CHAPTER 5
The room swung as Lucas slapped the door
closed. Karina expected him to hurl her on the bed but he lowered
her to the floor. She stumbled, dizzy from being spun back and
forth, and scrambled to get away. Steely fingers caught her arm. He
held on to her and sniffed at the sleeve of her sweatshirt. “Green
beans. You want a shower?”
His tone was calm. She glanced at his face. All of
the rage had gone out of him. He looked worn out, his fury muted to
mere smoldering coals.
“Yes.” She hesitated. “I don’t have any clean
clothes.”
“That’s a problem,” Lucas agreed. “I’m sorry about
the dinner.”
“That’s okay.” His sudden calm threw her off
balance. She stood still, expecting him to swing at her or maybe
roar into her face.
Lucas reached into the dresser and pulled out a
white T-shirt. “That’s the best I can do for now. I’ll have
something sent up from the main house in the morning.”
She took the T-shirt. He didn’t offer her any
underwear. She would be naked under it.
“Come on.” Lucas pulled off his shirt and dropped
it on the floor. Carved muscle bunched on his back. Nude,
clothed—he could rape her at any point. Clothes wouldn’t provide
much of a defense.
He paused, his hand on the door of the bathroom.
“Are you coming?”
Not if I can help it. “I’ll wait until
you’re done.”
“I’ll be in here for hours,” he said. “The shower
stall is enclosed. You can take your clothes off and I’ll see
nothing.”
For hours . . . Why would he be in the bathroom for
hours? “I thought you needed to feed.”
“I do, but I won’t be feeding for a while.”
She followed him, despite knowing better, eager for
any crumb of information. “How long is a while?”
“Couple of weeks. Maybe longer. Depends on how
quickly you deal with my venom.”
“Why?”
“Because too much of my toxin at once will kill
you.”
She remembered his explanation from the night
before. “You said your venom hurts you. Does it hurt now?”
He nodded.
“Always?”
Lucas looked at her. “Always. Worse after I am
injured and much worse after I phase out of the attack variant.
Sometimes I have seizures after phasing out.”
If he hurt always, he would have to feed always . .
. “How often do you . . .”
As if reading her thoughts, he shrugged. “Once the
optimal ratio of my venom to your hormones is reached in my blood,
I’ll need to feed every three weeks to maintain it. I won’t be
drinking as much as the last time. Come on. You need a shower and I
need to sit down.”
He stepped out of her way. During the day she had
used the bathroom in the hallway, near the kitchen. She had assumed
this one would be the same.
A room almost as big as the bedroom itself greeted
her. A dark green hot tub was sunk into the sealed wooden floor.
Beyond it a shower stall stretched the entire length of the wall.
Its frame matched the hot tub, but the stall itself consisted of
wide, dark green panels, either glass or plastic, thick and frosted
from the inside. Lucas hadn’t lied—he might be able to discern her
shadow, but that was about it. To the right was another stall,
which she assumed hid the toilet, next to a large sink.
Lucas flipped a switch on the wall and the hot tub
jets started, whipping the water into froth.
The shower called to Karina. To go on and disrobe
while he was in the tub was insane, but she was covered in food and
his scent from the previous night still stained her skin. She could
wash him off.
Karina bit her lip and slipped past Lucas to the
shower. She closed the door and saw a latch. Relief flooded her.
She could lock herself in and for a few minutes pretend she was
safe. She slid the latch closed and almost cried.
The shower stall was divided into a dressing area
and the shower itself, separated by a curtain. Karina dug into the
pocket of her jeans and fished out the knife. The blade seemed so
small compared to Lucas. If she stuck it into his back, he might
not even notice. She put it on the small metal shelf next to the
soap and, pulled off her clothes, dropping them into a rumpled pile
on the bench. An array of shampoo bottles and soaps waited her
selection. She took the bottle with the picture of a green apple on
the side, picked up a bar of soap at random, and stepped into the
shower. Jets surrounded her on three sides. She turned the big
wheel of the faucet and a wide sheet of water spilled on her from
above in a warm, soothing waterfall. She dropped the shampoo and
the soap. All around her water sprayed and cascaded, drenching her,
washing away the scent of warm copper. She stepped into the deluge,
closed her eyes, and swayed.
Lucas slid into the hot water. He liked it
near scalding. It wasn’t quite hot enough, but it was getting
there. The currents pummeled his body. He switched the two nearest
jets off. The sharp claws of pain that scraped his ribs dulled to a
low ache as he healed. His right arm still throbbed. Daniel was
getting stronger.
