a long day.
He left the lights off, needing the cool afternoon
darkness of the house to quell the heat raging inside him. He
grabbed a beer from the fridge and settled in on one of the old
comfortable chairs in front of the fireplace, stretching out his
legs so he could just breathe for a few minutes.
How could touching Valerie spark such an inferno
inside him? He’d have to get a handle on this and quick.
Then again, he’d seen the fire light up in her
eyes, the desire flame instant and hot just like it had been for
him. It hadn’t been one-sided.
He’d teased her last night in the barn, wanted to
irritate her—anything to get some kind of reaction from her other
than her usual polite, say-nothing conversation that drove him
crazy. And earlier in her room . . . God, he hadn’t expected that
wildcat, the woman she used to be. But she’d only given him a
glimpse, and then as usual, she’d pulled back, locked herself up
tight and wouldn’t let him in.
So he’d done what he normally did when she drew
back from him—he’d pissed her off. She’d always had spirit, but she
banked it. He’d seen plenty of that spirit, that lust for life,
when they were together, when things had been hot and heavy and
good between them.
He hadn’t been the one to give up, to run. That had
been all her doing. And maybe he should man up and walk away, just
let this thing between them die once and for all. But he was also
old enough and smart enough to read a cry for help, and Val was
screaming loud inside.
He knew Valerie better than anyone ever had. He
knew her pain, knew her fear. What he’d told her today was true—he
knew her better than she knew herself.
Maybe he’d let go too easily before. Maybe he
hadn’t given her what she’d been really been asking for two years
ago.
Maybe it was time he did.
“so what’s going on tonight,
guys?”
Twenty pairs of shocked eyes gaped up at her.
Valerie stared the cowboys down, having marched to the bunkhouse in
an effort to prove once and for all that she did not, in fact, need
Mason in her life anymore. She figured the best way to do that was
to actually get a life.
“Uh, we’re headin’ into town for some pool and
beer, Miss Valerie.”
Bobby, one of the younger hands, nearly knocked
over the chair at the long table where a bunch of the guys had been
playing poker.
“That sounds like fun. Can I catch a ride with
you?”
They all looked at one another. Not at her—at one
another.
“Um. We’ll check in with Mason first, see if that’s
all right with him.”
Her blood pressure ticked up a notch, but she kept
the smile plastered to her face. “Oh, you don’t need to do
that.”
“Uh, yes, ma’am, we sure do. You’re his
wife.”
“Ex-wife.”
“Don’t matter. We wouldn’t dare take you anywhere
without askin’ him first.”
They had all started to back away from her as if
she was some kind of pariah with leprosy.
What a bunch of pussies. Could they take a piss
without Mason’s permission?
“Fine,” she said, clenching her jaw. “I’ll just
take the truck into town.”
Imbeciles. Were they children or grown men? She
stormed back into the house and stomped up the stairs, threw open
her closet and glared at her clothes.
“What bug crawled up your ass?”
She ignored Jolene. Which, of course, meant Jolene
came in and threw herself on Valerie’s bed.
“Got a date?”
“Hardly.”
“Where are you going?”
“Into town. Some of the hands are hitting the bar
for drinks and pool.”
“Sounds great. I’m in.”
“In for what?” Brea had come in, too. Of course.
God forbid her sisters stay out of her business.
“Town. Bar. Drinks. Pool.”
“Ooh,” Brea said. “Awesome. Let me go
change.”
“Wait for us,” Jo said, sliding off the bed and
hurrying out the door.
She was about to object, but it would actually be
fun to unwind a bit with her sisters. She needed
something—anything—to get her mind off Mason. A little drinking and
dancing should do the trick.
An hour and a half later they pulled up in front of
Dirk’s Downtown Dive, a misnomer since downtown was pretty much the
actual town itself. The small municipality about forty minutes
south of the ranch was the only town around other than Tulsa. And
it was the only place to go if you didn’t want to take the two-hour
drive into the city. So Dirk’s it was. And it was hopping tonight.
The parking lot was full and the sometimes-worked-sometimes-didn’t
neon sign was actually working tonight. A cloud of dust flew up as
Jolene slid the truck into one of the last available spots in the
dirt and gravel parking lot. Which meant the next customer would be
parking on the grass.
They climbed out of the truck and Valerie smoothed
her shirt down over her jeans, getting used to the feel of cowboy
boots again.
Even Brea had changed out of those hideous gypsy
skirts and put on a pair of jeans and boots tonight. Jolene had
convinced Brea to pull her hair back in a ponytail, which had done
wonders for her appearance. At least Valerie could see Brea’s face
now.
“You look like a different person,” Valerie said.
“Beautiful.”
Brea looked down at the ground. “Thanks. Maybe I’ve
been neglecting myself a bit. I need to do something about
that.”
“A bit?” Jolene said, a look of shock on her face.
“Christ, Brea, you look like you’ve been living in a fucking cave
or something. Tomorrow’s Saturday and I’m taking you into Tulsa for
a makeover. Hair, nails, pedicure, the works.”
Brea grinned. “That might be fun.”
Valerie elbowed Brea. “You just want to look hot
for Gage.”
Her sister blushed under the neon lights. “Dear
God, Val. I do not.”
“Liar,” Jolene said, pulling the heavy wooden door
open. “Now, let’s party.”
The bar was noisy, smoky, and crowded as hell. With
lots of cowboys and very few women.
Perfect.
Of course Jolene knew everyone and shouted out
greetings as they wound their way to the bar. She ordered beers
while Valerie rustled up a table, which wasn’t difficult since most
of the guys were off playing pool or standing around talking to one
another. A few were dancing with some of the women, but so far the
small dance floor remained sadly uncrowded.
Valerie aimed to change that. There were a lot of
men present, and she intended to dance with as many of them as she
could.
They took seats at the table and Valerie surveyed
the scene. Not much had changed at Dirk’s since she’d last been
here. The scarred wood floor was still covered in sawdust and
discarded peanut shells. The long bar was littered with beer
bottles, some filled, some empty. Raucous country music played—no,
that wasn’t quite right—it blared loud and
hard, the heavy bass thumping with a wham wham wham she felt in her
chest. The thwack of pool balls could be heard above the noise
since several games were going on, followed by either a loud groan
or a hoop and a holler when someone sank a shot.
And it was still early. The real action wouldn’t
happen before ten P.M.
“This place is hoppin’ already.” Jolene scooted her
butt onto a stool and slid the beers onto the table. “Great idea,
Val.”
Valerie took a long drink and nodded. “I figured we
could all stand to get out of that house.” Or at least she could.
Two days and she was already suffocating in there. Being at Dirk’s
was easy. She could blend in, wasn’t the center of attention.
Not until the door opened and Mason walked in with
a bunch of the guys from the ranch. And everyone in the place
smiled and waved at him.
Then all eyes turned to her.
In an instant, whether she liked it or not, they’d
all made the connection.
In their eyes, she still belonged with Mason.
To Mason.
She’d see about that, would show them she belonged
to no man. She downed the first bottle of beer in three swallows,
slid off the stool and, ignoring Mason, marched her way to the bar
and ordered another round.
“You’d better keep them coming,” she told Sandy,
the bartender. “It’s going to be a long night.”
Beers in hand, she went back to the table, keeping
her focus on her sisters, who both gazed at her with much
amusement.
“Fuck off,” she said as she took her seat.
“The whole place is looking at you,” Jolene said
with a smirk as she continued to sip from her first bottle of
beer.
Valerie shrugged. “Let them. Nothing to see here.”
And she still hadn’t looked at Mason, had no idea where he even
was. Hopefully he’d spotted her and left.
No such luck. As soon as she scanned the pool area,
there he was, shooting a game of eight ball with Gage, Walker and
Sporty. He wasn’t watching her.