One day one of them would get careless and they
might finish each other off. Lucas closed his eyes and submerged.
There were worse ways to go than being killed by your
brother.
The rage that had driven him these past few days
was gone, burned out in an adrenaline rush of violence.
He came up for air and settled with his head on the
ledge, positioned in the dip of the shelf, the only place he could
sit with the water lapping at his neck.
So tired . . .
The healing was draining his inner resources and he
felt thin and weak, as if all of his muscles were a threadbare
shirt hanging off his bones. From here he could see the door and
the shower stall. She was in there. Naked. Wet. A fruity synthetic
scent teased him—she was washing her hair. He pictured her body
under the water, her hands sliding over her breasts and down . .
.
A dull thud made him lift his head. In the shower,
a dark shadow slumped, pressed against the glass.
It had hit her finally. He’d waited the whole day
for it.
Lucas climbed out of the hot tub. The shower-stall
door was locked. He hit it with his palm and the lock popped open.
Karina lay curled in a corner of the shower, a small wet clump. Her
legs shivered. Her skin had gained a pale, almost gray tint. He
scooped her off the floor.
“No,” she stuttered. Her lips had turned blue. Not
a good sign.
He bent down. She lashed out. He caught a glint of
metal and pulled back, letting the knife blade miss him. Where had
she even gotten one? Ah, yes. The kitchen. He plucked the knife out
of her fingers and picked her up off the floor.
“No.” She pushed against his chest.
“Shhh,” he told her. “I’m not going to hurt
you.”
He carried her out. Her wet skin was ice-cold
against his.
She fought him even as he climbed into the tub and
lowered her onto the shelf, sinking her up to her chin in the hot
water. “Let me go . . .”
Afraid to agitate her any further, he put the full
width of the tub between them, giving her room. No need to strain
her. If she passed out, the chances of her survival would drop to
almost nothing.
It took a full three minutes before her teeth
stopped chattering. She looked at him. “Everything hurts.”
“Your body is reacting to the venom,” he said. “Hot
water will help. It soothes the muscles. It’s normal.” Technically
everything he said was true. He just didn’t go into the rest of the
details. Not yet.
A short bitter laugh slipped from her lips.
“Normal? Nothing about this is normal.”
True. Not for her anyway. For him, it was business
as usual. “Thirsty?”
“Yes.”
He waded through the tub, reached for the small
fridge beside it, and extracted a bottle of water.
She took the bottle, clamped the plastic cap in her
teeth, twisted it off, and drank, draining nearly a third in a
single long draft. That’s it . . . Drink, Karina.
He recalled Galatea’s first time. She’d known
exactly what would happen. She had been raised for precisely this
purpose: to support him. And she loathed him for it. Hate would’ve
been too personal of a word; he didn’t rank that high in her mental
roster. Galatea hated the family; she hated Arthur because he was
in charge; but Lucas she merely despised, disgusted by his touch.
The older he got, the more he realized that sex with him was her
way of revenge. In feeding he dominated her and she had no choice
but to submit. In bed, for a few fleeting moments Galatea dominated
him. That first time, when she cried and screamed as her body
struggled with its initial dose of his venom, he had tried to hold
her. She was so pretty, so fragile . . . He didn’t want to break
her. She had sensed that small spark of compassion in him, clutched
on to it, and twisted it, used it against him again and again,
until finally he could stand it no longer. Living with Galatea
meant fighting a constant war. Living with Karina so far was like
sparring with an honest fighter. She defied him, but she would
never stick a knife in his back. She would try to stab him in plain
view.
Lucas sank down into the water and closed his eyes.
Thinking about Galatea left a foul taste in his mind. His ribs
ached again. Drowsiness came, threatening to smother his mind like
a heavy blanket.
Karina’s voice tugged on him before he passed out.
“Why are you being nice to me?”
“‘Nice’ isn’t in my vocabulary. I’m just
tired.”
“Your ribs are bruised.”
“Daniel.”
“I didn’t see him hit you.”
“He doesn’t have to. I’m a Demon, and he’s an
Acoustic. He can mimic voices and wrench the bones from my body
with a focused sound wave.” He raised his arms and stood up,
showing her the long angry welts outlining his ribs. “If he really
pushed, you’d see bone shards puncturing the skin.”
She stared at him in horrified silence. He sank
back down and closed his eyes.
“Why do you fight like that?” she asked.
“There’s no single reason. Sometimes he doesn’t
like something I’ve done. Sometimes I do it because he annoys
me.”
“What about today?”
Lucas sighed. She wouldn’t let him be. “Today we
fought because Daniel argued with Arthur. Daniel wants to evacuate.
Arthur doesn’t. Daniel insisted and Arthur bruised his pride. I
took Arthur’s side. Evacuating the base is costly. One scout isn’t
reason enough to do it. It’s a bad sign—we had seen scouts before
in the neighboring fragments, but never this close. But we can’t
just run at the first hint of trouble.”
She frowned. “So twisting bones out of your sockets
is the way he demonstrates his displeasure at being pushed
around?”
“Pretty much. Daniel wants to be taken seriously.
So I treated him as a serious threat and made a big production of
it. I was a substitute fight. What he really wanted was a shot at
Arthur, which I can’t let him take, because Arthur will kill him.”
Lucas thought of leaving it at that, but something nagged him to
explain. “It’s complicated. We live by different rules. In your
other life, people undergo strict social conditioning that evolved
over hundreds of years. They grow up in relative safety and under
constant supervision. Parents, schools, peers—all of their
interactions fine-tune their behavior until they are . . .”
“Safe?” she suggested.
“Socialized. But Daniel and I grew up as outcasts,
with only the extremes of our behavior corrected—so we don’t murder
someone whenever the urge strikes us. Our interactions are simpler
than yours, less layered and closer to . . .” Lucas grappled for
the right word. When it came to him, he didn’t like it. “Animals.
Both of us reached sexual maturity a while ago. We have a strong
urge to mate and have our own territory, our own families, and
separate lives. Instead we’re stuck with each other, in this house,
with an illusion of privacy and an excess of aggression. And now
there is you. Daniel doesn’t really want you for your own sake. He
wants you because he views me as competition and now I have
something he doesn’t. I am the only consequence he fears. He’s
hostile and defensive, and Arthur made him sit down and shut up
today. Daniel had to vent and I’m the only one who would put up
with it.”
“Why?” she asked softly.
“Because he is my brother.”
There was a tiny pause. “But he is not a Demon like
you.”
“Different fathers,” he told her. “All of us within
the House of Daryon carry genes from many different subspecies. Our
mother was a Demon. My father was a normal human. Daniel’s father
was a powerful Acoustic. We both played the genetic lottery and got
different prizes.”
He left out rape, imprisonment, and murder. It
sounded much better this way.
“Did Daniel hoard food as a child?”
She was perceptive. He would have to remember that.
“Yes.”
“And you took care of him?”
“Yes.” Because nobody else would.
“Why doesn’t he just leave?” she asked. “Why don’t
you? You don’t seem to like living here.”
“Because we have a job to do. We guard you from
genocide.” The mission overrode everything. A logical part of him
assured Lucas that life outside of the original mandate existed. He
just couldn’t picture himself living it. “As long as we exist, you
survive.”
“I don’t understand.”
He sighed. This was another long explanation and he
had no energy for it today. Nor did he want to shock her again.
She’d been through enough. “Monsters exist. They call themselves
Ordinators. They want to kill people like you. Normal ordinary
people. We exist to keep them from succeeding. That’s all there is
to it.”
“But what do they want?”
“They want you to die.”
“Why do they hate us so much?”
He sighed. “They don’t hate you. They simply want
you not to be. It’s a genetic cleansing, a mass extermination. They
view the current situation as a mistake, which they’re trying to
correct. They feel that they are ordained to take your place.
Subspecies 61, the ‘normal’ human, has no value to them, except
maybe as an occasional food source in a pinch.”
“They’re cannibals?” Her voice spiked a
little.
“Only some of them. I meant a food resource for
their war animals. Do you know what a daeodon is?”
“No.”
“It’s a nasty breed of entelodon, a prehistoric
boar. Picture a predatory pig, twelve feet long, seven feet tall at
the shoulder, jaws like a crocodile. It eats anything, and once you
mess with its genetics, it gets smart and breeds fast. They need a
lot of meat.”
When he opened his eyes, he found her looking at
him. Karina sat submerged so deeply, only her face floated above
the water. Warm color had returned to her cheeks. Her hair, slicked
by the shower, swirled in the roiling water.
Mmmmm. Mine.
Lucas could reach out and pull her to him and run
his hands up and down her body, to feel the heavy fullness of her
breasts, the curve of her ass . . . If it wasn’t for fatigue, and
the fact that she trusted him, anchoring him to the spot, he might
have done it.
His thoughts must’ve reflected on his face, because
she pulled as far from him as the tub would allow. A haunted look
claimed her face, sharpening her features. Like a stray dog, he
thought, shivering, scared, and ready to bite. He held the key to
her: turn it one way and break her; turn it the other and the
pressure would ease. He’d been just like that a few years ago. The
memory of being scared of everyone was still fresh.