Good. Because she had every intention of pretending
he wasn’t there. He had his life, and she had hers. The two of them
were completely separate now. And it was about damn time everyone
came to grips with that fact.
“You know, for someone who claims to have no
interest in Mason, you sure are watching him a lot.”
Valerie’s gaze shot to Brea. “I am not. I just want
to make sure he doesn’t come over here.”
“Uh huh.”
Valerie downed her second beer. Just in time, too,
because Sandy sent over another one. Valerie unscrewed the top and
began to drink.
“You keep guzzling them like that and we’ll have to
pour you into the truck,” Jolene said.
Valerie rolled her eyes. “Please. I can drink both
of you under the table.”
“Is that right?” Jolene signaled for Sandy and held
up three fingers. In short order, the bartender appeared with a
tray and three shot glasses filled to the rim with amber
liquid.
Valerie glared at Jolene. “You did not.”
“Let’s see you drink me under the table with beer
and shooters.”
“Bitch.”
Jolene laughed. “Quit whining and knock it
down.”
She did. An hour, two more shots and four beers
later, she was feeling free and giddy and ready to dance. The bar
was packed solid and she was damn sure there’d be at least one if
not a dozen cowboys eager to take her up on her offer to sweat some
of this alcohol out of her system on the dance floor.
“I’m off to pick up a man.”
“You sure you’re gonna make it?” Jolene
asked.
“Please. I’m barely warmed up.” She hitched herself
off the bar stool and made a slow trek through the throng of hot
bodies now crowding the dance floor, though she didn’t do it in a
straight line. Damn whiskey.
When she reached the other side, she kept herself
from licking her lips at the slabs of male flesh occupying the game
area.
Was there anything sexier than hot cowboys in
Stetsons, boots, T-shirts and blue jeans? She didn’t think so. Now
she just had to zero in on one available guy, grab him and take a
twirl.
Deciding steering clear of the guys from the Bar M
would be the wisest choice, she chose one leaning against the far
wall. He wasn’t playing pool, just drinking a beer and watching the
action. He watched her approach with definite interest in his
eyes.
Oh yeah. He would definitely do. She made sure to
use her sexiest saunter to keep that interest. His smile lit up
when she stopped in front of him.
“Hey,” she said.
“Hey yourself, darlin’. What are you up to
tonight?”
She hooked her thumbs in her belt hoops, realizing
how rusty she was at this flirting thing. “Just kicking back and
relaxing. How about you?”
“Same.” He laid his beer on a nearby table and held
out his hand. “I’m Cody.”
“Valerie. Nice to meet you, Cody.”
“You’re not from around here, are you?”
“No,” she lied. “I have family here that I’m
visiting. I live in Dallas.”
He nodded. “The big city.”
She laughed. He was gorgeous. Broad shoulders,
killer dimples. “So, Cody, would you like to dance?”
Before he had a chance to answer, some guy came up
and whispered in his ear. Cody went pale, turned back to Valerie
and tipped his hat.
“Some other time, ma’am.”
He backed away from her as if she had some kind of
communicable disease.
What the hell was that about? Did the guy remind
Cody he had a wife back home or something? If so, then it was a
good thing he’d declined, because if she found out he was married
she just might have to kill him.
Fine. He wasn’t the only guy in the place. She
turned and hit on another, who politely declined. So did another.
And another. And she saw a round of hands cupped to ears and
whispers and fingers pointing to her.
Irritation set her foot tapping, and it wasn’t in
time to the hard-driving beat of the music.
She faced all the guys leaning against the wall,
her hands on her hips. “Okay, look. I’m a reasonably attractive
woman who can hold a decent conversation. And trust me, I’m a great
dancer. So what the hell is so wrong with me that has you all
running in the opposite direction whenever I come near?”
“They think you belong to me.”
Oh. Now it all made sense.
She turned to face her ex-husband with murder on
her mind.