“You know I can’t stop you. What consequences do
you fear?” Karina asked.
“Right now I just don’t want to fight with you,”
Lucas said. “I fight with Arthur, with Daniel, with Henry. I’m
tired.” And he wanted her to stop jerking back every time he looked
at her. It made him feel like he was a monster and he had enough
help with that already.
“If you want peace, let me have Emily.”
“No.”
She clenched her teeth.
“Maybe later. Down the road.”
“Why not now?”
Irritation flared in him. “Because I can’t watch
the two of you every moment of every day and you are stealing
knives.”
“The knife was for protection. I won’t take another
one. I won’t try to stab you again . . .”
“It’s not me I’m worried about.”
She became utterly still. “Oh, my God.” Her eyes
widened. “You think I would hurt my own daughter?”
“You wouldn’t be the first one.” Not by a long
shot. “Shock is a bitch. Especially when mixed with venom fucking
with your hormones.”
“She is everything I have.”
She looked on the verge of tears. He forced himself
to sound calmer. “And that’s why you could slit her throat the
second I gave her to you. You’re both my responsibility. I said I
would keep you safe. I don’t want you to hurt her or
yourself.”
“I had the knife since breakfast,” she told him.
“You sent me into the room with Emily. I didn’t kill her. If I’d
tried, you couldn’t have stopped me . . .”
“Henry was monitoring your mind. Had your stress
level spiked, he would’ve shut you down.”
“Then ask him if I tried to kill her or myself. I
had the opportunity. I got the knife so I could hurt you. Not
myself.”
Lucas rose and crossed the tub, pinning her between
his body and the tub wall. The feel of her body against his shoved
him right to the edge. In his mind all the leashes he put on
himself were snapping one by one. Karina turned to the side, trying
to hide from him.
“Look at me.”
Karina looked at him. Lucas peered into her eyes,
looking for some sort of indicator of sanity. “If you had a loaded
gun in your hand, would you shoot me?”
“No. If I killed you, I would be next. Either
Daniel, Henry, or Arthur would murder me, and Emily would have
nobody.”
An honest rational answer. “Do you want to die?” He
wanted her. He wanted to crush her in his arms and see her want
him.
“No.” She shook her head.
“What do you want?” He knew what he wanted. She was
right there, caught against his chest. His heart was beating too
fast.
“I want to escape,” she told him. “I want to go
back to my life.”
She was sane and stable, or as sane as he could
expect. Lucas released her and Karina scrambled away from
him.
“What would you do if I let you have your daughter,
Karina?”
She stopped. He read the answer on her face.
Anything. She would do anything. She would let him do
anything, and if he demanded, she would pretend to like it.
It was the answer his mother would’ve given.
“What do you want?” she asked hoarsely. He felt the
tension hidden in her words, as if she stood on the edge of a
chasm, waiting for him to push her in.
“Can you bake a chocolate cake?”
There was a tiny pause before she answered.
“Yes.”
“Make one. For Daniel. It’s his favorite.”
She waited. When he didn’t say anything, she
finally asked, “That’s it?”
“Yes.”
Lucas waited for relief on her face, but she just
sat there, clenched up. Still looking for the catch, he
realized.
“You’ll really let me have her?” He barely heard
her voice. “No conditions?”
“Yes.” And the more fool he for it. Nothing good
would come of it, not with the way they fought. Henry would think
him insane. But Lucas felt weary. He didn’t have the strength to
fight yet another war. And he didn’t want her to be miserable.
“Make a list of what you both will need, and I’ll send it to the
main house tomorrow. Last time I checked, you could buy Hello Kitty
blankets in any department store . . .”
Karina covered her face and cried.
He sat there and watched her shudder and sob, not
knowing what to do with himself. Uncomfortable, as if he were
intruding on something private. Guilt rose in him and he wasn’t
sure where it came from.
“Stop,” Lucas growled finally.
“I can’t.”
Her sobs died gradually. She splashed some water on
her face. “Can I stay with her in her room?”
“No. You’ll stay with me.”
“Can I sleep on the floor?”
“No. You’ll sleep in my bed, just like last
night.”
“Why?”
Because you’re mine. And because he would
know if she got up in the middle of the night. “Because I want it
that way.”
“I could—”
He closed his eyes and leaned his head back.
“Quiet. No more talking.”
“Thank you,” she said softly.
“You’re welcome.”